Thought for the Day​​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I made what I feel is a very

important decision yesterday,

at least it feels important to me.

​

And really, the memory of the 

3 fleas riding on the back of the

elephant came to mind so I 

know I did not make a decision

about anything. Even the urge

to go to the bathroom comes

from you. You are in charge,

after all...

​

Let's find a more accurate way

of describing what happened.

​

You inspired me.

​

How's that?

 

Soul: Spot on!

 

You are really starting to get

the hang of this.

 

Guidance and presence are

ever with you, inspiring every

single step you take, every move,

every thought, every emotion,

every sensation, every situation

or circumstance you experience.

 

Remember, you are here to have

experiences, not to try to fix

things that you have judged

broken or somehow inadequate.

 

If you trusted this even a little,

there could be no further upsets,

no loss of peace, no sleepless 

nights, no angst and uncertainty.

​

But the poor little flea believes

he is the doer in his little life,

does he not? 

​

Such unnecessary pressure

you place on yourselves.

 

But it was an important decision

which you agreed to participate in

and it is a very nice thing to share.

 

What is far more important is that

you saw that experiencing life this

way goes contrary to how your

world operates.

 

In this day and age where no one

can tell what is true because A.I. is

making it up for everyone as they

go along based on their particular

beliefs, prejudices, opinions,

judgments and programming, you

have need of something which

has both true power and peace

to lift you higher than the noise.

 

This is a voice all people can hear

and have listened to it at one time

or another whenever they sincerely

felt that they needed it.

 

It will assist them in finding the

voice that speaks for truth within

their own innermost being as well.

 

Are you ready to share it now?

 

me: I decided that I was going to

place deeper emphasis on breath

awareness and my heart.

​

I think I was both present and

aware of the heart and the breath

for approximately 60% of the time

but I wanted to challenge myself

more than I had been.

​

How close to 100% can I get that?

 

From here, I decided that if I

could not speak from my own

direct experience, from now on,

I was going to remain silent.

 

And when I made this decision, I

saw a vast and beautiful field.

​

It contained every sort of

flower in every color in the

universe.

 

The grass was vibrant green,

the sky blue, while a gentle

breeze carried with it the scent

of roses.

 

And I instinctively knew that

this field was actually me.

 

I was going to be a space where

everyone was welcome and knew

they were deeply accepted

regardless how they happened

to show up.

​

When we approach our life like

this, this is how we look from

the realm of spirit.

​

And this is just how inviting

and welcoming we seem to

those who come in contact

with us.

​

It has a magnetic resonance

or pull to it that is infinitely

welcoming, gentle and kind.

​

Here, differences mean nothing

because everyone knows we

are one.

 

And in this space of active and

gentle listening, which is just

another way of describing the

state of presence, I listen for

the message that they are

communicating beneath the

words which are spoken.

 

Then I lean into what they

share, paying even closer

attention when what they

are saying happens to be

difficult for me to hear,

regardless the reason.

​

This is not a physical movement

at all.

​

It feels like I am consciously 

opening all of myself to them

unconditionally.

​

So it is a leaning in and an

opening up to what is not visible

to the naked eye.

​

You see...

​

I want to hear every bit of what

their heart's yearn to share.

​

I want them to feel heard and to

know that they matter.

 

With deep sincerity, I welcome

whatever is unfolding without

shutting down or trying to tell

them what to do or help them

fix anything.

​

I act like I care because I do care.

 

Intuitively I knew that this person

was actually trying to show me

the things which I did not love

about myself, the ways in which

my love for myself has been

conditional.

 

All of this was a conclusion that

I arrived at organically after

our most recent thoughts this

week.

 

And I found that in order to really

and truly live this way, I had

to slow down even more than I

already have slowed down.

 

You have to slow down enough

to feel the still point within you

and remain there.

 

It’s not something you can practice

on the fly.

 

Soul: Can you imagine what this

world would look like and feel like

if everyone related to themselves

and one another this way?

 

How about we ask everyone to

begin practicing this way?

​

I will be there to guide each of

you as you try.

 

For indeed you are changing the

world simply by learning how to

actively participate lovingly in

the present moment.

 

From here, the world gets a little

brighter, a little more translucent

each and every day.

 

me: Thank you for always being

my champion, the world's

champion, in this dance we all

call life.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

I step back and let the light

lead the way.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

 

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: It is so hard living life

as the ego, having such limited

resources available to me,

and yet feeling the burden

of responsibility all of the time

for how everything turns out.

​

You carry the weight of the

world on your shoulders.

 

I can't believe I was able to

prop it all up for as long

as I did. Keeping all of those

plates balanced in the air

and spinning according to

my design.

​

If things turned out my way,

I was elated.

​

If they did not, not only did

I blame myself for the failure,

but I flogged myself without

mercy.

 

I look back on it and do not

know how I played that

terrible game for even a

single day.

 

Frankly, I don't know how

anyone does it. But the fact

that we all do it day after day

after day is nothing short of

a miracle of madness when

you think about it.

 

I am grateful knowing there

is absolutely nothing that

depends on me.

​

The only thing I am here to

master is myself. Not by might,

nor by will, but through love.

 

Because if anything did depend,

on me, we would have all

been screwed a long time ago.

 

Believing in free will is incredibly

hard on the body's cells and

nervous system.

​

It wreaks havoc on the mind, 

is the great destroyer or

relationships and it is funda-

mentally ruinous to peace.

 

It sure has taken its

toll on me...

 

And to think, life has always

been unfolding the way

that it was supposed to,

requiring absolutely nothing

from me at all.

 

And the funniest thing about

all this madness?

 

Rich man, poor man, beggar

man, thief, there has always

been and will always be

something greater that is

working in each of our lives.

 

Infinite Intelligence, God,

LOVE, Light, you call it

whatever you want to,

but there is no denying

its Reality....

 

Surrender and leaning into

life is so much easier on

the body.

​

Too bad it took me 60+

years to learn that.

 

It's so amazing.

 

Once you directly experience

yourself as soul, you realize

you do not have to do any-

thing anymore.

 

In fact, you never did.

 

Panache uses the most

amazing analogy to describe

this.

 

Three fleas are riding on

the back of an elephant, t

wo of which are entertaining

themselves by taking credit

for the direction the elephant

walks.

 

Can't you just hear that

conversation?

 

"Hey, Syral, Kevin here."

 

"Look what I just did?"

 

"I made the elephant go

left instead of right.

Aren't I amazing?"

 

While the flea named Betty

leans back in her unicorn

floaty, content to do nothing

but sip on her margarita

and go along for the ride.

 

(In case you don't know it,

I am laughing like a hyena

just thinking about it.)

 

All we have to do is experience

our life as it is unfolding.

 

Nothing is required other

than this.

 

Blows my mind how effortless

life actually is!

 

I think of all those decades

I tried so hard to be good

enough for others, failing

miserably despite the Herculean

effort I exerted, trying to

change myself for whomever

I happened to be with at

the time.

 

And you know what else has

dawned on me?

 

I am never ever going to be

good enough for anyone else,

but I am always good enough

for you, dear soul, who is my

One True Self.

 

Hallelujah!

 

Soul: Every single thing that

is happening is supposed to be

happening exactly as it is.

 

Who has the ability to usurp

the power of God?

 

And who is naive enough

to believe they know best?

 

This is why the only lesson

any of you need to learn

during the course of a human

life is that of trust.

 

Think about it.

 

Trauma

Violence

Sickness

Hardship

Struggle

Death

 

Hasn't every single bit of what

you have experienced

contributed to who you are

today?

 

As you said in your beautiful

letter of gratitude to me

yesterday, the past made

you who you are today,

and what happens now

is contributing to who you

will be in the future.

 

Allow your life to be great

and it will be.

 

Allow your life to be beautiful

and it will be.

 

Allow yourself to be happy

and you will be.

 

I love the word allow, which

implies a willingness to take

a step back and let the light

lead the way.

 

Can this be difficult for anyone

who wants to experience

either peace or freedom?

 

me: No, it is not hard at all.

​

Here is my solemn vow:

 

I hereby give myself

permission to be happy,

joyous and free.

 

And I am really starting

to get that everything

is a manifestation of love,

so why all the mental

gymnastics in an effort

to control or change

what is when it is always

leading me back to me?

 

Ever validating that ONLY

LOVE IS REAL.

 

This is all happening so

that I can get to know you,

beloved soul, which is

actually getting to know

myself.

​

This is the essence of the

only meaning that life

has.

 

Thank you will never be

enough.

 

I am experiencing such a

clarity and freedom in

being me. Simply allowing

life to unfold without

my interference, welcoming

it all with love.

 

I have this sneaky feeling

that 2026 is going to be

one amazingly glorious

year.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

Following the breath,

opening the heart

as wide as the world.

 

I receive all that will

happen this day,

especially the parts

that may be personally

challenging, knowing

that I have been given

the opportuniity to bring

the iinfinite state of

presence to everyone

and everything my life

touches today.

 

Thank you for the song

of love which is my life.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

 

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: You know, I do not want

to know what my life would

look like and feel like if I did

not feel this amazingly

consistent and sustained state

of connection that I have with

you, dear soul.

 

First of all, I seriously see

how life as ego is entirely

unsustainable.

 

It is like playing a never

ending game of musical

chairs, fighting to get that

last seat still available

when there is never enough

chairs for all the players.

​

The odds of getting a chair

are perhaps ten to one at best.

 

And it is exhausting, bone

crushingly so.

 

There is a certain buzz, a

tangible frequency, to my

life when lived in harmony

with you, a flow which is

unmistakable.

 

And like a moth to the flame,

I cannot bear considering

what life would feel like

without your loving presence.

​

How could I ever find words

that could adaquately

express the feeling of you

and I, merged so completely

with one another, my heart 

purring like a little kitten,

this incredible experience of

mutual love inseparably

mixed that continuously

tests my ability to bear?

​

Those moments I give it

100% of my attention,

I feel us ignite, bursting

into flames, in one instant

a death, and in the next,

I am reborn.

 

After experiencing this,

who would be willing to

go back to life as it was

before I knew that you

were the only part of me

that was real, how could

I return to a life of always

settling for less?

 

For only this could be

said to be life, real life…

 

That...

 

That other thing I was

doing...?

 

That was the monotony

and futility of empty

existence.

 

Jesus reportedly called

the Pharisees, ”White-

washed sepulchers with

empty bones,” I was a

robot, set on cruise,

bumbling and fumbling

my way through the

motions of life and living.

 

You know…after all these

words we have been looking

at for the past three weeks,

I have become acutely aware

of the legion of people who

have populated my life,

enough to fill an entire

football stadium.

 

Each has played their part

to perfection, aiding me

in becoming who I am

today and I am so very

grateful to each and every

one of them.

 

This afternoon I watch a movie

on Netflix which was entitled,

”Hillbilly Elegy.”

 

It is the story of J.D. Vance,

our Vice President.

 

And I feel such sorrow because

prior to watching that movie,

I thought he was a doofus,

the perfect patsy to serve

in the role of Vice President.

 

He did not seem to be

doing much of anything

to contribute to the Trump

legacy of POTUS.

 

But oh my goodness….

 

His childhood felt as insane

and crazy-making as mine

felt to me.

 

And he, like myself, managed

to create for himself a different

sort of life.

 

A Harvard graduate who has

risen to the position of

Vice President of the United

States who will, no doubt,

be a candidate for POTUS

in the 2028 election year.

 

And I couldn’t help but feel

an overwhelming sense of

love and gratitude to you

while watching the movie,

that is still so overwhelming

to me even now, for helping

me build of the lumber

of my life what could very

well have been a tavern,

but it became an exquisite

temple of love which is

wholly dedicated to you,

the source and giver

of all life.

 

How could there ever be

enough words in the universe

to thank you for that?

 

I look at the lives of my other

siblings and I realize how

there was much more evidence

to support a life in the gutter

than the life that I get to celebrate

with you each and every day.

 

I am amazed by myself and

my life. I stand in awe of

its majesty. And I am brought

to tears again and again

that grace has so blessed me

and it is what it is now.

 

Where I used to be a control

freak, I no longer feel the

need to try to control anyone

or anything, least of all myself.

 

And I do not run away from

things which are difficult

or challenging as I once

did.

 

Nor do I bury my head in

the sand, a habit I learned

from my mother.

 

I turn gently inward, seeing

what is happening as an

opportunity to lean in gently

toward myself, scoop myself

up and love the parts of me

that have been too long

denied and ignored.

 

I no longer need anyone or

anything to be different than

it is right now.

 

Nor do I find a single thing

about me that I would

change if I had the power

to do so.

 

How many can honestly

say that?

 

I feel absolutely no need

to make life any harder than

it already is.

 

Where I used to feel I needed

to set boundaries, I no longer

feel anyone has the power

to do anything to me unless

I give them my consent.

​

The word "no" and the abiliity

to walk away are easy peasy.

 

I see every person as just

another aspect of myself.

They are in my life in order

to reveal to me how my

relationship with myself

has been conditional and

I use each encounter as an

opportunity to love myself

freely without conditions

or expectations.

 

What a gift to be able to share

this love with all of my world

every day.

 

I did not come here to judge

people.

 

I came here to love them,

to love them with all of

my heart, not as I wish

they were, but as they are.

 

No matter who they are,

no matter how they are,

my job is to love them

however they show up.

​

Each being a mirror

revealing my former

relationship with myself.

 

Who would have ever

thought a life such as

mine was even possible,

given where and how it

all began?

 

I thank you dear sweet

precious and loving soul.

 

Thank you. Thank you.

Thank you.

 

This heart weeps big ole

crocodile tears today

for the miracle that

I am.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

Endless bottomless gratitude

fills this heart to over-

flowing.

 

Thank you for the miracle

of me.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

 

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Oh, my gosh....

 

We have our last word

today!

 

loss

 

What a powerful powerful

word it is if you believe

it is possible to experience

a loss which has any

true significance!

 

Over the course of this

human journey I have

lost so many things...

 

Fortunes

Careers

Possessions

Friends

Family

Health

 

Everything I had ever identified

with or thought was precious

to me.

 

It took losing each of them

to see that they were not

precious at all.

 

They each represented another

way to bind me, to keep me

running around like a chicken

with my head chopped off

in a futile attempt to secure

them as mine forever, each

was just another noose

with which to hang myself.

 

I remember days upon days

laying on the living room

floor bawling my eyes out,

so incredibly devastated

by yet another loss, only to

discover with time that I

had not lost anything that

held any intrinsic value.

 

I had been set free.

 

Each supposed loss was

thus a gain of immeasurable

value.

 

What can be lost is only that

which was never real

in the first place.

 

I have discovered something

vital about all these words

we have been discussing

these past three weeks .

​

The only power that any

word has is the power

that we give them.

 

Our power!

 

That is what we give away

willy nilly to forms and

phenomena that are

fleeting at best.

 

The power of belief does not

make a thing real, it simply

makes it real to us.

 

And it took being stripped

down by life to my most

naked and vulnerable state

to real eyes that the state

of raw vulnerability is

actually a super power.

 

Only in our vulnerability

and utter transparency

do we discover that we

are truly invulnerable.

 

And when I finally com-

prehended the illusory nature

of all of these words which

we have been looking at...

 

imperfection

lack

need

unresolvable trauma

broken

not good enough

mistakes/sins

should

FOMO

dangerous or unsafe

change

weak

unforgivable

loss

 

...I discovered LOVE.

 

I found within the tabernacle

of my heart a fire which

can never be extinguished.

 

It holds no record of wrong.

 

It sees only innocence.

 

It trusts.

 

It fears nothing.

 

It embraces everything as

a mother does her only

child.

 

It is as fierce as a lion, yet

it is gentle as a dove.

 

It faces life with open

hands and a heart as big

as the world.

​

For indeed this heart holds

everything in its embrace.

 

In exudes a living peace

which is unshakable

regardless what is happening

in your life, the lives of

those you hold dear, or the

world.

 

It effortlessly does this

because it knows that every-

thing is always unfolding

exactly as it should, that

in fact everything is in

Divine Order and thus

everything is always

going to be okay.

 

Soul: I am continually in awe

every single day, experiencing

the wisdom which you

have garnered in this life.

 

I chose a very challenging

life through you because

that is how deep and how

wide my love is for this world...

 

I incarnated as you to do

mighty works through you,

simply by experiencing

a precious human life.

 

For without you, I have no

voice in this world.

​

Formlessness donned a human

form in order to reveal itself

to and through every single

manifestation.

​​

Can you imagine a world

where everyone mistakenly

believed they were limited

to the identity which is

known as ego?

 

But through your willingness

to continually say yes,

I will be the one... I have a

vessel which has been and is

suitable to my plans.

 

God does not choose

instruments who are capable.

 

God chooses instruments

who know they are incapble

yet still choose to say yes,

and then God empowers

them to do the very thing

they said yes to and more.

 

This dance through form

and phenomena we do

as ONE, although framed

in time, heeds only immortality.

 

Together we have touched

everything that is or ever

will be.

 

And soon, beloved, all will

again embrace the LOVE

which is.

 

So be of good cheer.

 

One who has overcome

themselves has indeed

overcome the world.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

One breath at a time...

 

One step at a time...

 

I walk to the edge where

I can no longer see

anything and still

choose to say yes.

​

Yes... Yes... Continuously

only yes..

​

I will forever be that ONE.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

 

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Our word for today is

unforgiveness.

 

There are several words that

share the same basic sentiment

as unforgiveness. Words such

as guilt, shame, sin, grievances,

bad, wrong and evil.

 

Everyone who believes these

words are true, everyone to

whom these words have real

meaning, also feel that they

are entirely justified in holding

onto them, handing them out

to the people who populate

their dream according to some

hierarchical scale of good

and evil that is made up

entirely by their own mind.

​

In other words, they are used

by those who are dualistic

in their perspective.

​

Not bad, not wrong, but most

certainly not the path of 

peace, vibrant health and well-

being. prosperity or loving

relationships.

​

It is life according to mind

and as I said yesterday,

molded through parental 

influence.

 

There is a palpable self-

righteousness and arrogance

they display.

 

None of which feels at all

tender, loving, gentle or kind.

 

I think everyone who

incarnates on this planet

gets brainwashed to some

degree into the 'guilty'

belief system.

 

Possessed by this mindset,

and it really does feel like

one is possessed, the concept

of forgiveness actually implies

letting someone off the hook

who does not deserve it.

 

So on one side of the coin

one is overcome by feelings

of unworthiness and ineptitude

and on the other side of that

same coin, there is a lifetime

of resentments felt toward

those who parented them

as well as those who remind

one of those who parented

them.

​

That's a very painful way

to live.

​

You cannot let anyone off

the hook because that would

imply a proclamation of

innocence that you in no way

are ever going to accept

as truth.

 

Not about oneself.

 

And certainly not about all

those who you are holding

hostage because you have

proclaimed their guilt.

​

By the time I reached my 20's,

I knew two things:

​

(1) If I was ever going to become

a stable human being, I needed

to move far away from familial

influence.

​

(2) I was going to need to make

a commitment to myself to begin

the work of reparenting muself.

​

You could say that was a living

amends, to learn to be my

own best friend and champion.

​

And that is exactly what I did.

​

And you know what I discovered?

​

The mind is a petty, vindictive

tyrant, but it makes a wonderful

servant when it is put to use

in service to the heart.

​

The heart is where you find

what you truly are, beloved,

love through and through.

​

The heart is always pure

and untouched by all things

that unfold in time...

​

And it is only the heart which

can reparent us by showing us

how to love ourselves in the

manner in which we yearned

to be loved as children.

​

We have already discussed

the fact that nothing about

our humanity has any impact

on our Divinity, and in our

TFTD yesterday, we discovered

that every experience is an

inner experience, that no one

is capable of making you feel

anything, ever.

 

This made it abundantly

clear to me that misery and

suffering is something that

we do to ourselves.

​

Thus, holding onto grievances

is a sure and certain path

to life in an inner hell realm.

 

No one is guilty of anything,

ever, and thus forgiveness is

a mute issue.

​

Our eternal innocence and

sanctity remains unchanged,

unchangeable, unchanging.

​

It is just as true about the one

whom you are upset with

as it is about you, my friend.

 

So choosing to feel that

someone does not deserve

to be forgiven and hanging

onto a grievance in its stead

is a choice to engage in

self-harm.

​

It is a choice to continue

to be mental.

 

It is a sword you dangle

above your own head.

 

While you trap someone

in a prison cell which you

have made for them, you

remain trapped too be-

cause you have to stand

guard over them so that

they do not get away.

 

There is an important verse

in ACIM that has meant

a lot to me the past 25 years

which says:

 

"Forgiveness rests upon the

one who offers it, until he

sees himself as needing it

no more."

 

Even while still very much

believing in guilt, I was

capable of recognizing it

was myself I needed to learn

to forgive.

​

And I found that you do not

need therapy in order to heal

and reparent yourself.

​

You need to accept and love

the all-too-human parts of

yourself that you feel are

wrong.

​

And you know what else I 

found?

​

When you turn toward the parts

of yourself that you judge as

wrong or NGE, they begin

to soften and dissolve, seemingly

all by themselves, simply

through complete acceptance

of all the parts of your humanity.

 

Until you do forgive yourself

for all the things you think

you have done that were

wrong, you will not feel

the return of innocence.

 

And innocence is not about

recovering something

which you have lost.

 

It is about recognizing what

cannot be lost, ever, simply

forgotten or overlooked.

 

If you cannot feel your own

innocence, you most certainly

are not going to see it in

someone else.

 

But it took me a very long

time to let LOVE in.

 

And it is only a genuine

experience of a love

which is given to you 

without expectations

or qualifications, a love

which can never be earned

and which accepts you

just as you are, that you

come to know through

direct experience that

love is who and what you

not only are, but have

always been.

 

This LOVE makes all of

the words which we have

been discussing for the

past two weeks crumble

into dust.

 

Only love heals and it does

so by restoring to our

awareness an embodied

experience of the truth of

our very being.

​

We are life, the very life of

life!

 

In the presence of such an

experience of truth, every-

thing which is not true

vanishes in a flash.

 

And remember, if we are

always on the soul's journey,

then everything that has ever

happened or ever will happen

was supposed to happen.

 

No one has the power to

change the will of God.

 

Soul: You have tried to share

a lot today and struggled

in that effort.

 

How could any word share

the magnitude of the love

that only the heart can hold?

​

A love which, once experienced

deeply within, has the power

to awaken the same experience

in everyone you encounter

simply by being in your presence.

 

And although it is true that

nothing about your humanity

has any impact on your

Divinity, you are here to

embody your Divinity

throughout all of your

humanity.

 

It is this living example

you came to bring the

world.

 

Your humanity does not

need to change.

 

And a better, healthier,

more psychologically

adjusted ego is still just

an ego.

 

You are soul, beloved,

having a human experience.

 

Do not mistake the vehicle

which is allowing you to

have that experience

for who or what you are.

​

Capisce?

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

May these eyes, these

hands and this heart

experience the eternal

innocence which

we all share.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

 

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Our word for today is one

that has played a pivotal role

in my life.

 

The word is weak.

 

I grew up in a household where

the #1 message which was

communicated to me on a daily

basis was that I was hopelessly

weak, NGE and unlovable.

 

In addition to that repetitive

message, I was also told that

no one would ever be able

to love me or want me, and

that most certainly included

my parents as well as all the

siblings once they came 

along.

​

(I was the oldest of the lot.)

 

If you tell a child something

often enough, they will begin

to believe it is true.

 

From an egoic perspective,

parental influence defines

who we will be.

 

That relationship becomes the

lens through which we filter every

other relationship we will ever

have after that.

 

It reveals the nature of our

defenses, our beliefs, our judgments,

as well as the meaning and

interpretation of every experience

we will ever have so long as we

believe that who we are and

what we are is who we were

told we are.

 

"Who am I ?" thus becomes a

question we looked to others to

answer for us.

​

Certainly we would not ask this

of ourselves, right?

​

We knew nothing other than

what we were told.

​

We spent so much time, 

effort and energy trying

to please those who were

our caregivers that we

had neither time nor reason

to try to cultivate a meaningful

relationship with ourselves.

​

For the longest time, the voice

inside my head was that of

my father's.

​

I felt tormented by it.

​

What could we possibly know

other than the messages which

they repeated?

​

We felt entirely empty and

barren of anything other than

the judgments and meanings

they drilled into us.

 

Soul: My message to all of you

who experienced trauma in

your formative years will be

a very difficult one for you to

hear and accept today, but

treasure it dearly if you wish

to be happy and free.

​

For though it will seem painful

at first, it is the gift of radical

emancipation from all things

related to time.

​

Time is indeed the only illusion

you must recognize.

​

When time disappears, in your

mind, everything that has occurred

in time disappears with it.

​

Here is the disappearance of the

universe, the return of form

to formlessness.

 

When you truly love every

part of yourself without reserve,

you will come to understand that

every experience is an inner

experience.

 

No one is capable of making you

feel anything.

 

Nor are you capable of making

someone else feel or experience

anything either.

 

Only when you recognize that

you are the source of every

experience you have ever had

or ever will have, do you begin

to take your power back.

 

One who has taken their power

back knows that no matter

what happens, you are the only

one who gets to determine your

inner experience of life.

​

Isn't that a relief for you

to hear?

 

For only one who has taken

their power back can be said

to know what authentic power

actually is.

 

This power is not acquired

by might, nor by force, but

with the most profound

gentleness.

​

Softer than the sound of a pin

falling to the ground, yet

powerful enough to make

the ground beneath your

feet tremble in the wake of

such command and do-

minion over your inner

world.

 

This is the telltale sign of

authentic self-sovereignty

and self-mastery.

 

Wanting to be loved by

someone else is the definition

of codependency.

 

The truth is that 100% of all

emotions are self-generated.

 

No one can actually give you

love.

 

When you know this through

direct experience, this is

choosing the red pill

rather than the blue one which

the world constantly coaxes you

to take.

​

I have provided you with 

an example straight from

the Matrix movie which you

love so much.

​

Consider this today...

​

What if the world truly is a

simulation and you are it's

one true player?

 

Until you see this and accept it,

you will not know what freedom

authentically is.

 

You are the one who has

generated every experience

that you have ever had.

​

All children come here with

a blank slate, having not

yet forgot who or what they

are.

 

It is virtually impossible to

know you are not the

messages which are spoken

over you when you are a

child, but you are an adult now
 

You are the one who is holding

all the cards!

 

Time to take all of your power

back!

 

For when you expect anything

from someone else, you are

inviting duality into your

experience by extending

the invitation for the opposite

to show up for you in that

relationship as well.

​

Please reflect on that statement

today.

​

What is there to react to in

any situation or circumstance, 

if all experiences are inner

experiences and totally by

your own design?

 

This is the difference between

living your life from the inside

out and that of living from

the outside in.

 

Realizing all of this, I want to

give you a little assignment

to work on today.

 

I do not want you to try to edit

or censor yourself in any way.

​

You are simply collecting data.

 

Watch yourself, observe your

inner experience, and notice

that regardless what the outer

experience happens to be, you

are the one who is generating

every bit of your inner experience.

 

Your inner experience is either

that of who you are, which is love,

or it is a collection of judgments,

beliefs and preferences; a tiny host

of 1's and 0's from your base code:

programming, neurotransmitters,

hormones and biochemical

reactions.

 

May you find another piece of

your power being restored to you

with each new experience

as you recognize that you are

the only one who can decide

how you will feel, but only 100%

of the time.​

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

Help me real eyes today

that no one can add anything

to who I am, nor can anyone

take anything away.

 

I am the master of my inner

experience of life from this

moment moving forward.

 

And when I temporarily

forget this, let me

experience self-mastery

here too, by offering love

and compassion to the

part of me that believed

that forgetting was

actually an option.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​​

 

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: The word we are exploring

today is change.

 

The first couple of decades of

my life, I fervently wanted

something in my life to be

stable and changeless.

 

I longed for something I could

anchor myself to so that the world

I inhabited, which was filled with

so much chaos and suffering,

would stop tossing me about

like a loose fire hose which was

still attached to an active fire

hydrant.

 

It is said that when the Buddha

first turned the wheel of Dharma,

his very first teaching was that of

The Four Noble Truths.

 

They are:

 

(1) The truth of suffering.

 

Many fundamentalists have tried

to get me to argue with them

over the years that Buddhists

teach and thus believe that

life is suffering.

 

And truth be told, it is suffering

if you live your life from your lower

three chakras. From this perspective,

everything is all about Darwinism:

survival of the fittest.

​

It's a first-come-first-served world.

 

You live a life which has no constants

and it is a never ending roller coaster

ride of change that you are constantly

trying to prepare yourself for. You

knock yourself out in a futile effort

to try to mitigate the inevitability of

change because it usually brings

some degree of suffering in its wake

more often than not.

 

(2) Suffering is caused by

attachment and aversion.

 

If we happen to like it, we

are very attached. We want

it to never change or leave

us.

 

If we do not happen to like it,

we have an aversion to it and

hope it goes away quickly

without causing us too much

hardship, even if that means

that it goes to someone else.

 

(3) There is an end to suffering.

 

If you truly want a way out,

the way will be made clear

to you.

 

Life honors and blesses sincerity

by providing us with whatever

assistance we need.

 

(4) The way out is outlined in

the Eightfold Noble Path which

consists of:

right view

right resolve

right speech

right conduct

right livelihood

right effort

right mindfulness

right union or absorption

 

More rules.

 

And you thought that it was only

Christianity and Judaism

that had lots and lots and lots of

rules?

 

Think again, my friend.

 

I happen to have a different take

on the Four Noble Truths.

 

(1) Yes, life is suffering if you are

identified with the ego or the

separate self.

 

(2) Suffering is caused by movement.

And what moves is all form and

phenomena. First and foremost

on that list of things that are in

constant motion is you, the personal

or separate self.

 

(3) There is a way out of suffering.

 

The secret to the end of suffering

is to stop all of the motion.

 

But the objects never stop moving.

 

What does not move is the field

of consciousness they occupy.

 

(4) In order to stop the movement,

we must relinquish our identification

with the personal self that is so

attached to all form and phenomena.

 

When you become identified with

formlessness, the infinite field

of energy, or God, which hold all forms,

you are connected with the nonlocal

field of the changeless.

​

That which does not move because

it is the boundless field of the

Everywhere.

​

There is nowhere the Everywhere

is not.

 

One of my biggest takeaways from

my years in Tibetan Buddhism

was that the only thing which is

permanent in this world, the one

true constant that we can always

count on, is that everything in

this world is impermanent.

 

And impermanence means change.

 

You can always trust that things

are always going to change

and that is a refreshing bit of

news if you happen to be

experiencing something which

is challenging or difficult such

as pain or sickness.   

 

You can rely on this being the

case 100% of the time.

 

Let’s face it.

 

Human beings do not do change

well.

 

We live our lives with a false sense

of immortality.

 

We do our best to avoid sickness,

aging and death.

 

Wise is the one who never forgets

the truth that life in a body is a

finite thing and chooses to live

each day as if it is his or her last.

 

In the last couple of years since

the death of my best friend, Pam,

I have been getting rid of stuff.

 

I have to admit that it began

out of a desire to not leave a mess

that someone else would have

to deal with after I am gone, but

I began to realize that it had

more to do with not wanting

to cling to anything, nor anything

to cling to me.

 

I have operated by a basic principle

that if I have not used it in the past

12 months, it has to go.

 

And if I am attached to it?

 

Sayonara and auf wiedersehen.

 

It feels so liberating to let

everything go, to treasure the

the empty hand and the full heart.

 

Yes. Life is change.

 

Life is a constant sea of change.

 

But if feels oh-so-much-better

to flow with the river that is

change than it does to try to

push the river, does it not?

 

Soul: The metaphor you use of

the synchronized swimmers in

the Olympics is a lovely example

of flow…harmony…and equipoise...

 

Life is change. And it always goes

better if you move with the change

rather than strike out against it.

 

As they teach in Twelve Step Recovery,

the first step is acceptance.

 

How about that for an assignment

today?

 

Recognize change when it is before

you and inwardly bow to what is

with radical acceptance.

 

me: I think that is a wonderful idea.

 

And I am most certainly game.

​

To tell you the truth, that's how I

have been trying to live for the

most part for some time now.

 

A very dear friend recently

told me that her teacher shared

his version of the Serenity Prayer

in a small group she participated

in:

 

“God grant me the serenity to

accept the things I cannot change,

WHICH IS EVERYTHING.

The courage to change the things

I can WHICH IS NOTHING,

and the wisdom to know the

difference WHICH IS KNOWING

THAT I CANNOT CHANGE

ANYTHING.”

 

I think that is utterly amazing.

​

It absolutely blows my mind

in such a good way.

 

To accept the inevitability

of change and to accept

that you are powerlessness

in the face of it.

 

They most certainly go together

like a hand and a glove.

 

Soul: Tomorrow then?

 

me: I will be here.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

I bow before the isness

of life as it unfolds.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I am not at all ready to

move forward with our

next subject.

 

I have been in a very pensive

and introspective place,

reflecting on my NDE 13 years

ago.

 

Would you mind if we talked

about it today?

 

I am well aware of the fact

that this will not be the last

time we discuss what I

experienced, but I am

feeling as though I am

finally comprehending

what happened with

more clarity and wisdom.

 

Because of this, I would like

to try to find words that

express, at least directionally,

what happened that evening

so long ago.

 

Would you mind letting me know

if I am on the right track?

 

Soul: It’s important that we

look at it again today because

your current inner experience

mirrors that one in many ways.

​

The time has come where

we can talk about it without

misunderstandings, knowing

fully that we are speaking

the same language.

 

me: I will try not to write

prolifically about the

experience, knowing

full well that this is what

I often do.

 

I will try my best to dial it

back a bit.

 

Besides, who has the time

to read volumes?

 

And who really cares?

​

After all, I have been writing

the TFTD for 28 years now,

knowing that who I am

really writing them for is

myself.

 

I was a patient in the hospital.

 

At this point I had been

hospitalized for around a

month already and I was

going to have exploratory

abdominal surgery because

I had been running temps 

in excess of 103 degrees F

and they could not find the

cause, despite a month of

I.V. antibiotics which were

administered around the clock.

 

They had already treated

me for a collapsed lung

and placed me on 5 different

IV antibiotics for that alone.

​

Still no improvement.

 

Now they needed to search

for the cause of the high fever.

 

I had been telling them since

I was admitted that the problem

was my gallbladder, but 

they would not listen to me.

 

I knew I had all the cardinal

signs of cholecystitis, but

all my bloodwork kept coming

back normal.

 

In addition, they had done

an ultrasound of the gallbladder

which showed nothing

remarkable.

​

No one believed me in spite

of the fact that I had been

an RN for over 30 years

at that point.

 

Turns out I had gangrene

of the gallbladder and was

septic. My body was infected

with three types of Mersa

and one Mersa-like fungus.

 

They put me in reverse

isolation.

​

After the blood cultures

came back, they would 

know the right antibiotics

that would work.

​

But I am getting way ahead of

myself...let me go back

to that day.

 

After the surgery, they had

given me a dose of Ativan

in the recovery room

because I was agitated.

​

A  couple more hours in

recovery, then they took me

back to my room.

 

At some point I tanked.

 

Who knows how long I

had actually been clinically

dead.

​

It was a friend who was a nurse

that found me. She had come

for a visit to check on me post

surgery and found that I had

coded.

 

I was transferred immediately

to the ICU and after they had

successfully revived me, I saw

doctors and nurses surrounding

my bed, working diligently on me,

while two of my friends were 

standing watch in the doorway.

 

They looked like a couple of

deer caught in headlights.

​

I could tell by the look on their

faces that they believed that

this had been the end of things

for me.

 

Here is what I remember about

those 6 minutes they recorded

in the ICU, which, by the way,

was probably a whole lot longer

than that because who knows

how long I had been laying

there before my friend found

me.

 

For me, the entire experience,

from beginning to end, was

nothing short of terrifying.

 

I use those particular words

because they reflected

rather succinctly how I felt.

​

But also because I have read

so many accounts of other

people’s NDE’s over the years

and mine was like no other

that I had or have ever

read about.

 

I was familiar with the descriptions

of a tunnel of light and being met

by Jesus or some other spiritual

figurehead, as well as by loved

ones who had already passed

away.

 

The first thing I remember

was traveling very fast,

like speed of light fast through

space, and I felt your presence

with me.

​

You were taking me

somewhere.

 

Suddenly we came to an

abrupt stop.

 

We were on the precipice

of something that I felt a

violent resistance to.

​

I remember telling you

clearly that "I don't want to

be here."

 

This place was not light.

 

It was not darkness.

 

Because both darkness and

light are something.

 

This was nothing.

​

How do you describe nothing?

 

This was a formless abyss of

nothingness, the Void.

​

And it felt as though this abyss

was pulling me out of myself

and going to suck me right

on in with it.

​

You remained utterly undisturbed

and kept trying to get me

to calm down.

 

Here there was no room for a

person, an ego, a story, a history,

or anything.

​

You know, after all, that not much

fits through the eye of a needle.

 

It was just a vast and endless

emptiness.

 

I, on the other hand,

was deeply disturbed.

​

I felt like a cat on a hot tin roof,

I was so uncomfortable being

there.

 

At a certain point, it was

communicated to me, without

actual words, yet I understood

the message in its entirety,

that it was time for me to

make a decision.

 

If I remained here any longer,

I would be unable to return

to the world and all I thought of

as my life…

 

I had a dozen or so reasons

that I gave you for wanting to

come back, but the real reason

I did not want to remain where

we were under any circumstances,

was because I was frightened

beyond reason by this experience.

​

I wanted to return to the familiar

because that represented

safety to me.

 

And as I said earlier, how do you

explain what nothing is?

​

All words can offer are somethings,

and this was an experience

of nothing....

 

It was an experience entirely

beyond language.

 

Nothing of form could long

survive in this placeless place

because this was a place of

pure formlessness; infinite

potential absent of content 

or context.

 

Here was a vast and endless

nothingness which contained

the substanceless potential

of everything.

 

It terrified me at the time

because I was so attached to

myself as a person.

 

My life…

My people…

My story…

My things...

My world...

Me! Me!

And more me!

 

And there… Well, there,

there was nothing!

 

Yet in spite of that vast

nothingness, I was still

there.

 

I was still very much,

well...me. And so were

you.

 

But we were empty and void

of any substance whatsoever.

 

Just an endless boundless

intelligent state of being….

 

When I was alone again

the next day, I remember

you telling me that I was

very very fortunate because

I had been allowed to

experience something

which few have ever had

the privilege of witnessing

and then returning to

a human life, capable of

sharing it and perhaps,

coming to comprehend it

fully through embodiment.

 

We have discussed it from

time to time over these

past 13 years, but I have

consciously chosen not

to speak of it with many

because, frankly, I did not

want to scare the shit out

of people.

 

No heaven.

​

No pearly gates and

streets of gold.

 

No Jesus.

 

No tunnel of light.

 

No Buddha, no Krishna,

no anything at all.

​

Utter formlessness.

 

The VOID.

 

People may say they are

prepared to experience the

truth, their essence, but I

happen to believe that is

a lot of cockamamy bullshit.

 

Because to experience it,

there can be no you, and that,

at least at the time, was the

most terrifying thing that

I had ever encountered.

 

Now, as for why I wanted

to talk about this today when

I have not brought it up for

many years, other than casually

mentioning having had a NDE.

 

The past 13 years have seen

a systematic peeling away

of everything I thought I

knew or believed to be true,

as well as a fundamental

stripping away of any sense

of being an actual person,

a separate self.

 

Part by part and piece

by piece, all of what I thought

I was, all that I thought was real,

has either fallen away or

been stripped away.

 

At times this has felt violent

and at other times it has been

as gentle as a whisper….

 

Yet I have come to understand

that when it was difficult, it

was because I was resistant, I

did not want to surrender to

you (which would have been

surrendering to myself), because I

believed that what I was being

asked to relinquish something

which was precious to me.

 

Time and distance from each

supposed loss showed me that

what was lost actually had

no real value.

​

I was being freed of a burden,

not robbed of anything with

true value.

​

I was beginning to see that

the house of cards upon

which I had built my so-called

life was little more than

shifting sand.

​

And despite the fact that

I was feeling an increasing

sense of groundlessness,

my life was beginning to feel

more stable and sure than it

had ever been.

​

What was this air upon which

I now stood that felt more

like home than anything I

had ever experienced?

 

And I realized something

which was very important.

 

If you can lose it, it was never

real in the first place.

 

For what is real is eternal,

and the eternal is defined

by its changelessness.

 

It is the same yesterday, today

and forever.

 

In the last few months, several

people have made comments

to me such as “preach it sister."

 

They have expressed that I

speak with a certain clarity

and authority around what I

share that leaves them

gobsmacked and speechless

at times.

 

What I am slowly coming

to comprehend is that

the place I went to when

I clinically died is what

I feel flowing through me

and surrounding me all

of the time now.

 

It is the space between every

word and every sentence,

every thought, every feeling

and every sensation.

 

It is what everything falls back

into as soon as it appears, and

it is what is before what is

arises to be birthed yet again.

 

I now feel the true meaning

of the heart sutra: “Form is

emptiness and emptiness

is form.”

​

The silence is utterly deafening.

​

Meaning is something which

is felt, never spoken or under-

stood.

 

And I knew that those who

can hear what I have to share

do so to their capacity to

understand where I had been

and am.

​

Life without a center...

​

It is communicated through

eye contact and presence.

 

This was before the beginning,

before every beginning, and yet

endlessly forever now...

 

It is where everything came

from and where everything

will eventually return.

 

And I knew that it was the

naming of things, the defining,

the labeling, the meaning-making

and the interpretations which

change formlessness into form.

 

And one’s capacity to see,

hear, understand or know

depends upon how married

they are to form or how

ready they are to fall into

the endless abyss and

experience their own absence;

undifferentiated formlessness.

 

I do not talk much these

days.

 

And I do not socialize.

 

Having lost all I formerly

valued, what is there left

to do?

 

I have gained the formless

universe of God.

 

What is there to say after

that and to whom?

 

So it has taken thirteen

years to comprehend what

happened, and at long last,

finally able to recognize

it because there is so little

that remains of the person

who once found so much

meaning in meaninglessness,

substance and value in what

was absent of any clear

substance or value.

 

Soul: Now you understand

why I told you that you

would know who I am

and when you knew who I

am, it would not matter

to you anymore who I am.

 

No one can comprehend nor

speak of an empty mirror.

 

Or as it says in Workbook

Lesson 169 of

A Course In Miralces

paragraphs 5 & 6:

 

5.Oneness is simply the idea God is. And in His Being, He encompasses all things. No mind holds anything but Him. We say “God is,” and then we cease to speak, for in that knowledge words are meaningless. There are no lips to speak them, and no part of mind sufficiently distinct to feel that it is now aware of something not itself. It has united with its Source.And like its Source Itself, it merely is.

 

6. We cannot speak nor write nor even think of this at all. It comes to every mind when total recognition that its will is God’s has been completely given and received completely. It returns the mind into the endless present, where the past and future cannot be conceived. It lies beyond salvation; past all thought of time, forgiveness and the holy face of Christ.The Son of God has merely disappeared into his Father, as his Father has in him. The world has never been at all.Eternity remains a constant state.

 

There is nothing that has ever

or could be more elegantly or

eloquently stated than that.

 

“Eternity remains a constant state.”

 

me: Thank you for today.

 

Soul: Be sure to thank yourself.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

And now these three remain:

faith, hope and love. But

the greatest of these is love.

 

I Corinthians 13

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I can’t believe that

January is almost over.

 

Life has continued to

accelerate for me more

and more each year that

I have been on planet earth,

but this decade has kept

me in a whirlwind more

often than not. It has

been so full and it is

going by so quickly.

 

Soul: You are feeling the

effects of the Celestial

Speedup which we have

discussed on several

occasions.

 

me: Would you like to

share a bit about it

before we dig into the

topic for today?

 

Soul: Certainly.

 

During the Celestial Powwow

you spoke of yesterday,

it was decided that the

decade of 2020-2030

would require an acceleration

of events and experiences,

both inner and outer,

so that the entire planet

might experience its

ascension together.

 

Prior to this decade, humanity

had been developing

technologically faster than

they were evolving spiritually,

and they cared very little

about the consequences to

each other or the earth,

who is your Mother.

 

What this boils down to

is that the conceptual

framework upon which

this planet has existed

for thousands of years

has been fear based.

 

By the end of this decade or

soon after, the planet will

experience a shift into the

frequency of love, and that

means that everything which

is not love, has to come up

so that it can leave.

​

For as long as it remains

buried, suppressed and denied,

one is never free of it.

​

He or she continuously acts

it out unconsciously on

anyone or anything that

reminds them of the past.

​

Although this has no impact

on me, the soul, it has

great impact on your humanity

and the entire planet.

​

And that impact is highly

destructive in nature and

is the cause of suffering,

chaos and the loss of peace.

 

Simple enough?

 

me: I think that just about

covers it. But please let me

add a few more salient points.

 

I and others like me who all

occupied the same limb of

the Tree of Life, agreed to come

here to help usher in a new

way of being human.

 

That was to be accomplished

through a vibrational shift in

the collective energy that

we would share with the world

as we learned to love and

accept all of our humanity

as it is.

 

And through the transparency

of total self-acceptance, we would

embody love completely.

​

Love is alchemical by nature.

 

What we are offering is some-

thing which cannot be

transmitted through either

words or deeds, but through

our presence. 

​

Thus, to teach is to

demonstrate.

 

It is a most unique time in

human history.

 

Okay. I am ready to move

on with our words for

today.

 

Soul: The words we will be

talking about are dangerous

or unsafe and I predict that

today’s dialogue will have

a deep impact for most.

 

Dangerous or unsafe, are

words which are very

important to one who

is still living in the

animalistic nature of

their first three chakras.

 

Here safety and security rule

the day and defend and

attack stand guard & on high

alert, like a pair of foo dogs

or guardian lions, ever poised

for the first sign of what

they perceive as danger.

 

While one who lives from their

heart center and higher,

is not concerned with either

safety or security.

​

Why?

​

Because they trust themselves

and they trust God.

​

Trust is the fruit of a relationship

in which you know you are

loved.

​

The vibhuti of love flows so

completely between them

that they are inseparably one.

 

Thus love is the only way to

live that makes sense to them,

being their very nature.

 

Life is life. It happens no matter

what, and it keeps on happening

regardless if one is fully conscious.

 

But no matter what happens,

the singular question which

guides these individuals is,

“How can I use this experience

to bring more awareness to

my heart, more awareness

to the reality of love?”

 

me: I find today’s subject

matter most interesting

because so many of us

have carried core wounding

throughout our entire lives

around our relationship with

love.

 

This has had dire consequences

on our relationship with ourselves,

the people in our lives and with

all of life.

 

We were not seen.

We were not heard.

We were not held.

We were not touched 

in the way that matters.

We were not comforted.

And we did not feel safe.

 

This shaped and molded

our entire experience

of life.

 

How can you not see a world

which is not only not safe

but oft times dangerous

when raised this way?

 

Trust becomes impossible

and walls and defenses are

the only means at your

disposal to protect yourself.

​

And love?

​

You do not have a clue 

what love is because you

have never experienced it.

​

How do you open your heart

to such an experience

when it has never felt safe

to do so?

 

But magic begins to happen

for us when we can stop seeing

our fears around love as red

lights and stop signs, but

rather, as opportunities of

initiation into a world in which

we know that we are cradled

so safely and tenderly within

the wings of a love that is

forever without conditions or

expectations.

 

Love heals all.

 

It makes the crooked straight,

it brings wholeness where there

was a perception of imperfection,

and the long barren, empty and

forlorn come back to life again.

 

Love, once deeply feared,

now becomes our refuge and

sanctuary.

 

Soul: So nicely put.

 

This is the difference between

someone who knows a lot about

a particular subject and one

who has actually lived it.

 

And you, dear child, have gone

through the ocean of samsara

and made it safely to the other

shore, only to find that you had

been standing on that seemingly

distant shore all along.

 

This is the gift that you bring

to the world, simply by being

you.

 

And now you know that what

you experienced was never

personal.

 

And this is where your Tonglen

practice is most helpful.

 

How many people do you suppose

you are joined with in any given

experience, whether inner or

outer?

 

Here is an opportunity to carry

the world’s burdens for a few

moments and share with them

the love, light and peace that

you have found in the midst of

every challenge.

 

This is ONENESS that is

actionable.

 

me: I love that. Today has been

very powerful.

 

Let us end today by wishing

everyone the four immeasurables.

 

loving-kindness (metta)

compassion (karuna)

sympathetic joy (mudita)

equanimity (upekkha)

 

May we all be filled to overflowing

with these qualities which

reflect our natural state fully

embodied.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

May all beings be happy.

May no one ever be separated

from their happiness.

And may all beings be free.

​

This I pray with all of

my heart.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: You know, each day I

look at our list of words

and can't stop chuckling

to myself.

 

It is all so patently ridiculous

how we rob ourselves of

joy by chasing what we

think will make us happy.

 

The lengths that we are

willing to go to in an effort

to try to make what is ours

safe is actually what keeps

us on this hamster wheel,

and we are crazy enough

to call this living...

 

Feeling less than and chasing

more is the way of the world.

We all became infected with

this virus at some point in

our lives, thus we are all

now carriers of the dis-ease.

​

Few have stepped away from

the madness and are now

free of it, living peaceful

and loving lives.

 

Every one of these subjects

that we have been covering

are the very glue which has

kept my little house of cards

somewhat safe and intact,

or so I have actually believed...

 

But all they really do is

keep us stuck.

​

Amazing how what we do to

try to create safety and

fulfillment is what actually

keeps us unsafe and unfulfilled,

and the beat goes on...and

on and on....

 

Today we have a phrase to

look at:

 

Fear Of Missing Out, or

FOMO, as it is commonly

referred to in our world.

 

That particular fear was

an active part of my life

from the very beginning.

​

I probably became infected

with it in utero so I came

by it quite naturally.

​

Not naturally as in Mother

Nature, more like un-naturally.

 

I remember being less than

a year old and fighting sleep

with such desperation, actually

waging war with my parents

as they tried so valiantly to

get me to go to bed so I

could get some sleep, and so

that they could get some rest

as well. I refused to cooperate.

Kicking and screaming with

all appendages flailing about,

I was afraid that if I fell asleep,

I might miss out on something

important.

 

The advertising world has been

a big instigator in the madness.

Painting an image for all of us of

the ideal man, the ideal woman,

amd what we need to own so

that we can be that perfect too,

skillfully showing us what our lives

are supposed to look like and

when no one's life ever measures

up, FOMO strikes again.

 

We spend money we do not

have chasing what we cannot

afford. And why? Because we

compare our lives to that of

the next person and we

inevitably find our lives

falling short. So now we have

to have what they have.

​

Gullible because we feel

empty and barren inside,

and we are just ignorant

enough to believe that

something outside of us

will cure us of the inner

malady.

 

Something is missing in me...

 

FOMO keeps us restless

and unable to sleep peacefully

at night, always hoping that

the next thing will be the

answer we are looking for...

 

Thus more, better and

different have become a way

of life.

 

We work our tails to the

bone because enough is

never enough.

 

We rob our brains and

nervous systems of the

calm they both need and

crave, we keep our adrenal

glands in a state of perpetual

exhaustion trying to stave

off sickness, old age and

death while ever chasing

the ego's idea of perfection

all because we neither have

or are enough...

 

Not enough health...

Not enough wealth...

Not enough love...

Not fulfilled.

I need ________ .

I must ________ .

I don't have everything

I am supposed to have

and accomplish yet.

 

No one is ever happy for

anyone else unless there

is some guarantee that

we will soon own it too.

 

Why can we not rest and

smile, knowing that if it is

meant for us, it will come

to us through no effort of

our own?

 

The egoic thought system is

based on the belief that

your gain comes at my loss,

but my gain comes at yours

and that means I won.

Who cares if you get stiffed

by life as long as I get ahead?

 

Unless, of course, if you

have something that I want.

 

And then you can bet your

life I care...

​

See how victim consciousness

plays so cleverly into this

madness too?

 

This is our world today

and it doesn't help having

a president who has made

it okay to live like a

demi-god, a hungry ghost

and a rabid animal all in

one!

​

Don't get me wrong.

​

I am grateful for our president.

He has pulled off something

that Judas never could have,

polarizing an entire planet

into two groups: those who

cannot stand the man and

those who are ready to kiss

the ground upon which he

walks.

​

And this has served our planet

well. Like hydrogen peroxide,

it has flushed up everything we

did not want to see about our-

selves so that we could love, 

accept, embrace and support

our humanity as it is, returning 

everything which was ours to

experience to the heart of love

itself---our own innermost

being.

 

Soul: You know that there

is no such thing as missing

out on anything, that this

is an utter impossibility?

​

Each of you stand within

Infinity every instant of your

lives.

 

No one can miss out on

anything that is meant for

them.

​

I trust that iis abundantly 

clear because it does not

get any simpler than that.

​

God does not love some

people more than he loves

others.

​

If everything is God, then are

you not all equally blessed

by everything as it unfolds?

​

Can you relax as you let these

statements of truth sink in?

 

If you know that you are

on the soul's journey

and you have absolutely

no control over anything,

least of all yourself, what

is FOMO really all about?

 

Have you ever thought

about that?

 

me: it is crazy when you

think about it.

 

Everything always boils 

down to our relationship

with ourselves.

 

If we truly loved ourselves,

we would know that we

are loved by life itself and

that absolutely everything

in creation is ours and

always has been

 

If we are ONE, and I know

that we are, then isn't

everyone and everything

constantly receiving all

of the time?

​

What a beautifully fulfilling

ecosystem life is.

 

When I no longer need you

to be any different than

you are and when I no longer

need myself to be different

than I am, what is there

to miss out on?

 

FOMO is completely based

in the notion of incompletion

and imperfection.

​

What a laughable impossibility.

 

I know in my heart of hearts

that I am all that.

 

And I know you are all that

as well.

​

When you are happy, am not I

filled with joy too?

 

So no one is missing out

on anything. Ever.

 

And when we have an

unconditionally loving

relationship with ourselves,

we have an unconditionally

loving relationship with

our world.

 

Soul: Here are the facts

of life simply stated.

 

(1) God is in charge.

(2) God loves you.

(3) No one has the power

to change the will of God.

 

So relax....have some fun

with life today.

 

Allow yourself to trust

that everything always

turns out okay.

 

Do you have one shred

of evidence that supports

the belief that you can

ever miss out on anything?

 

Listen, my dear...

 

You have something

magnificent

beneficial

magical

and alchemical

inside of you.

 

Given all that, what was

it that you were afraid

of missing out on?

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

If we are complete,

how could there ever

be anything missing

in me or anyone else

for that matter?

 

Let me think on these

things.

​

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​

 

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Our word for today is

should. That goes along

with the words must and

ought to.

 

Back to more rules when

there are no rules.

 

My life sure has been

cluttered with a lot

of should’s, must’s

and ought to’s.

 

There is no such thing.

This is just more brain-

washing.

 

The truth is that everything

is always unfolding exactly

as it should.

 

We are here to have

experiences.

​

I feel like we have said that

until I am blue in the face.

 

And the way that we are

to relate to all outer

experiences is by settling

into ourselves and

acknowledging & being with

what is, as we love and support

ourselves whilst addressing

our feelings about what

happened or is happening.

 

And that we are doing.

 

This is Life 101, of

which none of us

got the memo or

the handbook.

​

That is precisely why

the world is as the world

is.

​

Human beings have a

lot of growing up to do.

 

It is really insane when

you think about it---

even for a couple of

minutes.

 

Because we are already

that which we seek, we

always have been and

we always will be.

 

So how can there be any

should’s, musts or

ought to’s?

 

Soul: How about this

for an assignment today?

 

Every time you catch

yourself in the act of thinking

that there is something

you need or must do,

you stop and remind

yourself of the following:

 

I am already everything

that I am trying to become.

 

They are already everything

that they are trying to

become.

 

All human behavior is in

response to an ever

unfolding destiny over

which you have no control,

and your response to having

no control is all about

destiny as well.

 

Thus all life situations and

circumstances; yours, the

lives of those you love, as

well as what is happening

in your world is destiny too.

 

Next, soften and relax into

what is as it is in recognition

that destiny is playing itself

out and you need do nothing

beyond accepting what is

and supporting yourselves

as you experience it.

 

me: That is really beautiful.

 

I had another epiphany

yesterday which goes well

with today’s thought.

 

I saw very clearly that when

we were all in a group

powwow in the realm of

pure spirit (The powwow

included every single person

I would have contact with

in this lifetime, and those

who would be closest

to me were on either side

of me), and I asked every-

one if they would be willing

to play the role that I needed

them to play in my life,

sticking closely to the script,

(which, btw, is the precise

relationship I have with

each of these people,

including the struggles I

have encountered with each

of them) and they all

wholeheartedly agreed

to play their part as I

requested.

 

Further, I told them all

that I needed them to resist

me, to be super stubborn,

to fight tooth and nail with

me every single time that

I attempted to change them

or convince them to do

things differently because

I needed to learn how to

accept people how they

are in this life, not how

I wish they were.

 

I needed to learn how to

stay in my own lane and

be with me, myself and I.

​

How they are and what they

do is about their journey,

not mine. How they

choose to live their lives

is none of my business.

​

And it was all really cool

because I spoke from soul

to soul (which was basically

a conversation I was

actually having with myself,

btw) and there was 100%

agreement with the plan.

 

I find this all rather exciting

as well as amusing.

​

I got a bit long winded

there. Sorry about all that.

I get so excited about

new discoveries.

​

All of this to say that

I am looking forward to

practicing today.

 

I know that if we could

enter into each experience

with this sort of feeling

tone, we would all know

peace instantly and we

sure would relax a lot

more.

 

As we continue with

these dialogues, it is

becoming clearer and

clearer to me that

acceptance is the key

to everything.

 

But for now, let’s just

say it is the key to

happiness because it

most certainly is.

 

Thank you for today.

 

And thank you for the

fact that I do not get

worked up about anything

anymore and I owe that

to these dialogues.

​

What a movie!

​

Only God could write

such a script!

​

This most certainly isn't

the Hallmark channel 

I have been watching!

​

I bow before the unfolding

destiny of all of us.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

I need do nothing.

 

Isn’t that wonderful?

 

Let’s all relax and have

fun today, shall we?

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​

 

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Me: The word we are going

to be exploring today

is a real bugbear.

 

Soul: Why is that?

 

me: Well, the word is mistake

or sin. Both have a highly charged

negative connotation associated

with them that incites fear

in most people.

 

The majority of us who were

raised in the Western

world were raised in either

Judaism or Christianity.

 

But don’t get me wrong.

 

I have lots of friends who

were not raised with any

particular belief system

who still are deeply mired

in the concept of sin or

wrongdoing.

 

The whole notion of sin

is something we have all

had crammed down our

throats in one way or

another our whole lives.

 

Add to that the whole idea

which we have all adopted

that tells us that we can

mess up and make mistakes,

some of which are unforgivable,

and so there is a lot of

guilt and shame associated

with the words as well.

 

Soul: Let me begin by

clarifying three points

for you.

 

First of all, there are no

mistakes. Everything that

happens, which includes

everything you have ever

experienced, everything

you have ever said or done

or was said or done to you,

was by your design

prior to this birth.

 

No one is behind the point

of perfection nor is anyone

advancing toward it.

 

(Another bit of faulty

programming.)

 

The soul’s journey is

the soul’s journey is

the soul’s journey, and

you, my dear, are soul.

 

You are the one-and-only

architect of your life,

and the plan was drawn

up by you at the very 

beginning of time itself.

 

You knew what you would

need to experience in order

to elicit the desired emotional

states that you needed to feel

in order to fully integrate your

human experience, not just

for yourself, but for all

humanity.

​

What good is freedom

if you cannot embody it

so completely that every

particle of your being

gets to enjoy that

freedom along with

you?

 

Secondly, as we stated

in yesterday’s TFTD,

nothing that happens in

your humanity has any

effect on your Divinity

which remains forever

untouched and un-

changed.

​

You are not here to become

a better version of you than

you are right now, you are

here to be precisely the version

of you that you are, and to

have experiences.

​

Your experiences.

​

Not just some of them, but

all of them!

 

And this is all that has been

happening since that tiny little

spermatozoa fertilized the

ovum and your humanity

came into being.

 

This will continue to be

the truth of why you are here

until you take your final

breath.

 

Got it?

 

me: That’s perfectly clear.

I actually think I am starting

to get it and relax into a

very good place.

​

Being human can be nerve

wracking. Rarely does it feel

as relaxed, hopeful, peaceful

and calm as I feel right now.

​

Especially during this decade

which is really off the charts

c-r-a-z-y!!!

 

Soul: Given that this is the

case, who do you think

receives your prayers and

your efforts to change

yourself, change others

and change your world?

 

me: Well, I guess that the

answer to that question

would be no one.

 

It is like the old Southern

Baptist saying. “When heaven

meets brass.”

 

This refers to our prayers

rising up and hitting the

ceiling and bouncing back

on top of us, although I

doubt they had this particular

interpretation in mind

when they originated the

saying, but you get the

picture.

 

Soul: My point in all of this

is to ask you to please

allow yourself, your fellow

human sojourners and

the world to be exactly

as they are now, without

you nitpicking and finding

fault with everyone and

everything.

 

Here is a bit of truth you

all have a dire need

of taking to heart.

 

You are never going to be

any closer to God than you

are in right now and there

is absolutely nothing about

you that is in any way, shape

or form an impediment

to your realization of God

this instant.

 

Give yourself a few moments

to let that sink in.

​

<pause>

 

Can you see that the secret

sauce to enlightenment

is the recognition that it

has been your believing a lot

of nonsense which has

no basis in truth?

​

This has been your singular

impediment to Clear Seeing.

 

Seeing yourself as sinful 

is all about you integrating

a lot or worn out hand-me-

down beliefs and making

them your own by trying

to live up to them

(personalizing the forever

impersonal), which no one

is capable of actually living

up to btw...

​

No one can live up to the

impossible standards which

the ego, or separated self,

thinks that it should live up

to and be.

 

But it’s a reliable way to

keep you busy chasing

your tail in an effort to

become a better version

of you, is it not?

 

Can you see how deeply

narcissistic this is, as well

as being a prime example

of you gaslighting yourself?

 

me: This has been a thoroughly

mind-blowing conversation

we have had today.

 

It’s like you tossed a hand

grenade into our lives,

but in such a good way.

 

So thank you for that.

 

Soul: You’re most welcome.

 

Freedom is free after all.

​

It costs you nothing and it

is as easy as seeing, feeling

and accepting that you are

beautiful and free, right now,

and you have always been.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

Exhilarating freedom.

 

I feel like we all were

given permission to

get up and walk out of

Plato’s cave today.

 

Thanks for the GIFT.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​​​

 

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Today we have a phrase

to cover, something every

single individual who comes

here to experience a human life

suffers from to some degree.

 

Everyone can relate to feeling

this sort of oppression on

many occasions throughout

the course of their life and

some experience it on

a daily basis.

 

me: What is it?

 

Soul: The phrase is not

good enough.

 

For the sake of simplicity,

we will refer to it as NGE

from now on, if that is

okay with you.

 

me: Of course it is. NGE goes

hand in hand with feeling

you are broken.

 

Soul: Exactly.

 

Feeling as though one is NGE

is part and parcel with the

core wound of unworthiness.

 

You were born on planet

earth entirely worthy and

beautiful because of Who

created you and what you

changelessly are.

 

You did not come here to

become better than you already

were and are, for that is

impossible.

 

You came here to experience

life as a human being.

 

Your Creator, your true "I,"

gets to experience that life

through you as you

experience it.

 

Your experiences are just

experiences.

 

They mean nothing about

you and therefore have no

effect on your Reality

whatsoever.

 

The thoughts, feelings

and sensations you have

in the midst of every

experience are the ones

you came here to

experience.

 

Each were and are by your

design.

 

Your one and only job

is to give yourself permission

to have the experience you

have in the precise way in

which you have it without

making yourself wrong for it.

 

A thought therefore, cannot

be bad or wrong.

 

A feeling therefore, cannot

be bad or wrong.

 

A sensation therefore, cannot

be bad or wrong.

 

And no experience is either

bad or wrong.

 

Ever.

 

The point is to have the

experience that you are

having without making

yourself bad or wrong

for having it.

 

It is just an experience.

 

Can you let it be as it is?

 

Those who judge you for

for the way that you

experience your life do so

because they judge themselves

for the way they experience

their own lives.

 

Adopting hand-me-down

beliefs just because someone

else told them that they

were true does not make

them true.

 

This is what they were

taught and accepted

as the truth, just as your

judgments are reflections

of how you were taught.

 

And when you judge yourself,

you do so because of these

beliefs with which you were

conditioned and programmed.

 

You have the opportunity

to teach the world a new

way of being human by

demonstrating another way

of seeing yourself and

all of life.

 

Thus everyone is always

teaching and it is oneself

that one teaches first.

 

What is your demonstration

teaching yourself and your

world?

 

Beloved, we did not come

here in order to try to change

ourselves or the world.

​

We came here to learn to

love ourself and the world

as it is in its present state.

​

This is the only way in which

transformation happens.

 

People will never remember

what you say to them, but

they will never forget what

you do.

 

Thus, you are all learning and

teaching in every single

instant while you are alive.

 

me: I love how simple you

make things.

 

It is such a good reminder that

if it is complex, difficult or

complicated, it cannot be

the truth.

​

Why?

 

Because truth is so simple,

gentle and wise.

 

Soul: That is why a rather

famous teacher who once walked

this earth was known to have

said, “Unless you become

like a little child, you cannot

enter the Kingdom of

Heaven.”

 

Why do you suppose he said

that?

 

me: I am sure there are lots

of reasons.

​

But the big one that is standing

out for me right now is that

a child is not going to understand

a lot of lofty words. Nor will a

child remember a lengthy

dissertation.

 

But simple and loving are

clear to understand and

embody because they is our

natural state.

​

The resonance of truth

within one's own being

is self-validating.

 

Soul: You got it.

 

Isn’t it such a sweet relief

to know that everything

this world tries to brainwash

you into believing is true

is just that?

 

Brainwashing?

 

It is much easier to let go of

faulty programming when you

see it for what it is.

 

Truth can never be changed.

 

And this world would change

in an instant if people could

only give themselves permission

to see that Reality is inclusive.

​

It does not judge or shift or

change.

 

We begin by loving ourselves

and loving the world that

we have and are right now.

 

This opens the door to infinite

possibility.

 

I am the one true source of

everything that is and I am

the living substrate of every

atom and molecule in

the Cosmos.

 

Let my love for each of you

penetrate you completely

and you will know that you

each are as I am, extensions

of my Self.

 

me: Thank you for all the

simple reminders.

 

I cannot tell you what the

world will do today.

 

But I can tell you exactly

what I will be modeling

for it.

 

Joy. Wholeness. Beauty.

Love. Kindness. Respect.

Appreciation. Simplicity.

A smile. Peace and glory.

 

Soul: This is the measure

of a life well lived.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

Joy. Wholeness. Beauty.

Love. Kindness. Respect.

Appreciation. Simplicity.

A smile. Peace and glory.

 

So may my demonstration

be this day.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: What is the word we

are exploring today?

 

Soul: Our word for today

is broken.

 

A powerful word, yet it has

no more power than the

power which you give it.

 

This is an important thing

to remember about all words.

​

No exceptions.

 

No word is neutral, so all

will have meaning for you.

 

The meaning is always determined

by you and that meaning will

be limited to the box in which

you have confined it. These will be

its parameters, the parameters

which you have given it.

 

In truth, no one is broken.

 

No one can be broken except

in dreams.

 

Here in what you like to refer

to as the Matrix, broken

can seem like a very real thing.

 

After all, everything that happens

here has one job; the job of

convincing you that the separation

or duality is real.

​

And it does so by first convincing

you that you are broken and

not good enough.

​

Nothing that is temporary is

ever real.

​

But it is meant to convince you

that it is.

 

However, nothing which is real

can ever be broken, lost, destroyed

or changed in any way.

​

It is important that you never

forget this.

​

This will aid you in the sorting out

process while you are yet

learning how to see.

 

It is the most fundamental

and immutable law of truth.

 

No one has the power to make

you feel broken unless you

have given them the power

to do so.

 

Beloved, you are always perfect.

 

A creation of love, by love and

for love.

 

So a question worthy of your

honest reflection would be,

”If I feel broken, if I believe

that I am in need of fixing

when God says that I am perfect

and that I cannot be broken,

why would I choose to believe

that I am flawed?”

 

“Whose opinion could be more

valuable than that of the Creator

of the universe in its entirety?”

 

me: I think it is a very hard thing

for most human beings to see

that when they are drowning in

self-pity, feeling that they are

not good enough, they are

actually being quite arrogant,

but they are.

 

It’s pretty darn cocky when

you think about it.

 

It takes brass you know what

to believe that you are more

powerful than God.

 

It is actually quite humbling

to say, ”I am as God created me.

I am perfect. I am 100% worthy.

I am kind. I am a generous

and loving human being. I know

this is my reality because these

were the words which were spoken

over me in my creation.”

 

”This is how I was created.”

 

“I am Eternal, Immortal

and Infinite.”

​

"I am a changeless being of

love and light."

 

”And no one’s opinion will ever

mean more to me than that

of the One who created me.”

 

When I was a small child and

would come home from school

crying because I was bullied,

my mother used to always say

to me, “Consider the source.”

​

"Consider the source, baby

girl, consider the source."

 

It took becoming an adult to

understand what she was

actually saying to me.

 

“Human beings will always see

you like they see themselves."

 

"What they say says a whole lot

more about them than it does

about you, honey.”

 

She always followed that by

saying, “You are worthy because

you breathe air, because you exist.

Nothing more than that is

required.”

 

Had it not been for her in those

rare and precious memories I

had with her (She was only 42

when she passed away), I think

I would have given up on myself

and life.

 

So try telling yourself this each

day.

 

Look into your eyes in the mirror

and speak these words of kindness

and genuine affection to yourself.

 

These are the words that your heart

has always yearned to hear, beloved.

 

It is your own love you have

been looking for all along.

 

And no words will ever mean as

much to you as the one’s that

you speak over yourself.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

I know I love the world

so much because I have

grown to love myself

that much and more.

 

Thank you for the GIFT.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: If you don't mind, and I

know that you won't dear Soul,

I would like to take one more day

to share from the deepest part

of me about my experience

with trauma for those who suffer

profoundly as a result of experiences

that they cannot shake, let alone

let go of once and for all, no matter

how hard they try to do so.

 

I did not sleep well last night.

​

The heart felt the pain and

sorrow of others from all over

this planet secondary to

profound levels of trauma,

and it remembered decades

of suffering I had experienced

as a result of unresolved residual

trauma; leftovers from the child-

hood years.

 

I agonized over my relationship

with my family of origin for the

first 40 years of my life, wishing

that I could somehow sever

my connection to them once

and for all.

​

Why could I not let them all go

and move on with my life?

 

I felt trapped. And the more

I struggled to free myself,

the more my life became

enmeshed with theirs.

 

I remember years of agony

and suffering, wishing with

all of my blood, sweat and

tears that they would love

and accept me, yet failing to

see that it was longing for

something which was and is

impossible.

​

The longing with which

I was bewitched; wanting to be

loved by people who did not

love themselves.

 

I failed to see that it was never

their job to love and accept

me in the first place.

 

It was mine.

 

But my promises to those of you

who are reading this and who

suffer every single day, still

stands.

 

If you truly want to be free,

you will be.

 

You are not alone.

 

I, and others like me who have

completed this journey, are here

to support you as you take your first

tentative steps toward a peace

you do not yet see that lead toward

true and lasting freedom.

​

Yes, you. I am speaking to you,

dear one.

 

I have three more points I wish

to make with you.

 

(1)

 

The first thing you must grasp

and begin to watch yourself

carefully for is that of living

your life from the outside in 

rather than the inside out.

 

One who lives from the outside

in believes that he or she is at

the mercy of other people,

their life situations and

circumstances.

​

Peace is therefore a rather

gossamer thing, entirely

dependent on forces outside

of yourself and over whom you

have no control.

 

Other people and events

are the cause of your

misery.

 

While one who lives from the

inside out refuses to give their

power away to anyone or any

thing for any reason.

 

Ever.

 

They take 100% responsibility

for their inner experience of

life.

 

They prize their peace of mind

and happiness above all

else and so they guard it wisely.

​

No one and no thing has any

control over their inner world

other than themselves.

 

While trauma is rooted in the

belief that your suffering is

caused by the people and events

which have populated your world.

 

And no matter how hard you try

to heal your trauma, regardless

what you do, you know you are

doomed. You will never be

truly free of your past.

​

Your scars are deep and they

are not going to go away.

​

Your pain lives on and mars

your ability to find peace

and happiness now.

 

Is it not clear that as long as

you believe that this is true,

you will remain a victim,

you will always be at the mercy

of the whims and dictates

of other people over whom

you have absolutely no

control?

 

Thus, pivotal to freedom is

the willingness to take your

power back and be the sole

curator of your own inner

world.

​

You had no control over 

what happened to you when

you were a child.

​

That was the hand of your

destiny playing itself out

according to an agreement

you made with yourself.

​

But now you are an adult

and you hold all the cards.

​

Declare your own emancipation

and be you free of everyone

and everything.

​

You determine how you will

experience the life which is

yours to live.

​

And no one has or ever will

have any power over you

unless you give it to them.

 

(2)

 

Do you want to be right, or

do you want to be happy?

 

You do not get both.

 

For decades I believed that

being right was being happy,

but eventually my stubbornness

failed me so utterly that I

decided that it no longer

mattered if my family believed

they had won because they

had gained total power over me.

​

I knew they had none, for I had

gained mastery over myself.

​

My self-sovereignty is something

no one has any control over

other than me.

 

I was the true winner because

I had chosen my happiness,

my freedom and my peace

over their need to be right.

 

(3)

 

Forgiveness always rests upon

the one who offer it, until

he sees himself as needing it

no more.

ACIM

 

We want to believe that others

are guilty, that they should be

punished and made to suffer

as have we, we want the

validation that they were wrong,

to hold them accountable

in a prison cell of our making

so that we may then throw

away the key because of what

they did to us.

 

"Guilty, guilty guilty," we

proclaim. "I will not see you

as innocent! I will not forgive

you!"

 

When what we are really saying

is "I will not forgive myself."

 

But here's the deal:

 

No one needs forgiveness

because we are all innocent.

​

Nothing that happens to our

human self has any effect

upon our Soul.

​

And our only reality is Soul,

beloved.

​

No one is saying that you did

not experience something

which was deeply traumatic

for you.

​

But that trauma neither had

nor has any impact upon

the real you in any way 

whatsoever.

​

Time to put the past in the

rearview once-and-for-all.

​

Are you really going to keep

giving those who harmed

you the power to rob you

of your present happiness

and peace?

​

If the answer is yes, that says

a whole lot more about you

than it does about them.

 

I recognize that this is a bitter pill

for most to swallow at first, but

I have every confidence that

you will come to this same

conclusion with time.

 

Therefore, take as much time

as you need to review the things 

which still make you cringe;

things that hang over you like

a dark cloud that will not go

away and sap the life force

right out of you.

​

What happened to you for which

you cannot let them off the hook

or for which you will not let

yourself off the hook?

​

What still has the ability to

make you fall into a black pit

of despair where you writhe

in agonizing shame?

​

After you figure out the answer

to this question, forgive yourself.

 

It is time that you let yourself

off the hook.

​

Forgive them and forgive yourself.

​

They were only doing what they

agreed to do so that you could

experience what you needed

to experience in order to be free,

and you did this for the sake of

all of us.

​

Please don't forget that.

​

In your freedom, we find ours.

 

In time, you will again feel

the return of innocence, and...

...you will come to see their

innocence as well.

 

Remember, the world is as

you are.

​

Trust.

 

And focus on the gifts

you received from each of

them.

 

For instance, I always think

of the one who was my father

as the greatest teacher I ever

had in this life.

 

Through the traumatic

experiences of my childhood

I gained a tensile strength

that has served me well

in everything I have ever

attempted in this life.

 

Because of the literal training

that I received  in the school

of hard knocks,  I garnered

the will to never give up on

myself or throw in the towel

no matter what.

​

There is no one on this planet

like me and there is no one half

as strong as am I.

​

I know this.

 

I know I will always be the

last one standing.

 

This steadfast determination

and will to overcome is

a gift he gave me through

constant beatings and name

calling, and my willingness

to keep getting back up

and never give up on myself.

 

Dear One....

 

I have offered to be your

friend and I do so again.

 

Should you like a friend

to support you along the road

to freedom, I will be yours.

 

My email is:

 

livingonlylove@yahoo.com

 

You are loved more than

words could ever say.

 

Pelkyong

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

I bow in gratitude for

grandest of all opportunities:

 

The chance to see just

how clearly and completely

I can embody the LOVE

which set me free

during the course of

my lifetime.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: What will we be exploring

today?

 

Soul: Unresolvable trauma.

 

This is about trauma that

doesn't heal, that just won't

go away no matter what

one tries.

 

me: I know this is a hard one

for so many. And I will admit

that sometimes I do not have

a lot of patience for people

who cannot stop themselves

from being victims and who

cling to old resentments and

grievances which paralyze

their lives now.

 

I find it totally distasteful

watching people who are

obviously getting something

they value from holding

onto unnecessary suffering.

 

I experienced an extremely

traumatic childhood.

 

It's not like I don't know

what I am talking about.

 

And if I can be totally free,

then anybody can.

 

I do not feel a single ounce

of self pity, I do not harbor

unforgivenesses, and I have

made irrevocable peace

with my past.

 

I do not go strolling down

memory lane.

 

The past is just that.

 

Past.

 

As in done and over

with.

 

No amount of stewing over

what is no longer a part of

my life will change a single

thing that I did, nor anything

that ever happened.

 

I feel genuine love and

compassion for those who

sought to do me harm

and I am grateful to each

of them for the part they

each played in who I am

today.

 

The GIFTS I received from

each of them are priceless.

 

In 2020 I made the decision

to have no further contact

with any of my family of origin

because I love myself far

too much to place myself

in any situation which is

either toxic, cruel, or

potentially dangerous.

​

As my human father was

fond of saying, "You can

lead a horse to water, but

you cannot make him drink."

​

In the end, you recognize

that you cannot save anyone

else. You came to save

yourself.

​

And save myself I did.

 

The following are the con-

clusions I have come to

regarding trauma.

 

(1)

 

No pain is worth holding

onto.

 

Let nothing in this life

cling to you.

 

Holding onto trama is a

choice. It does not hurt

those who sought to do

you harm, but the choice

to hold onto old wounds

will kill you if you let it.

​

My mama used to say to me,

"Hatred is like an acid. It

does more damage to the

vessel in which it is stored

that to the vessel on which

it is poured."

 

Holding onto trauma is highly

destructive to the body,

the mind and the emotions.

 

In this light, do whatever

you need to do to take care

of yourself and purge your

heart and your cells of any

lingering suffering.

 

You were born with a

tendency to GLOW, not to

feel sorry for yourself.

 

(2)

 

We chose the families that

we incarnated into, as well as

every single thing which we

would experience during

the course of our lifetime

before taking birth.

 

One might reasonably ask

of oneself, "Why in the hell

would I do something like

that to myself?"

 

Trust me.

 

You had your reasons.

 

Embedded in each and every

experience you have ever had

were the seeds of your

enlightenment.

 

And the fact that you found

freedom in this very lifetime

because of all these experiences

you have had makes freedom

possible for every single soul

that inhabits this planet;

past, present and future. 

 

I have always treasured

freedom above all else and

I knew that it would take

an extraordinarily challenging

human experience to make

that possible.

 

I owe who I am today and

the freedom in which I live

each and every moment of

my life to those with whom

I shared this human experience.

 

I do not harbor resentments

against those who seemingly

held malevolent intentions.

 

I know that they each agreed

to play the particular role

that was theirs to play

in my life so that I could

become who I was destined

to become.

 

Therefore, I could not have

done it without their help.

 

I needed every single experience

I ever had because no other

experience or combination

of experiences could elicit

the feelings I needed to feel

and embrace in order to

be irrevocably free.

 

(3)

 

Pain is just an experience.

 

Don't run from it.

 

It will integrate if you

turn into it, soften, open

and embrace the experience,

the one who is experiencing

it as well as the one who

delivered it.

 

Why would you choose

to continue to give anyone

rent free space in your head

after it is done and over with?

​

Put it to rest, darlin,' put it

to rest.

​

And when feelings reoccur

because something in the

present triggers you because

it reminds you of things long

past, follow the same

instructions:

​

Turn into what is arising,

soften, open and embrace

the experience (feelings,

thoughts, sensations), the

one who is experiencing

it (you) as well as the one(s)

who delivered it.

 

If you choose not to be 100%

free of the past, you are no longer

a victim, you are a volunteer.

 

(4)

 

No one and no thing can

prevent you from realizing

your freedom if freedom is

what you desire above all

else.

 

Have a little faith in yourself.

 

And trust the plan which is

entirely yours by design.

 

(5)

 

You are always on the Soul's

perfect journey for you, as

is everyone else.

 

You do not need to understand

the journey, yours or anyone else's,

but you are asked to accept it.

 

Acceptance opens the door

to peace.

 

(6)

 

The ego is a meaning making

machine. No experience has

any meaning other than the

meaning which you give to it.

 

Why on earth would you assign

a meaning to anything that

implied you could never be

free of it, no matter how hard

you tried?

​

That is not someone else doing

something to you, that is you 

doing it to yourself.

 

(7)

 

Last but certainly not least,

there is no pain that the light

of your kindness, compassion

and tenderness cannot shine

away.

​

Light is true power. Darkness

is weak at best because it is

an illusion.

​

Truth always wins out in the end.

 

I sincerely doubt that I could

ever have grown to love

myself this deeply had I not

experienced everything that

I have.

​

But what happened in the past

is done and over with. It cannot

touch me now unless I give my

power to it and invite it to

do so.

​

Why would I choose to actively

cause myself harm now? 

 

I have so much respect, so

much admiration, so much

trust in who I am and I owe

that to the experiences which

have been mine to live through

in this lifetime.

 

I bow to them all. Each and every

one of them.

 

I bow to those who did not love

me because they did not love

themselves.

 

I bow to the gift of a human life.

 

I bow to all who have struggled

and who still struggle.

 

Sure. A body can be harmed.

But who we are can never be

touched, let alone harmed or

endangered in any way.

 

Who and what you are is

forever sacrosanct, beloved.

 

May you know the peace

which passes all understanding

and may you find the perfect

freedom which is your birthright.

 

If freedom and peace is what

you truly want, take my hand.

 

We will find it together.

 

You are not alone.

​

You are never alone.

 

Soul: Yours has indeed been

and is a beautiful beautiful life.

 

And you are living proof that

no one can be haunted by a past

unless they choose this for

themselves.

 

Are not each and every one of you

worthy of your own most tender

and loving care?

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

Thank you for my precious

human life.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: How did it go

yesterday?

 

me: It was a great day

and four things became

abundantly clear to me.

 

First of all, the experience

of suffering is not the result

of what we experience, it

is the result of resisting

what we experience.

 

I saw that human beings

are innately afraid to

be afraid.

 

And it is the fear of potential

fear, things might go wrong

or I might lose them, that

causes us to feel that we are 

unworthy and must do our best

to rectify our lot in life.

​

After all, isn't having more,

the best of the best, a sign

of worthiness?

 

So there is an anticipatory

factor that causes us

to resist what is happening,

ever striving for more,

better or different than

what is.

 

It is strange that the compen-

satory actions we take to

try to prevent suffering are

actually the cause of suffering.

 

Secondly, I observed that

when we can be kind, gentle

and loving with ourselves,

fully accepting and taking

responsibility for our inner

experience of life, we do

not suddenly become two

different people; the one

who is experiencing the

feelings directly and the one

who is able to meet the other

one with love and tenderness.

 

We are actually experiencing

ourselves as soul, offering

comfort and support to

the part of us which is having

the particular human experience

in question.

 

Hence the statement made

in a previous thought:

 

I see what I am not from what

I am. But I cannot see what I

am from what I am not.

 

Third, when I can meet every

experience with kindness,

support and acceptance, it

no longer matters what happens

or what does not happen

in my life, in the lives of my

loved ones or the world.

 

I know I have the capacity to

be with myself fully, loving

and supporting myself. 

 

Knowing this is extremely

empowering.

​

Time and direct experience

have demonstrated to me

that everything turns out

okay. The deck is always

stacked in our favor.

​

I'm fine.

​

You're fine.

​

The world's fine.

​

The End.

 

It erases the word need from

my vocabulary entirely.

​

I need nothing.

I need do nothing.

 

Lastly, that seeming fracture

within myself dissolved

considerably over the course

of the day as I found myself

worthy of my own love,

respect, kindness and

acceptance. 

​

I am a unique expression of

LOVE, capable of experiencing

my life as only I can experience

it, while loving and supporting

myself through my particular

slice of life.

​

I will see, know and experience

my life as no other human

being on this planet ever has

or can.

 

So as I look at it, it was actually

a very rewarding day in which

peace was ever present be-

cause I learned to bow before

every experience in complete

acceptance of life, as it is, whilst

supporting myself completely

as the precious expression of

Divinity that I am.

 

Soul: It was a powerful day

for you because you used every

experience as an opportunity

to empower yourself.

 

Human beings have been

programmed and conditioned

to believe a myriad of lies which

are complete distortions of

the truth. This makes peace

an unobtainable state.

 

How can peace be unobtainable

when it is your natural state

of being?

 

For now, let us focus on the

three biggest lies you have

bought into, hook-line-and-

sinker, which are ruinous

to peace.

 

As you take the truth deeper

and deeper into your being,

allow it to fall upon you

like a healing rain which

washes away every distortion

you which you have accepted

as a replacement for the truth

which is always true.

 

Lie #1

 

What was created perfect

can be rendered imperfect

by you.

​

Do you see how arrogant

this actually is?

​

You have the power to change

what God has proclaimed

as forever changeless.

​

Further, the direction of that

change is entirely up to you.

 

No one has the power to

change you, beloved, including

yourself.

 

You are composed entirely of

God stuff. God is all there is,

beloved. In other words,

you are a creation of love

by love and for love and no

one and nothing is ever 

going to change that.

 

Lie #2

 

Through right effort, you exercise

complete control over your destiny.

 

You have no control over anything

that happens in your life.

​

No one does. They only think

that they do.

 

Truth is, the only power you have

to wield in your human experience

is that of radical acceptance of

what is, ever leaning into and

embracing every bit of the life

which is yours to live.

 

Lie #3

 

Mindfulness, care and good luck

are there to help prevent you 

from making tragic mistakes and

wrong choices. Errors such as

this lead you to the most dreaded 

of all states: FUBAR.

 

You are always on the Soul’s journey

and you cannot do anything to

mess this up. Nor can anyone

mess things up for you. What is

happening is something you

chose to experience long before

this lifetime because you knew

that this was precisely what

you needed to experience in order

to attain the very FREEDOM

for which your heart has always

searched and longed, which is

your natural state.

 

It is time for all human beings to

see that religion has been the

primary culprit for this belief.

 

If God is LOVE, and I assure you

God is, then all these painful

states are impossible.

 

Let this be the decade when we

undo every lie that was ever

spoken over you.

 

Relax into your experience of

life. Trust it and trust yourself

and you will know the peace

which passes all understanding.

 

We will share again tomorrow.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​​​

I love and respect myself.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: The word we will be

exploring today is need.

 

So akin to yesterday's

word, lack, they arise

virtually simultaneously,

both being reflections of

the belief that who you

are and how you are

is imperfect and therefore,

inherently flawed.

 

As was shared yesterday,

the ego cannot long with-

stand a vacuum.

 

Nor can it long tolerate the

inner dissonance which

arises in response to the

belief that you are not good

enough, nor will you ever

have enough that is capable

of satisfying the emptiness

which is felt within.

 

It is a perceived hollow-

ness which nothing can fill.

 

The ego never tires of

searching for what it

hopes will fill this part

of themselves, which is

anchored in the belief

that you do not measure

up and, more than likely,

never will.

 

So all three of the words

we have covered thus

far, imperfection, lack

and need all stand on one

central idea:

 

You believe that no matter

what you do, you will

always be unworthy

because of who you are,

what you have experienced

and what you have done.

 

It is firmly believed that

these have so thoroughly

sullied you, that you have

been rendered incomplete

and beyond redemption.

 

Imperfection, lack and

need produce two

consistent feeling states:

shame and unworthiness.

 

To varying degrees

which rely on individual

programming, these two

feeling states, shame

and unworthiness, never

fully leave your

consciousness.

 

They are like a dark cloud

which haunts your days;

distorting every perception,

both inner and outer,

as well as all your days and 

nights as well.

 

For today, however, perhaps

even for the first time in

your life, I would like you

to simply be with this feelings,

having no other agendas

or expectations.

​

Be open to exploring where-

ever the feelings take you.

 

Allow intuition to gently

take you to the past, to

experiences which were

integral to the adoption

of this belief that you are

flawed and the subsequent

shame and unworthiness

that accompany them.

 

Feel yourself actually

meeting yourself with

rigorous honesty, and

without resistance.

​

The flavor of your interactions

with yourself must be that

of gentleness.

 

Soften, open and embrace

these feelings as they

arise, meeting them with

utter kindness, tenderness

and compassion.

 

Be with yourself completely

today, perhaps in a way

you have never been with

yourself before.

 

Meet yourself entirely

without judgment, condem-

nation or repudiation.

 

You are not stained by a past

which you cannot change,

regardless the words which

were spoken over you, the

programming and conditioning

you have assimilated, or any

other assessment that the

world has laid upon you.

 

Simply be with the deep

fracture which is felt

within your own being,

meeting this part of you

the way you have always

longed to be received.

 

Today, learn to feel what it

feels like to be your person,

the unconditionally kind

friend who always

accepts you as you are,

never judging or

condemning, ever receiving

you as though the sun

rises and sets upon you.

 

We will pick back up with

this exploration again

tomorrow.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​​​

Help me bring the light

of kindness and compassion

to every dark space and

place within me which has

been searching for the light

of my acceptance.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Our next word for

exploration is lack.

 

So accustomed are human

beings to feeling that

they are not enough, and

what they have is not enough

either, that they are constantly

looking outside of themselves

for something they believe

will fill the hole of lack and

emptiness they feel inside.

 

There are two types of

emptiness for us to explore.

 

There is the emptiness that

Is the result of feeling that

there is something inherently

missing inside, and there is

the emptiness that is an

expression of your true

nature.

​

One is formed from an

inability to face and embrace

what one is experiencing.

The feelings are quite real,

but they are being suppressed

and therefore avoided. So one

is driven to search for something

to fill that emptiness, that

sense of lack which they are

experiencing from within.

​

They do not have it. So that

means that someone else does.

This is how you give your

power away.

​

While the other is the result 

of getting a little too close

to the truth and feeling the

heat and pressure created by

the sacred fire within. This is

entirely too much for the ego.

It is far too frightening and

uncomfortable to be with.

​

This is the proverbial cat on a

hot tin roof type of feeling

and scenario.

​

So what does one do?

​

They frantically go in search

of things to fill the empty space

created by a loss of identity

and the overwhelming sense

of groundlessness they are

experiencing..

​

The ego cannot stand

either and perceives both

as threats to its survival

as the prevailing chosen

identity for your human

experience.

 

No ego can stand a vacuum

for long. Not seeing surrender

as a viable option, it immediately

turns to people, places and

things to fill the void.

 

For who you are and what

you are is a vast emptiness

which contains the potentiality

of every possibility in its

energetic seed form.

 

Add to this the fact that

you live your lives from

the outside in rather than

the inside out.

 

You have no faith in your-

selves. You place more

value on what others say

or feel than you do on

your own beating heart.

 

And because you always

believe that you are not

good enough, you want

something you feel you

are lacking to fill that hole.

 

”Then I will be complete,”

the ego reassures itself as it

pushes outward in search of

the right person, place or

thing it hopes will fill the bill.

 

You always want and crave

more, better and different

than what you have and are.

 

But God, being indivisible,

100% of all that God is

is contained within you.

 

This we have shared before.

 

So how could you ever

be lack anything?

 

What you have and what

you are is always perfect

for you.

 

I suggest you allow that

to be your reflection 

as you go about your day.

 

me: I think that is an

excellent idea. I would

love the opportunity to

bring the faculty of

awareness to these two

forms of emptiness

and turn inward, soften 

and open to my experience

rather than reach to

the world for a quick fix

or some Quasi half

baked solution which never

works.

 

The grass is not greener

on the other side of the

fence and comparison

is an activity the ego

values highly and wastes

a whole lot of time

perseverating on.

 

We chase things which are

a colossal waste of time

because we believe that

someone either has some-

thing we don't, or we must

acquire it before the next

person does.

 

All this is just another

example of how the world

has brainwashed all of

us into believing the lie

that we are incomplete,

broken and always lacking

something.

 

More, better or different

is never more, better or

different.

 

That’s the saddest part of

all.

 

Because once you attain

whatever you thought you

lacked, you inevitably find

that it never works.

 

And so you think, “I must

have chosen the wrong thing.”

 

Then off to the races you go

looking for the next thing

you hope will fill the barren

wasteland you feel inside.

 

All because we chose the

blue pill instead of the red

one.

 

Well…it’s time to wake the

hell up and give the lie

back.

 

We are perfect beings of

a loving Creator and we

lack nothing.

 

Soul: One of these fine days

you will all allow yourselves

to see yourselves as I see you

and the gig will be up, once

and for all.

 

Until then….I will share

through you and other beings

such as yourself until

every last blade of grass

recognizes and embraces

its freedom.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​​​

May peace prevail in

the heart of every living

thing.

 

This is my most fervent

wish.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Our first word to explore

is imperfection…

 

I find it appalling how much

the world has brainwashed

us all into believing that

we are flawed, our lives are

not what we think they should

be, and that is because

we need to be other than

how we are.

​

We are the problem.

​

We are always a problem...

 

That if we were more, our lives

would be more too.

 

We need to change….to be

better and do better, to be

and to have the g.o.a.t.,

because what we have and

are is not good enough.

​

It's indicative of a poisonous

belief system that is ruinous

to the awareness of peace.

 

We get that message every-

where from our very first

breath.

 

It begins with parents,

siblings and relatives,

the very caregivers who are

closest to us.

 

And then we move onto

our educational institutions,

friends, the advertising world,

social media and its influencers,

religion, Hollywood and

the movie/television industry,

the music industry, cultural

diffusion and last but certainly

not least, the head full of b.s.

we tell ourselves.

 

We are hardwired to believe

that no matter what we do,

we suck because we need to

be other than who and how

we are.

 

We are our bodies.

 

Let’s begin there.

 

They are too fat or too thin,

too short or too tall, too

wrinkly or saggy, not physically

fit, our ass is too small or

too large, our eyes the wrong

shape or color, our

lashes too short, our skin

the wrong color, too much

make up or not enough,

the hair is the wrong color,

we don’t dress for success,

we drive the wrong car, we

live in the wrong house, the

wrong neighborhood or

city, the wrong country, the

wrong job, the wrong side of

the aisle, the wrong religion,

our pockets are empty, and

no matter what we do, we will

never live up to anyone’s

expectations, let alone, our

own.

 

And bubble bubble toil

and trouble, my, how we

labor in the service of

chasing what they tell us

will make us happy and

successful if only we work

hard enough.

 

And here in the good old

US of A they refer to this

as the American dream.

 

It’s everywhere, but here

we make a monument of

it and demand all the world

to follow our lead or we

will come at you with a

wrecking ball and you

cannot be our friend.

 

Is it any wonder that we

suffer from depression,

live in a world that is overrun

with hatred and aggression,

that we suffer from sleep

disorders, anxiety, a plethora

of secrets to big for anyone

to carry and are plagued by

unchecked paranoia?

 

Soul: We have been sharing

quite a bit the past week

about the illusion of

imperfection.

 

All that any of you have ever

really wanted was to be

received unconditionally in

an embrace which swallowed

you whole and told there

was nothing wrong with you,

that you were made to be exactly

as you are, that you are flawlessly

perfect for the the job of

being you, that there is no

one who could do you like

you do you, that you are a one

of one, created by an Infinite

Intelligence which hung every star

in the heavens and anchored

every planet in its own perfect

and precise orbit, who lovingly

created every galaxy and

every nebula from first to last

and back again.

 

This is the aching yearning

of every heart and I am here

to tell you every bit of it

is true.

 

I am speaking to you, beloved,

so put your listening ears on.

 

You have had enough fun

​

And you will be the first to

admit that you have grown

weary of playing in this field

of dreams, long enough to

know that it really isn’t

all that fun and it never was.

 

Put down your armor you

carry and your weapons of war,

for they have profited you

nothing, nada, zip.

 

I am waiting for you.

 

So tender is this heart for

all of you exactly as you are

that no words could ever

do it justice.

 

Be you received by this

heart which adores you

and you will know…

 

You will know something

this world cannot touch…

 

Come Home, that you might

discover the One who has

never left you, nor have you

ever left Me.

 

You need do nothing.

 

I accept all of you as you

are and see it as both

beautiful and precious.

 

You are oh-so-dear to Me.

 

I adore you with an ever-

lasting love which will

never ask anything of you.

 

Ever.

 

You are my creation, com-

posed of my breath, made

as you are by my design.

 

You have never disappointed

or failed me in any way, and

those who believe you have

failed themselves in their own

eyes.

​

It is a case of do as I say,

not as I do.

 

The time of dreaming is

winding down to its final

completion. You came here

to be a part of the first wave

who would leave the insanity

and chaos behind.

 

Be brave and of good cheer.

 

For you are mine and I am

yours. And in our Embrace

there are no lines of distinction

between Who or What We Are.

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

White flag waving.

 

I surrender unto Thee,

dear Soul.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Dearest soul...why is

it not okay to be okay

in our world?

​

People look at you like

you have three eyes.

​

But you know what?

​

My demonstration, my

conscious demonstration,

is that of a deep and

mindful awareness of

each breath, a genuine

smile, a peaceful and

loving presence, and that

of genuine happiness. 

​

There is an unmistakable

palpable tenderness which

is felt for all things manifest.

 

I acknowledge that I am

okay, and that it is okay

for me to be okay, in

a world that somehow

believes that this is

a horrible thing for me

to say and must be

an out and out lie.

 

Each time I repeat these

precious words to myself,

the truth that I am

comes rushing in, as if on

a tidal wave to remind me,

awareness itself, the selfsame

instant that I settle into

this sweet and simple heartfelt

acknowledgement of the

truth that is always true.

 

And I'll admit, I am completely

stumped by the reactions

I receive. Flipped off in

traffic, yelled at in the grocery

store, shoved out of some-

one's way or ceremoniously

ignored.

 

But thank God that's

a hook I no longer feel

the inclination to bite or

compensate for.

​

I cannot hide who I am

and I most certainly will not

lie about it ever again

as I did for so long in

an effort to not shine

too brightly in a world

which has grown dark

and complacent as they

lay sleeping. 

​

They are frightened by

the appearance of a light

that shines away the per-

ception of darkness in

which they hide from

themselves and which

just might wake them up,

reminding them of what

they are.

 

I can close my eyes here

and breathe deeply as

I feel all my love and light 

as it comes rushing into

my awareness.

​

Here there is only peace

and a simplicity and love

that welcomes me with

neither qualifications

nor conditions.

 

Why do we feel such an

incessant urge to make

everything hard and 

complicate it so?

 

Struggle and survival.

 

If it isn't hard won, it

must be valueless and

then it is of no use to me.

​

That's the mentality of

the world.

 

We are far more attached

to our ego's than we are

to our soul.

 

We reject the simple,

the straightforward, the

uncomplicated and

effortless.

​

God forbid that it asks

nothing of us in return

and reminds us that our

contribution is not only

unnecessary, it is not

helpful and contributes

nothing.

 

As I sit here musing

about such things, it

occurs to me that the

problem lies in certain

key words we have

taken so deeply to

heart that we now

believe that they are

the secret truth about

us.

 

And that belief has

cost our humanity

plenty.

 

I know it has not

and can not affect you,

dear soul, but the human

experience has most

definitely become

overshadowed and

engulfed by them.

​

The world is drowning

in rage, fear, radical

skepticism, lies, and

a hedonistic

preoccupation with

itself.

 

The net/net is that it

has reconfigured our

DNA, restructured 

our atoms and molecules,

it has reordered and 

remapped our entire

brain and nervous

system, made of our

subconscious a map

that looks more like

the human intestinal

system than it does

grey matter, as well as

everything we think or

feel.

​

How can anyone trust

themselves, let alone

trust anyone else when

this is their life day

after grueling day?

 

Here are just a few of

the words and phrases

that came to me day:

 

imperfection

lack

need

unresolvable trauma

broken

not good enough

mistakes/sins

should

FOMO

dangerous or unsafe

change

weak

unforgivable

loss

 

I have some questions for

those who will read this

and one for you, dear soul.

 

For anyone who comes

to this website and reads

this:

 

What would your day

look like and feel like

if you noticed how

often these words came

into play, and by thus,

colored how you think,

what you feel and

the meaning you give

to your experiences?

 

In other words, what would

your experience of being

you feel like if you knew

that none of them were true

and their sole purpose was

to keep you distracted and

chasing your tail, hating

yourself because you were

never good enough?

​

And what if what was really

true was always peaceful.

loving, kind and gentle,

infinitely accepting and

would never leave you?

​

And what if I were to tell

you that it was all yours

and is always there when you

let go of the white-knuckle-

grip you have on those

words I have listed because

you believe they are the truth

about you and without them,

you are nothing and have

nothing? 

​

But what if they are all a horrible

lie that the propaganda machine

uses in order to keep you hooked

and chasing whatever carrot(s)

you believe will fix it all for you,

keep you safe, and bring you

all that you desire? 

 

And for you, precious soul,

how about we take the

next couple of weeks

to look at each of these

words and phrases so

that we may see clearly

just how deep the rabbit

hole goes and how we have

allowed them to poison

our human experience

of life in its entirety?

 

Soul: I think that's a lovely

idea.

 

When seen clearly, life is

not only effortless, it is

magical and miraculous,

a continuous source of

effulgent and exuberant

joy.

 

Let the dance begin...

​​​​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

​

What's to fear, to fret

over, to perseverate on,

to scurry insanely about

in an effort to control

when you know, in

the deepest part of you,

that it doesn't get

any sweeter than this?

 

Let me see the perfection

in all things this day

and trust.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day​​​

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I didn't let you get a word

in edgewise yesterday.

 

Sorry about that...

 

Soul: I have three things to

say about yesterday as well as

every other day for that matter.

 

First of all, are you not always

on my journey, is this not

part of your destiny?

 

Didn't it happen precisely

the way that it was supposed

to?

 

Secondly, sometimes it is a

beautiful thing to watch one

stand in their full power

with their headlights on bright

and speak what is true for

them with passion.

 

And last but not least, I am

the real you. I am always

with you. Therefore, how

could anything ever be

considered a mistake,

thoughtless, or any such

thing? 

 

me: So what's on the docket

for us to talk about today?

 

Soul: Well… You know and I

know that you have something

on your heart today so why

not share it?

​

It would be a lovely dialogue

for today.

 

me: Thank you for that.

 

I suppose it’s been 3 or 4

months now since my friend,

Christy, told me about

a TV show she really loved

and that she thought

that I would love it too.

 

It’s called, The Reluctant

Traveler on Apple TV and

stars Eugene Levy.

​

It is such an endearingly

funny show. Although 

Eugene did travel a little

throughout his younger

years, now, as an aging

senior citizen, he sets off

on these journeys which

take him all around the

world; exploring other

continents, countries and

the people who live there.

 

We both love to travel, to

meet new people and new

cultures, and to get to

experience a different

slice of life in a place

which is foreign to him...

on their turf and from

the perspective of

their experience.

 

And Eugene Levy is such

a curmudgeon about every-

thing.

​

But eventually...he always

comes around and falls

in love with his experience.

 

And since I an unable to

travel anymore, it is great

to see other parts of this

beautiful planet from

the comfort of my easy

chair.

 

And it occurred to me that

this would be a great title

for a book, The Reluctant

Lighthouse.

 

You see, for so many,

liberation is this fireworks

sort of experience.

 

And just hearing about that

sends seekers into a tizzy

looking to repeat that sort

of an experience.

​

They want to control what

is not in their purview to

control.

​

It was the huge experiences

that came before which

gently led me to the quiet

and calm realization of the

the Ultimate Truth.

 

For me, it has just been

this continuous and sublte

seeing that noticed one day,

“I have always been this.

There has never been

a single day that I have not

been this.”

​

I could look back upon

the whole of my life,

every single experience

I have ever had, and

clearly see as well as feel

my self there, I had always

been present all along.

​

It was utterly amazing!

 

But the epiphany was that

I had not ever given myself

permission to be my self

in my entirety, even though

I knew that this was who

and what I am, in every

instant of life.

 

You must not shine too

brightly you know.

​

After all, that would

make everyone entirely

too uncomfortable in your

presence and they are

already struggling to be

around you now.

​

You would stick out like

a sore thumb,even more

than you already do

and then how could you

ever hope to fit in?

 

When that whole thing

of trying to fit in finally

died on the vine, and

I stopped giving a shit

what other people think

of me or say, I experienced

the utter majesty, the mystery

and spaciousness of

myself, no holds barred.

 

And this got me to thinking

about my friend who keeps

telling me, “I have never

experienced my soul. I have

never experienced God. I

have not experienced love

as you have encountered it.

I keep asking for it, praying

for it and I get nothing.”

 

He has occupied my thoughts

and heart so profoundly

all week long.

 

And you know what dawned

on me?

 

I am so done with the illusion

of imperfection.

​

That is where the whole of

humanity is stuck like Chuck.

 

It’s not about fake it til you

make it. It’s about putting

your foot down and refusing

to bite the hook of imperfection

that the world is drowning in.

 

My God, you cannot purchase

anything anymore, either

online or in person, without

them sending you an email

questionnaire asking you

to evaluate your experience

of their performance from

beginning to end!

​

Get this world...loud and

clear:

 

There is no better version of

you in some future who will

ever be more worthy than

you are right now.

 

And my friend?

 

He is waiting to see the evidence

of God before he is willing to

actually love God and trust

that Divine Intelligence which

created all this just for him!

​

Meanwhile, the evidence

is in his face, his direct

experience every single day!

 

That is so silly to me that I find

it dumbfounding and perplexing.

 

You have to love and trust God

now and open your heart to

however God is showing up

to you in this very moment!

​

You have to open those

eyes and behold the light

you are standing in!

​

It is utterly blinding.

​

How can anyone claim to

not see or feel it?

 

That’s all.

 

I know it's a mouthful.

 

This whole waking up thing

is so ridiculous to me, that I

cannot stop myself from

laughing like a hyena about

it most of the time.

 

Why wait when you can be

happy this moment?

 

Why wait when you can be

peaceful now?

 

Why wait when you can be

enjoying every single instant

of the life that is yours

to live right now?

 

Why wait when you can feel

the ecstacy of being

madly in love with yourself

and life this moment?

 

Why wait when you can

know God now?

​

God doesn't need to reveal

Itself to you honey, you

have to open that heart

of yours to what is already

here.

​

God doesn't think you are

not worthy or ready to

receive, you do!

 

Soul: Why wait for freedom

when you have never not

been free?

 

Mountains out of mole hills

and problems where there

are none.

 

That is the human journey

in a nutshell.

 

Striving…

 

Efforting…

 

Working hard….

​

...only to fail in the end.

​

But maybe..maybe...

in some far off future...

 

All because more is never

enough because you are

never enough for you.

 

But you have always been

enough for God, beloved.

 

So how could what the world

thinks possibly matter?

 

You just keep being the

lighthouse that shines

in a world where people

have forgotten to open

their eyes and notice that

they, too, have always

been this and are right

now.

​

We are an unbeatable

team and we've got this!

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Prayer for the Day

​

I got my glow on today

so you better wear

shades.

 

Amen

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