Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I have something big

on my mind again today.

 

Would you mind if I jump

right on it and share

first?

 

Soul: Of course not.

 

me: You know the number

of folks who have entered

my life, only to leave.

 

Sometimes this has cut deeply.

 

Sometimes I was grateful

they left.

 

And sometimes I accepted it

without difficulty.

 

After all, the soul's journey

is the soul's journey.

 

But one recent departure

has really stuck with me

for the past six weeks or

so and I do not wish to glide

over it and miss the oppor-

tunity to understand some-

thing a bit deeper than

I did before.

 

And let me preface this by

saying that I know this person

will come back into my life

the next time they think

they have need me.

 

How do I know this?

 

They have done it three

times before.

 

It is predictable egoic

behavior.

 

But I am done.

 

I see my decision as

an act of self-love.

 

He was grateful to learn

that he has never changed,

nor could he ever.

 

That's the end of seeking,

searching, suffering,

trying to change yourself

and failing at it miserably.

 

Loyalty to the truth which

is always true has added

much peace into his life

and that of his family.

 

But I saw that he was

avoiding feeling his feelings

and that was causing him

to act out in ways that

obviously created chaos,

confusion and suffering for

himself and for his

family and friends.

 

He picked the path of

ignoring what I said and

letting everyone else

suffer from the fallout

while they valiently

picked up the pieces.

 

When I approached him

on this, he did what he has

done every other time.

 

Run away.

 

Angry.

 

Belligerent.

 

And then he ghosted me

and stopped listening to

anything I had to share and

instructed the people in his

life to do likewise at the cost

of him ghosting them too.

 

This he will not see and he

rather venomously ended things

with no explanation.

 

Gone.

 

A phantom.

 

I told myself that I was being

unconditionally loving to

him by never giving up

on him.

 

But what I did not see until

now is that In the process

of being loving toward him,

always receiving him with

the arms of love, that I was

not being loving with

myself.

 

I had given up on me.

 

No more.

 

I recognize that we each have

developed different coping

mechanisms to deal with

disharmony, friction and

inner dissonance.

 

Seeing this made me want

to look deeper at what

this partiicular personal

self does this morning.

 

What is her M.O.?

 

How does she handle things

when something feels

disruptive?

 

I'm a turtle. I stay in my

shell until things are peaceful

again.

 

I am not saying that I

am wrong.

 

But this is not a conscious

way to live, always retreating

to your cave when life is in-

viting you to look at some-

thing you are dead set against

seeing.

 

As I see it, you are not

complete when your periods

of consciousness are inter-

mingled with frank

unconsciousness.

 

Does this mean that what

you are doing is wrong?

 

Heavens no!

 

But it does mean that you

are not consistent and that can

only mean that you still suffer

and you still bring suffering

to those for whom you care.

 

It was clear that I needed

to be willing to look at two

things:

 

(1) Am I doing this because

I do not feel the resonance

of truth because I am awake?

 

(2) Or am I doing it because

old survival patterns have

taken the wheel? Is this

unconscious ego behavior

from old programming

and conditioning?

 

This is not about changing,

nor is it about being wrong.

 

It is about bringing conscious-

ness to every area of uncon-

sciousness.

 

When we establish any pattern,

be it running away, leading with

our dukes up or going

radar silent, once you establish

that pattern, YOU NEVER

STOP. 

​

It is always your very first

go-to, like a thoroughbred

out of the box at the

Kentucky derby.

 

Man oh man, is this an

unconscious negative

feedback loop.

 

You cannot see what you

do not want to see

and you cannot help someone

who has made a decision

to not see to suddenly want

to do so.

 

Hence, my most recent

disruption with my friend.

 

But damnit. We are having

this human experience

for a reason.

 

And I see that we cannot

compartmentalize our

life experience.

 

If we are to bring the light

of consciousness to all

of our experience, then

we have to be present to

every aspect of the human

experience and bring

that light to whatever

happens to be here

right NOW.

 

It's a seemless fluidity

and continuity.

 

In other words, not

a ripple.

​

No compartmental-

ization anywhere!

 

How is the world to open

their heart's if someone

is not actively demonstrating

an open heart that is present

and responding with love

to everything?

 

I have been mud wrestling

with this issue for 25+ years

now.

 

So has the spiritual market-

place. On this it remains

entirely divided.

​

Two camps.

 

Could you add to the

conversation?

 

Soul: It is clear how

sincerely you have sought

to understand and bring

wisdom and love to

your life and circumstances.

 

And you have tried with

great earnestness to 

assist others through

this morass.

 

That being said, you

are correct.

 

For while you have not,

nor could you ever, change

what you are, you are see-

ing that there is a fine line

between willful avoidance

and using spiritual vernacular

to justify what amounts

to white-washed fear, arro-

gance, separation, com-

partmentization and the

practice of polarity, division

and then calling it enlightened

action.

 

This is painting lipstick

on the pig.

 

A pig is a pig is a pig.

 

What can be said beyond

what I have said to you so

many times before?

 

There is one answer to

every question and that is

love.

 

Is this loving?

 

Ask yourself.

 

Well, is it?

 

If it is not, you can be sure

that you are the one who

is not seeing clearly and

you are not done until

you have allowed your

beautiful heart to inform

all of your responses.

 

This is not difficult.

 

Know that when it feels

as if it is hard, it is because

you are making it that way

and this need not be.

 

Return to the breath!

 

Return to the heart!

 

Whenever anything feels

stressful or difficult, it is

because you are the one

who is making it so be-

cause nothing ever is

if felt and experienced

from the heart.

 

Pause. Breathe. Reflect.

Ask.

 

Again...Is this loving?

 

No matter how you answer

it, you will know your next

loving course of actiion.

​

Clear?

 

me: This is very clear. Thank

you for the reminder.

 

Soul: I think this is quite

enough for today...

 

Lighten up!

 

Keep it simple.

 

Notice the difference

between spinning,

avoiding and receiving.

 

Peace and calm are the

byproducts of presence.

 

The pseudo-peace and

pseudo-calm of the

spiritual ego is defiance,

avoidance and denial.

 

Learn to recognize the

difference.

 

Are they wrong?

 

No.

 

But do they miscreate

which then places a burden

on everyone?

 

Yes.

 

No one and no thing

has the capacity

to pull the wool over

your eyes but your

own mind.

 

That is why you were

given the faculty of

discernment, a byproduct

of wisdom, as opposed

to the ego's M.O. of

judgment.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Pease, blessed peace,

rule this day and

this heart forevermore.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: I can see that you are

champing at the bit  as you

refer to it, because you

want to share.

 

Go ahead. Clearly, you have

something on your mind.

 

me: The most profound

thing...

 

I woke up this morning

and I felt absolutely no fear!

 

Such an amazing lightness

of being. No feeling other

than happiness. Nothing

on the radar. No fluctuations

on the Richter scale of mind,

emotions or body.

 

Just a happy happy day ahead

of me filled with wonder and

endless possibility.

 

I even tried to compose a

mental list of all the things

that still frighten me.

 

And one by one, as I reviewed

each of them, and you know

what?  I could find no fear...

 

I couldn't even muster a fear

when I sincerely tried to do so.

 

Surely I could find something

in there to get worked up about.

 

But nope. Nada. Zip. Zilch.

Nothing there.

 

How amazing is this?

 

The thing that was very clear

to me, and actually many

many things are clear to me,

but the biggy which looms

loud and proud, you know

what that is?

 

It is the fact that I have to

allow myself to be

frightened in order to be

afraid of anything.

 

And I happen to love myself

and my life so much, that

I real eyes that I have

absolutely nothing to be

afraid of.

 

It was completely clear to me

that nothing has the capacity

to frighten me other than

my own mind!

 

And the mind can no longer

do this unless I give it my

blessing and consent to

do so.

 

I have so much joy, it is hard

for me to not feel like I am in

one of those bouncy things

they have for kids to play in

at birthday parties.

 

And from this place I see that

I have never given myself

permission to be blissfully

happy, I have never allowed

life to be good, let alone great.

 

I have never opened my heart

so wide and undefended that

life could rush right on in

and be gracious and kind

to me, and to provide for me

and to bless me more than

I think this heart could

possibly hold.

 

It is so strange, and magnificent

and surprisingly grand!

 

Thank you!

 

Soul: What an amazing thing

it is to no longer be your one

and only enemy, wouldn't

you say?

 

me: It is... It truly is...

 

Soul: And can you also see that

all of this is the fruit of loving

yourself?

 

For only love is big enough to

end the illusory need for

defenses in the first place.

 

Contraction, walls and other

defenses, as well as any other

protective mechanism the

personal self comes up with

are impossible for anyone who

loves themselves.

 

me: I get it.

 

And I truly see that I am the one

who did it all to myself all along.

 

As a good friend of mine is so

fond of repeating, "I am the one

who made this prison cell and

I am the one who is living in it."

​

But no one is ever stuck.

​

We are always invited to begin

to love ourselves...

 

When you think about it, we are

the cell, the prinsoner and the

guard all in one.

 

Oh, the crazy crazy things we

do to ourselves because of

self-hatred!

 

Only owniing up to that and

beginning the journey of

self-love can turn that friget

around and transform it

into a sail boat which only

heads in the direction of

our hearts!

 

How could anyone who loved

themselves actually seek to

practice cruelty and self harm?

 

That is a byproduct of un-

consciousness and self-

hatred to be sure.

 

We are hard-wired to hate

ourselves because of our

programming and conditioning

and to never feel like what

we are or what we do is

ever enough.

​

It's exhausting playing this

game of musical chairs!

 

Soul: You are starting to

experience what it feels like

to live in in a state of

the miraculous all of the

time.

 

And the precious little girl

who prayed with all her

heart to be free is now

beginning to comprehend

and embody the vastness

of what that longing

actually means.

 

Congratulations...

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

I am happy.

 

I am resplendent.

 

I am complete.

 

What more could one

hope for than this?

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: What are we going

to talk about today?

 

Soul: How about we com-

mune a bit about what

it means to bring the state

of presence to yourself

and your world?

 

me: That actually sounds

lovely.

 

Soul: In the course of sharing

the TFTD for the past two

days, while you struggled

finding words to wrap around

a direct experience which is

beyond language, you were

actually describing what it

feels like to bring the state

of presence to yourself

and all of life.

 

It is a profound thing

to meet oneself in

the state of presence;

which is the conscious

manifestation of the living

presence of God.

 

Increasingly, this is

the state in which you

consistently abide,

and this is what you

bring to all of your

world.

 

What have you been

noticing about your

experience?

 

me: Well... I think the thing

which has struck me most

deeply is that it feels like

my heart holds the entire

world so lovingly and gently

and that the world is tiny

in comparison to the

incredible vastness of

my being.

 

Secondly, I feel an urge

to leave people alone.

 

It is this presence, which is

so palpable, that seems to be

impossible to ignore.

 

I realize that this is my true

demonstration.

 

This is what reminds every-

one and everything which

is manifest of the truth which

lies within them, a truth

which is a shared experience

embodied by all of us.

 

There is also a sense that I

am their creator and they

are all my creation.

 

How can you explain what

it feels like to be both gentle

and fierce at the same time?

 

To love my creation as a

mother does her precious

child, so very dear that

no word could possibly

explain?

 

And yet, a willingness to

scorch the earth in a heart

beat when it is the right

thing to do...

 

The profoundly tangible felt

emotional signature of this

experience is that of an

immovable love, joy and

peace.

 

I am really starting to get 

the feeling more and more

that I am this...

 

I am you in this world

and the all that is.

 

This is me. Both form

and formless.

 

I can drill down into, so to speak,

and share as the human being

when it serves a purpose to

do so.

 

But mostly, I am unaware

of the body or the person

in a personal or separate

sort of way.

 

Body, self and world 

abide within me.

 

In spite of this shift, there

is still enough of a sense

of "I" that can drill down

into the body, or any body 

for that matter, and I can

share what is happening

there too if it is important

to do so.

 

But it no longer feels like

I am inside of the body.

​

The body and world are

actually inside of me.

 

These are the basic things

of which I am aware.

 

However, I could probably

go on ad infinitum.

 

Soul: This is really quite

beautiful, and this is the

meaning of the statement

which says that cause

and effect are one.

 

As you make contact with

your innermost being, you

begin to tap into presence,

and the presence within you

grows in the sense of what

you are now ready and able

to bring to the table of life

with consistency and without

limit.

 

Have you ever noticed

this spongy, palpable

energy around you that

draws everything around

it inside of itself, like

images of a black hole

with which you are quite

familiar?

 

me: Exactly!

 

I know exactly what you

are referring to!

 

Soul: Never worry about

these things and encourage

others not to when they

show concern.

 

You are not the real doer.

 

I am the one the is bringing

about this unfolding.

 

And it is my power, my grace

and my might which is

calling this entire world

home at this time in human

history...

 

There is nothing you, as

the human being, can actually

do to either speed this process

up, slow it down or cause it

to stop. 

 

Nor can you or anyone else

be left behind.

 

This is all happening because

of an ancient agreement

and you are always unfolding

in Divine Order.

 

So you have only two in-

structions from now on.

 

(1) Relax more..

 

(2) Yet remain present, alert

and open.

 

In other words, be a quiet

and ever present 

invitation.

 

It sounds impossible that

these two states co-exist,

but they both can and do.

 

But every instant is an

invitation to die, and every

instant is an invitation

to be reborn.

 

Remember riding a horse

as a child?

 

There is a most amazing place

where you are holding the reigns,

while sitting tall in the saddle,

and the reigns are neither too

tight or too loose.

 

Here, both horse and rider

are one, and recognize

that oneness.

 

This is the birthplace of the

miraculous.

 

Here is your truth, the

truth that is always true.

 

For it is here you live and

move and have your being.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

How can I ask you to

live me when you already

and always have and are?

 

Aaahhh.... the endless

wonder of this gift.

 

Thank you.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I would like to introduce

the subject that I would like

for us to talk about today.

 

Perhaps it could best be

thought of as Part 2 to

yesterday's sharing.

 

Soul: Go right ahead.

 

It is all unfolding according

to plan anyway, is it not?

 

I think you are actually

starting to get that now...

 

me: I know this guy who is a

Jungian therapist/author/teacher

named Matt Licatta.

 

I have read his work from time

to time through the years,

especially in the early days of

the pandemic. He is a great

source to listen to.

 

He sent an email out yesterday

to a list of heart centered souls

that actually blew my mind

and heart wide open in such

a beautiful way.

 

I think the ideas that he proposed

(along with mine reflections)

will be quite helpful to anyone

who is trying to live their lives

this way.

 

He pierced this heart in such

a remarkable way, and that is

worthy of sharing.

 

If to teach is to demonstrate,

then this is my attempt to

demonstrate in a relatable

way how to make yester-

day's message actionable.

 

He proposed that since there is

so much war, so much division

and polarization going on in

our world right now, that per-

haps we should consider no

 longer referring to triggers 

as triggers.

 

How about thinking of these

difficult and challenging

emotions and experiences

as touches instead?

 

Like, instead of feeling triggered,

we could realize that we were

being touched by feelings that

have been left unfelt and

unintegrated for a very long

time?

 

How can you actually allow

this to gently unfold within

your being if you are going

at a task with a vengeance?

 

Is this not a time to hit the

pause button and ask oneself,

"Am I on the horizontal axis

or am I connecting deeply

with the vertical, my own

True North?"

 

"If I am using this experience

to connect with people, places

or things, and the feelings 

I am experiencing are all

connected to them, am I not

missing the point of this

opportunity that I am being

shown? Have I not been given

this to experience in a deeply

personal way?"

​

I feel many have not yet faced,

let alone embraced, the fact

that the only one on this planet

is themselves.

​

There is nothing separate and

distinct.

​

All of this is so that I might

love and support myself

even more.

 

How do you share what it feels

like to be still and one with

your own being?

 

Feeling all of life pour itself

into you, merging and mixing

with you entirely?

 

I like this idea. It reminds me so

of Rumi's poem, The Guest House.

 

I am going to share it now because

it is a beautiful reminder and life

example.

 

The Guest House

 

This being human is a guest house.

Every morning a new arrival

 

A joy, a depression, a meanness,

some momentary awareness comes

as an unexpected visitor.

 

Welcome and entertain them all!

Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,

who violently sweep your house

empty of its furniture,

still, treat each quest honorably

He may be clearing you out

for some new delight.

 

The dark thought, the shame,

the malice, meet them at the door

laughing, and invite them in.

 

Be grateful for whatever comes

because each has been sent

as a guide from beyond.

 

Copyright 1997 by Coleman Barks

From The Illuminated Rumi

 

It is such a remarkable thing to no

longer move from the here and now,

to be here, to really and truly be here,

with an open and loving heart,

ready to receive every experience

while being so loving and gentle,

kind and tender with oneself.

 

As Matt says, "no longer enemies

to be managed, but visitors to be

tended..."

 

Here is my vow to myself :

 

I will no longer seek to silence

any part of myself.

 

This just wants to be seen and held

with kindness and respect.

 

"To be touched. Stirred. Summoned.

Activated.Not as pathology, but as

portal."

Matt Licatta

 

This is a call to come HOME.

 

Wow. Just wow.

 

The only question that any of us

need ask ourselves is, "Can I love

myself this much?"

 

And my question for you, dear

Soul, is this:

 

Is there anything else which

has been left unsaid?

 

Soul: This is defintely a TFTD

for the ages..

 

Nicely shared. Straight from

​the heart.

 

Let's leave it at that for today.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

I absolutely love feeling

the experience of deeply

sitting with and being

with me.

 

Grounded, known to

myself, held, watched,

tending, touching...

​

Never judged, criticized,

or spoken to harshly.

 

The only thing greater

than becoming me is

actually being me.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: I am so happy with how

things are unfolding for you.

 

Are you happy?

 

me: I am.

 

Soul: You are beginning to

receive messages from the

other planes of consciousness

effortlessly with greater

frequency now, as well as

learning how to translate

the language of frequency

into words.

 

I want you to work with this

daily and I encourage you

to bring up any questions

you have along the way.

 

Be sure to share any message

which seems pertinent

to your heart to share.

 

Otherwise, we will wait until

you have a bit of experience

under your belt and feel

more confident before going

deeper.

 

Are you in agreement with

this plan?

 

me: It sounds perfect. I was

concerned about moving

any faster than what is hap-

pening right now because 

that would give me no time

to work with this until I feel

entirely comfortable with

the process.

 

So thank you. What will we

be talking about today?

 

Soul: Do you remember

when Geshela ordained

you that he told you that

for the remainder of your

life you would comfort

the disturbed and disturb

the comfortable?

 

me: Of course I remember

it. I am the one who has been

living it 24/7/365.

 

But that was and is nothing

new for me. It has been

happening all of my life.

 

And it continues to be intensely

the case during this decade,

and on a much more accelerated

platform.

 

I have never upset so many

people without doing a thing!

 

That being said, I have also

been truly upsetting a lot more

people of late because I have

become increasingly more bold

and vocal about the expression

of things that seem obvious

to me and which are the last

thing that people want to hear.

​

Or, simply walking away....

 

C' est la vie, as the French

would say...

 

Soul: I happen to love it. It

is why you came here.

 

You are not angry.

 

You are not mean.

 

And you are not being

arrogant.

 

But people love to tell

themselves stories in order

to justify what they are

doing.

 

Have you ever noticed how 

the deck is always stacked

in their ego's favor?

 

me: Unfortunately, I do.

 

Soul: I clearly see that you

would rather be true to

what the heart knows is true

than worry about political

correctness or hurting

feelings.

 

No more mincing of words

or compromising yourself

to gain acceptance and

improve approval ratings.

 

There will come a time in the

near future when everyone

will live this way and it will

not take a 2 x 4 to get their

attention.

​

Nor will anyone have to

engage in deep ego

massage in order to make

a point.

 

me: Thank God.

 

Soul: Thank yourself and

you're welcome.

 

I just want you to be keenly

aware that this is what the

world will be experiencing for

what remains of this decade.

 

As part of the Celestial Speedup,

this is a time of cleansing on

a global level.

 

Every part of you, every part

of the human race, every life

experience and every situation

must now be completely

returned to ONENESS

through integration.

 

Humanity must learn to lean

into and embrace their dis-

appointments, the things they

do not like about themselves,

what they do not like about

others and this world, as well

as the things they engage in

in order to not sit with and

feel what they would like to

pretend is not happening,

rather than become one

with completely.

 

me: You know, I had this

conversation again with

someone who uses cleaning

and purging their home

when going through some-

thing that is profoundly

painful and disturbing

for them.

 

Their argument with me

was that they were not

avoiding anything, that

they were very much feeling

everything as they purged.

 

But they still don't get it.

 

Embodiment and actualization,

which they claim to want with

all their heart and have been 

chasing all their life, is not

a byproduct of doing, it is

a byproduct of being.

 

And there is no such thing

as doing and being

simultaneously..

 

One is an extroverting of

the senses while the other

is deeply introverting them.

 

It is not a matter of feeling

a lot about me having _________

experience and how it will

affect those I care for.

 

And yes, I know that is none

of my business.

 

It is their soul's journey, not

mine.

 

The journey has always

been about me being willing

to sit in the experience

of being me and supporting

myself through ________

experience, whatever that

happens to be.

 

There is a universe of dif-

ference between purging

and feeling and experiencing

and crying and remembering

as you go along at mach 12

with your hair on fire, and that

of actually sitting still and

mindfully allowing your ex-

perience to wash over and

through you, with the intention

of actually feeling all of it

merge with you until it becomes

fully integrated and you feel

you are unquestionably

complete with it.

​

Soul: Human beings have

been running away from

themselves since there

were human beings.

 

Me: I just don't get it.

 

I know this person.

 

I KNOW them...

 

I have been holding them

so closely and lovingly

in my heart for many years

now.

 

And I know they would move

heaven and earth to be there

for anyone on this planet,

regardless of what they said

or did.

 

Why are they always so

bloody quick to

abandon themselves?

 

This is heart wrenching to

observe. And there is 

absolutely no talking to them

so from now on, I'm gonna

put a zipper on these lips

no matter how hard it is

for me to do so.

​

I done. My lane. I am gonna

be a fly on the wall that

simply loves and supports

myself as I hurt watching 

those I care about sabotage

themselves.

 

After all, as you have taught

me, everyone is always doing

the only thing they can...for

they are always experiencing

their lives according to the

soul's journey for them.

 

This is an example of me being

willing to embrace another's

stubbornness and willful

need to do it their way and be

right about it.

​

Back to my old mantra of,

"Can I embrace that?"

 

Thank you that I no longer

feel the need to defend and

protect; to lead with my dukes

up all the time...

 

It is so freaking exhausting...

 

I readily admit that it used

to be my M.O. but no

longer...

 

I just don't seem to have

the oomph or the gumption

to play games anymore

that waste time and accom-

nothing with everlasting

value.

 

Being right and knowing

best comes at such a hefty

price and, at least for me,

it never works.

 

This way...yielding to what

is, brings peace.

 

I absolutely love how I just

sort of ease my way into all

of me and life....

 

The good, the bad and the

ugly because it is all good...

 

There is such a gentleness

and a kindness that was

formerly absent in my

approach to myself.

 

I wouldn't want it any other

way.

 

I guess it is all about learning

what it means to truly love

and embrace my experience

of being me.

 

Hair, guts, feathers and all

as Margaret used to say

(Pam's mother).

 

Soul: This is the part that

humans, particularly spiritual

humans do not like.

 

Purification is necessary.

 

It is not that something is

wrong and must be

disposed of, changed or

done away with.

 

It is to say, that all feelings

must be felt and embraced

(as well as all experiences)

so that they may return to

the ONE without a second,

and recognized for what they

are: dream stuff.

 

You cannot ignore the 

parts of your experience 

that you do not like and

tell yourself they are an 

illusion anyway so just

overlook it, because this

is you actively practicing

separation and duality,

as well as you being

spiritually arrogant.

 

Every wave returns to the

Ocean which is it's Source.

 

The wave cannot survive

indefinitely believing that

it is separate and alone.

 

Your mind is so powerful.

 

This cannot be emphasized

too much.

 

If you could see the sum

total of your miscreations,

which are a result of your

dalliances in madness,

you would strive to bring

more loving kindness to

your awareness in the

recognition that you are

always creating.

 

You would be far more

careful and loving about

what you are doing to

yourself and your world.

 

You are so powerful!

 

It is time to own and recog-

nize that.

 

Enter your day today with

the awareness of what a

powerful being you actually

are.

 

me: I will.

 

And I will hang it all in

a contextual frame

which reminds me to

recognize what is

happening in our world

right now so that I can

extend more compassion

to both myself and my

world.

 

For I understand now that

me genuinely being myself

is my contribution to the

world.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Eyes open.

 

Heart tenderized, full

and running over.

 

Arms as wide as the world.

 

As Mis Piggy would say,

"All this is for little ole moi?"

 

I receive everything

in the sacred fire of

this heart of LOVE.

 

Thank you for the gift

that keeps on giving.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I would like to get the

ball rolling today because

I feel deeply that the events

of yesterday were pivotal

in the storyline of this

particular human being

and her life stream.

 

Soul: By all means.

 

me: Well... I think I should

begin with the beginning.

 

There were several experiences

I would like to talk about. But I

will begin with this one.

 

It had to do with that thing

you called the "piercing the veil."

 

I was lying on my bed and

doing the exercise as pre-

scribed and all of a sudden,

I was aware of this thing

that was sort of round in

shape.

 

It was a membrane or 

bladder of some kind.

 

The actual size of it was

unknown to me.

 

Nor could I actually tell

where it was located.

 

It was simply there.

 

Right in front of me.

 

I did not actually see it.

 

I felt it. And in that felt

sense, there was a kind of

seeing that was more of

an experiencing.

 

The membrane was thick,

kind of rubbery, yet pliable.

 

I could tell it was filled with

liquid of some kind.

 

A needle-like object was

trying to pierce it and

after several stabs or

pokes with no success, I

decided to help it along

by applying pressure as

well.

 

The pressure I applied

was more of a powerful

direct of my will.

​

In other words, it was not

physical at all.

 

Nonetheless, it worked.

 

I felt the membrane pop

and I think I actually heard

the pop as well.

 

Flooding out of it came this

oily, thick, slightly amber

yet clear fluid.

 

That was it.

 

And then I suddenly knew

(and I knew that I knew that

I knew) that there were

4 ways to receive messages.

 

But first, I knew that I must

clearly acknowledge that

the veil has been pierced,

which I did.

 

The four ways are:

 

(1) Seeing

(2) Hearing

(3) Knowing

(4) Feeling.

 

There was also an intuitive

kind of knowing that one

cannot become attached to

how the message is received

or that will stop the process.

 

I knew that many have ex-

perienced this piercing of

the veil, yet because they

could not acknowledge

what had happened and

they were very attached to

how they received what 

they received, when they

would receive it and what

the message would actually

be, the messages stopped.

 

Perhaps over the course of

their entire lifetime they

received a half dozen messages

or less, but it was pretty much

a gift that did not reach fruition.

 

So when I was running an

errand, I heard a message

that sounded like it was

coming from the right side

of the back seat.

 

It was a simple enough mes-

sage. However, when I gave

it to the person for whom it

was intended, she was

thoroughly pissed off at me

and has ghosted me ever

since.

 

And I didn't just call her up

and launch it at her like

a grenade from out of left

field.

 

She actually called me...

and like always, there was

the perfect moment to say

what needed to be shared.

 

This is a person who has

been a big part of my life

almost as long as Pam has

been.

 

But I have felt my life moving

further and further away from

her for some time now.

 

It is clear to me that she has

chosen the path of the dream

for this lifetime and has become

more involved with her family

of origin who are quite cultish,

rather than the path which 

gains you neither friends, pop-

ularity or success as the world

defines it.

 

It is always difficult for me

to exp[erience when

I observe this happening.

 

But I receive comfort when

I remind myself of one of

the first messages that you

ever gave me.

 

You are not responsible for

the message.

 

You are not responsible for

who receives the message.

 

And you are not responsible

for how the message is received.

 

But you are responsible for

delivering it.

 

It has never stopped being

a big big lesson for me.

 

I feel it must be like what

parents feel for their children.

 

It is such a tough thing when

you want more for someone

you love so much than they

want for themselves.

 

Christy reminded me of this

during our chat this morning

which was quite helpful.

 

Yet your message has always

been that we are always on

the soul's journey, that we

cannot mess it up and that

no one is ever lost. It is simply

a matter of not being their

time...

 

Nonetheless, it still is sad

for me and a very painful thing

to watch because you know

how much suffering they

will inevitably experience

as a byproduct of their

decision.

 

Finally, I got to the part

where I was moving through

space at the speed of light

and suddenly I stopped

and it felt like there was

no more me.

 

The shackles of trying to

be a me were rapidly dis-

integrating.

 

Such a brief nanosecond of

an instant...

 

I cannot tell you a thing

about it beyond this point

because there was no more

reporter to experience any-

thing, nor was there one

who could come back

and tell you all about it.

 

(Like you don't already know

all of this because you planned

the day in its entirety for me.)

 

But what I can say about it

is that when I found myself

sitting in my living room

again, there was such an

unqualified sense of peace

and contentment, a certain

satisfaction around the

changes in my relationship

with Pam that I had not felt

in some time.

​

Again, not what I had asked

for, yet so much better and

more fulfilling...

 

All was and is forever 

complete...

 

I am grateful.

 

I suppose this is another

example of what my dad

referred to as diarrhea of

the mouth and constipation

of the brain.

 

Yet all I can say is, I am

not the same.

 

I am not the same.

 

....and thank heaven for

that.

 

Soul: Well...that is quite

a lot that you have shared.

 

Shall we leave it at this

for today?

 

me: I think so. I am still

kind of whirling in a state

of overwhelm and feel

kind of queasy from it all.

 

Soul: Take rest and just

relax. There is nothing to do

and there never has been.

 

You came here to collect

experiences and that is what

you have been doing for 72

years.

 

But know this...

 

The grandest of adventures

has now begun....

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

There is a sense of wonder,

a freefalling.... a gratitude

and excitement filling

my awareness.

 

A delicate newness, yet

ancient and familiar.

 

Thank you seems woefully

inadequate but there

you have it.

 

Thank you for this life.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Yesterday was a pensive

day for me. I felt completely

wrung out, like I had opened

myself to a place of such

utter transparency that I felt

hung over as a result of it.

 

I suppose it is a rare ability,

the willingness to reveal

oneself so nakedly.

 

My dad used to call it,

diarrhea of the mouth

and constipation of the

brain.

 

He felt that I did not use the

common sense God gave me

to keep my pie hole shut

and be normal, like other

people.

 

Soul: It is a beautiful beautiful

thing to no longer live your

life secretly. To be genuine,

transparent and authentic

through and through.

 

And your willingness to share

so openly and honestly

demonstrates to others that

they can do it too, that it is

indeed safe to live a completely

heart centered life, realizing

that vulnerability is your super

power.

 

So thank you.

 

me: It really is nothing special.

I do not know any other way

to be. In fact, it would kill me

to try to keep myself all bottled

up and restrained; like I was

being held captive in a straight

jacket within.

 

Soul: That is what makes you

so unique to this world.

 

It will not always be a rare

trait, but it is for now.

 

This is the new way of

being human

that you came to usher in.

 

People are terrified of authen-

ticity. You are not. Genuine

to the core, like it or not,

that you are...

 

So did you give your relation-

ship with Pam some more

thought yesterday?

 

me: I did.

 

In fact, I thought of

little else. I even dreamed

about her.

 

Soul: So let us begin to open

that door today. Shall we?

 

The psychic you spoke with

shared with you truthfully.

 

That being said, there is

absolutely no reason you

cannot learn to commune

with Pam in a way which you

experience as completely

fulfilling since that is what

you miss most about your

relationship with her.

 

Shall we continue?

 

me: You bet!

 

Soul: Because Pam learned

to go so deeply within the

domain of the Oversoul or

God, which is Infinity, you

have to meet her there in

order to share with her in

the most intimate manner

for which you long so

fervently.

 

Remember this from our

sharing?

 

You cannot bring truth

to illusions or truth is lost.

You must learn to bring

the illusion of yourself to

where she now abides

unceasingly.

 

There you will commune

in union with her in the

Eternal Now which was

and forever is before the

beginning...

 

You need to understand,

however, that to do so will

come at a cost.

​

It is not a cost in the usual

sense. For as it has been

said many times before,

never has no much been

given for so little.

 

That being said, it will be

very difficult to join with her

there and keep returning

to this densely material

plane.

 

It is a back and forth that

few have ever managed

to navigate successfully.

 

So take a few minutes to

think about it.

 

Do you really want to begin

this, for there will be no

going back...

 

If your answer is yes, then

we will begin today.

 

As it is with all things, the

decision is entirely yours

to make and it is one you

make without any

interference.

__________________

 

me: I'm back and I am definitely

in this with you all the way

and excited, regardless the

outcome.

 

Soul: Great.

 

There are three things I want

to cover today...

 

The first is the importance

of beginning with a prayer.

 

This I will leave to you to

compose, recognize that

it is needful that your

prayer contains two very

specific elements to it.

 

First, You must state in

very clear terms what it is

that you want to experience.

 

This is true for any prayer.

 

Your prayer should also

acknowledge that your words

become your experience.

 

Acknowledge that this is

what will be accomplished

this day and has, in truth,

already happened.

 

Secondly, I ask you to practice

being very still three times

today.

 

Most human beings act as

though they have ants in

their pants when asked to be

still.

 

All of a sudden, they are com-

posing grocery and to-do

lists, thinking about what to

prepare for dinner, realize

urgently that they need to

call a friend or colleague,

or simply grab a book, turn

on the TV or whatever else

happens to be their latest

distraction de jour.

 

I am requesting that you

sit down and remain there

for 30 minutes.

 

Do not tell me that you

cannot.

 

You were born for this.

 

Next, begin by watching your

breath, feeling yourself

drifting downward, ever deeper

until you arrive at a very still

and empty place.

 

Nothing is here but utter

silence.

 

And the silence?

 

Why, it is deafening!

 

Rest here for awhile.

 

Feel yourself letting go

so completely that it feels

as though there is nothing

here but awareness itself.

 

Pristine. Immaculate. Stainless.

Utterly and completely undefiled

by sensory input of any kind.

 

Give what you are the opportunity

to find you without interference

of any kind...

 

Feel the presence of something

begin to lock onto you like

a tractor beam...

 

Next, feel yourself moving now

at the speed of light through

space.

 

Try not to resist this.

 

How deeply can you surrender

to your experience?

 

You are the only one who is

challenging yourself.

 

This is not a competition and

there is no score card based on

how well or how poorly

your perform.

​

Every effort is a success.

 

It is time to loosen your grip

upon yourself and your life

and allow the cosmos to take

you to your real HOME.

 

Thirdly, whatever happens

is perfect. Acknowledge the

fact that you have made contact,

you have pierced the veil.

 

How fortunate you are!

 

You are asked to try this process

and recognize that however

it unfolds is the way it is meant

to unfold.

 

There is no right way and there

is no wrong way to accomplish

this.

 

And it is impossible not to

receive as you have asked,

beloved.

 

Be brave! Have faith! Trust

yourself!

 

And be thankful. This is a very

important and sacred time

in your journey without

distance to a goal which you

never left.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

With heartfelt tenderness

and all the sincerity at

my command, I humbly

ask to commune this

day with Pam.

 

Thank you for this

most amazing gift.

 

And so it is, Amen.

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Would you mind terribly if

I picked a subject for today?

 

There is something that has

been pressing on me for over

a year now.

 

Although it will take more

than one day to cover this

subject, I would love to begin

by introducing the essence

of what is weighing so deeply

on my heart today and every

other day for a long time

now.

 

Soul: I think that's great.

It is a lovely idea to let you

choose, as you are most

familiar with the day-today

things which give you pause

or leave you doubting

yourself.

 

If it concerns you, you know

that it is a matter of concern

for others as well.

 

me: Okay then.

 

You know, on January 1, 2026

it will be the 26th anniversary

of us setting aside time each

day to write a TFTD and a

prayer.

 

For me, it has been such a

blessing. And what I have

gained from this adventure

in consciousness has been

and continues to be so

powerful.

 

First of all, there has never

been a moment that I did not

know that the messages were

first and foremost for me.

 

That being said, so many have

contacted me through the years

to say how grateful they are

for them, how they have become

a part of their quiet time each

day, while many have shared

the miracles and shifts which 

they have experienced through

the reading and integrating of

what they pointed to.

 

But for me, it was a vital passage

for legions of reasons.

 

Primarily because it taught me

to discipline myself, to commit

to something daily regardless

of how I happened to feel at the

time, to trust you and to learn

how to plant my ass somewhere

and actually sit there, to wait

in the pause, to allow the

communication to come to me.

 

A bond of intimacy formed

between us that is the most

important connection I have

ever or will ever experience.

 

And no matter what I had going

on in my life, whether I was

in the hospital, wanted a day

off or was on vacation, rain or

shine, I have shown up.

 

Thus, it has been a unparalleled

course in self mastery through

mind training.

 

It has meant the world to me.

 

To know that I was capable

of making a lifetime commitment

to this unfolding love affair

with you.

 

Boy, did I doubt myself in the

beginning. I doubted whether

I could make a daily commit-

ment on this level, I doubted

whether or not I could learn

to hear, I doubted if I had

what it take to go the distance.

 

And I realize that the only

obstacle that I had to over-

come was that of myself.

 

I can actually honestly say

that I trust myself now

more than I ever have.

 

And through this process, you

have shown me that there is

no limit to what we can achieve

in this life other than the

limitations which we place

upon ourselves.

 

All of this is to say that I feel

so much grief and sadness over

the loss of Pam (my BFF of

almost 30 years).

 

What an amazing thing, to talk

with someone or see them every

single day for just under three

decades and then have them

leave this mortal plane.

 

Don't get me wrong.

 

I am sincerely grateful that

she is free of her body.

 

After 24 years of suffering from

Lyme/Parkinson's disease and

seeing her steadfast decline over

those many years, I am grateful

that her pain, struggle and in-

ability to do anything indepen-

dently is finally over.

 

But I miss my friend! I miss her

so much!

 

She was my greatest teacher.

 

I never once heard her complain

about anything.

 

She had a sense of humor that

was so sardonic and a mind

that was quicker than that of

everyone on this planet other

than her son, Aaron.

 

I had never experienced a rela-

tionship like what I found with

her before and I know I never

will again.

 

I feel such immense gratitude

for having been the benefactor

of such an opportunity and I

know I have you to thank for it.

 

I know that it was you who

brought us together.

 

Few ever have the good fortune

to meet someone with whom

they share their heart, their soul,

the things they cherish, their

struggles, the things they doubt

about themselves, the entire

scope of the human journey,

which includes the discovery

of God within and the holding

space for each other through

all of that.

 

In all those years we never had

words about anything.

 

It surely was the journey through

the vast and compelling regios

of the heart...

 

I was talking to another friend

last might and I realized that

through my friendship with

Pam, my ever deepening

relationship with you and

the writing of this dialogue

deserves a new title nor;

that of Becoming Me...

 

Because that is exactly what it

has been... A journey into

the deepest mystery, that of

becoming one with myself.

 

So the thing I struggle most with

is the fact that I do not feel the

richness of my relationship

with Pam now that she is

no longer embodied.

 

About three months after her

death (April 24, 2024), I had

an appointment with a well

known and published psychic.

 

Her waiting list is so long that

the appointment was actually

purchased and paid for more

than a year before Pam actually

died.

 

And I suppose that you could say

that it was sort of a bucket list kind

of thing for me to do...

 

I had never been to a psychic before

and I did not even have a clue

what to asknwhen I made the

appointment.

 

You know, the whole bucket list

thiing....?

 

I had actually forgotten all about

it and was taking a nap when she

called me.

 

So she called and woke me up.

 

And what did I do? I asked her

about Pam.

 

I have always had the good for-

tune of being able to continue

my relationship with both parents

in their present lives even though

they are both long deceased from

the lifetime in which they knew

me as their child.

 

Neither of them know that who

I am was their daughter.

 

They are aware of me when

I visit them.

 

That's for sure.

 

One thinks of me as a guardian

angel who has visited him daily

since their earliest memory,

while the other mistakes me for

Mother Mary, as she always smells

roses when I visit her via the astral

plane.

 

But I cannot really connect with

Pam this way and I wonder why.

 

It is a source of disappointment

and sorrow for me.

 

When I spoke with the psychic,

she said that this was because Pam

and I had achieved a rare state

of union with one another while

she was still living and because

of this, she lives inside of me.

 

In other words, my thoughts are

her thoughts...

 

My feelings are her feelings...

 

And we experience my life in

union with one another.

 

Now it is true that I talk to her

all the time in my mind.

 

Sitting at a traffic light and

waiting for it to turn, standing

in the checkout line at WFM,

you name it.

 

I send her love bombs and tell

her how very much I miss her.

 

I share my whole experience of

being human with her...

 

She is the last thought I have

before I go to sleep, and the first

thought I experience when

I awaken.

 

But I would love toactually hear her,

as I know she cannot help but

hear me because I am yammering

at her all the time.

 

My question is, can we talk about

this?

 

Can we explore it together?

 

Can you give me some direction

on how to deepen my bond

with her now that she is no

longer embodied?

 

Soul: This is a great topic.

 

Everyone has experienced the

loss of someone whom they loved

and miss dearly.

 

Grief is a unique kind of pain

because loss and gratitude are

so uniquely entwined within it.

 

This is actually a good place for

us to stop for today.

 

Reflect in a more sustained way

today on your relationship with

Pam and share what you

experience.

 

In addition, think of any other

questions you would like to ask

related to your ongoing relation-

ship with her.

 

For that relationship does indeed

continue, as LOVE never ends.

 

Know this...

 

You are never alone and she is

never not with you.

 

And this is not a pretty platitude

wrapped in sentiment that I am

offering you.

 

Tomorrow we will discuss the steps

involved in being able to clearly

commune with her in a way in

which you can readily feel her

presence and hear her.

 

It is quite simple, yet it will take

patience, trust and time for

you to cultivate the necessary

skills.

 

This is not because it is in any

way difficult.

 

Rather, it is because you have so

little trust in yourself and you 

struggle finding the patience

necessary to pierce this veil.

 

Did not our communion take

time for us to master?

 

And so, like all things, it will take

you some time.

 

But remember what Philippians

4:13 says?

 

me: You gotta give me a minute

to go look it up.

 

"I can do all things through Christ

whi strengthens me."

 

Soul: Who is the Christ?

 

me: You are, I am. It is the part

of us that is R-E-A-L.

 

Soul: This is where our power

lies. It is the power of God made

manifest.

 

Place your faith here and

you will be flying with Pam in

the between life and death

in no time.

 

me: Wow... There really is no

limit to what we discuss

and explore together, you

and I...

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Blessed be the everlasting

gift of sat chit ananda.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Today I would like to try

something a bit different?

 

Are you game?

 

me: You don't have to ask me

twice!

 

Soul: Great.

 

Close your eyes and begin to

feel yourself floating deeper

and deeper within.

 

Bring your attention to your

breath. Don't try to modify

it in any way. Simply observe

the rise and fall of each

breath cycle.

 

Lightly follow each inhalation

and each exhalation...

 

Slowly, you come to a place

where you feel yourself lightly

making contact with solid

ground again.

 

Before you is a very ornate

table. You notice that the

detail work is nothing short

of astounding as you admire

the craftsmanship.

 

Each scroll and carving speaks

of something timeless and

ancient.

 

You notice that on this table

there is a scroll, a bottle of ink

and a feathered pen.

 

You walk toward the desk so

that you can examine the scroll

and you find that it is actually

a contract.

 

A contract which has been

signed by us. 

 

It details everything you have

experienced in this life, both

inner and outer.

 

Every milestone, every heart

break, when you lost your first

tooth, why, it even has your

first word written on it with

both date, time and what you

said.

 

You begin to sense, deeper than

you ever have, how planned

your life has actually been.

 

You real eyes that you have

never been alone and and every

single moment of what you

think of as your life has mattered...

...and mattered deeply.

 

After reading the contract which

contains every detail of your life

up until this very moment,

your intuitively know that you

are to read beyond NOW.

 

After all, you wants to

spoil a surprise?

 

Rather....you make a point to

carefully read what has been

written in this section which

refers to right now...

 

It says....

 

Having realized that you are

powerless over absolutely

everything and you are done

with hating yourself, this

contract is rendered null and

void.

 

You ask yourself...

 

What lies ahead?

 

Does it matter anymore?

 

Could anything matter to you

besides the opportunity to

challenge yourself in order to

see how can you love yourself

and your life in each instant

even more?

 

You notice that there is a place

where you are to sign.

 

You pick up the pen, and without

a second thought, gratefully and

lovingly, you sign your name

on the line provided.

​

And in that instant you real eyes

that we are signing this amended

contract together, for we are one

and have always been one.

 

As you set the pen back on the

table next to the bottle of ink,

you hear the following words

being sung by choirs of angels

in your honor:

 

Welcome home, beloved child,

welcome home.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Thank you that I am finally

capable of living from

my heart.

​

My relationship with myself

has been restored in my

awareness.

​

Never actually lost, yet never

available to me when I did

not love myself.

​

Because of this, LOVE fills

all the moments of my days.

​

Thank you for the GIFT.

​

Help me make the most

of the magnificent treasure

I've been given.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: I want to share something

very near and dear to my heart

with you today..

 

me: I am ready...

 

I find our communing

each day to be highly

transformative.

 

It has not changed who I am.

 

Nor has it stopped any of the

crappola that has been

happening here at

the duplex or in my life

from happening.

 

What it has done is helped me

wear my life like a loose garment

and be so loving and supportive

of myself in the process of what is.

 

There is definitely a different way

in which I talk to myself as well

as be with me.

 

Soul: I am deLIGHTed our

sharing has had this effect.

 

I know that your relationship

with your family of origin has

been a source of constant

consternation and suffering

for you and that if has left

you broken hearted,

confused and disappointed

much of your life...

 

You wanted so deeply for them

to love you, and to want to

actively and consistently

have you in their lives, when

the truth of the matter was

that they would rather you

leave them alone to live

their lives without your

presence in it.

 

They did not then, nor do

they now respect the journey

you have chosen and they

would rather not have you

in their lives.

​

Before, these words could not

have been expressed to you

directly.

​

You would have taken them

as unnecessarily harsh and

strident.

​

But you know that all statements

are neutral and have no meaning

other than the meaning you

have given them.

​

Thus, you are capable of hearing

a thing without creating suffering

for yourself as a result.

 

It is a beautiful thing to have

accepted this at long last.

 

You feel peace around the

statement of this now, whereas

for so long you wept bitterly

and suffered so....

 

You tried to change your

relationship with your family

every way that you knew

how.

 

But finally, you accepted the

fact that you were 100% powerless

when it came to being able to

not only not be able to change this,

but that you are completely unable

to change anything that happens

in this life.

​

Destiny is destiny after all--- a

contract written by and signed

by none other than you.

 

What is, is what is supposed

to be. A difficult thing for any

human being to face and

embrace.

 

Your family had more difficulty

relating to you as a human

being than you ever did

with them, my dear..

 

So you made the most difficult

decision any human being

can make in any lifetime:

 

To end all contact with any

member of your family of

origin for the remainder of

this life at the beginning of

the pandemic.

 

Although difficult and gut

wrenching to make at that time,

each of you are all doing so much

better because of this severed

contact.

 

me: You know, it's crazy.

 

You are raised to honor that

connection, to foster it and

them above all else, to protect

it and to be there for each

other no matter what.

 

I tried.

 

I sincerely tried.

 

But I found that I was actually

holding myself back spiritually

by trying to be there for them.

 

And I was left shocked and hurt

each time they disappointed

me by taking advantage of me

and then ghosting me once

again.

 

Soul: Can you realize that they

were and are on the soul's

journey and this was precisely

what needed to unfold in all of

your lives?

 

me: I think I finally have.

 

With your love and guidance,

I can and do accept this.

 

And my human experience has

been all the better because of it.

 

Instead of always being focused

on them, my attention is on myself

and my own life now.

 

I know that fulfilling my purpose

is the best way for me to be of

service to them and my world.

 

Soul: I know that you longed for

a loving relationship with each

of them.

 

But that was not your destiny

in this life.

 

And remember, destiny is

something we work out

together before your

incarnation based on how

to best help you fulfill certain

wisdom goals you have set

for yourself.

 

Please understand that on

the only level that counts,

you have always had this

with each of them.

 

However, none of them was

committed enough to try to

have this with you while em-

bodied in this lifetime.

​

How could they when they

do not love and respect

themselves?

 

But would you like to know

what the most beautiful thing

of all is?

 

As you have used this decade to

free yourself of all of your old

programming and conditioning,

you have become lighter

and lighter.

 

And this is a double entendre...

 

For you have felt a great density

leave you as ancient shackles

have been laid aside because

they no longer fit who or how

you wish to feel or live your

life.

 

And...you have seen more light

around yourself and your world

than you ever have before be-

cause you are experiencing

freedom in so many new

and beautiful ways...

 

But the most amazing thing

of all is that as you have watched

yourself and your world grow

lighter and lighter, your lineage

has become lighter too.

 

Each member of your family of

origin has been finding their own

way as well.

 

Your lineage has become lighter

and brighter as you have released

conditioning and old programming.

​

Generational things have found

their finality.

 

And know this...

 

The human experience is a deeply

personal journey, made by you

and for you.

 

But make no mistake about it,

although your only responsibility

in this life is to fully embody me

and the love that you forever are,

every insight your gain, every

epiphany you realize, and every

moment of clarity you experience,

actually helps everything that is

take a giant step in the direction

of fully embodying the LIGHT

which is...

 

me: I am grateful we had this

discussion.

 

It feels like the final closure

around the whole family thing....

 

Being human has been

and continues to be the most

amazing opportunity.

 

I no longer feel like I am stuck

in a Greek tragedy, but am

pumped about the life which

is mine to experience and live.

 

So thank you.

 

Soul: It is a lovely dance of light...

 

You are very fond of using the

example of the water ballet in the

Olympics..

 

It is beautiful to experience

the dance we create together

as ONE in our journey of love

and light.

 

And I know that your willingness

to step away from your family

and focus solely on growing in

love for yourself will give many

the courage to begin to step

away from the things which do

not serve them as have you.

​

It is all a matter of how you wish

to live.

 

Live a life you adore, beloved, one

which is born of self respect

and love and I promise you that

happiness will follow you every

step of the way.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Thank you for the courage

to no longer doubt and

question myself as I once

did.

 

I love the life we have planned

for ourselves.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: You know, there are only

two ways to live your life:

 

(1) You can either hate what

you are.

(2) Or you can love what you are.

 

Every single thing that you

think, say or do reflects

the decision you have made.

 

And each will create the ex-

perience of either hell or

heaven on earth as a result

of that decision...

 

But make no mistake about it,

your experience of life will

invariably be a reflection of the

decision which only you can

make.

 

This planet is plagued by

a state of mass hypnosis

born of their programming

and  conditioning into a

belief system which eats 

away at them like an ear

worm, ever reminding

them of their brokenness

and imperfection and that

of the world's.

 

It's like an itch you cannot

scratch, though many times

more  frightening and painful

to experience, especially 

on a daily basis.

 

The two mottos of every human

being?

 

(1) Having less but wanting more

while being willing to go to any

lengths to try to get it.

(2) Seek but do not find.

 

me: That makes for. a whole lot

of chasing our tailsl and being

terribly unhappy and unsatisfied...

 

Soul: This will always be the case

so long as the average human

being is perfectly comfortable

playing the role of what you

refer to as a sheeple.

 

But beloved, you were born a

self-sovereign and autonomous

human being and designed to

live your loves that way...

 

When did you decide to stop

thinking and feeling for yourself,

choosing rather, the life of a drone

which is stuck in autopilot?

 

me: You know... I do not feel I

ever experienced any difficulty

being and living as the truth of

who I am.

 

I have some of the most ex-

quisitely loving memeories of

myself when my sister, Mary,

was born and before we knew

that she was sick.

 

Other memories....

 

Standing next to an unhappy

adult and simply putting a 

hand on their shoulder as 

they shared and watching them

become calm and peaceful...

where they could see the 

next steps to take.

 

What I had trouble with was

being a human being and

loving my humanity as it is,

especially when it is so unlike

what others seem to want

for themselves.

 

I loathed my haumnity and

I treated this body with

anything but kindness

and respect.

 

I got stuck in a negative

and painful feedback loop

of trying to fit in, to want 

what the majority believes

will make them happy and

be like them when that was

highly unnatural to me.

 

I did not want any of the things

the average human being wants, 

yet I drove myself nuts trying

to make myself not only want

what other people seem to want,

but to actively try to attain it.

 

Let me explain how it all felt...

 

Several times in this life I have

got both feet caught in the same

pant leg while trying to get

dressed in a hurry.

 

I would bob and careen around

the room like I was on a pogo

stick about to tip over and fall.

 

That was what the human

experience was like for me for

most of my life.

 

But little by little, because of

my deepening relationship with

you, which i know means my

growing relationship with myself,

I have accepted who I am and

how I am and learned to trea-

sure all the many facets of being

me.

 

I think it is a very difficult lesson

for every human being to place

more value on what they feel for

themselves that what others do.

 

But one day, for whatever reason,

and I know that had everything

to do with you, I decided that I was

going to start being accountable

and responsible for my own

self-hatred.

 

There is nothing, absolutely

nothing, that is more important

to me than my loving myself

no matter how I show up and

no matter what anyone else

thinks, says about or to me,

or what they happen to do

to me.   

 

I no longer take their actions

personally. 

 

This applies to the things that

I formerly did not like or ap-

preciate about myself and

especially the things I would be

embarrassed by or felt guilt

or shame for.

 

And this has made all

the difference.

 

I decided that being who I am

and how I am was never going

to be an issue for me ever again.

 

Now I am not saying that it isn't

an issue to others, that happens

on a daily basis. But I always feel

the same thing about that when

it happens:

 

That's their issue, not mine.

 

And I refuse to give it any further

thought.

 

Me being fully and authentically

myself is genuinely the most

sacred thing on this earth to me.

 

Soul: That is definitely music to my

ears.

 

Because here is the deal...

 

100% of human life can be summed

up in these two statements:

 

A humanity which is informed by

self-hatred is destined to destroy

themselves, each other and this

planet.

 

A humanity which is informed by

self-love is destined to not only

evolve into all that they can

possibly be, they will experience

a global ascension during the

course of their lifetime.

 

It is time for each of you to

unplug from every place within

you where self-hatred has

taken up residence within you..

 

And there is a great deal of

urgency to this request.

 

Why?

 

Because in the height of

your insanity, you have sought

your own annihilation, the

annhilation of others, and the

dvery destruction of your planet.

 

Let's turn that boat around,

shall me?

 

me: Yes!

 

Wow! I love our sharing!

 

Soul: Do you know what the

greatest thing about being

a human being actually is?

 

me: I'd like to take a stab it it...

 

The greatest thing about being

a human being is experiencing

and embodying the LOVE that

II am and being able to liviw

my life, fully and completely,

as that unlimited potential.

 

As I put words around that

experience, I feel so full and

expansive and am overflowing

with effulgent joy....

 

How can I not feel immense

gratitude for all of this?

 

Soul: May this be the direct

realization of every living being,

​for indeed, it is your birthright,

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Only Love.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Ready for a simple way

to build on yesterday's

contemplative reflection and

prayer?

 

me: Of course.

 

If Infinity is without edges or depth,

and Infinity is what we are, who

wouldn't want to challenge them-

selves by seeing how deeply they

can take this realization during

the course of their human life?

 

Soul: All I ask is that you

memorize one simple

sentence.

 

Next, repeat it silently

before every response or

reaction.

 

It does not matter whether

we are talking about how you

relate to your own self, that

of another or to any particular

situation or life experience.

 

Then allow your response

to flow from that the depths

of this awareness.

 

me: And the sentence is?

 

Soul:

 

I fully express the LOVE

that I am with myself.

​

I fully express the LOVE that

I am with this/these person/

people.

 

I fully express the LOVE that

I am with my world.

 

This is how you lead by ex-

ample.

 

You are actually ushering

either yourself or your world

into the remembrance of

the LOVE that you/they

forever are.

 

me: I love it.

 

Every day I am struck by

just how simple the truth

actually is.

 

Soul: Relax into this space

until this way of being no

longer requires you to create

a pause and remember

anything.

​

You are the complete and

total embodiment of this

truth.

 

It has become as natural

and effortless to you

as breathing.

​

You know of no other way of

being; genuine, authentic

and a treasure to all.

 

You exude a love and a presence

which is undeniable by anyone;

regardless of how out of touch

with their heart's they may seem.

 

May your day reflect the

dazzling brilliance and beauty

which I witness in you in

every single instant of the

living now.

​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Guide my unfolding as I

evolve into nothing

short of absolutely every-

thing I can possibly be

in this life.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Would you like to share

the reflections of prayer that

you were using like a mantra

this morning?

 

It really was quite beautiful

and it reflected a state of

clear seeing.

 

me: I would love to share it

 

Close your eyes and bring your

awareness to your breath...

 

Do not try to control the breath,

simply observe it with quietness

and calm...

 

Observe the inhalation and

each exhalation.

 

Feel yourself sinking deeper

and deeper and deeper still...

 

...as if you are repelling down

the side of a mountain.

 

Notice tiny little infinity signs

composed of golden light

beginning to appear in each

and every cell of the body...

​

The human body contains over

200 trillion cells....

 

If you cannot actually see them,

sense that they are there....

​

This will not matter...

​

Why?

​

Every thought creates a 

universe...

​

Your mind is the projector

of your experience.

​

Projection makes perception...

 

In the silence and the stillness

that you find within, calmly

and quietly, peacefully and

lovingly repeat the following

within the tabernacle of your

heart...

 

This body....

 

This mind...

 

These thoughts...

 

These feelings...

 

These sensations...

 

This experience...

 

This life situation...

 

Each is just another avenue

through which I get to share

the love I forever am.

 

Amen

​

Now you have prepared your-

self to begin your day...

​

***

 

Soul: What could ever be shared

that could add to or top that?

 

me: Absolutely nothing.

 

Soul: Tomorrow then?

 

me: It's a date.

 

Soul: May these loving thoughts

walk in the space before you

today, ever informing your

way of being as you navigate

your world.

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Before you even get a

chance to ask me, I would

love to tell you about my

day yesterday and what I

noticed.

 

Soul: Great!

 

me: It was amazing...

 

I really saw how much judge-

ment plays a part of nearly

every single human experience.

 

And it doesn't seem to matter

one iota whether the experience

is inner or outer, mine or some-

one else's... Its a plague among

human beings and a destroyer

of peace and happiness.

 

The mind is so quick to be

critical and unkind.

 

But more than this, I began

to see how being in survival

states of consciousness attracts

experiences that you have to

try to survive, or others have to

try to survive, beliefs in lack,

loss and scarcity.

 

It was truly eye opening.

 

And it prompted a deeper

state of presence so that I

could see what I was up to

while it was actually hap-

pening.

 

Soul: I hope you continue

noticing this. It is vital to

your survival as a species.

 

It is not to make anything

you do or anyone else does

wrong.

 

It is a simple reminder of how

you create your own misery

and suffering.

 

No one actually enjoys suffering.

 

They may believe they deserve

it, but that is.a faulty piece

of old programming taught

to them by people who be-

lieved they deserved to be

punished too.

 

Yet you are always the only

one that is doing it to yourself.

 

me: I get it. By rejecting myself,

my experience, others or their

behaviors and experiences, I

create the illusion of separation,

paranoia, anger and loss.

 

It's like we have all been program-

med to see wrong and believe

that we need to change in order

to deserve anything good.

 

Soul: Are you ready to go

further with this today?

 

me: Let's go for it.

 

Soul: Since the beginning of

the year, you have lost over

50 pounds.

 

And you have been telling me

about your struggle with body

dysmorphia.

 

You feel gargantuan when

in truth, your body is smaller

than it has been in many

years.

 

Today I would like to talk

to you about something

every human being on

this planet suffers from:

 

human dysmorphia

 

You each suffer so pro-

foundly, rejecting so much

of your human experience,

as if you have an allergy

to being human.

 

And I would like you to look

at how much this has been

a part of your programming

and conditioning your

entire life.

 

Family, education, religion,

media, both social and

otherwise, advertising,

politics, you name it.

 

It screeches at you from

everywhere.

 

But can you not see that

this is the source of all

addiction, suicide, violence,

hatred, aggression, fear

and anger?

 

Where the gift of being

human should be a source

of celebration, it has turned

into an experience you dread

more often that not, a life

which is rife with struggle,

hardship, discord and chaos.

 

This has led to a dog-eat-dog

world.

 

Now many of your friends

will try to tell you that

they do not hate themselves.

 

But this is a lie they tell

themselves because they

want to believe they are

better than that.

 

But here is the naked truth:

 

If you use the faculty

of judgement at all, it is

because you are still

holding onto the seeds

of self-hatred within you.

 

I can assure you that if

you truly and deeply loved

all of yourself, as you are,

you would love, accept

and embrace everyone

exactly as they are too,

having no desire to try

to change anyone or

anything.

 

me: I had a very powerful

experience yesterday that

I would like to talk about

for the sake of honesty and

for anyone who happens to

read this every day.

 

I noticed a spontaneous

thought and genuine feeling

of love and tenderness

arise and jump to respond

instantly from within.

 

It did not feel at all like me,

yet in another way, if felt

more genuine and authentic

to me than anything I have

ever felt before.

 

Soul: Why don't you share

what happened. This is

very important.

 

me: Someone started acting

out in Walmart, throwing a fit,

upset, taking it out on the

checker who looked like a deer

caught in headlights.

 

I felt something leap out of me

toward this unhappy customer

and I could actullay feel how

deeply he deserved to be

treated with love, acceptance,

understanding,respect, kindness,

and non- judgement.

 

And I noticed how everyone was

rallying around the check out

woman and saying the guy

was a jerk, an asshole and other

such unpleasantries.

 

And I know the former me

would have been right there

with them, adding my two

cents to the character

assassination and name

calling that was going on

not so long ago.

 

And something inside of me

said, I would genuinely and

happily fight for anyone's right

to be treated lovingly regardless

of what they believed, how they

behaved or what they did.

 

Pro life, pro choice, pro-

anything... Democrat,

Republican, anti-

anything...

 

It just didn't matter

to me anymore.

 

And not because I am so un-

plugged from life that I am

clueless about the state of

things.

 

But because I wholeheartedly

felt none of this mattered and

the only thing that does matter

is my right to be and express

all that I am in every moment,

which is love.

 

I felt absolutely no more charge

around anything whatsoever.

 

I even tried to think of a few things

that used to get my goat to see if

they still did.

 

Nope. No charge.

 

No opinions, no preferences, all

are truly equally loving, deserving

of kindness and respect, even if

they think they feel none of those

sentiments toward me.

 

I know that when we do not love

ourselves, we have a huge tendency

to be critical, blame and judge

others.

 

And what could possibly be

the antidote for anywhere

love seems to be lacking

but more love!

 

That is an amazing shift.

 

No pony in any race, no skin in

any game.

 

Talk about a game changer!

 

Soul: This is what it means

to be the light of the world.

 

You do not have to say

a thing.

 

Your very presence is the

answer to every heart's cry...

 

me: So while almost everyone

I know is worried about our

world right now, I feel more

hope for our future and more

peace and happiness than

I ever have.

 

We truly are wonderful.

 

And I know what you are

going to suggest.

 

Let's live from who we are

today, rather than from

who we are not, because

this being human thing

is the best!

​

Recognize the threads of

old programming trying

to take you down a path

of suffering and survival

and actively dismiss it for

what it is.

 

Soul: Amen to that.

 

Today we celebrate the

magnificence of the

human experience.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

​

Joy. Peace. Happiness.

Love and respect.

 

May these prevail on earth.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: A lot of your brothers

and sisters are getting all

bogged down by what is

happening in your world

right now.

 

Can we address that today?

 

me: Of course. I've got my

listening ears on.

 

Soul: Can you repeat silently

after me each of the following

statements?

 

Being me is not an issue.

 

Donald Trump being Donald

Trump is not an issue.

 

Millions of folks losing their

SNAP benefits is not an issue.

 

The world being as it is is not

an issue.

 

All the stuff going wrong with

my home is not an issue.

 

Being unemployed is not an

issue.

 

My boss being like he /she is

is not an issue.

 

My life being as it is is not an

issue.

 

My children being as they are

is not an issue.

 

My partner being as he or she

is is not an issue.

 

I would like you to incorporate

this idea into all your experiences

today.

 

Whatever the experience, whether

it meets your approval or not, this

is your one response to everything,

 

We will keep the message limited

to this for today because you and

your fellow human beings have

become most famous for making

mountains out of mole hills.

​

You love being right far more than

you love yourself.

 

Today, you learn to give your poor

amygdala and adrenals a break.

 

You know and I know that you know

that you are not here to fix yourself,

the dream or anyone else

for that matter.

 

Let me ask you three questions.

 

You can ponder them today

all that you like.

 

If you could make yourself and

your dream perfect, to your

estimation, would that not mean

that your creation of both yourself

and your world was your own

doing?

 

Are you not always on the soul's

perfect journey?

 

Where does trust enter into your

experience of what is?

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

​

May I find my refuge in

True North today, ever

abiding as the immovable

and unchangeable in the

ever changing sea of life.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: How do you feel

the day went for you

yesterday?

 

me: I felt like I was on

mind altering drugs the

whole day.

 

I was really out of it all

day long.

 

Thank you for asking,

but you know perfectly

well how my day went,

so why do you ask me?

 

Soul: Did it ever occur to

you that I might enjoy

hearing you share your

heart with me as you

give voice to your

experience?

 

It also forces you to

consciously acknow-

ledge your day which

was a gift.

 

You so rarely allow the

contents of your experi-

ence to even register

with you.

 

me: I will be more

cognizant of that in the

future.

 

Like I shared, it was a

strange day. I felt mild

nausea, dizziness and

I saw a lot more light

than I usually do.

 

There was light pouring

out of everything.

 

I didn't trust the body

because it felt like I was

hydroplaning all day.

 

Soul: What do you mean

by that?

 

me: It felt like I was

floating an inch or two

above the ground rather

than making solid contact

with it.

 

It was like trying to stay

vertical on a surfboard while

trying to ride the waves

of life.

 

Soul: Why didn't you ask

for help?

 

me: It just didn't occur to

me.

 

Soul: I know that you grew

up hearing the message,

"God helps those who help

themselves."

 

But the truth is, "God helps

those who ask for help."

 

If you want to act like you

are a Lone Ranger, however,

I will be supportive of that

too.

 

You have opened your eyes

and your heart so much

in the last 30 or so days.

 

You are loving yourself

so tenderly, especially the

parts of you for which

you used to feel so much

guilt and shame, and you

usually cringed every 

time it returned to con-

scious awareness.

 

It can take the body

a minute to catch up with

all of that expansion.

 

Light is returning, in your

awareness, to parts of you

that have been estranged

for so long.

​

And that estrangement is

something you have done

to yourself.

​

No one else did it to you.

 

I am not saying that you

are changing your energy,

for energy is energy.

 

This is what the more famous

voices in the spiritual

marketplace have taught.

 

You are simply opening up

to what has always been

there with more softness

than you ever have; in other

words, without resistance.

 

Because of this, you are

experiencing the body

rapidly letting go of old

things it no longer needs.

 

This is because you are

no longer living your life

from the bottom three

chakras, all of which is

survival based living...

occurring from the

outside in.

 

That was and is a very

primitive fear-based

experience.

 

You have entered into

the domain of the sacred

heart.

 

This is a period of un-

paralleled expansion

which is happening

under conditions of

both high pressure and

terminal velocity.

 

You will feel better

tomorrow.

 

Hang in there.

 

And remember to be

grateful.

 

Many who have meditated

for decades and have been

quite earnest about their

practices have not had the

opportunity to experience

what you are witnessing

unfold within you.

 

You might consider re-

framing your narrative

a bit.

 

The experience would go

smoother for you if

you did.

 

It is the same experience,

however you are meeting

it with trust and an open

heart, rather than trying

to push it away or think

something is wrong.

 

Nor are you wallowing in

self-pity or trying to

control what is hap-

pening to either your-

self or others.

 

You now undersand that

life will always give

you instant feedback by

mirroring back to you

what you are doing to

yourself.

 

This is not so much a case

of asking yourself, "How am

I being this way toward

myself?"

 

For that is the ole meaning-

making-machine of the

personal self or ego using

endless distractions in an

effort to get you bogged

down or even lost in the

details.

​

Why do the details of dream

content matter when none

of it really happened in

the first place?

 

That is all about you living

your life in perpetual survival

mode, which will always

bring you more and more

survival based experiences.

 

You see?

 

Like attracts like.

 

Wouldn't you rather be so

kind, gracious and loving

with yourself, that the

universe cannot help but

open its storehouse to you,

showering you with so many

blessings that your cup is

constantly running over?

 

When there are no more

edges nor depth to your

loving of yourself, there

will be no more edges

or depth to your receiving.

 

And that receiving includes

everything that has always

been yours and meant

for you.

 

Never forget that.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

​

 

This little heart of mine,

I'm gonna let it shine.

 

Let it shine.

 

Let it shine.

 

All the time.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Today is an important

day in the time line of my life...

 

As you well know, it is the

anniversary of my mother's

death.

 

I don't really remember

that much about her.

 

She was so sick most of my

life until her death by cancer.

​

We were all so young when

she died.

​

I was oldest, yet still just

a teen.

​

I remember only snippets

here and there...

 

It is a sorrowful reminder

that she was a deeply

trauma informed human

being, and because of it,

a deeply dysfunctional

mother.

 

But I had Beautiful Lady

as a guide ( I saw and

experienced her but no

one else in my family did)

and she was the perfect

example of mother-

hood for me...

 

I am grateful that grace

saw to it that I was not alone

in my suffering. I had someone

who was always helping me

face and feel my feelings,

not only as I was experiencing

them, but with clearer eyes

and a generous heart.

 

And she was always there

to comfort me in a way that

few ever have experienced

comfort.

 

So thank you.

 

There is no need to thank you

and then thank her because

I know we are all the same now---

it's all so that one singular

energy can express and

experience itself.

 

You know, I had a huge

epiphany this morning while

having my quiet time.

 

Soul: Do tell.

 

me: As you well know, my only

spiritual practices for this

decade have been to love myself

more and more and to accept

life on life's terms, realizing

we are all always on the soul's

journey and no one, including

myself, is doing anything wrong.

 

But it occurred to me today,

and clear as a bell I might add,

that all of my life I have been

actively denying the truth of

my own being and that has not

only been the pink elephant

in the room, it is a blatant

denial of what is.

 

This goes hand-in-hand with

what you said yesterday

about the idea of me being

the biggest illusion of all.

 

Talk about a 2 x 4 upside the

head!

 

The ole projector of this mad

cap Curly shuffle got a good

look at what she had been up to

and realized that the buck

stops here.

 

It stopped me dead in my

tracks!

 

Soul: Those are the kind of

epiphanies that really count

because when they happen,

they precipitate a shift

that applies to absolutely

everything going forward.

 

Want to leave things here for

the day?

 

me: I would. It is a bit of a

melancholy kind of day 

and I want to truly be with

me and be there for me.

 

Soul: Never forget that I am

here to comfort you too, to

comfort you and get you

through.

 

For it is in UNION that we

are invincible!

​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

​

Thank you for all the ups

and downs, the good times

and tough times and

everything in between.

 

It's a wonderful life.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: There has been a speed

up of everything alright. I can't

believe that it is November al-

ready.

 

Soul: Time, as you mentioned

before, is an illusion.

 

In truth, there is only the

Infinite and Eternal NOW.

 

But in this world, which is

itself an illusion, I am certain

you have felt time both

speed up and seemingly

stand still.

 

That in and of itself should be

proof enough of its illusory

nature.

 

But this is a whole other

topic that we have no need

of discussing at the moment.

 

For now, let us move

forward with our current

trajectory.

 

How does that sit with

you?

 

me: If feels like staying

on point rather than getting

all squirrel-ly and doing

a lot of talking about

things that may be inter-

esting, but are helpful

to no one.

​

In other words, seek but

do not find, a whole lot

of distraction utilizing

seemingly spiritual

sincerity & earnestness.

 

Where do we start today?

 

Soul: Would you like to

take a guess what the final

illusion actually is?

 

me: I have no idea.

 

Soul: I know you are

familiar with the Zen koan

which says:

 

If a tree falls in the forest

and there is no one there

to hear it, does it make

a sound?

 

me: Yeah. I know it and

I actually use it from time

to time when the situation

fits.

 

Soul: What does it mean to

you?

 

me: Well..it means that there

is no sound, no tree, no forest.

 

Because in order to have them,

it takes an observer.

 

It takes both a subject + object

to create an image that is

experienceable.

 

In addition, if projection

makes perception, if we are

here to realize that we are

living life from the inside out,

then there can be no ob-

server, because there is no

projector creating either

the images of forest, tree

or sound in the first place.

 

Soul: So what does your

heart tell you is the greatest

and final illusion?

 

me: Well, that would have

to be me!

 

There was a time when I

thought that that was the

most terrifying idea I had

ever heard expressed.

​

Soul: So how do you think

that applies to the koan?

​

me: Well...if it takes both a

projector and an observer

and there is none, then

bye bye world.

​

It's a case of the disappearance

of the universe!

 

But I think I actually get

where we are headed with

this.

 

It is not saying that I do

not exist, nor is it saying

that I did exist but am now

going to be annihilated.

 

It is saying that the one I

thought of as me is an

illusion.

 

And the more I love myself,

and the less resistance I have

to settling deeper and deeper

into my heart so earnestly,

lovingly and with complete &

utter transparency, the more

clearly I see that what I have

been searching for all of my life

is what I have always been..

 

Namely, YOU!!!

 

And that would mean that

the whole purpose of this form

and phenomena experiment

was so that you could ex-

perience who you are through

all of us.

 

And the funny thing is that

everything that has happened

to me, everything I did or did

not do, was not for anyone else

in my life (which you know and

I know I had previously thought).

 

It was not to gain anyone else's

approval, love or affection, it was

so that I could be loved by me!

​

You knew that all of these

experiences would guide me

gently and sometimes no so

gently back to my heart.

 

I need some time to sit with

all of this for awhile.

 

Mind if we leave it at this for

today?

 

Soul: Of course not.

 

May the wings of peace

carry you deeper into the

One Heart shared by all...

the One which has no

second.

​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

​

No words today.

 

Only silence.

 

Silence, awe and

gratitude.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I can't believe how fast

life is throwing things at me

and everyone else I know

these days...

 

There is no time to rest and

catch your breath before

the next wave hits.

 

The funny thing is that I

would have used the word

'problems' before.

 

But they just don't feel

like problems to me

anymore.

 

Just life being life....

 

Although you never

ever talk about spiritual

symbology in the world

of form, I cannot help

but believe that there is

some truth to it.

 

Major plumbing issues

symbolizing getting rid

of old habits, patterns

and behaviors that no

longer represent who I

am and all the flooding

symbolizing the HUGE

influx of Spirit into my

awareness.

 

I suspect these as well as

other things that have hit

my life like a two-by-four

of late have been brought

on by the celestial speedup

you told me about...

 

Soul: There is something

so beautiful and rare that

is happening to you and

everyone else on this

planet right now...

 

Don't expect any relief

anytime soon.

 

You are, afterall, only half

way through this decade.

 

And yes, the celestial speedup

necessitates that I toss you

a curve ball every now and

then, the experience of dys-

ruption; things such as

pain, misfortune and life

generally not going the way

that you want it to.

 

me: It helps having this

new perspective on things.

 

I can't believe I used to

think that whenever life

didn't go my way, that I

had done something

wrong.

​

Like it was my J.O.B. to

prop the whole world up

and keep it running right...

 

It all seems so superstitious

and exhausting to realize

I used to sincerely believe

that horse you-know-what.

 

Life is so much sweeter when

you can lean back in trust

and allow life to carry you.

 

I am always perfectly

on time in my unfolding

and comparison is

the only devil I know.

​

Comparing yourself and

your journey to someone

else's will take you nowhere

fast!

 

And I really and truly see

that living from the inside

out means it no longer

matters what happens or

doesn't happen....because

peace is a current which

flows no matter what

from the innermost depths

of my being.

​

I seem to have taken up

residence in the eye of the

storm.

 

Life happens...and keeps on

happening...

 

But peace is the singular

constant in my life as are

you.

 

So what else are we going

to chat about today?

 

Soul: I really would like to

hear more about the shifts

you are experiencing as a

result of the loving, open,

transparent and vulnerable

relationship we are culti-

vating and enjoying.

 

What you are noticing?

 

me: I am having moments

in which I sincerely cherish

what I am feeling because

what I am beginning to feel

is a blending or mixing 

of you and I.

 

You know, what I mean.

 

I have moments

where I can no longer

tell where I end and you

begin.

 

In other words, I am ex-

periencing real glimpses

of Oneness with you.

 

Moments where it is no

longer terrifying to me

to say that you and I are

one and the same.

​

I can say those words

and mean them without

fearing that a lightening

bolt from out of nowhere

is going to suddenly appear

and strike me dead.

 

And the more I feel this

happening between us,

the more I feel that same

oneness when I am out

and about in the world

that I encounter.

 

And people are being so

kind and helpful to me.

 

I have never had so many

strangers make an effort to

chat me up, put my groceries

in the car, teach me a new

yoga move or simply smile

and sparkle as they give me

a big hug.

 

I'm talking total strangers!

 

And when all this happens,

I see that there is no such

thing as a stranger...I keep

encountering my own sweet

self.

​

And I am precious...so very

precious. I can see that now.

And more importantly, I

truly feel it.

 

And before you know it, I am

falling ever more deeply

in love all over again and again

and again....

 

Soul: That is so precious

to hear. Music to my ears

if I had ears...let's just say

our big beautiful ever

expansive heart.

 

Remember when I told you

that for something to repre-

sent heaven's justice in this

world, that it had to create

a win/win situation for

everyone involved?

 

me: I do remember that.

 

Soul: Well, I, too, am receiving

something very important

from this partnership we

are sharing, you and I.

 

me: What could you possibly

get from me?

 

Soul: You know...I find it all

rather disheartening when

I hear you talk like that.

 

me: It's just that you are

everything that I have always

yearned to be.

 

Remember when I was a little

girl and I had to memorize

the Beatitudes from the

New Testament?

 

My favorite was always

"Blessed are the pure in heart,

for they shall see God."

 

That is what I wanted more

than anything else in this

whole wide world.

 

Soul: And my answer has

never and will never change.

 

Your heart has always been

pure, child...

 

Lets get back to sharing what

I am receiving and enjoying

from our deepening bond.

 

As you get to know me, meaning

as you get to experience

who you are, I get to experience

who I am.

 

That is an amazing thing.

 

We truly are amazing, wouldn't

you say?

 

me: I would!

 

Soul: Let's just keep working

on that for awhile.

 

(1) Allowing our loving relation-

ship to deepen and expand.

 

(2) The expansion of your

awareness of our Oneness.

 

(3) Experiencing this same

oneness with all whom you

encounter.

 

(4) Recognizing that this

human thing is all about

a discovery of who and

what we are and bringing

that consciously to the

world.

 

me: Sounds like a plan.

 

I love you so very much

because I love myself.

 

No need to say see you

tomorrow because there is

an awareness of this amazing

sweet presence with me

all the time now.

 

Like being swaddled and

cocooned in the arms of

LOVE!

 

Thank you for my life. I

love it so much...

 

Soul: It is a grand and

glorious thing to begin

to feel the truth.

​

And an even grander

thing to live it consciously!

​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

​

Thank you joy.

 

Thank you happiness.

 

Thank you peace.

 

Thank you for the ONE

LIFE that it is our great

good fortune to live.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I usually let you pick

the subject matter we

discuss, but I am asking

permission to do so for

today.

 

Soul: Go for it.

 

me: For those who read

these daily offerings and

are not familiar with a lot

of my back story, I would

like to set the tone for

today by describing an

experience I had which

occurred in 2010 when

I was in Indiana visiting

my family of origin for

the holidays.

 

I was staying at my sister's

home and following, to the

best of my ability, my

usual morning routine

which included (at that time)

getting up at 3:00 AM and

reading the daily workbook

lesson from ACIM and then

meditating on it.

 

I was in a deeply quiet and

peaceful state when all of

a sudden I came out of my

reverie because I smelled

cigarette smoke.

 

I was seated at the kitchen

table and as I looked up,

I saw that my sister was

seated at the opposite end

of the table smoking a cig-

arette while enjoying a

cup of coffee.

 

Further, she was also

staring me down.

 

But that was not what

captured my attention.

 

Pouring forth from her

every pore like Niagra

Falls, there was the most

amazing golden light

which was emanating 

from her.

 

While her hand was busy

going back and forth from

her mouth, busily puffing

on her cigarette, I was

dumbstruck by all the

golden light.

 

This was the moment that

I made a complete break

from every religion, every

teacher, gurus, etc., and

I surrendered to you as

my one-and-only teacher,

or inner guide.

 

For the first time in my

entire life, I placed more

value on what you had to

share with me than what

the world did or what any

other person thought for

that matter.

 

You were, and continue

to be, the lamp of truth

I trust.

​

Only You.

 

I took my sister and her

three daughters to a movie

that afternoon.

​

This was such a big deal for 

them because they had

never been taken to a

theater in their entire lives!

​

That is how poor they were.

​

She was a single mom trying

to raise three kids by herself.

 

The movie happened to be

Secretariat.

 

I sat in the very top row of

the theater while they sat

somewhere in the middle.

 

I did not really watch

the movie.

 

I was far too mesmerized by

the fact that I saw the same

golden light pouring forth

from each person who

happened to be seated

in the theater.

 

It was then that I knew,

through direct experience,

that we do not need saving,

we are not broken, we do

not need fixing, changing,

healing or upgrading.

 

We are, whether we know it

or not, always at home

in the very Being of God and

nothing can ever or has ever

changed that.

 

So why pursue liberation

at all?

 

And liberation from what,

pray tell?

 

It was clear to me then

and it is clear to me now

that the only reason to

pursue anything at all

is to bring forth the Truth

that is always true into our

Conscious Awareness.

​

And end the reign of

suffering.

 

Since that day I have

witnessed this light around

all things.

 

I was really shocked when

I saw it streaming from

a boom box that wasn't

even plugged into anything!

 

I saw it streaming from

every tree, every blade of

grass, the birds, cars, my

little dog, telephone poles

and even floating up from

the asphalt on the street!

 

In awe, a thought arose:

 

This truly is God's world.

 

Who am I to doubt what

happens or think I know

best?

 

So I am bringing this subject

up today because since we

began these dialogues with

one another, the feeling

tonality of that experience

is beginning to shift radically.

 

Back then and until recently,

it was a happy recognition, one

for which I felt gratitude and,

with time, became something

I felt deeply anchored in.

 

But the feeling was more

or less one of complete

acceptance and equanimity.

 

I bring it up today, because I

am experiencing a huge shift

in that experience.

 

There is a squeezing sen-

sation in my heart chakra

and it feels like I have caught

on fire as I observe this light

from everyone and everything.

 

And there is an outpouring

of the deepest love and

affection followed by a sense

that what I love and adore

about whomever or whatever

is standing before me is what

I love and adore within myself,

namely, the presence of YOU.

 

You are the only soulmate,

the twin flame of this heart

and every heart.

 

Who gets me like you get me?

 

Who knows what this heart

yearns for more than you?

 

Who is the unsung hero of my

very existence?

 

Who made sure I saw a different

way than the one my family of

origin had and is following,

and made certain I picked

another door to walk through...

​

When the deck was actually

stacked against me and it

would have been so much

easier (and predictable)

for me to follow the status

quo and do what I had

witnessed being lived by

those closest to me?

 

All of this is but to say,

thank you.

 

Thank you from the bottom

of my heart.

 

Forever and forever I will

sing your praises, shouting

it from the rooftops to my

very last breath.

 

I am so grateful we do not

need to be religious.

 

We do not need to find

a teacher.

 

We do not need to travel

anywhere in order to find

the clarity and peace we

seek.

 

We only need to watch

our breath, say yes to

exploring a conscious re-

lationship with you, and

commence upon the

greatest love affair of all

time... with the most mind

blowing and brainwash 

shattering union with

ourselves!

​

The Divine and the human

now one and the same;

realizing that they always

were.

 

If you want to share anything

with me, now would be

the time to do it because

I think this is more than

enough for today and

we can begin our regular

dialogue again tomorrow.

 

Soul: Our heart is indeed full.

 

I thank you. Yes, you have

been very very blessed in this

lifetime but let us not forget

that none of this would have

happened at this time had y

ou not been fully willing and

made yourself available.

 

May you go about your day

knowing the freedom and the

peace for which you have always

longed and which you both

value and cherish.

​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Humbly and thankfully

I bow before the light

which we forever are.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: We are ready to

begin a conversation on

the most difficult of all

stumbling blocks to

Clear Seeing.

 

You have already been

addressing the subject of

acceptance and loving

yourself.

 

And more than ever, I see

you relaxing and leaning

into all of your experiences

openheartedly, welcoming

the isness of all your

experiences without wanting

them to be different or

simply go away.

 

However, there is one

obstacle which stands

head and shoulders above

all the rest in terms of

difficulty.

 

Would you like to take

a guess at what that is?

 

me: I wouldn't begin

to know.

 

Soul: It is the idea of

control.

 

You really will not see

or experience any of

the peace or rest for

which the heart longs

until you allow the

belief that you have

control over anything

that happens in your

life, the lives of those

whom you love, the

decisions they make

or this world, to finally

die on the vine once

and for all.

 

Day in and day out, if

you are observant, you

see the suffering of human-

kind which is unleashed

because they actually

believe that if they try

hard enough, they can

influence, direct and

control the outcomes

of their lives.

 

They tilt at their windmills

while gnashing their teeth,

and if things go their way,

they strut around like

proud turkeys.

 

And if they do not go their

way, they wallow in fear

and self-pity, believing

they have somehow failed

because things did not go

right, rather, they went

all pear shaped and

suffering and hardship

ensued.

 

Success in your world is

defined by who is able to

take dominion over their

own world (and the world's

of those whom they love)

as well as that of the col-

lective human experience,

and by thus controlling

others.

 

Is that not the way of your

world?

 

me: You nailed it.

 

Good thing my Identity is

not mine to control, enhance

or diminish, let alone,

destroy.

 

However, as you have so

often reminded me, I am

quite capable of destroying

my awareness of it and

I have done so repeatedly

in the past.

 

Good thing time isn't real

either.

 

God...I wish I understood why

in the h-e-double toothpicks

we are having this human

experience in the first place.

​

We had it blissfully sublime

before all of the hullabaloo

when the cosmos formed

and we started this whole

thing of incarnating on the

hamster wheel of life as we

now know it.

 

I know...

 

I know...

 

You have told me that I am here

to usher in a new way of being

human.

 

But this does not explain things

for me in enough detail.

​

After all, if we had all stayed in

our own lane and rested in the

Divine where we were, no one

would have ever needed to know

a new way of being human.

​

And...no one know what suffering

and misery felt like.

 

What I am asking is why did

all of this unfold in the first place?

 

Why did the big bang happen,

setting all of these wheels into

motion?

 

Soul: You are very close to

knowing the answer to this

question in your direct

experience.

​

What would my telling you

the answer to this question

mean to you without a direct

experience of it?

 

Because when you experience

the answer, the question will

no longer matter to you.

 

Can you keep trusting me and

listening daily?

 

For I promise you that you

will know the answer as

decisively as you know that

when you sit down and listen

with an open heart each morn-

ing that it is "I" whom you 

encounter and we commune

with each another heart-to-heart.

 

me: I can do that.

 

My dad always said that I tried

to live life so fast, never pausing

to stop and smell the roses.

 

Soul: Well that is what these

dialogues have been all about.

 

Learning to be here now, not

missing a single instant, seeing

each moment as an opportunity

to love even more.

 

But for today, it is enough

for you to notice how often

you run away from the moment,

seeking a better one, a

different one, and, return to

the breath with an open heart

and loving what is as it is in

the sure and certain knowledge

that you have no control over

anything, nor does anyone else.

 

And, more importantly, you

do not have to waste time

trying to control because I've

got you and all of this.

​

You know this because you

trust me.

 

Can you see that the ability

to relinquish the idea that you

ever had any control over

anything in the first place

hinges on the degree to which

you have mastered the trust

lesson?

 

me: I do see that.

 

I will practice being here...really

and truly being here...for what

is here as it is...doing this for

myself...for others...loving myself

and what is without reservation

or fear with all of my heart.

 

Soul: Great. May LOVE light

your way, shining on everything

you experience today.

 

For I promise you, it always

does.

​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Help me surrender in each

moment to being led, rather

than trying to be the first one

out of the gate, grabbing

that bull called life by the

horns in an effort to seize

control of what was never

mine to control in

the first place.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Yesterday I asked you

to reflect on what you feel

the trust lesson is all about.

 

Where do you feel trust is

not only an asset, but vital

to your freedom?

 

me: Well...I have given it

a lot of thought. Not just

since we talked yesterday,

but for the past 25 years

which is how long it has

been since you first brought

the subject up with me.

 

Soul: Have you come to

any conclusions or had

any big epiphanies?

 

me: Not really.

 

Soul: You can make the trust

lesson very simple or deeply

complex.

 

Because we need trust in

every moment of our lives.

 

That being said, you could

say that the answer is that

there are as many different

reasons to trust as there are

people and experiences to be

to be felt in this world.

 

But really we can simplify

this to a few key ideas.

 

First of all, it is important

to believe there is a God or

a Higher Power, some

Infinite Intelligence that

created everything that is

and that this Intelligence

is guiding its creation

toward a union or joining

of Itself with itself.

 

To believe that this Infinite

Universe is a completely

random event is like be-

lieving that the unabridged

dictionary was formed

from an explosion in a

printing press.

 

How likely is that?

 

And more than this, we need

to feel that this Power cares

for us and wants our happi-

ness, our joy and our com-

plete freedom.

 

So from the tiniest amoeba

to the grandest nebula, this

Intelligence lovingly watches

over each of us, showering

our lives with grace and

works with us in every single

moment of our lives.

 

Next, it is important to know,

in your heart of hearts, that

the truest part of you is One

with this Intelligence.

 

This has always been the case.

 

There has never been a single

instant when this was not

the truth.

 

Your humanity is never in

conflict with this part of you,

nor does it have the power

to impact it or change it

in any way.

 

So it is my humble request

that you reflect on these key

ideas today.

 

Do you believe in a Higher

Power that has created

this universe and is deeply

involved with its creation?

 

Do you know this Power

loves you completely and

unconditionally?

 

Do you believe this Power

is in control of everything,

and that your puny efforts

to control or mastermind

outcomes is nothing more

that you tilting at windmills?

 

Do you have faith that

you, your loved ones, every-

one and everything is on

the Soul's journey and you

cannot mess it up, nor can

they?

 

Because if you really do

feel this deeply inside, what

is there to stress or fret over?

 

me: You certainly have done

an excellent job of keeping

things simple.

 

Notice I said simple, not

easy.

 

But I am sure that as one's

trust grows, it becomes

increasingly more simple

and even natural.

 

You know that you know

that you know and you

have so much evidence

to support how loved and

cared for you actually are

and that your life is so

filled with the miraculous,

that faith is as effortless

and natural as is breathing.

 

After all, you have already

said that it is much easier to

accept that truth is true

than it is to keep trying to

prop up a lie, no matter

how valiant your efforts.

 

And let me just interject

here that if we are going to

keep asking ourselves, "how

does this feel?", then truth

feels wonderful, perhaps even

blissful and keeping that

house of cards that the lie

is built on up in the air on

a daily basis stresses me out

of my ever lovin' gourd.

 

Is this where we end for

today?

 

Soul: I would like you to

reflect today on what you

believe is true and see if

you can settle into that so

deeply that it anchors you

to your own True North

where you can readily feel

the truth of everything that

I have shared.

 

Me: Deal. Tomorrow then.

​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

It is such a relief that nothing

actually depends on me.

 

Thank you for always having

all of our six, both individually

and collectively.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Let's first clear the air

regarding language.

 

Words like God, Soul, Holy

Spirit, Christ, Absolute, Allah,

Infinite Intelligence and Divine

are synonyms for the same

ineffable presence.

 

Do you know why the Jewish

people were instructed not to

use the "God"?

 

me: No.

 

Soul: It was because once you

name something, once you

speak it, it is already not it.

 

You have reduced the Infinite

to the finite.

 

It is a bit like what the Buddha

(also a synonym) meant by

the phrase, "Finger pointing

at the moon."

 

What he was saying was,

do not mistake the finger

for the moon, look at

what the finger is

pointing to.

 

It was not just because the

word God was so holy that

you shouldn't even try to

think the word, let alone,

hold it unspoken in your

mouth.

​

The Jewish people wrote

the word for God this way:

​

G _ D.

​

See?  Finger pointing at

the moon.

 

My point being, you have

been listening to me for

a very long time.

 

Everyone who thinks they

are here has.

 

And one day you will stop

denying what you are and

you will know that you

are simply me in human

form.

 

We are one and the same.

 

Do you remember how

I have always told you to

trust yourself?

 

Oh how you would wrestle

with that and struggle so...

 

Invariably you would ask

me, "How do I trust myself

when I do not even have

a clue who I am?"

 

"I know what scriptures say

about who I am, and I know

what those whom we have

referred to as Masters have

told us, but I have no direct

experience of who I am."

 

"And I do not have any

memory of who or what

I am either."

 

me: Well you know that the

reason I did not know

who I was, was because I

spent my whole life being

a chameleon.

 

When you grow up in a

deeply dysfunctional

environment, you spend

your whole life trying to

figure out who others

want you to be and jump

through those hoops as

best you can.

 

(Getting along and a

peaceful environment

being the only things

that matter to you.)

 

And no matter how hard

you tried, it was never

enough.

 

Now I know that you cannot

expect someone to love,

cherish and respect you

when they do not love,

cherish and respect them-

selves.

 

That, and living life from

the outside in.

​

The people in my life

expected me to fill the

empty holes they felt

inside of themselves.

 

That never works out for

anyone.

 

The value or lack there of

that they place upon you

means more to you than

how you feel about

yourself...which is so sad...

 

Soul: Maybe we should save

our discussion on trust

for tomorrow.

​

This has been quite a lot

of ground that we have

covered already.

​

You have much to think

about.

 

Could you do a couple of

things for us today?

 

me: Of course.

 

Soul: The first is to reflect on

what you think I am asking

you to trust.

 

The second is the reflect on the

word Namaste.

 

Anyone who has attended a

new age church or a yoga class

is very familiar with the word

already.

 

It is a Sanskrit word meaning,

"The God in me bows before

(or recognizes and honors)

the God in you.

 

If you are still unable to accept

our Oneness, and therefore,

your Oneness with everyone

and everything that exists, can

you at the very least ask yourself

today these questions:

 

How does the God in me deserve

to be treated?

 

And then be mindful of your

every thought, word and deed

and treat yourself accordingly.

 

Then ask yourself the question

in every encounter.

 

Because every encounter is

a holy encounter.

 

How does the God in you or

the God in this deserve to be

treated?

 

If you practice with vigilance,

the direct experience of Oneness

will be its fruit.

 

me: Then I will practice with

all my heart.

​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Is it not strange to feel

that the further I travel

this pathless path that

leads me to Who I am,

the less I seem to know

or understand about

anything?

 

Good thing my under-

standing is not a pre-

requisite.

 

Thank God for grace.

 

Without it, we would all

be like a one legged man

in an ass kicking contest.

 

Let me practice peace

in every step.

 

And help me keep it

as simple and straight-

forward as that.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: You are incredibly

fortunate for so many

reasons.

 

One of the most important

things you have to be thankful

for is that your birthright gives

you permission to walk away

from anything which is not

harmonious, peaceful and calm.

 

Ask yourself often, "How does

this make me feel?"

 

If the answer is not peaceful

and calm, then it is not for you.

 

Could anything be simpler

than this?

 

me: You know... I am doing

this for the most part.

 

If something is not in alignment

with my heart, if it does not

enhance my awareness of peace,

then I leave it without a second

thought.

 

I spent far too many decades

being a people pleaser, caring

more about what others thought

than I did about how a thing

made me feel.

 

The world chases what it believes

will help it remain relevant and

hopefully, popular in the

mainstream.

 

No more.

 

I clearly recognize if something

is not for me, that I do not want

to participate in it because

I remain keenly aware of how

it feels in this body.

 

Living by this principle sure

has emptied out my dance card.

 

But do I care?

 

Less and less these days.

 

If being human was a popularity

contest, I would be the biggest

loser.

 

But in being the loser, I win.

 

There is a way of living in this

world that is oh-so-peaceful

because it has no strings

attached, no expectations

and absolutely no drama

associated with it.

 

As for me, I am so attached

to feeling good that I am

like the princess and the pea,

my tolerance for B.S. is

gone!

 

Peaceful, happy and free

feels so good, there is no

way I would go back to

trying to live the old way...

 

Soul: That is the music

of the spheres that

you are singing, beloved.

 

Can you do that more

and more?

 

Be completely in touch

with how something feels

and walk away if it is not

in harmony with your

heart?

 

me: Yes! You don't have

to ask me twice.

 

Soul: Tomorrow, then.

​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

With each peaceful

inhalation, I am Home.

 

With every exhalation,

I share this peace with

all the world.

 

Amen

 

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I figured I would just

jump right on in and con-

tinue where we left off

yesterday.

 

I have been reflecting on

Wednesday's sharing in

which you said that

the whole point of being

human was to make

LOVE a realty in this

world.

 

So that is the singular purpose

of each and every one of us.

 

And whether we are a butcher,

a baker or a candlestick

maker....what we do in terms

of vocation is just a window

dressing.

 

It has nothing to do with

purpose.

 

It is the window dressing that

draws folks in through the

front door because the real

stuff is what is happening

inside of the store.

 

Therefore, the real work

is the same for each and

every one of us.

 

We are here to make LOVE

a reality in this world

by making it a conscious

reality in our experience.

 

In other words, throughout

all of our humanity.

 

And because LOVE cannot

limit itself, the totality of

what LOVE is is flowing

through all of us whether

we feel that effulgence

or not.

 

But when we do not have

a direct experience of it,

we experience suffering.

 

And I truly feel that I will

see the end of suffering

within my lifetime.

 

So our work is to bring

the conscious awareness

of LOVE's Presence to

the forefront of our

experience.

 

Can you imagine it?

 

Being able to consciously

imbue all of our thoughts,

words and deeds with

the reality of LOVE?

 

But my question is this...

 

How can one bring the

reality of LOVE to the world

if they know nothing

of it themselves?

​

They cannot. You have

already told me that the

world is as I am.

​

So if it's there, but I do

not experience it, can

the world experience it

either?

​

Isn't that more of a "do

as I say, not as I do" sort

of situation?

 

Soul: Good point.

 

me: I have seen, felt

and witnessed the power

of LOVE's Presence in my

life in ways too numerous

to count.

 

I think about the childhood

that I experienced and I

cannot help but marvel

in awe at how LOVE

redeemed me from a life

that was headed either

for suicide, going postal

or ending up committed

for life to a mental

institute.

 

That is a miracle that leaves

me speechless each and

every day!

 

And here I feel our mantra

from the other day is

very very important.

 

They are all the same.

 

This is the same.

 

That is the same.

 

All equal in beauty,

in value, in perfection

and Oneness, whether

they happen to know

it or not.

​

I so I extend gratitude,

honor and respect to it/them

no matter what.

 

Therefore, my humble

prayer is this:

 

May I be a conscious living

embodiment of a LOVE

that has neither limit

nor bounds.

 

Soul: And so it is.

 

me: Amen and Amen.

​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

I surrender all...

 

Amen

 

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Do you remember the

quote Pam had behind

her desk at Mobil Oil?

 

You saw it the very first

time you went to visit her

at work and commented

on it at the time because

it had affected you deeply.

 

me: I most certainly do.

 

I think of it often and it

continues to help me see

clearly, remain truly loving

and stay in my lane.

 

It was a quote by Harry

S. Truman.

 

"It is amazing what you can
accomplish if you do not care
who gets the credit."

 

I was gobsmacked by it, both

then and now.

 

And it facilitated a huge shift

for me because prior to reading

the quote and allowing it to sift

through my being, I had a huge

grievance against most of the

people in my life.

 

They would use my words

and I could see the measurable

difference that I had been for

them, yet they rarely, if ever,

said thank you or recognized

the role I had played in their

lives.

 

Pam had said that she had

learned it as a Vice President

at Mobil because she was

responsible for managing

a lot of people, the vast

majority of whom were men.

 

She saw her purpose as that of

succeeding by helping lift up

others to that they could be

successful.

 

She was such an amazing friend.

 

I also learned this when I read

the Bhagavad Gita for the first

time.

 

Krishna says to Arjuna in

chapter two that there are two

impediments to the path of

a seeker:

 

(a) attachment to the effort

and (b) attachment to the

fruits of the effort.

 

I had a lot to learn about the

true nature of LOVE and

giving.

 

And what I discovered is that

if it is not done with an open

hand and heart, it does not

count.

 

All it does is create further

division and separation.

 

And we are supposed to be

"in" the world. This means

involved, rubbing elbows,

caring and participating..

 

All while not being "of" it.

 

Soul: Well put.

 

Now lets look at what is

happening in your world

today.

 

It is more important than

ever that you know what

your role in this world

actually is and that you

keep that awarness clearly

in your sights at all times.

 

In other words, that you

stay on point with that

purpose consciously.

 

What do you feel your role

has been?

 

Because I can assure you,

you have been fulfilling it

since you were very small.

 

me: Let's see....

 

Mind of we leave it at this

for today and return to the

conversation tomorrow

when we talk?

 

Soul: Of course not.

 

I actually love it when you

give yourself time to reflect

and contemplate on what

is true for you and then put

your entire being into

your answer.

 

Tomorrow then.

 

me: And can I just quickly

say that I absolutely love

our daily chats?

 

Soul: Of course we LOVE

them!

 

Until the Dancer has become

consciously ONE with their

partner, it takes two to tango,

does it not?

 

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Wow. Not many things

leave me speechless

and dumbfounded.

 

Help me be a bringer

of peace in a world that

has yet to discover it

for themselves.

 

Amen

 

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: I want to remind you today

of something I whispered to

your heart when you were only

9 years old...sitting in a church

pew contemplating the meaning

of life.

 

There was a time when you thought

of it every day, but it has been a

long time since you have recalled

how powerful a message it actually

was and still is.

 

I came armed against argument.

I was ready for rhetoric.

But I had no defense against LOVE.

 

Remember how those words shook

the very ground beneath your feet? 

 

me: I do remember. And it hit

me that way because I recognized

the truth of it.

 

And I recognized the truth of it

because it was my truth...

The truth about my budding

relationship with you.

 

I never made it easy for anybody

to love me. But it was LOVE

that broke through my defenses.

 

Soul: This decade is very important.

 

The pandemic brought all the world

together like nothing else has

since the catastrophic events of

9/11/2001.

 

There has never been a more diverse

time in human history, yet look at

what these times have spawned?

 

You have all joined with one another

in spectacular ways because of it.

 

It's been a real defining moment

for humanity as a species.

 

This is because the return to LOVE

is not a solo sport.

 

You are experiencing being human

together. And it is not differences

which define you. It is sameness.

 

You are all in the same boat and

everyone intuitively knows that.

 

You have internalized the under-

standing that if God is Infinite,

then everyone happens to be right

for them.

 

And what is right for them does

not require your understanding,

it requires you respect and

acceptance.

 

So while some still are choosing,

seemingly more than ever, to tilt

at their particular windmills,

there are actually more people

than ever before who are choosing

respect, kindness and loving 

themselves.

 

How equalizing is that?

 

And if everyone is right, then no one

has to hose the deck with testosterone

in order to make a point or to prove

they are right, just as no one can be

more right than anyone else.

 

Here's the deal...

 

You cannot make sense of

the truth of LOVE.

 

You cannot label it or put it in

a box.

 

It belongs to everyone because

it is their birthright.

 

This means that you were born

qualified and ready for this.

 

Everyone was and is.

 

Therefore, it cannot be owned

by any particular person  or

group of people.

 

Love does not promote anything.

 

Not a particular religion, culture,

geographic location, quality or

characteristic of human being.

 

It collapses every paradigm and

it shifts the very ground beneath

one's feet, revealing Oneness.

 

And it systematically breaks down

all the barriers that each of you

have placed around the most

tender part of you; your heart.

 

LOVE magically and mysteriously

transcends every difference

and renders them meaningless.

 

So revel today that you are alive

at such an important time.

 

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Heart and eyes wide open,

I embrace you dear world...

 

Thank you thank you thank

you for the opportunity to

dance with you at this time.

 

Amen

 

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Ready to jump right in

today, or would you like

to share first.

 

me: No. I'm cool with jumping

right on in.

 

Soul: A few days ago I gave you

an acronym for ego. I said that

ego stands for Edging God Out.

 

In truth, nothing is capable

of edging God out or God would

not be God.

 

What edged God out would now

be would have proved Iself to be

God and what we thought of

as God before, would have re-

vealed Itselv=f to be the lesser.

 

But there can be no lesser!

 

Remember the three O's you

learned in Sunday school?

 

me: Omnipotent, Omniscient

and Omnipresent.

 

Soul: In order to be posess

these three qualities, One

has to be these all the time

or God isn't God.

 

me: That is clear enough.

 

Soul: So what do you think

I was trying to express to you

when I used that particular

acronym?

 

me: Well... my heart tells me

that there is never anything

about me that is getting in the

way of grace being able to do

what grace does; pouring itself

through me perfectly so that

LOVE is expressed in every

single instant through the

totality of human vessel.

 

However, we, when operating

as ego and identifying solely

as ego, we edge God out

of the field of our awareness.

 

In other wordsl we do not get 

to have an experience of God

within our direct awareness.

 

And whenever we do not

experience God, we feel  alone

and we suffer.

 

So it is more of a clarion call

to be consciously aware and

present to our experience,

whatever it happens to be,

so that God is never edged

out of our conscious experi-

ence.

 

I think this is where the

new age folks get the phrase

they so often use of

"Being a co-creator with

God."

 

But whether conscious

or deeply unconscious,

there is nothing that we

can do to thwart the power

or expression of the Divine.

 

Soul: Nicely put. You're

really starting to get

the hang of all of this.

 

me: Thank you for saying

that. I seem to wake up with

more clarity and more peace

each and every day.

 

It is delightful to be alive.

 

Especially at this particular

time in human history. It

feels like people who see clearly

and live peacefully are more

needed than ever.

 

I am not saying for a moment

that LOVE does not reign supreme

at all times and in all ways.

 

But I am saying that not

everyone is experiencing

that LOVE.

 

In fact, the vast majority

are not.

 

And the goal is that we all

see and experience Divinity

all of the time.

 

Then time will have served

its singular purpose and the

Matrix. or maya, will be a one

and done.

 

You know...that whole thing

about all of the chess

pieces going back into the

game board at the end of

the game and put away..

the game now having

been completed...

 

It doesn't require saying us

to say anything to anyone.

 

It is about living it and

allowing our lives to be

a luminous message which

speaks volumes in silence.

 

Soul: So I am going to give

you a mantra to use today.

 

And you can reword it however

you like.

 

But the point is, to get you to

look at how much judgment

and seeing yourself and life

dualistically distract you from

experiencing the light that

you naturally and inherently

always are.

 

They are all the same.

 

This is the same.

 

Everything is equal in beauty,

value, prefection and Oneness.

 

You see, only equals are at

peace.

 

And until you and your world

recognize and feel that equality

consciously. and you appreciate

that equality that is flowing

through you, you will not

experience it directly,

nor will they.

 

It seems like a tall order.

 

But is it really?

 

Doesn't it take far mare

effort to pretend to be what

you are not and can naver be

than to be what you naturally

and inherently are already?

 

me: Amen! You are talking

to the choir on that one@

 

Soul: But you have to see that

no one is un-enlightening you.

 

You cannot even un-enlighten

yourself!

 

You are just not powerful

enough to change Infinity.

 

But you can believe that you

have. And if you believe that

you have, you will experience

that

 

But it does not make it

true, nor can it change the

truth.

 

It is a simply a belief acquired

through your empowerment

to deceive.

 

In other wordsl not seeing

and experiencing perfect

equality.

 

Are you up for it?

 

me: Yes!

 

Soul: Happy practicing.

 

And may the force be with you.

For indeed, it always is.

 

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Thank you that I was born

qualified to the LIGHT

of the world.

 

Amen

 

***