Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: How did your day go

yesterday?

 

me: Each day I experience

with more depth that how

I feel, as well as how I am

experiencing my life, is

both anchored and aligned

in you.

 

I would be lost and adrift

without this communion of

union and connectivity that

we share.

 

It is so clear to me that the

puzzle piece that I had been

missing all of my life was that

of being in an intimate, loving

and fully supportive relationship

with this body, with this mind,

these emotions and with my

experience.

​

I know me...

 

And I can say this because it is

you that makes this possible.

 

The human ego or persona

cannot live this way.

 

It is not equipped for anything

other than trying its best to stay

a step ahead of everyone else

in the game we call life.

​

Steel dipped marshmallows

trying to keep all the plates

spinning so that it looks good

and enviable to those who live

from the outside in.

 

But this isn't living, this is not

life!

 

Human success and riches

mean nothing when compared

to a life that is lived in unity

and harmony with you.

 

There are no words that can

sufficiently express what it

feels like to know myself, to

move in synchronized harmony

with my experience, and to be

able to meet myself, as I am,

with tenderness, compassion,

kindness and empathy however

I happen to show up.

 

This life feels transcendent

to me.

 

Each time I believe that I cannot

possibly live any more trans-

parently than I am, you show me

how much more deeply I can

pour myself into the experience

of being me, which is the gift

we bring to the world.

​

And it requires absolutely

nothing other than my presence,

me actively and consciously

being willing to be genuinely

myself.

​

It's the frequency of this energy

that is your gift to the world.

 

This life...my life...is all I have

to offer this world and I would

not change a thing, even if I

could.

 

No other way of being would feel

genuinely alive and worth living.

 

I know what you would say to me

in answer to this.

 

You are always flowing through

me to this world, regardless.

 

Your presence does not depend

upon whether or not I am aware

or oblivious to you making 

yourself known in this world.

 

You do so through all of us.

 

In this perspective one can begin

to feel more than a bit immaterial.

 

Yet I know that what makes my life

feel beautiful to me is that I feel

your presence living in fusion

with my being.

 

This adds a certain synchronicity

and a harmony, a clear perspective

to all my experiences, which fills

my heart with peace rather than

doubt.

 

And those moments when I

temporarily feel derailed by

my experience of being me

and my life, like yesterday with

the kitty?

 

The pain is unbearable.

 

I feel like the princess and the pea.

​

I do not feel like running away from

the world, I want to run away from

me!

 

What else need be said beyond

this?

​

The pain of trying to be a lone

ranger gets me every time.

 

To be able to bear witness to how

you shine so effulgently through

my humanity when I dare to live

this human experience with

vulnerability and transparency,

choosing to share it with those

who can hear me, as well as those

who cannot, is the field of infinite

possibility, the truly remarkable

and the miraculous! 

 

I refuse to live my life hiding

behind the spiritual.

​

That is such a common practice

in the religious and spiritual

marketplace.

​

The spiritual only truly comes

into play through my humanity!

 

You cannot ignore your human

life... That is dualistic by nature

in and of itself.

​

Surely one can see the wholesale

arrogance of that!

 

And you know what else is

abundantly clear to me?

 

You have need of me in this

world!

 

Since you abide within me

because you are a part of me

as I am part of you, I am necessary

to your plan of making your

presence a palpably felt

experience in this world.

 

Just consider yesterday.

 

Three people contacted me 1:1

who were having a tough time.

 

One with their partner, one with

what is happening in the world,

and the third one was feeling

lost and adrift, that their life

lacked meaning or purpose.

 

And the words came because I

was listening to you and each one

felt more empowered to live

the life that is theirs to live with

greater trust and a commitment

to slow down and remember to

breathe.

 

But my point is that I look around

me and it is evident that no one

is at peace.

​

Peace is such a rare and precious

commodity in this world that few

know first hand.

 

As I look around me day after day,

I see a world that does not feel

genuine changeless peace.

 

A good day is one in which

you manage to get through it

without too many things going

too far off kelter, falling within

the parameters of their ideation

of what safety and security means.

 

Exhausted from your day, you eat

your dinner, maybe have a drink

or two, go to bed, hoping for a

good night's sleep, only to awaken

and begin the whole thing all

over again.

 

Everyone is biding their time,

pushing outside of this moment

into the plans they have made,

not really here and now but ever

future bound, looking to what

is next.

 

Maybe if they keep busy, they

will not have to feel the underlying

despair and falseness of their

lives.

 

It is so rare to meet someone

who is deeply connected to

themselves and life, who one

can genuinely feel your presence

shining from within them, who

you can tell live in a consciously

loving relationship with you.

 

No one slows down or is paying

attention to what is, seeing the

gift in the hair, guts and feathers

of all of it.

 

They are not content with what

is because I witness them actively

efforting in the pursuit of more,

better or different from what is

the here and now of their

experience.

 

I don't know how they manage

to not feel haunted by imposter

syndrome and absolutely crazy

from the robotic nature of their

lives, their routines, and that

they are just blindly going

through the motions, waiting

for the clock to strike midnight

and their earthly sojourn is one

and done.

 

We live in such a crazy decade

and life is moving so fast...

 

So I feel like it is an utterly

amazing thing to demonstrate

by how you live that peace

and happiness are always

available no matter what

and that the light shines

brilliantly if you are looking

for it in the midst of the

mundane as well as within

the storms of life.

 

Soul: These are some very good

thoughts with which to begin

the weekend.

​

Of what are you aware?

​

That is the question of the day.

​

Keeping to our plan for the

weekend to be geared toward

relaxation and integration of

of the week's content, I leave

you with the following words:

 

Slow down...

Breathe...

Accept...

Allow...

​

Keep your eyes and your heart

open.

​

Remain aware.

 

And remember, if it is not

peaceful, it is not for you.

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

Help me to keep my life

just this simple as I move

through the upheaval,

uncertanty and chaos

that plagues this world

because it has forgotten

the value of simplicity

and peace.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I always feel that it is

important for me to share

openly and honestly about

my inner experience of life

so that others will be able

to see how easy it is to live

this, moment-by-moment,

as a way of life.

 

For those who do not know,

I have been trying to get

a new little kitty for the past

week. After a whole lot of

searching, I found the sweet

little girl who was perfect for

me.

 

I felt as though she was

rescuing me as much as I

was rescuing her.

 

She seemed to be the perfect

companion as I go through

my latest health challenges.

 

So many people were helping

me make it a possibility.

 

One person donated a litter

box and a food dish.

 

Another a kitty blanket,

another a laser pen light.

 

Yet another a bed for her to

sleep in and a scratching

post.

 

It was all coming together.

so beautifully. Destiny was

unfolding so miraculously!

 

Long story short, I

encountered several snags

along the way that not

only held things up, it made

things look highly unlikely

that we were ever going

to work out.

​

I had sooooo much skin

in the game!

 

First, I gave myself a migraine

headache.

 

I had anxiety. Then I could not

sleep.

 

I made myself ill. I spent half

a day in the bathroom.

 

I fretted and shamed myself

for allowing this to get to me.

 

The mind which had been

blissfully silent for so long,

suddenly was up to no good.

 

Very punitive, that psychopath

who lives between my two

ears!

​

Was it here to stay?

​

That, I had yet to learn,

depended solely upon me.

 

And then today, rather than

tell myself self-berating

and hostile messages which

were highly damning, you

know what I mean....things

like "I should be able to

handle things better than

this," I bowed inwardly

before the human being

that I am.

 

I spoke to her with such

genuine kindness and respect.

 

I communicated to her, not

with words, but with actions

that it was perfectly okay

for her to have whatever

experience she was having.

​

I was here, not to judge her,

but to lovingly support her

and listen to her with a heart

which had been tenderized

by God.

​

And you know what I discovered?

 

All she needed was a little

kindness from me in order to

settle down.

 

I would be the space where her

experience could all unfold in

whatever way that it was

presenting itself.

 

And lo and behold!

 

I received a new photo of my

little kitty this morning with

the good news that she will

arrive sometime this weekend.

 

It is such a fine thing to stop

and meet the human being

that you are however you are

with kindness, respect and

spaciousness.

 

For that precious being to

feel that is perfectly okay

to be both human and

Divine, because are we not

all of it?

​

Her upset has no impact

on the soul we truly are?

​

That I care more for her than

she imagines, more than my 

previous behavior toward her

had demonstrated?

 

Was that not the essence of

my message from yesterday?

​

This is how wholeness and

completion reveal themselves

in our lives in real time.

 

I am so happy.

 

I am going to get a new kitty.

 

Her name is Violet.

 

And I am all ready to be the

pet parent to her that I

never had when I was a child.

 

I hope you can see how utterly

practical this way of living our

lives actually is.

 

Life happens and I am here.

 

Not to fix myself.

 

Not to try to change how I am

experiencing anything.

​

Nor to try to force life to change

the way that it is playing out

so that things unfold the way

that I want them to, which is

naturally in my favor, according

to my wishes.

 

I am here to love and support

the precious human being

that I am exactly as I am, through

every single twist and turn of

life!

 

Can you imagine how beautiful

the world would be if we all

took the time to live this way

and support each other as we

embark upon this journey

of being simply human in

that vast Ocean of humanity

who are here to experience

this fully immersive game

we call life?

 

Soul: My, you have had a

very full week, have you

not?

​

And I both applaud and

support your efforts to live

transparently.

 

me: I can tell you one thing,

I am most certainly grateful

that every week isn't like this

one has been!

 

Soul: Did you see how loving

and supporting yourself in

the midst of your experience

was a portal into another

dimension?

 

How letting go allows every-

thing to return to harmony

and balance?

 

me: Yes! I most certainly did.

 

It makes me so sad when

I see that human beings are

trained to suffer, not how

to live happily, lovingly and

peacefully.

​

How could those who populated

our world demonstrate truth to us

when we were small?

​

They knew no more about

happiness, love or peace than

we did!

 

It is a grim fact that no one

had ever loved us enough

to train us in how to be happy.

​

And the world we experience

will always mirror how we see

and experience ourselves.

 

Soul: That is why I ask that

each of you hit your pause

button today and commit

to having a really great life,

which is really easy to do 

when you take the time to

love the one you are with,

realizing that one always

happens to be none other

than yourself, beloved.

 

Every moment can be a truly

glorious moment if you

have the courage to experience

your experience, really and truly

experience it, supporting

yourselves as you do so,

rather than pretending

that you are not having it

and then try to be rid of it

A.S.A.P., or shame yourself

for having it in the first

place.

 

Belonging does not arise

through suffering.

​

That is the path of isolation.

loneliness and separation.

 

And for the world?

​

That, dear one, is business

as usual. That is a dog-eat-dog

world!

 

It was never meant to be

your way.

​

Remember, you came to be

a living demonstration of

a new way of being human.

 

Life is about all of it.

 

That's about both/and, not 

either/or .

 

What if you were to discover

that you do not need to

suffer anymore?

 

This is the organic revelation

which arises when you realize

that you have only ever been

fighting with yourselves.

 

What if you were to allow

the battle to be over,

once-and-for-all?

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

Precious being that I am,

I am so sorry I ever waged

war with you about how

you experienced anything.

​

You were never wrong, but I

tried to make you feel that

you were.

​

Unbeknownst to me, I was

the author of your shame.

 

I vow to support you

from here on out however

you show up.

 

I'll be your bff and #1 fan.

 

I hereby give you permission

to be who you are and how

you are and to love you

every step of the way.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Would you mind if 

our dialogue for today

comes from me?

 

Soul: Of course not. You

have the floor in its entirety.

Go for it.

 

me: The first thing that I

feel that it is important to

share is that I am one of 6

people who get together

on Zoom every Monday

morning to discuss our

lives, what we are

experiencing and our basic

yearning for the truth.

​

Here we find a profound

experience of acceptance,

non-judgment and

unconditional love.

​

Longing to be established

in a stable peace, aching for

a place of refuge from the

storms of life, we each

answered an inner calling

that we heard, not in words

per se, but an unmistakable

yearning which we felt from

you, none the less.

 

We are from three different

countries and we represent

one of the most diverse

slices of humanity that one

could ever encounter.

 

Had we met at a different

point in our lives, I highly

doubt that we would have

discovered the gift of

genuine love and intimacy

that we have found with

one another.

 

Yet we love each other so

deeply, and each of us is as

equally committed to the

revelation and embodiment

of truth as is the next.

 

We are what I have come to

think of as a beloved community,

who meet with one another

heart to heart.

 

And we find an unmistakable

sense of refuge with each

other in the bonds of our

shared Identity as Soul.

 

This is what we find in each

other and cherish...

 

I am not a leader, a teacher,

a guide, and I do not pretend

to have any answers.

​

Sure. I have been profoundly

gifted in this life to have had

some life altering experiences.

​

But to cling to the experiences

themselves, as if they were

the answer, is to create yet

another religion which the 

world does not need.

​

As in all things, we must 

remember what Zen teaches

us, "Finger pointing at the

moon."

​

Everyone has many

experiences which are,

no doubt, impactful for

them.

​

But don't confuse the finger

for the answer, look to where

the finger is pointing.

​

Always it will lead you to the

ineffable, the unspeakable,

the never born and never

created.

 

What I love to share is

what people in Twelve Step

programs refer to as "my

experience, strength and

hope."

 

Each day is a new beginning

for me.

 

I somehow feel that life wipes

the slate of my mind, the brain

and nervous system clean each

day, and I experience a Cosmic

reset for lack of better words.

 

Tabula rasa, a blank slate

upon which the journey of Soul

is my never ending story.

 

So why then did I start

this website?

​

I started it when the pandemic

began. It was a means through

which I could share from the

depths of my heart what was

happening within my experience.

​

This was nothing new.

​

I am a journaler. I have been

doing it every day since the

3rd grade. Although I thought

of it as "writing in my diary"

at the time.

​

But this was important to me

because it was a very

challenging time is the

collective history of humanity.

​

I think that all of us felt the

weight of how things changed

for all of us, literally over

night.

 

So I guess that the simplest of

answers was that this little

website was the next most

peaceful thing that life sat

in front of me and so it came

into being.

​

Once again, I said yes.

 

I do not advertise.

 

I have no mission that it grow.

 

It is what it is and if people

find me, it is by word of mouth

because I have never and will

never do anything to promote

myself.

​

I am a servant and lover of God.

​

Nothing more and nothing less.

 

For those who know me, I have

been writing the TFTD for over

28 years now and have not

missed a single day.

 

Rain or shine, soaring in the high

heavens or drowning in a black

pit of despair, I have kept up with

this discipline.

 

In the beginning, it was to prove

to myself that I was capable

of making such an unwavering

commitment.

​

And for that, I have my earthly

father to thank.

​

Through the school of hard 

knocks, I learned what it means

to get back up and begin

again, to never ever give up

or give in.

 

I had started many things in

this life and never finished

any of them. I wished to prove

to myself that I could learn

to be meticulous, committed

and 100% consistent about it.

 

For me, it has thus been a path

of radical transfiguration.

 

And as I have shared many times

throughout the years, I was in no

way prepared to take on this task.

 

Yet I have born witness through

my own experience that God

does not pick capable people.

 

God picks people who know they

are incapable but still willing to

say yes, and then he makes them

capable.

 

This did not happen with a

gentle flick of Harry Potter's

magic wand.

 

It was a stumbling and fumbling

finding of my way each day.

​

To often fail, but to never fail

to keep trying, and to offer

myself up continuously  as an

instrument into the fire of

the Vast Unknown.

 

Along the way I became

increasingly resilient, and I

learned to trust myself. I

began to truly live my life

from the inside out.

​

For here was the secret to

being a candle which does

not flicker in the wind.

 

I do not claim to have any

answers.

​

But I have discovered a peace

which never changes.

​

I know that I am not alone.

​

I feel the presence of an inner

companion who has demonstrated

a love which has no conditions

or bounds and asks for nothing

in return.

​

This was how I learned what love

actually is. For surely no human

being ever taught me this.

 

With the greatest humility I can

honestly say that I know that I do

not know anything.

 

But I am willing to come here

day after day and share my direct

experience, and hopefully be a

light in a world that can seem

distressingly dark and confusing

more often than not.

 

It is a powerful thing to keep

saying yes, to be willing to be

nakedly vulnerable, day afer day,

to be genuinely human, to share

from the depths of one's heart, 

and to stand shoulder to shoulder

with everyone else on this planet

and be willing to be all of it.

 

The transcendent, the mundane,

the heinous and the humiliating,

the vastly uncertain as well as

the ever hopeful.

 

And through it all, I truly believe

that I have remained the same

genuinely loving and consistent

space which holds all and shuns

nothing.

 

These are not shoes that I was

born with, they are shoes that

I grew into, shoes that it was

my destiny to one day be

equipped to fill perfectly.

 

I do not have superficial

relationships.

 

But if you are looking for a

true blue heart friend, I would

love to hold your hand and

walk with you, side by side,

amid the noise and haste

of human life.

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​​

Come.

 

Take my hand.

 

We have a life of the

good, and the difficult,

the sweet and the savory,

the salty and spicy, and

everything in between

to see about.

 

Are we not all of it?

 

Shall we journey together,

you and I?

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I really like the metaphor

that you used yesterday

of the ocean. It gave me such

a clear sense of my position

in the world, as well as that of

my highest potential as the

Soul.

 

Sharing honestly, I spent quite

a bit of this life flailing about,

feeling agitated and waffling

between states of victim

consciousness and that of

blaming others for my

troubles.

​

Everyone I have ever met believes

falsely that the more spiritual

one becomes, the better their

life experience becomes.

​

They believe that you become

exempt from the difficulties which

other people encounter over

the course of a human life by

choosing to be spiritual.

​

How bloody arrogant!

​

I have been shown time and

time again over the course of

my lifetime that pursuing a spiritual

life does not grant you immuniity

from anything.

​

It simply provides you a means

through which you can experience

those life events which it is your

destiny to experience with trust

rather than fear. You can remain

genuinely peaceful and loving,

with a smile which is born of

happiness and contentment

on your face.

 

Thus, through everything that you

have ever taught me along the way,

you have given me a completely

new perspective on how to navigate

the experience of being human.

​

I can live as you and be in this world

but not of it, or I can suffer the

slings and arrows of life as the ego,

ever suffering and fearful. Not just

some of the time, but all of the time.

 

Soul: The first thing that you have

to know is that no part of your

human experience is impacting

my experience as Soul.

​

This is true for everyone regardless.

​

In other words, whether you are

aware or entirely oblivious to

your highest potential, or simply

somewhere in between, I am

your Infinite Reality.

 

With your complete acceptance

of what is happening, combined

with trust in Me (which is really

trust in your Self), you can float

in that ocean calmly and comfortably

regardless the experience that you

happen to be having.

​

This is life from the inside out.

 

Your total loving acceptance

of what is happening in your

experience gives you access to

your heart.

 

And once you have accessed the

heart, you have access to Me.

 

This hallmarks the end of dread

and the knee jerk tendency to

react rather than to respond

peacefully and lovingly to the

life which is your destiny to live.

 

me: This leads me to a very

important point, one that I

understand quite well and it is

this:

 

Allow life to be great.

 

Allow your life to be great.

 

You know, victim consciousness

is only one side of the coin.

 

The other side of it is the core

wound of unworthiness that

the majority of people on this

planet feel to one degree or

another.

​

We are always searching for more,

better and different.

 

For the longest time, I would allow

my life to reach a certain level of

greatness, and then I would have to

do something to sabotage things.

All the while pretending that I was

completely innocent and being

victimized unfairly by others.

 

This was a huge pattern for me

for over 3 decades of my life.

 

But when I finally got it, that

my worth was not established by

me, my family of origin or

anyone else, that my worth was

established by God, who created

me from Itself, that core wound

of unworthiness began to

dissolve and I began to experience

the love that I am as well as love

for the precious human being

that I am.

 

As the love I felt for myself

grew and grew, I began to

experience such a profound

tenderness and compassion

for myself. It felt as though

my heart was actually on fire

and that it was on the verge

of exploding.

 

It was then that the following

realization became self evident.

 

The one who is loving and

supporting me in such a huge

way is you, beloved soul.

 

I then found that not only could

I float on the water rather than

flail about, I began to experience

ecstatic moments of intoxicating

freedom where I would rise above,

feeling myself walking on the

water's surface.

 

I was in the world but not of it,

and I was impervious to the

endless machinations of life

and the meaning-making-machine

between my ears who was never

satisfied with anything.

​

That persona was ever fearful

and waiting for the other shoe

to drop.

 

And life?

 

Life was a competition which

I devoted myself to winning.

​

How does winning at the game

of life from ego's perspective

equate to life lived as Soul?

​

The walking on water experience

hallmarked the end of the

torturous mood swings I had

formerly experienced.

 

This was freedom.

 

And not only was it freedom, it

was exhilarating freedom. I felt

as though I was pirouetting among

the stars, a freedom beyond which

nothing greater could be conceived

because it was Infinite.

 

Soul: You have shared a lot today.

 

And your human father was right.

Understanding is truly a fine thing.

 

Let us end today's dialogue with

this:

 

Beloveds, it is safe for you to be

happy.

 

You were created to be happy.

 

Do not try to hide your light under

a bushel. This is wasted effort

on your part.

 

You have such an amazingly

beautiful heart. Do not be afraid

to let it lead you.

 

It will never fail you, anymore

than can I.

 

This is your time.

 

Time for you to go all in on being

who you truly are, which is what

you came here to be.

 

You came here to be a portal

that would lead others to 

the dimension of their true

Identity where we reside as One.

 

And you do this by simply being

willing to commit to being you

and consciously allowing yourself

to be the light of the world.

 

It is time for you to give up

the futile effort to hide you light

so that you can fit in with those

who populate your world.

​

In your heart of hearts, you

know that they would take

you down with  them if you

were to let them.

​

That is how threatening light

is to those who cherish the

darkness of ignorance in which

they live out their little lives.

​

For them, the only safety is

in making you just like them.

 

But this is not your journey.

 

Would you make a commitment

to yourself today to have

a stupendously  great life

from here on out?

 

For this is what it means to be

a living demonstration of

one who abides in heaven, yet

resides here on earth.

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​​

I'm all in from here on

out.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Before you even have

the chance to ask me,

let me say that yesterday's

dialogue has made me

realize that the best use of

my time while yet embodied

is that of staying in my own

lane, focusing on my inner

experience of life, and that

of taking 100% responsibility

for my experience in the

humblest of recognitions

that it's all mine to look

at, to feel, and to make

peace with.

 

No one is doing anything

wrong, including myself.

​

And no one has done 

anything to me or to 

anyone else for that

matter.

 

It is just an experience.

 

Can I embrace that?

 

That's my new motto.

 

Soul: We are establishing

a solid foundation upon

which to build an entirely

new relationship with

yourself and your world.

 

It really is so simple.

 

When you get activated,

rather than launch into

a story and projecting

all over the place, just

come back to your breath

and be with yourself.

​

This is about no one and

nothing else. It is about

what this experience 

brought up from within

you, stuff that was already

there but you had never

taken the time to address,

and this is your golden

opportunity to look at

it now and handle it

differently than you

have historically handled

upsets such as this.

​

Can you see an all-too-

familiar pattern here?

 

Maybe you can start with,

"Can I accept that?"

 

First comes acceptance,

then comes the TLC.

 

I think the main way in

which people sabotage

themselves is by setting

the bar to high and

expecting things from

themselves that are not

yet sustainable.

 

It is a great objective to

be a place of peace in

a world that is struggling

to remember peace.

​

Rather than launch into

a diatribe of blatant

self-pity and blame,

can you turn and face

yourself with kindness?

 

me: Remember how my

dad was very fond of saying,

"Acceptance is a very fine

thing?"

 

Well it is.

 

Not just of myself, but of

the people in my life

and the world in general.

 

They are always going to

be the way they are.

 

Am I upset because of the

way they are, or am I upset

because I want them to be

different?

 

I am clearly getting that

I am the only one who

sees a problem here.

 

And the problem is with

my seeing, not with

what is seen or

experienced.

 

But learning to keep it clean

by focusing on my side of the

street helps me love the

little rascal that lives inside

my head.

​

You know who I am talking

about.

​

He or she is defensive, quick to

anger and find fault, judge,

and throw temper tantrums,

cry and feel sorry for them-

selves.

​

But here is the truth:

 

I am the only one who is

accountable and responsible

for my experience.

​

Did anyone put a loaded gun

to my head, demanding that

I react this way or else?

 

Am I focused on my experience,

or am I busy judging or having

a temper tantrum or hissy fit?

​

Am I playing the victim card

once again, or am I looking 

honestly at what I am feeling

and responding ot me?

​

Feeling your feelings does not

mean "tell others all about

how my self-pity and victim

consciousness feels," it means

"silently return to your breath,

stay in your own lane, and feel

the feelings. Don't lash out and

regurutate the familiar story

of  "but this is how I feel!"

​

Make no mistake, this is all a

much too familiar pattern of

acting out.

​

This increases ego rather than

diminishing it.

 

We said it a lot over the weekend

but it bears repeating.

 

When I am able to accept that

my life is my medicine, and I

remember to actually take

my medicine and turn

inward to my experience

rather than projecting it onto

what or whom I am unhappy

with, the more my awareness

of love expands.

​

Decipher this equation:

 

> love, the > freedom.

 

It's simple algebra.

 

Soul: Everything that has ever

happened in this world or ever

will happen has been for one

reason and one reason only.

 

To facilitate the dissolution of

the created self.

​

You will recognize that you are

on the right track if you feel

the ego and its thought system

diminishing.

 

me: It's all about getting in

touch with what our experience

is bringing up in us to look at.

 

So the first step is to see it.

 

The second step is to take

responsibility for it.

 

The third step is to accept it.

 

And the final stept is to

embrace it and offer ourselves

love.

 

Soul: This process is about

establishing trust between

yourself and God.

 

You are all floating in an ocean

of humanity.

 

You do not have to kick

and flail.

​

Nor do you have to scream

for help or cling to others

in a futile attempt to take

them down with you as

you scorch the earth with

your rage and self-pity.

​

Misery may love company,

but it doubles the misery!

 

You are not in danger of

drowning.

 

You do not have to struggle

so in order to survive.

 

You could just remember

that you know full well what

is happening and put your

bathing suit on and swim!

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​​

I can hear Dory singing

in the back of my head,

like an earworm.

 

"Just keep swimming,

swimming, swimming."

 

I know what I will be up

to today and every day

from now on.

 

Thanks for the reality

check.

 

Amen

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***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Do you understand

what the whole point of the

weekend exercises was?

 

me: I know that after many

years of dialogues between you

and me that when you specifically

ask me a question such as this

after a few days of practicing,

it is so that I will look at

the evidence that my direct

experience revealed to me

from working with it.

 

You don't want me to make

stuff up.

 

You want me to look inside

and see what my truth, my

experience revealed to me.

 

If the answer is nothing, it

is nothing. The experience

of nothing would thus be

my answer to the question.

​

"I experienced nothingness."

 

You are simply asking me

to share what I discovered.

 

And what I would have

to say is that the more

consistently I worked

with them, and the more

genuinely I turned within

and loved myself, feeling

what there was to be felt,

there were two things

that became self-evident.

 

First of all, the world, my

world, had an awful lot to

show me about myself.

​

Who has time to mind

anyone else's business if

they are sincerely paying

attention to their own?

​

It's a full time job.

 

Lots of feelings, judgments,

opinions, negative commentary

and beliefs that even I knew

were a load of hooey.

 

Secondly, the more I could

lean in, soften, be genuinely

kind and supportive with

myself, offering myself

love with an open hand and

heart, the more it became

clear to me that the one who

was so loving within me

was you, dear soul.

 

As I dove deeper and deeper

into the flurry of reactions,

something began to emerge:

something which was

spacious and still, profoundly

calm and peaceful, something

not of this world but in the

world nonetheless because

it was in me. And am I not in

this world, experiencing a

human life?

 

Yet it was beyond me as well.

 

So I would have to say, after

more reflection, that there

was a third thing which began

to emerge.

 

I am not in the body, body

mind and world are within

me. So this one who saw all

of this and experienced it

directly was the presence

of God revealing Itself.

 

Soul: What a beautiful

response.

 

You are not here to survive

the human experience,

nor to become successful

as the world defines success.

 

You are here to experience

the world. And if you genuinely

set out to experience it with

honesty and integrity, it

will inevitably lead you to

the truth which is always true

within you, it will gently guide

you to that which never

changes.

 

And this required no guru, no

teacher, no book, no technique,

nor a specific religion or road

map to follow.

 

It did not take you years

of meditation, nor a monastic

lifestyle to achieve it.

​

Therefore, it was not an

achievement. It was merely

a revelation of what has always

been the only constant in

the entire Cosmos, yet it dwells

within you and experiences life

as you.

 

You were your own guide and

your life was the teacher who

loved you so much that it showed

you what you needed to experience

in order to know God.

 

Your life is thus the Alchemist.

 

me: And to think, I was the one

who set this all up before I was

born.

 

I would have to say that for not

having to fix or change myself,

I have changed quite a lot over

the course of my lifetime.

 

Oh, I am definitely the same me

that I have always been.

 

I just walk around grinning all

the time at what formerly

elicited huge reactions and

opinions from me, seeing the

raw material that life is so

kindly providing me so I can

stage my own prison break.

 

Life was never my prison.

 

Nor was my family of origin.

 

The prison was that of me,

myself and I, the persona of

the separate self that I created

to survive and remain safe,

to fit in and belong. 

​

At least that was what I

believed. Now I see that it

was a distraction.

​

I was totally preoccupied

with putting lipstick on the pig,

lying to myself that this was

who protected me and kept

me safe.

​

It was utterly exhausting work

to keep that illusion propped

up on a daily basis.

 

And now I understand why

you asked me countless times

throughout the years to,

"Trust myself."

 

You were asking me to trust

that life was providing me

everything I needed in terms

of experiences and that if

I allowed this sense of me

to experience it all, as it is,

she would lead me to you.

 

And that she did.

 

Soul: You learned to relax.

 

And you realized that God

did not need a back seat

driver.

 

And you grew to trust.

 

You found the very freedom

for which your heart has

always yearned, the freedom

that you asked me for when

you were but a child.

 

Has it all been worth it?

 

me: Indeed it has.

 

The world has had to be

the way that it is in order

for me to finally embrace

who I am.

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​​

Thank you for the gift.

​

Why mince words?

 

It's been one helluva

ride.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I would really like to

continue with our keep it

simple theme for the

weekends.

 

It was a great idea, one for

which I am extremely grateful,

because I can feel things

ramping up in the world

again.

 

There is a palpable buzz

that hangs in the air all the

time now.

 

Weekends are for chillaxing.

 

Although this was a more

intentional practice for me

earlier in this decade, it remains

something I practice 24/7/365.

​

It has become as natural to me

as breathing, and why shouldn't 

it?

​

After all, it does anchor me in

my natural state.

 

Points 3 & 4 from yesterday,

were an entry point into

this practice.

 

The practice was a major shift

away from an ingrained pattern

of mean behaviors I directed

toward myself my whole life

that had become unacceptable

to me.

​

Within no time at all, I went

from scratching my head in

perplexity because I did not

know what it meant to love

myself, to the act of actually

feeling myself fall deeply

in love with me, cherishing

my own companionship

above that of anyone or

anything else.

 

This was a turning point for me

that spilled over into every area

of my life.

 

I began to feel deeply calm

and peaceful, most of the

time.

​

It took something that hit me

unexpectedly out of left field

to throw me off kilter.

​

And even then, that did not

stop me.

​

I just inwardly felt myself take

another step back and loved

and supported myself through

the reaction until it dissipated.

​

When you are with an emotion

until it dissipates while loving

and supporting yourself, it

fully integrates.

​

After all, that is all an emotion

really is: Energy in motion.

​

I have found that the waves

settle down quickly if you

attend to yourself lovingly

with great compassion.

​

Things began to shift for me,

and they did so quickly.

 

So much so that even strangers

began to comment about

how they felt when they were

with me.

 

Instead of being such a victim

about everything all the time,

a constant complainer and

a blamer who was addicted

to character assassination,

I started trying to consciously

be with my experience without

struggle or resistance, and to

offer myself kindness and

gentle loving empathetic

support which was genuinely

felt.

​

I spoke to myself and related

to myself in the most tender,

kind and gentle way each time

I felt activated by others or be-

came reactive to what was

happening within my inner 

experience at the time.

 

Although the essential

circumstances of my life have

not changed, my life feels so

different to me these days.

 

And to think, all of this grew

out of a determination to

reverse how I relate to

myself and be wholly 

consistant about it.

​

It is something that you get

better and better at as you

go along because it's a lot

like using a muscle which you 

have not used in a long time.

 

These days this happens so

naturally and with such genuine

tenderness.

​

As a side bar, I find myself

effortlessly offering the people

I encounter the same kindness,

patience and tenderness that

I give to myself.

 

It is something I ask everyone

to give a sincere try and let

the results speak for themselves.

​

I've said this before, the voice

that I used to hear inside my

head used to sound an awful

lot like that of my father.

​

These days the inner voice

sounds more like the voice of

the most loving mother one

could ever imagine.

​

This mother loves her child

so much, so very, very much.

​

She completely adores this

child, and the child feels

unconditionally loved,

supported and cared for.

 

Soul: It is a profound thing to

realize that your life, and every-

thing that it contains, has been

and is a conspiracy that every-

one has been in on from the

moment you took your very

first breath, unbeknownst

to you prior to now.

​

And this will continue to be true

until the moment your take

your final breath and exit the

the movie of your life once

and for all.

 

That's just how big LOVE is.

 

LOVE provides you with the

perfect parents, siblings, friends,

neighbors, co-workers, bosses,

work situations, politicians, and

world events, knowing that they

each will elicit everything you

need to see about yourself,

everything you have yet to love

about yourself that has been

pleading for your genuine

acceptance and loving kindness.

​

Even one whom you ride on an

elevator with is no chance

encounter!

​

Every detail has been lovingly

planned and orchestrated

long before your birth by

none other than you,

beloved.

 

How else does one ever come

to see all that they have denied

because they were afraid to

(1) look, (2) see, (3) embrace

and (4) feel?

 

me: I see what you did therel

 

Sneaky and clever, if I do say

so myself.

​

And I do say.

 

After all, you are my truest self.

 

It's really great, this practice

of relaxing into and supporting

myself in the midst of what my

crowd of usual and unusual

suspects elicits from within me.

 

It has been a real game changer.

​

Soul: This is how you set your-

selves free.

 

And isn't that what life is all

about in the end?

 

Freedom?

​

And who else can free you

other than yourself?

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​​

I am really starting to under-

stand my role in all of this.

 

Life is the workshop that

I am participating in

every single day,and

my workshop?

 

It happens to be the perfect

medicine for me.

​

For this I have myself to

thank.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: What are we going to

talk about today?

​

Soul: Let's keep it simple,

shall we?

​

me: I know I would be grateful.

This week has been extremely

challenging and the shift in

the overall energy of the planet

was eerily palpable.

​

More anger.

More volatility.

Distracted.

Less patience.

In an ultra bigger hurry, yet

going nowhere fast.

​

Not that this hasn't been the norm

for this decade, but I felt the

presence of each to be stronger

than usual.

​

Plus it was Chinese New Year on

Tuesday the 17th.

​

As we completed the year of the

wood snake, we began the year

of the fire horse.

​

That's all about experiencing

life heating up and speeding

up.

​

So I felt the impact of the change

in intensity.

​

And even though it did not touch

me per se, I didn't enjoy being

out in it so I kept my interactions

to a minimum and as brief as

possible.

​

Everyone I encountered spoke

about something feeling different.

​

I would think that everyone would

enjoy a simpler, kinder and quieter

weekend.

 

Soul: One of the most difficult

ideas for any human being

to grasp is the fact that you

are not here to make peace

with the world, you are here

to get in touch with what is

inside of you and make peace

with that.

​

Virtually all human beings

have spent their entire lives

focused on changing themselves

and their lives, personal evolution

and the endless search for

both meaning and completion.

 

However, self-awareness and

self-love are the only way

to bring peace to the world.

​

It's all about changing how one

relates to themselves in each

moment of life which impacts

the whole of life.

 

You become the medicine

for which the world yearns.

 

Liberation is thus a byproduct

of setting yourself free by

embracing everything about

oneself without critique or

judgment, as well as supporting

oneself in the midst of every

inner experience of life.

 

And you are right. It's the

weekend. We should make

the weekend a bit lighter,

moving forward, since we

keep the pedal to the metal,

so to speak, all week long.

 

How about a leisurely practice

we can engage in without

needing to do anything

differently?

 

Something which requries no

change in plans or level of

activity?

 

Soul: Sure. Try this one on for

size. If practiced with consistency,

you will feel a shift in your

relationship with yourself and

your world.

​

It can be practiced with eyes

open or shut, in the midst

of the busyness of life or

while doing nothing at all.

​

It may be practiced on the move, 

when being still, lying in bed or

engaging in any particular activity.

​

It works well alone or when 

interacting with others.

​

It is simply this...

 

For every single experience

or fluctuation in your inner

world, observe the following:

 

(1) Give it your full attention.

​

(2) Watch your breath.

 

(3) Offer each experience

your total acceptance.

​

(4) Genuinely support 

yourself with love.

 

me: This is great. Thank you.

 

My life is thus always the

medicine.

 

It is my guru, teacher and

friend.

 

The very life which is mine

to live is the G.O.A.T. ...

 

...if I will allow it be that for

me.

​

Thus, receptivity and allowance,

gentleness and unconditional

love, represent the master key

which unlocks every door.

 

Have a great weekend

everyone.

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

May I never forget that

nothing beats an open

and loving heart.

​

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I have a suggestion for

our dialogue today.

 

I would like to talk about the

fact that life is the greatest

teacher.

​

No human being could do

what life naturally and

organically accomplishes,

all on her own.

​

Thus, no one needs a human

being for a teacher at all.

​

Just a little willingness to accept

the life that is theirs to live,

a pair of eyes, combined with an

open heart and a spirit which

has been tenderized enough

by life that it is now open to

hearing the Good News:

​

There is an easier way, beloved.

 

It has become so clear to me

that every person or thing with

which I engage is showing me

what I have yet to love and

accept about myself.

​

We are all reacting and responding

to our own personal virtual reality

simulator.

​

Can you tell the difference between

yourself and your avatar?

​

The object is not, "Give 'em hell

and win," it's "What are you

showing me about myself?"

 

It takes courage to lean in, to

soften and open your heart to

the things you have spent your

entire lifetime being afraid of

and therefore, trying to avoid

or run away from.

​

Your heart is your place of refuge;

the home of peace where you

find wisdom, courage and

shelter from every perceived

storm.

​

And when you take refuge

in your own heart of hearts,

you become your own

safety from the storm of life.

 

But as I have shared so often

before, it was never what life

was trying to show us that

upset us.

 

It was always about our resistance

to what life was and is showing us

about ourselves that is the source

of our upsets.

 

Nothing goes away either by

ignoring it or blaming it onto

others.

​

You did not say or do something

wrong.

​

Neither did they.

​

Thus it has always been about

you having the courage to turn

and face yourself, rather than

ignoring the one you have

abandoned for so long.

 

I think about all the wars and

political unrest on our planet,

and I am grateful that I am

seeing what is happening

in my life as evidence of your

presence, beloved soul,

patiently trying to show me

the things I did not want to see

about myself, the things I was

too terrified to look at before.

 

The former M.O. was to avoid

looking and owning at all costs.

​

Now I am learning to love this

avatar and support her, knowing

she is the door which leads to you.

​

She is shaped like me, I am the

only one who fits through it.

​

And I am no longer willing to use

every single life-negating option

I have at my disposal in a futile

effort to avoid turning and facing

myself.

 

It is no longer a game of what

has the best odds of keeping

me safe and ensuring my survival?

​

What I could not see was that

I was the only one who was

endangering myself.

 

And to think, all I have to do,

all I ever had to do was to

remain open and aware.

 

It's a really awesome feeling

to be able to deeply show up

for myself and be completely

present to the things that

unfold in my life on a daily

basis.

 

You know what I mean, all

the things I used to choose

to avoid so I could be selectively

blind.

 

No one was going to make me

look at anything that I did not

want to see!

 

I used to go at life at mach 12

with my hair on fire every single

day!

 

Now I just move in the effulgent

flow and harmony of what is.

 

What an amazingly different

way to experience life!

 

With great love and care the

"I" that is "we" flow with

the river of life, rather than

constantly trying to push it.

 

I feel like I am using the game

rather than the game using me.

 

I used to be scared shitless

of damn near everything.

 

Now I fear nothing.

 

How great is that?

 

I used to believe that life was

not on my side, that I did not

sabotage myself nearly as often

or as much as life actively tried

to shipwreck and sabotage me,

throwing me curve balls repeatedly

and actively presenting me with

a life that sucks more than

everyone else's did to them.

 

I now see that life has always

been lovingly trying to set

me free.

​

"Of what?" you ask.

​

Well of me, of course!

 

It's not like anything in my

life has actually changed.

 

It's my relationship with myself

and my life that has changed.

​

A difference that is always

beyond my wildest imagination!

 

I am no longer at war with

anyone or anything, least

of all myself.

 

Soul: This is no small thing.

 

me: I am so grateful for everyone

going through what they went

through on my behalf, revealing

what they did so that I could be

free.

 

Soul: That is a very liberating

way to look at the experiences

you have had.

 

God takes every form for you

so that you can be free.

 

Is that not amazing?

 

me: Absolutely!

 

It's like God is saying to me,

"I have done all this for you,

Pelkyong, I love you that

much!"

 

It's so funny when you think

about it. There is only one

actor here who is playing

every single part!

 

And that actor is even playing

the part of me!

 

I get so tickled when I try to

grok it.

​

Hilarious. A real grame changer!

​

You know that old saying about

truth being wilder than fiction?

​

Well this virtual reality experience

has been a humdinger!

 

Everyone who is suffering,

everyone who is struggling,

is doing so for me.

 

If that isn't humbling, I don't

know what is.

 

All of this is happening the

way it is happening so that

I can get in touch with where

it is happening within me.

 

Soul: Life can only ever show

you what is present within

you. It cannot show you what

you do not have. This is some-

thing which few ever begin

to comprehend.

 

All the world is playing the

role that they need to play

for your benefit because it

loves you and by showing

you what you were denying,

it is bringing you into total

alignment with your natural

state.

 

Because in the end, it is your

lived experience which sets

the entire world free.

 

me: It is an amazing thing

to see that I cannot fix anything

in the world, but when I

fix it within myself simply by

making peace with myself the

way that I am [rather than seek to

change how I am], I do ultimately

set the world free as well.

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​​

Dearest World:

 

Thank you for suffering

for me.

 

I have used your offering

wisely, to set all who are

in captivity free by my

willingness to turn and

face me..

 

And to think...all it ever took

was the willingness to make

peace with myself.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: You know…sometimes

I can be more than a little

dense.

 

I was noticing yesterday that

I am not grieving as much

as I used to over the loss of

Pam.

 

Of course, I miss her every

single day. But there is no real

sorrow attached to her no

longer being embodied.

 

In fact, the heart feels so joyous

when I think of her. I am so

happy her struggles are over.
 

The body had given out on her

years ago and she lived with

excruciating and constant pain,

even though I never heard her

complain about anything.

​

Who wouldn't long to be freed

from a prison cell?

​

And who wouldn't rejoice to see

one whom they love with all their

heart be completely released

from this struggle?

 

As I reflected on this, I had

a huge epiphany and I realized

that naturally I am no longer

suffering from her loss,

because the truth was not that

Pam and I were best friends,

it was that you had been our

true blue beautiful BFF all along.

 

We have been sharing these daily

dialogues for almost 5 months

now. During this time, our

communion and union with

one another fills my heart to

overflowing with gratitude,

peace and joy.

​

There was never any doubt that

it was your voice which was

speaking through me, but our

relationship has evolved in these

past 5 months into such a rare

state of transparency and intimacy

that so few get to enjoy during

their lifetime.

​

You have become the only thing

in my life that means anything

to me.

​

All the moments of my days are

filled with your presence. I feel

wings gently embracing me

in such unspeakable peace.

​

And I am loved...

​

Cherished even...

​

So much so that each moment

now feels like a little death,

followed by a resurrection.

​

I truly know I rest in God.

 

I met Pam in the summer of 1998

and we began our consciously

shared journey with you in January

of 2000.

​

We were a trinity together, were

we not?

 

There aren't enough ways for me

to express my gratitude for

this gift.

​

There is a verse in the Old Testament

that perfectly describes this dance

we share:

​

"My beloved is mine, and I am his."

Song of Solomon 2:16

 

Yesterday was Ash Wednesday, the

first day of Lent.

 

People receive ashes on their

forehead signifying mourning

and repentance.

 

With the onset of Lent, Christian

people all over the world begin

the practice of inwardly carrying

their cross as Jesus did.

 

I would sincerely like us to offer

the world another interpretation

of the final 40 days of the life

of the man named, "Jesus."

 

He has been revered and 

worshipped by approximately

two and a half billion well

meaning Christians from all

over the world.

​

The narrative which is repeated

again and again is that he was

the one and only son of God.

 

Soul: I will gladly help you open

the door of this dialogue.

 

me: In many ways we are teaching

the true meaning of the crucifixion

and the resurrection every single

day when we share, heart-to-heart,

the meaning of life.

 

Soul: This is true.

​

Most human beings complain as if

they are being crucified every

single day.

 

The message of both the crucifixion

and the resurrection are deeply

embedded in all of our daily offerings.

​

However, it is a different message

than the one the world teaches.

​

I think this is what people will realize

they have been directly experiencing

all along.

 

Even more so as they reflect with us

today.

 

me: The idea that I want to stress is

not one which is unfamiliar to those

who read these thoughts each day.

 

The self-help industry...

Spirituality...

and Religion in general...

 

...all teach the same message

and that is that who you are is not

who you should be.You need to fix,

heal, change, improve, transcend,

understand or upgrade both who

and how you are because until

you do change, not only will you

remain broken and unhappy,

but you will continue to be

unacceptable to God.

​

"Join us. We will be more than

happy to help you change. All you

have to do is ___________."

​

You get the picture.

​

Just make sure you add a lot of

dollar signs to the list of things

they will have you chasing your

tail while engaging in.

 

Everything the world teaches is

a spurious attempt to brainwash

you into believing that what is

false is true, and what is true is

false.

 

"Everything is ass backwards,"

as my father used to say.

​

For someone who had so entirely

lost his way in this life because

he did not know himself as soul,

he could be very wise when it

suited him to be so.

 

What is Everywhere can have

no opposite because it is every-

where. Therefore, the Everywhere

cannot contain both truth and

untruth or it isn't the Everywhere,

now is it?

 

Thus, 100% of what the world

tries to pound into our heads

every day amounts to instructions

on how to ride a donkey backwards.

 

So with time and diligence, you

master the art of riding the donkey

backwards whilst wondering why

you cannot get the donkey to go

where you want it to go.

​

Donkey seems to have a mind

of its own.

​

What you are doing isn't working.

"Why is this not fixing me and my

life?" you ask.

 

Remember what Einstein said?

 

Insanity is repeating the same

behavior again and again,

expecting a different outcome.

​

So while the whole of Christendom

teaches that Jesus was betrayed,

scorned, abandoned, beaten

and finally killed and that his

death was the price that he paid

for our sins, he knew differently.

 

Every projection is thus a teaching

in the belief(s) which inspired

them in the first place.

 

So while human beings believe

they are not good enough 

precisely as they are, they

project blame for their

unhappiness and misery onto

the world around them and

they feel entirely justified

to do so.

 

There are only 2 voices we can

listen to. The voice of the Soul

or that of the ego.

​

One is real because it is the

only constant in the entire

universe. While the other is

an illusion because it is the

byproduct of a fear-based

thought system.

 

So naturally it was easy for

the world to project blame

and guilt onto either Jesus

or the Sanhedrin, to deify

Jesus and judge the rest of

the world as pathetic and

unworthy schmucks, while

all the while Jesus remained

steadfast in his love for

humanity as he held the

the space of changeless

peace.

 

Whether you were pro-Jesus

or anti-Jesus mattered not.

 

Because if it is the ego's voice

that you are listening to, you

will see guilt and wrong doing

and will inevitably blame it on

others.

 

Why?

 

Because that is how the idea

of separation and duality

is miscreated and reinforced!

 

How else are you going to

sub-divide the world into 

good and bad, right and

wrong, evil and righteous?

 

But if you listen to one voice

and one voice only, the voice

of the soul who is our shared

identity, you know that you

know that you know that...

 

...separation is meaningless.

 

...nothing real can be threatened,

thus, you cannot hurt or be

hurt.

 

...anger is impossible. If you

respond with anger, it cannot

be the soul you are listening

to.

 

...you are perfectly immune

to all forms of attack.

 

...you cannot justify the

unjustifiable.

 

...that even the most outrageous

assault as judged by the ego

is incapable of harming you

in any way.

 

...that one body can indeed

attack another body, but you

are not the body, beloved.

Never have been and never

will be.

 

Thus the message of the

crucifixion was that Jesus

knew he could not be harmed

in any way and nothing

could deter him from being

the living presence of love

no matter what they thought

they were doing to him.

 

He knew us as brothers and

sisters whom he loved. He

knew us as his equals.

 

Each of us are perfect creations

of a most perfect Creator.

 

And therefore the message

of the resurrection was merely

the remembering of the truth

which is always true, the

dawning in both mind and heart

of the truth which has always

lived there, the truth which 

could never leave us, but could

most certainly be denied

and overlooked.

 

Soul: That was a lot to try to share

and do so with as few words

as possible.

 

I think this is enough for one day,

don't you?

 

Reflect on these thoughts as you

go about your day today.

​

Jesus was not special.

​

No one is.

​

But he is a perfect example

of one who lived his brief

life in complete union with God.

​

Each of you are here to model

the same thing in your humanity

as well.

 

You are beautiful and holy

and perfect as you are.

 

You do not need to change

a thing.

 

You were created by love

for love to live your lives

as love incarnate.

 

You need do nothing other

than be yourself, be happy

and be at peace, which is

your natural state.

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​​

LOVE liveth me, for I would

hear but one voice, the

voice which speaks for God.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Guess what?

 

Soul: You know I don't have

to guess. I already know

everything... But go ahead

and share what's on your heart.

 

me: You know, our mutual

friend?

 

She texted me the following

this morning:

 

"Thank you, Pelkyong!

I HEAR you!"

 

I am really convinced that

if people could only see what

they are doing to themselves,

they would no longer do most

of the things that they do.

 

Soul: There is nothing wrong

with any of you.

 

You just need to love and accept

who you are and how you are,

especially the parts that you

do not like about yourself.

 

I think a very good assignment

for today would be to ask all

of you to challenge yourselves

by trying the following:

 

For the next 24 hours, can you

express nothing but genuine

compassion and kindness

toward yourselves?

 

Can you turn and face the human

being that you are with love?

 

The message of the spiritual

marketplace is that there are

things about you that stand

in the way of you experiencing

love, or God, directly.

 

Do this. Attend that.

 

You shouldn't be this way.

 

Here is a workshop that is designed

specifically for people like you.

 

And the only way out of this

dilemma?

 

Turn and face the human being

that you are with love.

 

There is nothing about your humanity

that has any impact on me, beloved.

 

And not only does your humanity

have no impact on me, there is nothing

wrong with any of it.

 

If I do not see anything about you as

a problem, why do still have a problem

with so many characteristics of yourself?

​

Why are you so quick to judge

and then reject your own precious

self?

​

Why do you find these parts of you

unacceptable?

​

You know, you cannot reject any

part of yourself and still hope

to walk through that door of truth

we call love, or God.

​

Because if you reject or struggle

with any part of you, you still

have a problem with all of you.

​

You cannot be broken up into

parts you approve of and parts

with which you disapprove

without throwing the baby out

with the bathwater.

 

After all, I created you. I know you

better than you know yourself.

 

Please do not allow yourself to

become trapped in yet another

false construct that brings with

it the experience of hell.

​

Do not follow the advice of one

who is just as lost to themselves

as are you.

 

I am not trying to tell you that

this is wrong, I am saying that

it is self-sabotage. It is spiritual

bypassing, when you could be

enjoying exhilarating freedom

and happiness this very instant.

 

I promise you, that door to me

springs open the very instant that

you love and accept all of

yourself as you are, beloved.

 

Each of you are perfect.

 

You always have been.

 

And no matter how hard you try,

you will never be able to resolve

someone else's distorted lens

of perception.

 

They are revealing how they do not

love themselves and then projecting

their own incompletions onto you.

 

Dear sweet child, hear me and

hear me well.

 

You live in a world where so many

are drowning.

​

I watch this observation break

your heart again and again,

day after day as the Celestial

Speedup gains traction.

 

And the reason you suffer is not

for the reason that you think

​

You do not suffer because so

many are drowning at this time

in human history.

 

You suffer because you are

expecting them to swim!

 

Everyone is on their own perfect

journey. Have a little faith that

those who are drowning are still

on the soul's journey.

​

If it is happening, it is because

it is supposed to be happening.

​

Suffering tenderizes.

​

It forces people to see that what

has been tried does not work, the

familiar does not alleviate suffering,

and they become open and ready

for the truth which is always true.

 

Please just be you and stay in your

own lane, on your own side of the

street.

 

They will figure it all out when

they are supposed to figure it out,

just as you are figuring it all out

now.

 

Are you not more peaceful,

more stable, more calm and loving

than you have ever been?

 

And remember your message

is never one that requires words.

 

The presence which is living you

is the message!

​

That message is communicated in 

every single instant as you simply

and lovingly live the life which is

yours to live, embracing all of

yourself as you are doing so.

​

Just make sure to ask yourself

frequently, especially when you

notice that peace is no longer

in your awareness, "Am I swimming,

or have bitten the hook again?"

​

"Am I buying into the scare tactics

and narrative that the collective

promotes?"

 

"A message which is telling me that

I am drowning, along with everyone

else?"

 

me: I feel personally empowered.

 

I think this has been a beautiful

way to conclude the dialogue that

we began yesterday.

 

We are beautiful.

 

We are absolutely perfect and

utterly adorable exactly as we are.

 

We are pure love, through and 

through.

 

There is no way we could possibly

become any more loving than we

already are because we are always

Infinite!

 

How could we be anything else?

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

Created from Infinite Intelligence

Itself, I am still as God created me.

 

This is the truth which is always

true, the one constant that

cannot change.

 

Ever.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Repeat after me,

everyone:

 

LOVE lives here!

 

PEACE lives here!

 

JOY lives here!

 

LIGHT lives here!

 

PRESENCE lives here!

 

It's always good to begin the

day on the right foot.

 

Why waste a perfectly good

opportunity to begin a heart

opening dialogue by broad-

casting what is forever true

on all stations!

 

You think everybody got

the message?

 

Soul: Loud and clear!

Your enthusiasm is a little

hard to miss!

 

me: And all it takes to

begin this journey without

distance is to genuinely

accept and embrace the

human being that we are,

not the human we wish

we were.

 

I have a friend who is very,

very dear to me. She is always

forgiving herself for her

humanity, for being a flawed

(in her mind) human being.

​

In spite of the fact that however

she is, she is perfect.

​

She is the perfect creation of a

perfect Creator, who ultimately

is none other than she!

​

Therefore it is her own standards

that she is failing to live up to.

​

And she believes that how she is,

is an obstacle between herself

and God!

 

Further, she feels that forgiving

herself is a step up from beating

up on herself all the time and

feeling guilty for what she either

thinks, feels, says or does that

both she and God judge as

wrong and therefore, wanting.

 

But I tell her, "This is not

acceptance and it is certainly

not love."

 

To this very day, she still has

never gotten around to loving

herself as she is.

​

Oh, she believes that she has,

but she has not.

 

I do not know why this is such

a difficult task for people to get.

 

I am around people every single

day who can say to me in no

uncertain terms that they are on 

the soul's perfect journey, that

they do not need to change a

thing about themselves, and in

the very next breath, they will tell

me about someone they are

upset with, or something they

are upset about, and then they

beat themselves up without

mercy for doing so.

 

They will follow that behavior up

by telling me that they have

forgiven themselves for the very

thing for which they just confessed.

 

Beloved, if you feel the need

to forgive yourself for anything,

then you most certainly have

not accepted the human being

that you are.

​

Can you not see that?

​

Open your eyes and look at

what you just did!

 

Because the human being that

you are happens to do the very

things for which you just confessed

and then forgave yourself.

​

And that human being is going

to be that human being until

you die. What about her?

 

See how tricky the spiritual ego is?

 

Soul: Absolutely!

 

There is nothing wrong with

forgiving yourself.

 

But there is also nothing right

about forgiving yourself either.

 

Each are equally unnecessary.

​

And you must learn to recognize

such activities as blantent acts

of self-sabotage.

 

Love Thyself.

 

That is the one message that we

quite consistently share in one

way or another every single time

that we engage in these dialogues.

 

Everything begins and ends with

loving and accepting yourself

as you are.

 

me: I understand why she

does this. I have skirted around

it already but let's all take a

look at the spiritual ego's M.O.

 

She does not meet her own

criteria for Infinite.

 

She does not meet her own

criteria for Perfect.

 

She does not meet her own

criteria for God.

 

And she does not meet her own

criteria for Oneness.

​

In other words, she is not how

she believes that she should be.

​

There is that awful word again,

should.

​

I know that no word has any meaning

other than the one that we give it,

but the meaning that she gives that

word is very demeaning and self-

abnegating.

​

And then she is following that up

by forgiving herself for how much

she believes that she is missing

that mark.

​

I don't care how much you twist

the meaning of the word forgiveness

in order to see it as forgiving yourself

for seeing error where there is none

and therefore, the restoration of 

innocence.

​

It is still a far cry from being willing

to truly and deeply love all of yourself

as you are.

 

She will follow that up with a question.

​

If I am already and always beautiful

and holy and perfect in God's sight,

pelkyong, then why am I still angry?

​

Why do I get frustrated?

​

Why do I judge others and myself?

 

I then follow that up with "That's her.

Look! There she is. That's the human

being that you have to love and accept

and respect as the perfect creation

of a most loving God. She is Infinite

and beautiful as she is. She is the living

presence of God in human form who is

One with everything."

 

"When you look up the word Oneness 

in the dictionary, it shows your picture

there."

 

And then I hear you, Beloved Soul,

whispering to her from the depths of my

heart, "But I made you from myself.

I accept all of you. Now will you please

finally accept and love yourself?"

 

Please listen to me.

 

YOU DO NOT NEED TO BE ANYONE

OTHER THAN THE HUMAN BEING

THAT YOU ARE AND THAT MEANS

ALL OF YOU.

 

You haven't begun to hear this

message until you take that fully in

because the ramifications are as

Infinite as are you, precious friend.

 

And until you hear this message

and take it fully in, you are spiritual

bypassing.

 

Every time you think you need to

forgive yourself for anything, you are

slamming the door to God.

​

If that isn't a f _ _ k the hell off, I don't

know what is.

 

Your loving acceptance of your humanity

is the way, sweetheart.

​

Please get that.

​

Please, please get that.

 

You cannot be who you came here to be

by invalidating any part of your humanity.

 

The day that I hear you say to me that

you do not need to be anything other

than the human being that you are, you

do not need to be anyway else, I will

know that you have finally heard me.

 

Soul: You are speaking to everyone,

because everyone does this.

​

Let's be clear about that.

 

And the most beautiful thing of all is

that when you begin to truly love

and accept your anger, and whatever

other parts of yourself you are not

happy about, they begin to fizzle out

on their own and you no longer feel

the same urge to act it out on the

world around you, or take it out on

yourself.

​

me: Or seek forgiveness.

 

Soul: This is what it means to be a

miracle worker.

 

The guiltless mind cannot suffer.

 

Never forget that.

 

Anything you cannot accept and

embrace...

 

Anything you feel you need to

forgive...

 

...is a prison cell of your own making.

 

If you want to truly be a place of peace,

then you have no choice but to accept

yourself and love yourself as you are.

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

Today I accept the human

being that I am with

all my heart.

 

I have no choice in the

matter because I want

to be peaceful.

 

I want to be who I came

here to be.

 

Hear this universe?

 

Self invalidation and

self-negation ends

here!

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​​​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Over the weekend, I

really gave a lot of thought

to the question, why do we

sabotage ourselves?

 

Why are human beings

innate saboteurs of their

own happiness?

 

Although there are probably

as many ways to sabotage

yourself as there are people

in the world, I think that in

the end, we all do it for the

very same reasons.

 

We want to fit in.

 

We want to belong.

 

We want others to approve

of us.

 

And we ache inside to be

loved and accepted for who

and how we are by the people

who matter to us.

 

And so what do we do?

 

We diminish our light in an

effort to fit in with our particular

world because we want to

belong.

 

Thus, all sabotage represents

our chosen means of diminishing

our light.

 

There are three things I have

discovered about self-sabotage

as I have continued to explore

the subject.

 

(1)

 

No one outside of ourselves

is capable of either loving

or accepting us.

 

It is not their job.

 

It's ours.

 

And when we genuinely

learn to love, accept and

support all of ourselves,

as we are, we find that

we no longer feel we

need it from others.

​

And depending on another

person to love you?

​

That is most certainly the

means to set yourself up

for heart ache and heart

break.

 

This is about realizing that

the only one who can

complete you is you.

 

But for most people, the

most difficult of all hurdles

to cross is that of feeling

we need other people to like

and approve of us.

 

Perhaps no one will ever

appreciate or value you as

much as you would like

for them to, but the question

is, do you appreciate and

value yourself?

 

You are always enough for

God, can you be enough

for you?

 

(2)

 

When we try to diminish

our light in order to fit in or

to gain the approval of others,

it doesn't really diminish

our light at all.

 

Our light is indivisible.

 

All of it is expressing itself

all of the time.

​

The totality of all light shines

forth from you, not just

some of the time, but all

of the time!

 

Our light is still doing what

light does. It is impacting

others to the same degree

it would have had we not

tried to diminish it in the

first place.

 

All we manage to accomplish

when we seek to diminish

our light, to hide it under a

bushel, is to withhold

the light from ourselves!

​

The only one who is unaware

of it is you, my dear...

 

(3)

 

Many years ago I was told

that for the rest of my life,

I would comfort the disturbed,

and disturb the comfortable.

 

To which I replied, "that is

certainly not new."

 

"I have been doing that all of

my life."

 

My presence has always had

an uncanny knack of pissing

people off and I do not even

have to open my mouth in

order for it to do so.

 

For the past 6 years I have

become increasingly aware

of the fact that the more I

love myself and let my light

shine, the greater the effect

my light has on the world

around me.

 

The emptier the inbox, the

more transparent the mirror,

the greater the tendency my

light has of bringing up

other people's incompletions

for them to see.

 

This will begin to happen

for you too, beloved, if it

hasn't already begun.

​

Be a proud lighthouse,

as you cast your light for

all the world to see.

 

It is why I am here

and it is why you are here

as well.

 

We are here to embody

this presence, this light,

this love, and to do so

fully without the

obscurations that arise

as a result of trying to

diminish your presence

in this world.

 

And I feel that ultimately,

the reason why we do all

of these things is because

we are terrified, deep down

inside, to be who we really

are in this world.

 

Who has the courage to

stand nakedly and

unabashedly as all that

they are, to be in their

own highest light, without

fear of being judged,

rejected or found wanting?

 

You see, this is how

the personal self arose

in the first place.

 

The people that mattered the most

to us made us feel unsafe when

we were simply being ourselves

without defenses, which threatened

our sense of safety and security,

and above all, it was experienced

as a huge threat to our survival.

 

That is when we started

trying to become what we

thought others wanted or

expected from us, because

we wanted so desperately

to fit in and belong.

 

It was who we thought

that we had to become

in order to feel safe.

 

Soul: It is never okay for

any of you to give your

power away so thoroughly

that you allow other people's

opinions, demands and 

expectations to affect your

peace and happiness.

 

While embodied, you remain

the only expert on what it

means to be you.

 

No one has that power unless

you give it to them.

 

You were created to be a

self-sovereign being

who is proactive and not

reactive.

 

And though the script has

already been written, you

remain the director, producer,

and you play the lead in

the movie you refer to as

your life.

​

You are in charge of the lighting,

the sets, and ultimately, you

are the one who holds the

camera itself.

 

So play big and swing for

the fences!

​

I believe in you.

 

You've got this!

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

This little light of mine.

 

I'm gonna let it shine.

 

Let it shine,

let it shine,

all the time.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​​​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I woke up thinking about

Pam today.

 

Folks are used to me sharing

about my best friend of almost

30 years.

 

We never missed a single day

when we did not either speak with

one another or see each other

in person.

 

We finished each others sentences,

read each other's minds, and she

dotted all of my "i's" and crossed all

my "T's."

 

I miss her so much...

 

There aren't enough words in

the universe that could begin

to express all that she meant to me

and still does.

 

I miss her so much and think of

her at least a hundred times

a day, even though it has been

almost 2 years since she passed

away.

 

Don't get me wrong. I am so

bloody grateful she is no longer

here suffering in a body over

which she had absolutely no

control. She required total care

the last 5-6 years of her life.

 

I don't want to paint a picture

that is not accurate, for there is

one area of life on which we

disagreed at least daily and

sometimes several times a day!

 

She would pump me for information

about other people's lives. She would

interrogate me for details about other

people's personal stuff to which I

would give the same answer.

 

"I don't know. How the hell would

I know?"

 

It did not occur to me to meddle in

other people's lives or to ask things

which were of a deeply personl

nature and therefore, none of

my business. If they want me to

know something, I figure that they

would tell me.

 

we would then leave it at that.

 

I knew what she would be asking

me just as she knew what I would

say. Yet this was a game we played

every day in spite of the fact that

it was always the same.

​

Never boring to her, she made sure

that we played it at least once a day!

 

She never tired of it in spite of the

fact that my answer never changed,

and it was never going to change.

 

But this morning I actually hit

my pause button to inquire within

about why I do not pry into other

people's business.

 

And it all stems from a fight I had

with my biological father when

I was thirteen years old.

 

He had me plastered up against the

wall with a forearm pinning me

down while his face was less than

six inches from mine.

 

With eyes bulging and spit hitting

me in the face he screamed at

the top of his lungs, "What the hell

do you want? What - do - you - want?"

 

Without missing a beat I said, "I

want to be free, daddy."

 

To which he replied, "What the

f _ _ k does that mean?"

​

Again with no pause on my part

I said, "I don't know daddy. I only

know that you are not free and

I am not free either. In fact, I do

not think I know anybody who is

free."

 

You see, from the very first thought

I could formulate I knew I was

in bondage.

​

I hated the roller coaster ride 

that my emotions took me on 

day after day.

​

And I loathed the fact that

I could not find genuine peace

and remain there.

 

I thought that surely this could

not be what life is all about.

​

I was in slavery to my own

inner world, as was everyone else

I knew.

​

And nowhere could I find an

example of a person who was

genuinely happy and secure

in that happiness.

​

Perhaps snippets of happiness or

peace here and there, but most

certainly nothing which was lasting.

​

What about the peace which passes

all understanding that they talked

about on Sunday mornings at church?

​

Seems like no one knew a damn thing

about that peace.

​

And yet, it was supposed to be

a promise.

 

Wasn't there a way you could

live like a candle that does not

flicker in the wind despite the

vicissitudes of life?

 

That has thus been my life's

ambition and pursuit.

 

To discover what freedom means,

to live free and help others find

the same for themselves.

​

Not my peace, but their very

own.

 

So as we wrote the TFTD yesterday,

I knew where I wanted to go

with today's message and it was

identified in the following state-

ment:

 

And it is ever so clear to me

that we are the authors of

our own misery and

disappointment.

 

It has also been clear to me

all of my life that the thing which

I cherish above all else is

FREEDOM.

 

Although I did not feel free for

much of this life, and did not

have a clue what true freedom

actually was and is, it was an

idea which meant far more to

me than anything else ever

could, so why would I not offer

it to everyone I come into

contact with, no exceptions?

 

Why would I not extend to my

world the very freedom I cherished

and wished for so fervently for

myself, and do so with no

exceptions, ever?

 

If I loathed the bondage I felt

in this life, why would I seek to

pry into someone else's

business or seek to hold them

hostage?

 

If self-sovereignty, autonomy

and agency is what I have

looked for, why would I not

offer the self-same thing to

everyone I meet?

 

So I have always held a very strong

sense of what my side of the

street means and what it contains.

 

It's my hula hoop I will be in

to my very last breath.

 

I do not make myself wrong

anymore for being different.

 

Like Popeye says, "I yam what

I yam and that's all that I yam."

 

But I am going to give you

freely everything I wish for

myself.

​

And I will do this every single

day.

 

Space...

 

Freedom...

 

The right to live your life as you

see fit...

 

I am going to trust that you are

on the soul's journey just as much

as am I....

 

And I am going to operate from

an inner perspective which says

that your journey is not my business

unless you care to share it with me.

 

And it is my open hand and a heart

as wide as the world that is the only

thing I have to offer you, or anyone

else for that matter, and that is

the only thing I have to bring

to the banquet table of life...

 

Soul: It must be clear to you as

well that you cannot give something

to anyone that you do not already

possess.

 

So the gift of freedom which you

so freely offer comes from me,

the part of you that knows that

you are free and always have been.

 

This part knows that all beings are

inherently free. They were created

in freedom and in freedom they

remain.

 

Bondage is an inside job just as

the awareness of freedom is.

 

This is a beautiful place for us to

end for today.

 

Shall we continue with this

exploration of truth tomorrow?

 

me: You bet! I love our dialogues.

They keep me tethered to sanity

in a world that feels increasingly

insane by the day.

​

As for me, I choose the eye of the

storm over anything this world

has to offer.

​

And that's the truth which sets

us all free!

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

May all beings be happy

and may they rejoice

in the freedom which

is inherently and eternally

theirs.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​​​​

me: It felt good to just take

a day off yesterday.

​

I rarely get the opportunity

to totally unplug from

my life and the character

I am playing this go-around.

​

Other than a couple of 

necessary appointments,

I did nothing else but

watch my breath and

spend the day in nature.

​

Fresh air, solitude, and

the joy of simply being

that is uncluttered by

words and interactions.

​

It felt as though nature

was putting on this

entire display just for

me.

​

I felt loved, supported 

and that my presence

was integral to it all as

it unfolded.

​

It was exactly what this

mind, these emotions

and this body were crying

out for so thank you for

making that possible.

​

Soul: We are a team,

yet inseparably one.

Like the Trinity in

Christianity composed

of Father, Son and Holy

Spirit, or the Trinity in

Hinduism of Brahma,

Vishnu and Krishna.

​

We are inseparably one,

yet distinct in our

individuality.

​

One has to experience this

union and communion

directly to begin to under-

stand what we are and 

even then, we retain

our Mystery.

​

me: I would like us to talk

about an interaction that

I had with a friend yesterday.

​

It was not unlike most of

our conversations,.

​

However, I could see that

it is a huge way in which

she sabotages herself 

every single day.

​

And that is no exaggeration.

​

She does it so consistently

that she has incorporated

this characteristic into

who she thinks she is.

​

I do not think she consciously

thinks of herself as the

doer, but she does deeply

believe that she is God's

personal helper or executive

assistant.

​

I am sure her friends and 

family think of it as meddling,

but she believes what she

is doing is not only valuable,

it is necessary.

​

She believes that it is an

essential part of her 

job description.

​

Every time we talk, she

always begins with how either

her spouse or her sons are not

doing what they should be

doing and she then follows

that up with asking for an

opinion from me on how I

think she should handle the

situation.

​

This conversation often

extends outward to include

friends, clients, co-workers,

sponsors and sponsees.

​

She always wants to do the right

thing, she is very sincere.

​

She is perhaps one of the

most sincere human beings

that I know.

​

Earnest should be her middle

name. I say that because

her sincerity and earnestness

is both a curse and a blessing.

 

She wants them to do the right

thing, and so naturally she 

believes that it is her duty 

and responsibility to get them 

to change, to see things her 

way and do right.

​

I do not believe for a single 

second that she sees the huge

arrogance in her thought 

processes.

​

But this is her life.

​

And it is ever so clear to me

that we are the authors of

our own misery and

disappointment.

​

I guess that one of the

main things that makes 

my life and her life so 

different is that I do not 

feel like a person and she 

obviously believes that

she is the role that she

is playing hook-line-and-

sinker.

​

I do not have this sense of

a personal "I" who lives inside

this head or thereabouts and is

the doer of this body/mind

complex.

​

I do not think of myself

as a male, a female, a

human being, the one

in control, the navigator

of this ship, the believer

of these thoughts, the

owner of this sensation,

nor the author of any

interaction or experience.

​

I cannot imagine how

incredibly nightmarish

it would feel to me to

actually believe all of 

this and to spend the

entirety of this life 

trying to adhere to its 

dictates, wishes and

whims.

​

So right off the bat, I want 

to thank you for formatting 

this particular hard drive in 

the way that you did.

​

Not that the character I am

playing didn't think that

she experienced more

than her fair share of problems 

along the way, but she

didn't confuse the vehicle

for who she is anymore than

she thinks the Toyota Camry

in the carport out back is

who she is.

​

It's my transportation.

​

It is just a vehicle. I love it

and try to take good care of

it and I thank it for providing

me a way to have experiences

in this life, but it is just a 

vehicle.

​

It has only been in the

last six years that I have

explored this piece of

humanity that I am 

wearing in this lifetime,

loving her and honoring

her life situations and

experiences and offering

her my complete and

unconditional support.

​

So I would have to say

that we three have become

somewhat of a Trinity

ourselves; you, this one

who watches all of the time,

and this human vehicle.

​

It feels odd how I can step

into the role of each

separately or experience

all simultaneously.

​

It is a partnership born

of love, happiness and

above all, freedom.

​

Soul: Let me begin by

sharing that you have 

been and are extremely

fortunate to experience

your humanity as you do.

​

Your friend, who happens

to be my friend too, is

like over 99% of the people

who inhabit this planet.

​

She represents what you would

refer to as the norm far more 

than you ever have or will.

​

A structure is only going to be

as good as its foundation.

​

You cannot build a new 

structure on an old, rotten

and decaying foundation.

​

So we will start there.

​

We will discuss one element

of your foundation each

day for the coming days

and we will ask everyone

who reads this to look

for how it works in their 

experiences throughout 

the day.

​

See if you can internally

take a step back and

simply observe your life 

as it unfolds.

​

Here is today's:

​

The soul does not need a helper.

So please keep your hands

off what is happening in

your particular life 

experience or that of

someone else's.

​

Remember, you are here to

have experiences.

​

You are not here to help

anyone.

​

You cannot even help 

yourselves!

​

You still operate under

the misguided belief that

your contribution is some-

thing I or the others who

compose your world value.

​

We do not.

​

It is entirely superfluous.

​

We discussed this a few 

days ago but let me to

repeat it for you today.

When you interfere, it is

never for the benefit of

the one the created self 

believes it is helping.

​

It is for one's own sake you 

do this, and you do it so that 

you will feel better.

​

What are you so afraid of?

 

Not only is the created self

arrogant enough to believe 

that it knows how things 

should be, it does not see

its own distress and the

fact that it is instigating

these behaviors, demands

and expectations because

it is trying to mitigate or

assuage its own guilt and

fear, and to relieve or pacify

its own discomfort.

​

Life lives itself in its entirety

without your help.

​

You might want to memorize

that statement and repeat it

quietly to yourself each time

you think you know how life

should be and are tempted

to interfere.

​

And your ideas about how 

things should be?

​

Balderdash.

​

Bunkum.

​

Poppycock.

​

Nothing is the hardest thing

to do.

​

Just try it for one day.

​

Can you do nothing other

than observe?

​

We will chat again tomorrow.

​​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

Gee, I am so thankful

to be me.

​

Help me keep the pie

hole shut and my grubby

mits off the human scene

in humble recognition 

that how it is, is how it is 

supposed to be.

​

And then help me fall back

and trust.

​

An Intelligence far greater

than mine does not need

my help with anything.

​

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: How did the day go

for you yesterday?

 

me: It was a mixed bag.

Although I remained peaceful

and gave myself lots of down

time and support, I felt

sad and on the verge of tears

for much of the day.

 

I did reflect a lot on the fact

that we said that the breath

is the bridge or gateway be-

tween matter and spirit.

 

Another way of saying this

is that conscious breathing

is the means of bringing form

back to formlessness.

 

That was important for me

to remember all day long as

I navigated my experience,

because the experience that

I was having more than likely

would have temporarily

derailed me had it happened

a couple of years ago.

 

So how about talking to us

a bit about how we remain

peaceful, loving and supportive

of ourselves when we are

faced with intensely difficult,

disruptive or challenging

life situations and experiences?

 

Soul: I think that is a very

good idea.

 

me: Before we go any further,

I want to preface this dialogue

with the fact that I am feeling

particularly raw and vulnerable

right now.

 

Soul: I think you are more than

capable of answering your own

question for yourself and for

anyone else who might read

this because you have been

practicing clear seeing through

all of it.

 

Besides, anything I could share

would not have the same impact

that your own words have

because you are living it.

 

When words are shared from

life's trenches, they have a way

of penetrating even the

coldest of heart's.

 

I do not want you to feel as

though I am trying to put

you on the spot, but would

you like to give it a go?

 

me: Sure, I will try.

 

I had an important Doctor's

appointment and I did not

get the news that I was hoping

for.

 

Aaron was extremely loving

and supportive beforehand.

 

He made sure to text me

and ask how I was doing.

 

I shared with him my favorite

sloka from the Bodhicharyavatara

and Panache's version of

The Serenity Prayer which say:

 

If there is something you can

do about it, why worry?

 

If there is nothing you can

do about it, why worry?

 

Serenity Prayer

 

God grant me the courage

to accept the things I cannot

change (which is everything).

 

And the courage to change

the things I can

(which is nothing),

 

And the wisdom to know

the difference (which is that

I am powerless to change

anything at all).

 

So I think that going into

the appointment, I was in

as good a space as I could

be, all things considered.

 

But it is easy to say the right

things when you do not

know anything because you

are waiting for results.

 

Anyone can be spiritual when

life has not put you fully

through your paces and you

are standing on neutral ground

because you do not know

anything yet.

 

But the news which I received

was not the news that I had

hoped it would be.

 

And I had to look at the fact

that try as I did to be in this

place of deep acceptance,

I still went into that appoint-

ment with expectations in

the form of hope.

 

Seeing this clearly, I recognized

that I still very much have

skin in the game.

 

So what did I do?

 

I forgave myself for being

human, recognizing that this

is more than likely what any

one would feel or do.

 

But could I be compassionate

and kind to myself, allowing

myself to be as I am, to feel

what I feel, and yet allow

myself to be held in the arms

of loving kindness?

​

Could I allow myself to be

comforted by you, the truest

part of me?

 

We all hope for good news

when facing medical challenges.

That is just plain human nature.

 

When I got to the car, I broke

down and wept like a baby.

 

I couldn't even start the car

for 30 minutes because I was

trembling from head to toe.

 

I was then so gentle and tender

with myself, being ever so kind

and loving with me.

​

I held space for myself like I

never had before.

​

There are no words for those

moments we shared.

 

You see, I have been exploring

for months how we can say

that we know we are always

on the Soul's journey, that

we are not here to fix, change,

heal, repair, improve, upgrade

or otherwise change who we

are, how we are or our

experience.

 

But that is not the same thing

as being able to say it and

and feel the truth of it in every

atom of your being at a time

when the journey has become

challenging and the outcome

is uncertain.

 

What happens when the

shit gets real?

​

What is your truth then?

 

Can I accept my humanness

unconditionally, and can I

love and support myself

without telling myself I should

be able to handle this better

by now?

​

Can I turn into the experience

and feel it fully without trying

to rush my way through it or

avoid it, without trying to change

it or somehow make it go away?

 

So I just sat there and allowed

my experience to unfold

without intervening and simply

and lovingly held space for myself

until the initial shock wore off.

 

With such tenderness and kindness,

I allowed myself to have the

experience I was having without

feeling the need to hurry it up,

dry my eyes and drive home.

​

I can be very insensitive with

myself at times.

​

"Oh, pelkyong, just grow a

pair! Get over yourself and

drive home."

​

That is how the old me used

to talk to myself.

​

Not this time.

​

Not this time...

 

When I felt entirely ready to go,

I drove home.

 

After getting back home, I

felt so incredibly exhausted

that I took a 45 minute nap.

 

Then my friend Chantal

called and oh my goodness...

 

Oh, my goodness...

 

She was so incredibly

loving and supportive.

​

I knew that I was not alone...

 

I allowed myself to feel

vulnerable with her and

talk about my feelings and

she listened with such a

big heart.

 

And I am still feeling sad

and on the verge of tears.

 

I am allowing myself to feel

this way and loving and

supporting myself as I go

about my other duties for

today.

 

I know no other way to be.

​

The thought of abandoning

myself at a time like this

is unthinkable.

 

No shoud's.

No ought to's.

No have to's.

No must's.

 

Just my experience as it is

and loving and supporting

myself as I live this life which

is mine.

 

Soul: This is beautiful.

 

Can you see that this answer

would not be nearly as meaningful

to others if I had been the one

who answered your question?

​

You do not need a set of

guidelines to follow.

​

People have need to hear from

someone who is living their

truth on the battleground

of life as it is happening.

 

People need to know that

what we share is not just a

bunch of empty platitudes.

​

It is a life style choice that

has been field tested and

its truthfulness as well as its

livability have been found

to be beyond question.

 

This is a way of life that can

be lived in all the moment's

of your days.

 

me: I cannot say that I am

happy by any stretch of

the imagination.

 

But I can say that I feel loved

and supported and I know

that however things turn out,

everything is still okay and

I am fully in this experience

and every experience my life

holds to my very last breath

and beyond.

 

I do not fear death, nor do

I fear a diagnosis.

​

My life is simply my life...

​

And I would not change a thing

even if I could because my life

has already taught me that

all my experiences have made

me who I am today.

​

And I happen to like me.

​

A lot.

 

And I can honestly say that

I can see the day when I feel

that having this diagnosis

has been the best thing that

ever happened to me.

​

Not all gifts come in pretty

packages with bows.

 

But that is not today...

most certainly not today...

 

Nonetheless, I am here to tell

you that no matter what your

life brings you, you too will be

okay and you are loved beyond

what words could ever share.

​

You are met...

received..

and held by LOVE Itself.

​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

I bow before the isness

of the life which is mine

to live.

 

Help me be brave today

and every day.

 

May I be a living example

of all that I hold dear

to everyone my life touches.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I experienced two epiphanies

yesterday, two rather profound

aahhaa moments.

 

One was correlated to the TFTD

while the other was simply

co-related.

 

The first followed an inner reflection

on the the list of words we studied

last month and how each is a means

through which we sabotage ourselves.

 

I wanted to see why I felt the need

to explore the subject of sabotage

further than we have already.

​

How is what we are covering now

different from our previous list?

 

This is what I saw…

 

(drum roll please…)

 

Our list from last month was all

about the way we allow the mind

to highjack and derail our experience

of life by convincing us to believe

in the reality of things which are

not only not true, but never doubted

or called into question.

 

It is thus all about buying into belief.

 

While what we are covering now

is more about how we bring our

beliefs to life. In other words,

how any particular belief affects

human behavior.

​

This is all about what we do.

It is about habits, patterns and

actual behavior.

 

Soul: This is a subtlety most would

overlook.

 

me: Recognizing this led to the

co-related discovery which is this:

 

The brain and nervous system 

are inherently oriented toward

the notion of what comes next.

 

This is a great way in which we

sabotage ourselves because we

are always pushing outside the

present moment.

 

We do not give ourselves permission

to settle deeply into our experience

of the here and now.

 

We barely get through one experience

and we are already champing at

the bit to get to what’s around the

next corner: the next feeling, the

next thought, the next epiphany,

the next project, the next discovery,

the next on the to-do list, the next

whatever….

 

I had a T-shirt back in the late

80’s around the time MPD or

multiple personality disorder was

a big thing.

 

MPD was in the forefront of the

mainstream conversation nearly

every day in one form or another

and so many people supposedly

had it.

 

Back to the T-shirt. It said:

 

Out of body.

Be back in 10 minutes.

 

But that is what we all do.

 

And we do it all of the time!

 

We are never here and now.

 

I think this is the greatest way in

which we sabotage ourselves.

 

We need to rest. Rest is such a

fine thing. We have a tendency to

tell ourselves we are being lazy

or doing something wrong if we

allow ourselves to simply get

quiet…relax and be still.

 

What ever happened to it being

okay to be content with doing

absolutely nothing other than

being one with ourselves and

what is?

​

Why do we not give ourselves

the opportunity to pause and

simply take it all in?

 

We need to slow down.

 

We need to build more pauses

into our days.

​

Not just some of the time, but

all of the time.

 

I think of how many times my

dad told me that I never stopped

to smell the roses.

 

Always pushing, pushing, pushing

myself. Striving, searching,

seeking, becoming, attaining….

 

And we need breath awareness.

​

I have discovered that breath

awareness and breath mastery

are the only means we have

at our disposal to retrain the brain

and nervous system to be here

NOW.

 

I remember when you told me

that we breathe more than 20,000

breath cycles every 24 hours.

 

Each breath which is taken with

awareness is taken with you.

 

While every breath which escapes

our awareness is taken with ego.

When we are not aware, it is

because we are lost to ourselves.

 

We are allowing ourselves to be

distracted by the ego; its

preoccupations and agendas.

​

Instead of gaining mastery over

our humanity by allowing you

to be the one who is steering

this vehicle, we are allowing the

ego to control us and believe

that it is in charge.

 

We cannot lean into the rhythm

of the present moment without

connecting to the breath.

 

However, you cannot focus on

anything other than what is here

and now if you happen to be

watching the breath!

​

Isn't that amazing?

 

Thus, present moment awareness

and breath awareness are also

examples of interdependent

origination it would seem.

 

This reflects a whole other way

of being with ourselves and with

life with which the world is entirely

unfamiliar.

​

Can you imagine how different

life would be if we all were

watching the breath?

​

I cannot fathom a world where

people are not always in a hurry.

This is the very first thing which

would shift for all of us if we 

were watching the breath.

 

And yet, this is the new way

of being human we came to

model for those who populate

our human experience.

​

And how can we do anything

if we neglect to practice it

for ourselves?

 

Nothing can compare to an

example of one who actually

walks their talk.

 

This is a good example of

the message which says 

people will never remember

what we say, but they will

never forget what you do.

 

One whose life has become

their only message doesn’t ever

need to say a thing.

 

Soul: This was a very important

insight as well. The willingness

to allow the brain and nervous

system to reorient themselves

around the present moment takes

both commitment and consistency.

 

It also takes the willingness to

keep returning to the breath

again and again each time you

become aware that you have

forgotten.

 

It is indeed true that the world

learns what to do and how to do it

through your life example.

 

So when you stop looking toward

what is next, when you stop your

endless preoccupation with list

making and you lean into your life

with the intention of experiencing

fully the here and now, what is

REAL has the opportunity to

reveal Itself to you.

 

me: I was thinking about how

important all this is and it also

occurred to me that actually

wanting your present experience

is vital to one's success.

​

If we are always on the soul's

journey, then at some point,

we have to cooperate with the

life that is ours to live and trust,

rather than always wanting

something different.

 

We are so geared toward more,

better and different.

 

And this is all about wanting

the life that is yours to live.

​

And there is a universe of 

difference between cooperating

with the life which is yours,

and that of saying, "I want

the life which is mine. I want

this. I choose this."

 

Wanting to be here for your

life and then wanting to be

here to support yourself

as you live that life is a

sure and certain sign of

loving oneself.

 

Soul: When the only moment

that you want is the moment

you are experiencing and what

ever this moment holds, you

will know that the old familiar

urge to sabotage your seeing

has at long last seen it’s final

days.

 

me: So how about a practice

you have given me countless

times throughout the years?

 

Today, watch your breath.

 

Observe every breath cycle

from the beginning of the

inhalation to the conclusion

of the exhalation.

 

If the aim of life is to stay on

point, what do you do when

you notice that you are no

longer on point?

 

Return to point!

 

[And do so without judging

yourself a failure or being

harsh, critical or punitive.]

 

You had a very human

moment. So what?

 

Be kind to yourself and begin

again.

 

[Breath awareness = point.

Forgetting to watch the breath

= not-point.]

​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​​​

It’s funny.

 

When you look up the

word spirit in a Greek

Lexicon, it means

breath…

 

Breath is the gateway

or bridge between

matter and spirit.

 

Breath awareness is

the entry point into

present moment

awareness.

 

May I never forget

that.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I figured it would be a good

idea to cover some of the ways

in which we sabotage ourselves

and consequently become

identified with the separated self

or ego.

 

Although one thing is apparent

to me right off the bat and that is

that this is splitting hairs.

 

Which came first?

 

Self-sabotage or ego

identification?

 

For they seem to share an

interdependent origination

with one another.

 

In other words, they arise

in the presence of one another.

​

Sort of like the age old debate

which asks, "Which cam first?

The chicken or the egg?"

 

It takes a chicken to make an

egg, but there is no chicken

without an egg!

​

See what I mean?

​

Splitting hairs.

 

We have covered three ways

thus far:

 

(1)

 

Giving our power away by

presuming others know more

that do we ourselves.

 

(2)

 

Placing more value on what

other people think or feel

about us than we do. This

frequently requires us to

ignore what our own heart

is telling us altogether.

 

(3)

 

Blaming things outside of us

for our experiences. This is living

from the outside in.

 

Each of these are sure fire ways

in which we shoot ourselves in

the foot and then wonder why

our foot is hurting.

 

So how about we discuss another

way we get in our own way

today?

 

Soul: I think that is a great idea,

however we already exposed

several ways last month.

 

Remember our list?

 

We went through each of this

over the course of three weeks:

 

imperfection

lack

need

unresolvable trauma

broken

not good enough

mistakes/sins

should

FOMO

dangerous or unsafe

change

weak

unforgivable

loss

 

Anyone who wishes to review

them can go back to the TFTD

begining on January 11, 2026. 

 

But since you would like to dive

deeper into the subject of

self-sabotage, let us consider

the following for today:

 

The belief that you are broken

or damaged and because of

this, you need to be fixed,

changed, healed, improved

or somehow upgraded.

 

This is malarky.

 

You do not need to change

anything about yourself

in order to be fully eligible

to experience the truth.

 

Truth has no requirements.

 

And there is nothing missing

or defective in you.

 

Yet this belief alone is responsible

for the New Age Movement,

the countless self-help books

available in the market today,

spiritual teachers or gurus,

religions, 12 Step Recovery

programs, and the incessant

urge that drives you to search

outside yourself for answers

by actually believing that the

answers are out there and it is

your duty to find them.

 

When the truth is that you

have always had the answers

within you, you beautiful

one of one!

 

You are unfolding within an

Infinite Ocean which contains

infinite permutations, infinite

possibilities and infinite potentials,

not one of which is a carbon

copy of another, yet each

is composed of the same Source

in which all eternally abide.

​

Isn't that amazing?

 

You shine like a diamond in

your unique magnificence.

 

The universe would cease to exist

without you, my dear, you are so

incredibly small, yet entirely vast

and without limits!

 

I celebrate your uniqueness and

your perfection, I do not find fault

with who you are or how you are.

 

I never have and I never will.

 

That’s not my schtick, it’s

yours.

 

me: I know… It's that whole

illusion of imperfection. 

 

This is what keeps us all on

the hamster wheel, spinning

our little heart's out like

maniacs in a futile effort to

change ourselves because we

believe that we are flawed, that

there is something which is

inherently wrong in our design.

 

Everyone in this world is too

busy trying to become a better

version of themselves because

they have been brainwashed

into believing that they are not

how they are supposed to be

right now.

 

You lived this way as a child.

 

And you are haunted by the

belief as an adult.

 

But when you get that you are

the perfect you and that you

don’t need anyone else’s

approval, not only are you free,

but you are demonstrating

to your world that we are all

perfect in our design just as

we are.

 

If you could love and accept

yourself for who you are and how

you are this deeply, realizing

that you do not need to change

a thing, you would be entirely

happy and content right now.

​

You would never again search

or strive for anything, knowing

that you both have and are

everything,

 

You are complete and exquisitely

beautiful as you are.

 

You would feel the resonance

of your completion and your

perfection.

 

And that is what this world

is crying for: More happy people

who take delight in simply being

themselves.

 

God is within you and with

you right now.

 

God is within everyone and

everything right now.

 

You do not have to wait to

become worthy when you are 

already swimming in an Ocean

of God and always have been!

 

How could you not be if God

is God?

 

Beloved, your worth is not

established by the way you

handle or do not handle

your experiences.

 

Your worth is established by

the One who created you to be

exactly as you are right now.

 

And this isn’t some new

experience different from 

the one you are having.

 

It is not different from the

experience that you happen

to be having, ever, for God

has been with you and inside

of you all along.

​

Think about it...

 

If God is everywhere and there

is nowhere God is not, then

would not God have to be

where you are and as you are

in this very instant?

​

Would this not have always

been the case?

 

There is nowhere that the

Everywhere is not!

​

Everywhere IS quite literally

everywhere after all!

 

So today, just try saying

yes to God, yes to Oneness,

yes to your perfection, and

yes to LOVE.

​

Yes! Yes! Yes!

 

I will be that ONE!

 

Let it be a glorious day of

enjoying the incredible gift

of just being you.

 

There is no future version of

you or some better version of

you in which you will be any

more qualified to be the living

presence of God than you happen 

to be right now in this very moment.

 

You do not need to earn it,

search for it, strive for it,

deserve it or attain it.

 

You are that, beloved.

 

Tat Tvam Asi

(Sanskrit for I am already

that for which I search.)

 

It has always been and will

always be about you opening

your heart, your mind and your

emotions so deeply that you

are a walking, talking, living

invitation to the changeless

truth at all times.

 

God receives you as you are

entirely.

​

The question is, will you allow

yourself to experience the truth

that you are host to God?

 

me: I am experiencing this

so clearly right now.

 

This whole thing about ‘need’

that the world obsesses over

and brainwashed us into

believing about ourselves is

all about the illusion of

imperfection, the belief that

I am not enough.

 

Why do we not love ourselves

the way we are?

 

Why do we not trust the things

we have experienced, choosing

rather, to make what we have

done or what we have experienced

mean that we are somehow less

because of them?

 

I am always the perfect me

because it is impossible for me

to be anything but me.

 

This is the nuts and bolts of

peace in the midst of the chaos

that this world represents.

​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​​

No blame anywhere, God.

 

I am your creation and I am

the way you created me

to be.

 

I am not flawed or broken,

nor am I failing in any

way.

 

I cannot fail or mess up

anything.

 

I give myself permission

to be genuinely and

authentically me, knowing

that is always enough.

 

I may never be enough

for anyone else, but I

most certainly am enough

for you and therefore,

for me.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: What are we going to

talk about today?

 

Soul: I think a very simple

message is in order and it

is an idea we have been

skirting around for three

days now.

 

Here it is simply stated:

 

Your life will feel neither

peaceful or loving and

happiness will evade you

until you stop blaming

other people, places or 

things for your experience.

 

Your experience has absolutely

nothing to do with your past.

 

Your experience has absolutely

nothing to do with your

relationship status.

 

Your experience has absolutely

nothing to do with your bank

account.

 

Your experience has absolutely

nothing to do with your spouse

or partner.

 

Your experience has absolutely

nothing to do with your children.

 

Your experience has absolutely

nothing to do with your grand-

children.

 

Nor does it have anything to do

with your body, your health,

your job, your boss, your neighbor,

your new startup, the weather,

where you live, how much sleep

you had last night or whether

or not it was restful.

 

Until you are ready to take 100%

responsibility for your experience,

whatever that happens to be,

the experience of peace and that

of your soul will elude you.

 

Further, nothing about your present

experience either qualifies you

or disqualifies you for a direct

encounter of the truth.

 

Your experience is not your fault.

​

You did not do anything wrong.

​

It is the result of a contract which

you drew up and signed long

before you were actually born

because this is what you chose

to experience during this lifetime.

 

It is not a sign that you are some-

how failing to learn.

​

You are not here to learn.

​

You are here to experience.

​

Have you not been experiencing?

​

This is a point we have stressed

countless times and will continue

to do so as long as you keep

falling into the same old familiar

holes in the ground.

​

Remember, we look at content,

not form. Thus it is the feeling

state which we wish you to pay

close attention to.

 

No experience validates you

and no experience can invalidate

you.

​

It is just an experience, my dear.

 

It is a mark of spiritual maturity

to recognize clearly that nothing

is causing your experience, nothing

can or ever has made you ineligible

to experience the absolute TRUTH

and nothing can invalidate the

truth of what you already and

always are.

 

Except, of course, yourself.

 

And just because you are the only

one who is invalidating yourself

does not make it true, it only

means that you believe that it

is true.

​

Belief is a powerful, powerful

thing.

 

Nothing affects your ability to

experience the truth now

because the one thing you can

never not be is who and what

you forever are.

 

If you grasp nothing else but this

during the course of this lifetime,

you will make peace yours because

it is yours already.

 

You will have simply stopped

imposing obstacles where there

are none and given yourself

permission to experience

the truth which is always true

now.

​

And is not every moment

now, beloved?

 

Got it?

 

me: Clear as a bell.

 

What is also clear is that being

able to really get this is all about

taking your power back.

 

Not just taking some of it back,

but all of it.

 

Until you get this through and

through, you are still playing

the victim card.

 

Soul: I would like to give you

an assignment today.

 

Be acutely aware of your

inner experience of life.

 

Do not try to censor, edit

or control your experience

in any way.

 

Whenever unsatisfactoriness

arises, remind yourself of

the following:

 

No one and nothing is responsible

for my experience.

 

This is just an experience.

 

If I leave it alone, it will pass

like gas.

 

Again, let me be perfectly

clear.

​

I am not asking you to either

ignore or seek to overlook

your experience.

​

I am asking that you feel it 

without confabulating or

perseverating on it.

​

Your preoccupation with

making up stories about

your experience will only

serve to further under-

mine you.

​

You don’t have to make this

difficult. Nothing is hard unless

you make it so for yourself.

​

And, btw, you are incapable

of making someone else have

whatever experience that they

are having.

​

Honey....you are just not that

powerful.

​

Got it?

 

me: I clearly see that I could have

fun with this.

 

Soul: Allow yourself to feel what arises

with compassionate detachment.

 

You will inevitably see that no

one has withheld the truth

from you but you, my dear.

 

When you seek to blame or

assign meaning to your

experience, you enter into

the drama of the personal self

and by thus, fictionalize your

experience.

 

It is then twice removed from

reality.

 

First, because only love is real,

you have forgotten that what is

all-encompassing can have no

opposite.

 

Secondly, by assigning meaning

to what is not real, you have

distanced yourself further from

what is true by latching onto

that which is impermanent.

 

This is how you keep duality

and separation alive in your

experience.

 

Are you still with me?

 

me: Yes.

 

Again, clear as a bell.

 

Soul: Here is your golden

opportunity to take a genuine

step in the realization of your

truth which is love.​

​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

I see that I have been a master

at self sabotage and I’m sick

and tired of my own B.S.

 

Help me stay in my own lane

but remain out of my way today.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Today I woke up feeling

blissful and it has stayed

with me throughout the

day.

 

It is amazing how easily we

can fall into a habit of

taking things for granted.

 

I certainly was taking peace

and joy for granted.

 

I needed that very human

reminder I received yesterday.

 

So thank you for that.

​

It was also an opportunity to

look at how quick the ego is

to judge some experiences

as good and others bad, when

as you have said, all experiences

are neutral and have no meaning

other than the meaning which

we give to them.

 

The bliss I feel today is filled

to overflowing with gratitude

and appreciation because of

yesterday.

 

Soul: It is good to remember

that life holds only one

guarantee: You are the Soul,

yesterday, today and forever.

​

But when you forget and become

identified with the separated

self, experiences are then rated

by the ego on a hierarchical 

scale that range between

devastating and ecstatic.

​

It therefore is only a judgment

which makes one different

than the other.

​

The judgment releases hormones

and neurotransmitters that

support the chosen self

which is always based in a belief

and that is a matter of individual

programming and experience.

 

If your eyes are open and your

heart remains wide, you notice

that there are many things in

every moment for which to

feel grateful.

 

me: Yesterday was a good

reminder of that for me.

 

It is a beautiful thing to feel

such love for the world

and no longer need them

to be appreciative or to

love you in return.

 

Loving, simply for the sake

of loving, and for the opportunity

to express all that I am in each

and every moment of life

which is its own gift.

 

Now that’s contentment and

completion.

 

I know that no one completes

me.

 

I complete me.

 

It is wonderful having only

two priorities in this life:

(1) Know Thyself

(2) And To Thine Own Self

     Be True.

 

I wouldn't be able to look

myself in the mirror if I could

not be genuinely me.

 

And when I die, perhaps that

will be all anyone ever

remembers about me: I knew

myself completely and I lived

my life in alignment with that

realization, that presence,

no matter the cost.

​

And it cost me plenty.

​

But only what was never real

in the first place.

​

Only things the ego valued;

which were revealed to be

nothing other than the

opportunity to be free

of what was ultimately seen

to be a burden, not something

to be treasured.

 

That’s a powerful realization for

this day and age where everyone

is content to follow the herd.

 

Soul: What shall we talk about

today?

 

me: I think we already found it.

 

I was thinking that this a good

springboard from yesterday’s

conversation.

 

How about the willingness

to live life at your full potential,

even if no one else ever gets it

but you?

 

For me, it feels like I have no

choice. I cannot abide the

thought of trying to live a lie.

 

I have to be true to myself.

 

And I happen to believe that

there are an awful lot of us

out there that got it long

before we were able to admit

it to ourselves and play full

out.

 

I know I was like that.

 

And it was because if someone

had a problem with me,

the first place I went to was

”I must have done something

wrong. There is something

wrong with me.”

 

Then I would drive myself

crazy trying to figure out

what that was so I could

change it.

 

I don’t know why it never

dawned on me that they were

the one's with the problem.

 

What they were demonstrating

to me was the tragically empty

relationship that they had with 

themselves.

 

And that has got to be one

of the biggest hurdles for

anyone to cross in this life:

​

That of caring more about

what others think than we

do about ourselves.

 

Isn’t that the real issue?

 

Soul: It is. But not for the

reason which you think.

 

You identified the reason in

the TFTD on February 7th,

although I am not sure you

grasped the truth beneath

what you said.

 

Let me remind you:

 

“Nothing about the experience

of being human made any

sense to me, so from the very

beginning, I started to look

to others, expecting those

who populated my world

to make it make sense to me,

never taking into consideration

the fact that none of them 

understood this whole human

thing any better than I did.”

​

You see, that is when you started

looking for God as though your

Source was something which

existed outside of yourself.

 

And this is when you also

started looking for answers

to your doubts and questions

outside of yourself as well.

​

All answers lie within because

your true identity and Source

are within you.

 

You began living your life

under the basic assumption

that everyone knew more

than you did.

​

This was the inception of the

separted self.

 

And why did you assume that?

 

Because you believed that

everyone had a better grasp

on being human than did you

because they could at least

play the game while you could

not.

 

me: Is it like this for all of us?

 

Soul: Although the degree to

which any of you give your

power away varies between

one human being and the

next.

 

Everyone has given their

power away because they

did not believe in themselves.

 

This is a generational thing.

​

Your parents did not empower

you and teach you to trust 

yourself because their parents

never did so for them either.

 

At some point, someone has

to be brave enough to take

their power back once and

for all and be willing to be

a lighthouse which ushers in,

through your demonstration,

the new way of being human.

 

And you do this by simply

being yourself.

​

The moment that any of you

sees the dream for what it

is, you begin coming back

into alignment and harmony

with me, your true Self.

​

Could you accept that the

separated self will always

look for answers outside?

​

If it did not, it would not be

the separated self.

​

But you are not the separated

self.

​

You could choose to see this

as the invitation that it is.

​

For the recognition that you

have become identified with

the separated self is a doorway

or portal into the awareness

of your true alignment and

Oneness with me.

​

I am identified with the 

separated self. Come back

into alignment with Soul,

your true 'I.'

 

That is where your real

power lies.

​

So go out there today and

be brave, and let your light

shine for all your world

to see.

​

You are an Infinite Being

of power and light.

 

You represent the change

for which this world waits.​

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***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

I gotta be me.

 

Help me be brave and

lay everything on the line

today because I want

a light so bright that

no one can miss it!

 

Amen

​

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Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I woke up with a sense

of foreboding today.

When I paused to be with

my experience, exploring

the nuances of what I was

feeling, I noticed the presence

of free-floating anxiety and

a fluttery feeling in my 

chest, like a kaleidoscope

of butterflies which were

thrashing about trying

to escape the captivity in

which they found themselves.

 

I felt edgy, distracted and

that old familiar feeling of

”something’s wrong”

started nipping at my heels.

​

It was not a very pleasant way

to begin the day at all.

​

This was a state I had not

felt for a very long time.

​

I used to awaken with this

feeling every single day.

​

And then a miracle

happened.

​

One morning I woke up

feeling all light and airy, 

bright and sparkly inside

and there was a great

big smile on my face.

​

"What is this," I asked you.

​

To which you responded

"this is what happiness

feels like."

​

The sad thing is that I had

never felt this way before

so I did not have a frame

of reference in the memory

banks with which to refer.

​

It was all Zen and fresh

and new to me.

​

Since that morning, I have

awakened in a state of

impending joy more

often than not.

​

So back to the doom and 

gloom and the sky is

falling of unknown etiology

which shrouded my entire

being this morning....

​

What the hell was going

on?

​

Would you share with us

about how best to handle

such days?

​

After all, we are human

and we all have them.

​

They are part of the human

experience.

 

Soul: This feeling is not

an invitation to take a trip

down memory lane, digging

in the past for answers, nor

does it have anything to do

with what is happening in

your life right now or in the

world.

​

I do recognize how tempting

it is to find something to

blame it all on.

 

Remember, you are here

to have experiences and you

are always going to be

having one as long as you

remain within a physical body.

​

So remain present to your

experience, allowing yourself

to feel it fully without wallowing

in it. There is no need to

analyze it. Just be with it.

 

In this here and this now

you are perfectly okay. You

are alive. The universe has

seen fit to give you another

day to live. You are experiencing

feelings. They are not positive

or negative. They are entirely

neutral. They have no more

meaning than the meaning

which you give them.

 

To feel is a sign that you are

alive. To feel is a gift.

 

So connect deeply with me

and begin following your

breath. Let’s experience this

together today.

 

Think of the breath as light

and allow it to fill you

entirely with each inhalation.

 

Can you feel the inhalation

of light as it transmutes the

anxiety back into light,

which is its Source?

 

Now, on the exhalation, share

that light with the world.

​

Can you feel it as it radiates

out from you in every

direction?

​

Imagine how many people

are experiencing the same

thing as you are right now

but do not have the advantage

of a conscious relationship

with me from which to draw

comfort and support.

 

You have the opportunity to

breathe for each of them

and share with them your

peace.

 

Human beings are quite expert

at making a big deal out of

everything when it is entirely

unnecessary for them to

do so.

 

This is one of the more common

ways in which you prolong

the experience of discomfort

and suffering.

 

Every human experience

is finite.

 

And it will begin to dissipate

as soon as you become

fully willing to lean into it

and hold the space of TLC

for what is, as it is unfolding.

 

It is helpful to remember that

everything comes from light

and everything seeks to return

to light.

​

Your body gets all of its cues

from you.

​

When you resist, it resists.

​

When you surrender to what

is and trust, the body yields

to you.

 

It will soon do so if you allow

it to without interfering.

 

Look at your word interfere.

 

Into - fear.

 

Do not be afraid to be afraid.

​

Most fear is anticipatory in

nature.

 

No one ever died of fear.

 

But not feeling fear is anathema

to life.

 

If you are patient, you will soon

see that fear is always beneath

every feeling other than LOVE.

 

me: I am already feeling

much more calm and peaceful.

 

Thank you.

 

It helps me to remember

that had I not agreed to

experience all these things

that are mine to navigate

and feel my way through

in this life, no one would be

able to relate to me.

​

My life is thus a very good

example that demonstrates

that nothing can prevent you

from finding freedom if

that is what you want.

 

I hope my life is a constant

reminder that I am just as

human as the next person.

 

I can show my world another

way of being with themselves

in the midst of their human

experience, whatever that

happens to be, through my

willingness to be there for

myself through everything.

 

In this way, I am being the

future of humanity now.

I am demonstrating a different

way to be with myself while

embodied.

 

And I am certain that I want

my life to be a demonstration

of truth and not that of

impermanence.

 

Soul: May your life always be

a living demonstration of

the best way to navigate

the human experience.

 

Why wait to be happy?

 

Why wait to be peaceful?

 

Human conditions may never

be entirely to your liking.

 

But your life can be a living

demonstration of joy and peace

in the midst of everything

no matter what.

 

You can show the world that it

is okay to feel off now and then.

​

Normalize the experience through

your willingness to demonstrate

that you are still very much human.

 

It is part of the human experience

and you are here to have human

experiences, after all.

 

The question is, can you be the

space of love and acceptance

that shows the world how to

navigate the oft times churning

and unpredictable waters of life?

 

I am not talking about fake it

til you make it.

​

That kind of rhetoric is for

the birds.

​

The world has seen its share

of pyschobabble and free

advice.

 

It is a matter of how quickly

can you remember there is

nothing missing in me?

 

I am made of star stuff. 

 

I've got this.

 

me: I get it.

 

I am not somehow less

because I am experiencing

extremely uncomfortable

feelings.

 

I do not have to wait for things

to feel perfect to me before

I am willing to live my life in

total alignment with you.

 

Every day, I can show the world

what it means to be both human

and Divine simply by being

in alignment with you and my

experience.

​

Not just some of the time,

but all of the time.

​​​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

Why are we so quick to

judge and believe that

something is wrong

when that is impossible?

 

I am human and Divine.

 

May my life be a living

demonstration of the

alchemy of both when

they remain merged

with one another.

 

Like water with water,

humanity and Divinity

inseparably mixed.

 

Amen

​

***