LET THERE BE LIGHT

Tue, Apr 19 at 6:38 AM

I have been in a state of epiphany for the past 48 hours, a realization which I would like to try and wrap some words around. For the past two decades I have worked to see when I have skin in my game and stop it immediately whenever and wherever I noticed that was what I was up to. No one can know the truth who has a vested interest in the outcome of anything. I saw this as me trying to bring the truth to my illusions, rather than bringing my illusions to the truth. But yesterday I saw how invested I have been all of my life in trying to fix and change others. This is very dangerous territory for one who is in the business of helping others. I just could not see that I had skin in their game---I could clearly see where, how and why people were stuck in these closed loops of cra-cra and, wanting to be helpful, I would try to help them see. What bullshit. So I began watching myself carefully, noticing when I was trying to create a specific outcome, even when it was loving and well-intentioned. And suddenly I saw a profound twist to the danger of trying to bring truth to the illusions of others, and that is it always gets lost in the mix. One loses touch with the peace within themselves, even when the shift is so minuscule that the separation from peace remains unnoticeable, because this one does not really want help at all, even if they are verbally begging that they do. They like their roles as complainer, they like their self-pity, they like saying they want help but don't really, and they like someone who they can always count on to ride in and rescue them...a little bit. To stand in one's peace and not enter into another's madness is a profound commitment to everyone. And he or she who truly wants help brings the illusion of themselves to you, rather than asking you to get on their elevator and take the journey into hell with them.

I rest within a sanctuary of peace today.

You are most welcome to come join me, and you are forever free to chose as you see fit. Love loves with an open hand and heart and if it is hell you really want, I respect your choice.

I will not longer try to minister to people caught in their own Groundhog Day hell loops.

But if you dare to wax bold and come here, well here, by dear, you will find that the circle of peace is boundless and there will always be room for you.

To you I say, welcome home.