Thoughts for the Day - 03/26
03/31/2026
Thought for the Day
Most people begin their spiritual
search for the wrong reason.
They believe that if they are
sincere, and lady luck is on their
side, then their lives will magically
be better and they will live happily
ever after, at least better than
their lives were before, at least
better than that of those who
do not choose to dedicate
themselves to God or truth.
I want to make this very, very clear.
Nothing about your life is ever
going to change.
What is in your destiny, you are
going to experience, no matter
what.
And there is no running away from
that fact, no sufficient amount of
numbing or self-medicating that is
ever going to prevent or change
any part of it, no distraction or
avoidance that will ever stop your
life from being your life.
Got that?
So this begs the question, why
pursue this relationship with
myself that you are talking about?
What the hell does it matter?
And that, my dear, is a very good
question to ask.
And my answer is simply this.
There is no reason to do anything
other than live the life which is
yours to live, unless...
Unless...
You are sick and tired of the misery,
tired of the mental and emotional
roller coaster ride, tired of the
sleepless nights, tired of the 'you'
that experiences all the pain and
suffering, self-doubt and self-
recrimination, the second guessing
and beating up on yourself for
never getting it 'right.'
If you are done with all of that, if
that is what you seek freedom
from, then this path is definitely
for you.
I had one more reason to add to
that list, as if it were not enough
on its own.
Once I remembered her, once I felt
what it felt like to be her, to live life
as her, to experience her world as
only she experienced it, I knew that
I would move heaven and earth
to find her again, to do whatever
it takes to live my life as her once
more.
And I knew that I knew that I knew
that I would use every moment of
whatever life I have left on this earth
to find her once again.
And I knew something else...
I did not care what anyone else
said the truth was, what any book
or scripture had to share, what
any religion preached as truth,
what any so-called enlightened
authority had to say about the
spiritual path.
I had been touched by something
and I was not the same.
My own heart would be my only
guide from now on.
Nothing would ever be as it once
was ever again.
An aching sort of desperation filled
my being.
I had to find her again.
No matter what.
And if I did find her, I would protect
my relationship with her and as
her at all cost.
What more could I care to seek,
what freedom could exist beyond
all this, what could I want or feel
beyond that?
You see, I knew, in my heart of hearts,
that I had never ever ceased being her.
That is something none of us are
talented enough to accomplish.
But what I could do and did, was
bury her so deeply in my
subconscious; under piles and piles
of bullshit, faulty programming and
conditioning, beneath layer upon
layer of rubble, until she was so deeply
secured under lock and key, that
I could no longer feel her presence
within me, and I could forget that
it was she who I truly am.
Add up all the riches and fame,
success and accolades this world
has to offer, and they are nothing,
absolutely nothing, in the beneficent
light of her presence.
Why fight for something that is
merely temporal?
Something that you sure as shit
are not going to take with you
when you leave this mortal coil
behind.
Isn't it the Eternal and the
Changeless, her love, light and
peace for which your heart
truly cries?
Isn't that what you would gladly
give up everything you supposedly
own to remember and consciously
be once again?
Her touch...
Her grace...
Her blessing?
So I will leave it at that.
And I will tell you that I have a
new blog post on the website
that I wrote yesterday.
And if this thought speaks to you
in any way, I encourage you to
read it.
It will only take 7 minutes of your
time to do so.
I think you are worth that, don't
you?
I am here for you.
I am not just going to march you
up to the edge of a cliff and hurl
you over the precipice.
I am here to take your hand and
support you every blessed step
of the way.
You are loved.
You are love.
Come.
Take my hand. I offer it to you
freely.
For we have the grandest of all
adventures to see about.
This is your time.
And it's a new day.
What's stopping you?
pelkyong
***
Prayer for the Day
I'll take that hand.
Athough I do not remember that
one of whom you speak, I do believe.
Onward and upward.
I'm in all the way, hair guts, feathers
and all.
Amen
***
03/30/2026
Thought for the Day
Today, watch yourself.
Notice the many ways and countless
times in which you sell yourself out.
Self betrayal...
It's a big one to look at today....
You, incredible being of love and
light, you who actually hung the
stars, get sidelined and gaslighted
by the world every single day
because you were the one who
did this to yourself first when you
decided to disregard your own
truth, to kowtow to the whims of
others, to placate, ego massage
and play games in the name of
getting along, keeping the peace,
all at the cost of you, dear child,
of your own heart, your own
wisdom, the GIFTS that you were
meant to bring to the banquet
table of life consciously, your
own truth, your own soul because
what you gave and give comes
from what you have given
yourself.
And why is that?
I want to hear why you think you
deserve no better than that.
Why are you so easily overlooked
by you?
Hell, I would wager that 99%
of you do not even begin to know
who you are, so how could you
ever make what is true for you
known and share it with the world?
You would stick up for the tiniest,
most helpless of all creatures
without giving it a second thought,
but as for standing up for yourself?
As for fighting for you?
When-in-the-holy-hell have you
ever done that?
Forget what happened when
you were a kid.
Look honestly at what you do
to yourself every single day.
See it.
Don't try to change it.
Consciously behold with honesty
what you sacrifice every single day
in order to appear to get along.
How does it feel when you see
yourself this clearly?
Who have you supposedly been
fighting for all this time if not for
you?
This week we are going to take
an honest look at how deeply
we still live our lives from the
outside in and the lengths we
go to every single day in order
to survive, rather than truly live.
Because you cannot call what
you have been doing living,
even if you go to concerts, take
road trips, spend time at the beach,
try to do nice things for yourself,
etc., if the things you do are still
forms of self-medicating and
massaging your own ego, rather
than giving yourself the time and
space to truly get to know who you
are and receiving guidance and
direction first from your own beating
heart before you are willing to do
anything.
Happy spelunking in the cave
of the heart today.
Remember you are loved.
Created by love, composed of
love to live as love in this
world and to broadcast that
signal on all channels and
frequencies.
But how is it possible to do
this spectacularly if you leave
yourself out of the loop?
Remember...only a gift with
eternal value is truly a gift.
And you were always meant
to be its first receiver.
Isn't it time you began to truly
love you?
pelkyong
***
Prayer for the Day
Help me begin the greatest
of all journey's, the one to the
center of my own beating
heart.
Amen
***
03/29/2026
Thought for the Day
My wish for our thought today
is that it again be simple,
in keeping with the weekend
plan.
But I would like to begin by
sharing two different
conversations that happened
on two different occasions
between myself and two of
my siblings.
The first occurred between my
now deceased brother and
myself.
He had taken me to lunch when
I had gone back home for the
holidays and we were sitting
opposite each other in a booth.
After we had chatted and reminisced
awhile, he began staring at me in a way
which was making me feel highly
uncomfortable.
All of a sudden he blurted out, "How
did you become you? We all grew
up in the same family, had the same
parents and siblings, experienced
the same things. I just don't get it.
How come you have your shit
together? How are you so happy
and peaceful?"
I did not have a clue how to answer
a question like that.
How do you sum up an entire
lifetime in a handful of bullet
points?
So I said, "I chose a way of life
because I wanted something
different for myself than more
of how we grew up. And so I
dedicated myself. I learned self
discipline. And in time, with
devotion, repetition and a whole
lot of grace, I came to love and
respect the face I saw in the
mirror staring back at me each
morning."
The second happened when
the sister closest to me in age
contacted me because she
was feeling suicidally depressed.
There is nothing like a good
dose of desperation to make
someone reach out and ask
for help when she is usually
so arrogant that she believes
she stand head's and shoulder's
above everybody else on this
planet, and because of this,
treats others with contempt,
disdain or polite indifference
rather than kindness, mutual
respect and compassion.
My point?
It is challenging to have a real
conversation with someone
when this is the positionality they
take with you before you ever
begin.
She is a Freudian analyst,
an M.D. and uber educated.
Like my father, she felt that
education ensured a happy
and successful life.
She asked me questions which
I answered.
And I remember this call
distinctly because it was on
9/11, the day the Trade Towers
came down.
All of sudden she said, "It is
not fair. You haven't done
anything exceptional in this life.
I am the one with the superior
education, who has superior
tools, I am the one who is
highly successful and lives
in a great house, I have a great
husband who is equally successful
and I have two amazing boys,
each of whom are slated for
great things as well. Why do
you get to be happy? How do
you deserve it? You haven't
earned anything of any value
in this life."
Again, I did not know what to
say. So I left it at this.
"We each pick a path that we
follow in life. One that feels
right for us. And we dedicate
ourselves to it as best as we can.
In time, it bears fruit. Hopefully
that fruit holds all we were
searching for. Mine just happened
to do so for me.
You cannot wait until your life feels
bankrupt to try to get a spiritual
life that is powerful enough to
sustain you, one that is capable of
holding the pain you feel and
answer your heart's yearning.
You begin when you already feel
okay and you repeat, repeat,
repeat until your spiritual bank
account is full and overflowing.
And you keep repeating day after
day so when difficulties arise,
your account is not sucking on
fumes because there is nothing in
it to support you. What good are
a superior education and worldly
posessions then?"
My point in sharing both of these
stories is this:
You will never fail to be answered
when you ask for help.
You will be answered in a way
that you can understand.
But you cannot live a life of
self will run riot and wait to
ask until life has you in its
cross hairs.
You begin by building more
silence, relaxation and time to
listen and connect into your life
each and every day.
And then, when life happens,
because it always does and will,
you have a bank account which
is full and overflowing to draw
from. One which is born of trust
and contains an abundance of
comfort and peace to carry you
until the darkness of night is
replaced by the coming of dawn.
So practice today.
Relax.
Breathe.
Go for a long walk.
Enjoy nature.
And learn to listen to your own
beating heart.
Here is your real home, the source
of boundless wealth, good will,
happiness and fulfillment.
No one can give this to you.
But that also means that no one
can take it away from you either.
You have to do the leg work.
The journey is not difficult, as
we are talking about your natural
state of being.
It is far more difficult to keep up
with the ruse of the personal self
than it is to simply and humbly
be your true self.
But you do have to commit to a
new way of living the life which
is yours to live.
And you have to be consistent.
With these comes depth, self-
awareness and self-love.
You get the awesome opportunity
to get to know the real you.
So I have a couple of questions
for you if you happen to be reading
this today...
Have you had enough fun yet?
Your way or the highway is not a
very effective life style choice.
And are you ready to come home to
yourself?
***
Prayer for the Day
My answer is yes.
With all my heart,
I am.
Amen
***
03/28/2026
Thought for the Day
A very simple question is offered
today. Work with it and use it
liberally.
Do not mistake the question's
simplicity as a signal to overlook
the opportunity that is afforded
you.
For its message is pithy.
It has the potential of changing your
day from one of uncertainty and inner
friction to that of happiness and
peace if you allow it to do so.
For the benefits to one who
embraces it as a way of life
are truly out of this world!
So memorize it.
Put a copy on your fridge, your
bathroom mirror and any place
you visit often.
And by all means, use it
immediately when you find your-
self in the cross hairs of life.
It is your lifeline. It will aid you in
remembering the two things in
life which matter most.
(1) Your breath.
(2) Peace
The idea, offered you in the
form of question is as follows:
How can I best love and support
you in this experience?
It is time you became the one
person in your life who matters
most to you.
Be kind to them.
Be loving toward them.
Be supportive, accepting and
patient with them.
He or she deserves your
unquestionable loyalty and
allegiance.
And please do have a loving
and lovely weekend.
pelkyong
***
Prayer for the Day
Whatever my day will hold
for me, I know it will be
a GIFT and I thank the
Universe ahead of time
for every bit of it.
Gratefully I choose to
consciously receive all of it
exactly as it is, as I go about
the business of being me.
Amen
***
03/27/2026
Thought for the Day
I would like to offer a very
simple message today because
it highlights an idea which
should be entirely liberating
upon hearing it, but it rarely
is so.
And why is this?
Because people, especially
people who think of themselves
as spiritual, find themselves in
its cross hairs every single
day.
Given the opportunity to
reach for kindness and
gentleness versus mean
and punitive, we will pick
the harshest judgment
and treatment available
to us for ourselves and our
world every single time.
We do this because we do
not love ourselves and
the world is treated in
the same manner we treat
ourselves because of this.
Let me begin by asking you
a few questions...
Do you ever feel regret because
of something you said or did?
Do you ever second-guess
yourself, as in "I should have,"
or "I should not have"?
Do you ever feel you have
fallen short of a moral code
which is based on rules,
principles and values that
have either been handed
down through familial ties,
one's religion or perhaps
even composed entirely by
yourself?
A standard which influences
your decision-making and
your behavior and determines
how you treat others?
The point being, it is a
conceptual framework upon
which you have built your
entire life, and when you do
not live up to it, you feel
badly?
Do you ever feel the need
to judge others or yourself
harshly because you feel
they are being selfish, blind,
ignorant, crazy or unnecessarily
cruel?
If your answer is "yes" to
any of these questions, this
message is for you.
What you do in this world
or what you do not do
does not matter.
Why you think the thoughts
you think, why you feel the
way you do, and what you say
or do doesn't matter either.
It is just an experience.
One which you planned
and agreed to experience
as only you can experience
it.
And if this is true for you,
it is equally true for everyone
else on this planet.
The only question to ask
yourself is, are you the witness,
the unconscious driver asleep
at the wheel, or the back seat
driver who thinks it knows best?
And whichever one you are
identifying yourself as is
also never wrong or a mistake.
It simply determines whether
or not you experience suffering
or feel peaceful.
The question is, do you use
your thoughts, feelings and
actions and those of others
as evidence to invalidate
either yourself or your world?
So while the world favors
the application of a specific
measuring stick of moral
and ethical standards by
which we are all expected to
abide, this becomes the stick
which you use to either beat
yourself or the world with
without mercy.
But if you get nothing else
from today's thought,
please hear this...
When you fall into the
the habit of listening to
the voice of your humanity
once again and biting that
hook willy nilly, which we
all invariably do, how do
you treat yourself?
Do you take a harsh and
strident tone with yourself?
Or are you kind, patient
and loving with yourself,
ever remembering, "Of
course I said that. Of course
I felt that way. Of course
I handled that this way.
Who wouldn't have done
the exact same thing, given
my history and everything
I have gone through in this
life?"
Work with this today.
Listen for who you are
listening to.
Can you experience being
you with compassionate
detachment, understanding
and empathy?
For you are only ever
experiencing the experience
of being you and all that
entails.
And may loving-kindness
bless every thought,
word or deed with the
touch of the Mother who
mother's us all.
For this truly is the time of
tenderness.
***
Prayer for the Day
Help me wear my
experience of being me
like a loose garment
today.
And may the kindness
I offer myself be the
same kindness I offer
the world.
Amen
***
03/26/2026
Thought for the Day
The dialogue continues...
Soul: Yesterday was again a day
which was revealing for you in
such a powerful way.
Would you like to share?
me: I would.
Spirituality, for thousands of years
of recorded human history, has
been based on a reductionist model,
and by this I mean, that of getting
rid of things.
This all began in the instant that
human beings put God outside of
themselves.
That was when something which
was inherently one, became two,
in our minds...
That is also when life became all
about fixing ourselves and changing
ourselves, healing ourselves and
understanding ourselves, improving
ourselves and transcending ourselves.
We began to judge ourselves and
each other, and since we made God
in our image, God was then a judge
too, who always found us wanting.
Thus, guilt, shame and fear were
born.
But what you have shown me, and
you have done so from the very
beginning, is that my humanity
is not a problem.
So how does suffering arise?
Suffering is a byproduct of iden
tification with the subject, which
is the personal self, the idea of
me, mine and I.
And the subject is always either
preoccupied with and perseverating on
itself, or upon the objects which it is
composed of, as in emotions, mind,
body, the person, or the objects of
other or world.
But we are neither the subject or
the object.
We are awareness.
And so unlike the reductionist model,
the need to dispose of things which
are bad, wrong or not enough, we
do not have to do anything with our
humanity other than observe it and
be aware and accepting of all its
experiences.
Welcoming all of our human experiences
with love and tenderness, recognizing
that acceptance is the key which opens
our eyes and our hearts to our Divinity.
Soul: Those are some pretty amazing
things to see and bear witness to.
me: Now it is no longer important if
the tent stays or if it goes, if it changes
or remains the same.
I am the Eternal Witness of the
experience of tent no matter what
that experience happens to be.
And from this, a relationship with
You begins to grow, as I realize that
my real Identity is You, and trust
and surrender are how the appearance
of two are recognized and realized
as ONE.
A whole lot of words to say what
was realized in perhaps a nanosecond
of time.
But that nanosecond contained the
whole of Eternity.
So when I spoke of being undone
yesterday, I was not in any way
suggesting or describing an
experience of getting rid of our
humanity.
In other words, more reductionism.
I was suggesting that the tent remains
the same. But the tent stakes are
what keep us focused on both subject
and object.
And when those connections are
severed, the tent is still very much
there. It remains the same. It is just
that from this perspective, I am
the observer of the experience of
tent, not the tent itself.
And thus what happens to the tent
is no longer personal.
So when I spoke of unfelt feelings,
the memory of self and the personal
self's obsession with complicating
things, I was speaking of some of
the more obvious ways in which we
become obsessed with being the
human being, obsessed with subject
and object.
They were specific tent stakes.
So I loved your final message of
not becoming obsessed with driving
the vehicle or being a backseat
driver.
I, the Eternal Witness, am watching
the panorama of life as it is unfolding.
And I do not interfere because I do
not enter fear.
Soul: A lovely play on words.
And so, as the observer, you go
through life in a state of connection.
And that connection is sustained
through breath awareness.
For breath is the bridge between
the realms of spirit and matter.
Ever remembering that you are not
the subject or the object.
You are the Eternal Witness.
And when experiences arise which
tempt you to become identified
once again with subject or object,
you just keep coming back to the
breath.
And you trust....
Every experience was designed
by you, for you...
Thus, life does not happen to you,
it happens for you....
All is unfolding exactly as it should.
***
Prayer for the Day
Wow!
Thank you for the opportunity
to bear witness to the human
experience.
Amen
***
03/25/2026
Thought for the Day
The dialogue continues...
Soul: You experienced a beautiful
shift in consciousness yesterday.
Would you like to talk about it?
me: I would.
It all started when my friend,
Susana, sent to our little
WhatsApp group a YouTube
link to my favorite Rumi poem
that had been put to music.
I found myself lost in it,
but the lines that changed
everything for me were these:
Leave the me. Leave the road.
Drop the weight you always hold.
Come undone.
Come undone. You were never
meant to run.
When the self is finally gone.
We were never two but one.
I have put the link below
and I urge everyone to give it
a listen. I have given it dozens
of listens so far.
It is thoroughly life changing.
watch?v=SnEdGAeudQ0
Soul: What did you find so life
changing about it?
me: Well, aside from the fact that
I love Rumi and this particular poem
is my favorite for reasons which
are deeply personal, it is enough
to say that this particular poem
is very near and dear to my heart.
And the translation was most unique
and illuminating. I loved it.
I recognized something in an instant
as I listened to it.
The exquisite manner in which I
have been experiencing life as of
late was the means by which I was
keeping the personal self real in
my experience.
In other words, it remained dominant
in my experience because it was so
in my face all the time.
This is very difficult to find words
that bring Clear Seeing rather than
more confusion.
Anyway, in my mind's eye I saw
a tent and I observed the final tent
stake as it was being hammered
in the ground, realizing that the
role of the tent stakes was to secure
the tent's base to the ground.
And I suddenly understood that this
deeply painful way in which I have
been experiencing recently were my
tent stakes or pegs; the way I was
keeping the 'me' securely in place
as the identity.
A question arose:
Can you witness the 'me,' without
identifying as it?
Another way of saying this is, can
I meditate on the experience of
being pelkyong, rather than
identifying myself as pelkyong
the experiencer?
In that instant, I gave myself
permission to be undone and
I watched as pelkyong blew
away as so much dust in the wind.
What was left was exquisite joy,
and that is how I passed the day.
Soul: This is beautiful.
So for the rest of what remains
of your human life, this is the
way you live.
(1) Just keep coming back to your
breath.
(2) Accept what is.
(3) Recognize that one of 2 things
will always be happening.
me: What are they?
Soul: Life will either be affording
you the opportunity to feel
what you still have not allowed
yourself to experience consciously,
to accept and embrace.
Or, life will give you the opportunity
to be undone, where you disappear
in union with God.
You allow the wave which bears
your name to dissolve once again
into the Ocean.
Either way, the breath is always
the key.
Remember, you are the witness
and your human life is your
meditation.
me: I love that so much!
Life is truly simple.
I noticed yesterday that life was
still being experienced in the same
manner in which it has been of late,
but it no longer mattered.
Because the space that was holding
all experiences was so vast, that
it really did feel like waves of
experience were returning to the
Ocean until the 'me; offered itself
completely as well.
Soul: This is the natural state of
being.
What you have come to understand
is how everyone keeps the memory
of the personal self alive.
That is all the personal self is, a
memory, which is the ultimate
meaning of the word chitta.
For when you are in the present
moment, there is no self, there is
only connection, or union.
Union becomes the singular mode
of experiencing.
Your only job is just to keep coming
back to the breath.
me: See what I mean?
Life is so incredibly simple and I
think that complicating things is
another way the ego keeps the tent
pegs in the ground of human
experience...anchoring itself in place
as the chosen identity.
And when I use the word chosen,
what I am really trying to express is
that which gives us a sense of
existence.
So we have clearly identified three
things today that keeps the personal
self locked in place as the presumed
identity.
(1) unfelt, unaccepted feelings.
(2) memory, as in holding onto
the past which is composed of
history, programming, beliefs,
point of view, etc.
(3) complicating the intrinsically
simple.
And, as you have said to me every
day for decades now, breath is
the key to freedom.
Soul: This has been a very full
message for today.
Follow your breath today and relax.
Life is so beautiful when you allow
yourself to be the witness rather
than the subject or object of
perception.
Don't try to drive the vehicle, and
for goodness sake, don't be a
backseat driver.
Can you be content by just going
along for the ride?
***
Prayer For The Day
Let me step back and allow
the light to lead the way.
My job is simple.
Smile, breathe and welcome
what is.
Amen
***
03/24/2026
Thought for the Day
The dialogue continues...
me: If you don't mind, there
is something that I would
like to share today which
came up in a group
conversation among friends
yesterday.
I spoke of entering into a
new phase of my life; a new
but not unfamiliar mode of
experience, as it is one which
has resurfaced on several
occasions throughout
my life, but never with this
level of intensity.
I have become overwhelmingly
sensitive once again.
I feel like the Princess and the
pea.
And the point I wish to
make very clear, something
which might have been
misunderstood by those
I was sharing with at the
time, is that the world is not
evoking this reaction from me,
a movie cannot evoke any
particular experience, nor can
a person ever be responsible
for my feelings.
These are my feelings in
their entirety. They existed
within me long before the
present level of sensitivity
began surfacing in my
experience.
I own them in their entirety.
They originate from within
me.
And if the world was not
kind enough to show me
what I still have yet inside of
me to feel and integrate,
I would never know, for
they are not the type of
feelings that I experience
on a regular basis.
I spoke of feeling like I
was receiving 'death by
ten thousand cuts' on
a daily basis when I am
out and about, mingling
with the world.
I observe what people
are doing to themselves,
doing to each other and
to this planet and the pain
that I experience is so
exquisite that I can scarcely
breathe.
It feels as though I am
shriveling up and dying
on the spot.
This type of sensitivity
has happened to me before.
In fact, it was a childhood
norm for me.
But I want to be very clear
about this point.
I still go about the business
of living my life, avoiding
nothing, yet consciously
choosing to observe, feel,
accept, and open my heart
to the experience(s) until
they complete and integrate.
But it is a razor's edge to walk
between being available to
feel what is here to feel and
that of putting up walls so that
you do not experience the same
level of sensitivity.
That's a tough one to figure out.
I want to be deeply engaged
with my world.
And yet, at the same time, I
do not wish to feel so over-
whelmed by my experience
that I become a dysfunctional
red hot mess.
My question is, is it possible
to see and feel what is happening
with the people whom I encounter
without feeling as though I face
a decision to stop engaging with
the world outside my door or
risk becoming so dysfunctional
that I can no longer manage
my life independently?
And before you address the
question, which I do want you
to address, I would like to say
that this way of experiencing
has evoked so much tenderness
and compassion for our world,
a level of care I have not felt
before and for that, I am
grateful.
I love all of us; hair, guts, feathers
and all. And I find us so incredibly
precious and dear that my heart
goes off like fireworks on the 4th
of July with a level of care and
concern that makes me want to
marinate the entire planet in it.
I consciously choose to give myself
permission to experience the way
I am experiencing, realizing that
this is the way God created me,
and to love and support myself
as I navigate the world as it is
currently presenting itself and
being experienced by me.
I am done with shame and guilt
forever.
Useless emotions.
But as I said before, it all smacks
so much like how I felt as a child.
And as a child, when I did not
know what to do with my little
Pandora's box, I chose to shut it all
down, numbed myself completely
because I believed that it was a
safer bet not to feel anything at
all.
I became a zombie, for all intents
and purposes, for an entire decade.
What is the answer, dear soul?
Soul: First of all, never forget
that what you observe, completes
itself.
The closer you come to the oldest
material in the subconscious
mind, facing all the things which
you have spent lifetimes avoiding
and protecting from discovery,
the more intense the experience
will seem to you.
After all, this is what you most
deeply did not wish to look at, let
alone feel.
It takes courage to turn into
this material and face what you
have spent your whole life trying
to avoid.
It takes a sort of bravery this world
is unfamiliar with to consciously
say, "I will no longer run away."
When I say that there is nothing
to fear, I mean that what you
inevitably discover is that
the things which you believed
that you were afraid of seeing,
were not frightening to you
at all.
Sad, perhaps. Heart and gut
wrenching even. But not
frightening.
So how did fear ever arise
in the consciousness of your
species in the first place?
Your species was afraid of
fear itself.
Fear was judged as dangerous.
It might reveal something
more terrifying than the fear
and apprehension that you
were feeling.
You were afraid to be still,
look your feelings deep in the
eye so to speak and feel them
completely, to see what fear
was trying to show you, to allow
yourself to receive its gifts,
and to see it to its conclusion.
You were afraid to be afraid.
It is a primitive holdover from
your days as a cave dweller.
Fear was the signal to run
because there might be a bear
chasing you.
When you no longer seek to
avoid any feeling, you will
find the manner in which
they are presenting themselves
will become less intense, until
the fizzle out completely.
Without the urge to escape,
avoid, deny, pretend, self-
medicate, repress or bypass
anything in any way, you will
never again experience a
single instant of fear.
So I urge you to increase
your involvement with
the world right now.
And as you have said before,
are you willing to see all
that you have denied because
it was your truth, a truth
you would rather hide from
yourself rather than face?
me: I am.
I am ready and perhaps even
a little bit excited to see
what I discover.
Let the games begin.
***
Prayers For The Day
Dear Pelkyong:
Allow me to meditate
on your experiences
with you today.
After all, that is what
I had in mind all
along.
God
***
Dear God:
Eyes open.
Heart open.
Hands open.
Feet that keep on
swimming.
Prepared to experience
and embrace life.
Thank goodness, I
am not alone.
Amen
***
03/23/2026
Thought for the Day
The dialogue continues...
me: You know, there is one
incredibly inconvenient truth
which has been doggedly
persistent in my awareness
for some time now, demanding
acknowledgement.
Although we have touched on it
all along, we have not come
outright and said it, in no
uncertain terms.
It's funny how something can
be so obvious, yet go entirely
unnoticed and ignored by us.
The most difficult thing about
enlightenment or liberation
is "How do we reconcile the
our humanity with our
Divinity?"
And for thousands of years
spirituality has taught us
to avoid our humanity, to
deny it, punish it, to treat
it with disdain, as though
it were a curse and a cross
to bear, something that
needed to die.
Every day I watch people
flogging themselves into
submission and conformity.
These are the unspoken
rules of engagement.
While the world has pretty much
trained us to ignore all parts
of our humanity except that
of the body; teaching us that
the body is to be worshipped,
pampered, treated like royalty,
its appearance is to be sculpted,
fit, and attractively adorned.
Where the inconvenient
truth which is coming into
focus with increasing strength,
velocity and clarity for me is
that:
It is not awakening to the
infinite love, light and presence
which we are that sets us free.
Nor is it a realization of
emptiness or the Void
which sets us free.
It is just living your life
and being authentically who
you are, genuinely loving
who you are as you are with
no demands, qualifications
or expectations which sets
you free.
A dear friend wrote to me
yesterday about a little
victory she experienced.
After taking her daughter
to the airport to fly back
to Colorado where she goes
to college (she had come
home for spring break),
she allowed herself to
return to bed when she
got home.
This was entirely out of
character for her.
And although she saw this as
a little victory, it still left
me feeling incredibly sad.
Why?
Because I long for the day
when I hear her say to me,
"I deserve this."
This is a statement of one
who truly loves themselves.
We come back to the assertion
I made yesterday about
being partially pregnant.
We are either loving with
ourselves or we are not.
There are no small degrees
of anything.
I feel pain when I hear others
struggle with their treatment
of their humanity.
Is the mean spirited nature
of what the world brainwashed
you into believing really so
strong that you cannot hear
the plea of your own precious
heart?
Is the idea of caring for one's self
with so much love and kindness
that you do not give being tender
and generous with yourself
a second thought, something
so entirely beyond your capacity
to embrace?
I find this unsettling and
horrifying.
Sometimes when I look at what
people are doing to themselves,
to each other and to our world
leaves me feeling like I am in a
trash compactor.
If the world could feel as I feel,
it would change in the span of
a single heartbeat.
I struggle watching people
I love with all my heart
still allowing expectations
and faulty programming
to bend them into becoming
cruel and merciless taskmasters.
But the thing that is so obvious
to me these days, something
which is the most amazing,
mysterious and mind-bending
truth, is how really and truly
loving the human being we are,
as we are, caring for it so
lovingly, is entirely alchemical.
This is how base metal is
transformed into pure gold.
How that translates into
Divinity is beyond anything
I can begin to comprehend.
Maybe that is the definition
of a miracle.
Some things were never
meant to be understood.
Like the Nike commercial:
Just do it.
And then let the results speak
for themselves.
So I think it is important that
we explore the subject of
our heart's further.
Because people talk to me
every single day about loving
themselves more and more,
yet I see that they have not
even begun the journey to
their heart's.
Soul: Let's keep the practicing
simple today.
I would like to give you all
a mantra to work with.
I am a beautiful person.
I deserve this.
I am proud of who I am and
I refuse to waste as single
instant feeling guilty about this.
I control the mind, the mind
does not control me.
I will not give that line of
thinking a second thought.
You can use whatever words
comfort and inspire you
in the moment, but you get
the gist.
me: I have another friend
who is very fond of saying,
"Simple but not easy."
That statement makes me
cringe every time I hear it
because it is only a thought
which has been believed
to be true.
Why do you allow the mind
to be the arbiter of truth
that you choose to listen to?
When you do this, are you
not being a victim?
Are you not willingly submitting
to your own confusion and
cruelty?
Is not that the role of arbiter
of truth the responsibility
of God or the soul?
Words have no meaning other
than the meaning we give to
them.
Hard to the ego, but effortless
to the soul.
Which one are you trying to be?
Is this not more of trying to fix
the ego so it can one day
become the soul?
Loving ourselves should
be the easiest thing in the
universe for all of us to do.
For me, all I have to do is
think about how I was
treated as a child in order
to remember the living
amendment I have made
to myself to treat myself
with respect, kindness,
genersity, patience and
unconditional positive
regard.
I would rather lay down
and die right here, on this
very spot, than to treat myself
any other way for a single
instant, that's just how
passionately I feel about
showing up for myself all
of the time.
Soul:That is precisely what it
takes to be committed to
the truth.
Anything less is just another
flavor of the Matrix, a decision
to make the simple seem difficult,
confounding, and beyond your
scope to comprehend.
If you were made by Love,
composed entirely of love
in order to be loving, should not
embodying love be the easiest
thing in the entire universe for
you to both do and be?
***
Prayer For The Day
While the world marches
to the beat of its own drum,
may my life be a testament
to one who learned to
loved themselves well.
May this then be my only
demonstration.
Amen
***
03/22/2026
Thought for the Day
The dialogue continues...
me: There is not a single instant
of my life anymore that I do not
recognize, and clearly so, that
radical acceptance is the prerequisite
to peace.
It is also the gateway to liberation.
Every day I see people actively giving
their lives for the sake of world peace.
But there can be no world peace until
human beings become peaceful
themselves.
We must realize that world peace
can only be achieved when each human
being becomes peaceful within.
For the world is as we are.
Whenever I cannot accept, no
matter how sincerely I try, I am
always afforded the opportunity
to take another step back and
accept the part of me that is
struggling so with acceptance.
During the course of my search for
peace, which began when I was a
very small child, I discovered
something powerful which was
vital to acceptance.
Acceptance is not neutral, nor is it
distant, aloof or unengaged with
life.
It is fully engaged and present to
what is happening, in a deeply
loving and expansive way, yet
silently accepts the isness of
what is unfolding.
If I were to collect all of the
experiences that 72 years of life
and living have brought me,
I would have to say that #1 on
that list, alongside with my
relationship with you and Pam,
would be the journey to my
own heart.
For it is here that peace is found.
Prior to encountering and commencing
upon a relationship with you and Pam,
I had no relationship with my heart,
for I had shut it down as a child
when I determined it was not safe
to live life with an open heart.
You see, I had made a judgment
that love was about weakness.
I had yet to learn that LOVE is
about authentic power.
The human heart and peace are
so inseparably mixed, that there
is no way to discern one from
another.
Thank you for that GIFT.
Thank you, thank you, thank you
for that GIFT.
For it is the relationship I have with
my own heart which makes me
richer than all the resources of
this entire planet.
So I would like today to be an
exploration of the true blue nature
of our own relationship with
our own hearts.
Start where you are.
We either have one, or we do not.
It's like the old adage which says,
"You cannot be a little bit pregnant."
Either you are pregnant, or you are
not.
How can I be more kind, more loving
and even more gentle with myself?
Can I relinquish the white-knuckle-grasp
I have on self-recrimination, judgment,
and blatant acts of disregard?
Can I stop with the whole mean-girl
routine I perpetrate on myself daily?
And before anyone drops me a line
in protest to that statement, let me
be perfectly clear.
I watch you guys every single day
doing the whole mean-girl thing
with yourselves and others.
Soul: It has been and is a beautiful
thing to observe, watching you be
infinitely tender, patient and loving
with the child within you who was
neither seen nor listened to by
anyone, including yourself.
You felt utterly lost and invisible.
It is one thing to not be seen or valued
as a child, but to watch you disregard
this part of you through the early years
of your entire adult life was heart
wrenching to observe.
You were the singular perpetrator
of your own misery.
This child represents the return
of innocence to your awareness.
Remember who you were and how
you were before you stopped identifying
with yourself as the soul, and you
began becoming the personal self;
searching for love and belonging,
safety and security outside of yourself?
And when you could not find these
from your environment, you began
building walls and coping strategies
for survival?
No one can connect with this child
who has no relationship with their
own heart.
So that is your mission today, should
you accept it.
How loving, how present and how
tender can you be with yourself?
And if you cannot even feel your
heart, begin with this simple
breathing practice.
Can you feel both the inhalation
and the exhalation entering
and exiting from the heart chakra?
Just keep bringing the breath back
to the heart each time you forget
and lose the thread.
This is indeed the time of tenderness.
In this time of global uncertainty,
you can be the forerunner of a new
way fo being human.
You lead by example, not by words.
When, throughout the course of
the recorded history of your species,
has a relationship with the heart
been more vital?
What would be more helpful to
your world right now?
More mind, which is where violence,
cruelty and self-righteousness
begins, or more heart?
Do you have the courage to begin your
exploration of the vast and endless
unexplored territory of the heart?
Drop pelkyong an email about what
you discover about yourself today
because she will incorporate your
experiences in her TFTD tomorrow.
Your lives are filled to the brim
each and every day with missed
opportunities to bear witness to
the flow of grace in your lives.
And no opportunity is ever afforded
you which is greater than the freedom
to fall deeply in love with yourself.
***
Prayer For The Day
What an extraordinary journey
this has been.
Thank you, thank you, thank you
for my life.
It has been and is the perfect
life for me.
Amen
***
03/21/2026
Thought for the Day
The uncommon dialogue
continues...
me: I have been reflecting
a lot since yesterday on the
sweetest realization that
nothing is an impediment
to peace.
I have been feeling such an
incredible stillpoint within
me that does not move or
fluctuate, despite the topsy
turvy nature of our lives or
life on our planet.
Every day I encounter people
who are truly heartbroken
because their lives are so
filled with chaos and turmoil,
yet I say nothing.
For none are interested in
seeing how they bring
these situations upon them-
themselves, nor do they
make a quick and clean
get-away when it is obvious
they need to because they
are still playing the victim
card.
You cannot reach someone
who does not love themselves
and you cannot help anyone
who is unwilling to see the
part they are playing in their
misery.
I am not going to waste a
single instant of my time
sacrificing my peace under
the guise of trying to help
where help is not wanted.
How would that be an
example of loving myself?
I am not even going to waste
a moment of my time
being a captive audience.
How is what I am offering
any different than their offering
if my peace is not valuable
enough to me to remain
established in it?
This message runs contrary to
what both the spiritual marketplace
and the world tries to teach us.
But what my heart has found
true is that....
These thoughts are not an
impediment to my peace.
These feelings are not an
impediment to my peace.
What is happening in this body
is not an impediment to my
peace.
What is happening in my life
or the lives of those I care for
is not an impediment to my
peace.
I trust that every single one of us
is on the soul's journey and
we cannot mess it up.
Therefore I must trust that even
what is happening now is helpful
to them in ways I cannot begin
to understand, nor is it any of
my business.
Thank God that my understanding
is not a prerequisite to anything.
Stay in your own lane, pelkyong,
and guard your peace.
This also means that what is
happening in the world is
also not an impediment to
my peace.
Can I remain awake and
aware of what is happening
within me, while holding
the space of peace for all
of us?
This is how I challenge myself
every single day since this
decade began.
And I do so because nothing is
more important to me or more
vital than living the truth of my
experience peacefully.
And you know what?
I would rather experience the
challenges and difficulties which
have been mine to bare in this
lifetime than to remain on the
hamster wheel along with all
the sleeping herd of humanity
at large.
That scenario is the stuff of
nightmares.
Each experience which has been
mine to live has left me a more
radiant version of myself.
This heart weeps big old crocodile
tears of gratitude every time I
think of that precious little child
who asked you how to become
a candle that does not flicker
in the wind.
So earnest...
So sincere...
What an utterly adorable and
treasured little thing...
Little did she know that the path
that you would lead her on
would deliver her to the very
peace and freedom for which
her little heart cried.
So today is a day filled to
overflowing with gratitude.
I am so very fortunate.
I have had such a great life and
I love the life which you have
given me.
Soul: That would be a wonderful
yet simple practice for the weekend.
For what are you grateful?
It is an unspeakable blessing to
be able to live the version of life
which you get to live each and
every day.
And who among you does not
know this is equally true for them
every moment of their lives?
It is an odd thing that the spiritual
world has taught you to overlook
your humanity in order to reach
your Divinity.
Because the truth is that the ability
to live your human experience with
honesty, tenderness and compassion
is the only thing that lets you connect
with who you are on a transcendent
level.
So reflect on how precious your
human life actually is today for it
is the gateway to the Infinite.
And it will be done and over before
you know it.
Try not to take anything for granted
because life offers you no guarantees.
For in the end, the only thing you have
is the ability to meet who you are
and what you are experiencing
with compassion, kindness and gratitude.
This is the hallmark of a remarkably
beautiful and fuliflling live.
***
Prayer For The Day
Help me be honest with myself
and my world about my experience
today and live it all gratefully.
No matter what it is, it's a gift,
and I am its grateful recipient.
Amen
***
03/20/2026
Thought for the Day
The dialogue continues...
me: There is a beautiful prayer
in the Upanishads which I
have been repeating daily for
30 + years which says:
Whatever is God's Will is destined
to happen.
And whatever is not God's Will is
destined to never happen.
Between these two opposites,
we are the architects of our own
destiny.
Question:
What lies between what is the will of
God and what is not the will of God?
And the answer is, absolutely nothing.
In other words, we have absolutely
no control over anything.
Can you make your heart beat?
Is it you who pulls the breath?
Do you determine your lifespan,
health, the job you get, who you
fall in love with or if you fall in love,
if you will have children, the sex
and relative health of your child,
the seasons, the weather, or when
the sun rises or sets?
To free ourselves of the burden we
feel which tells us that we need to
make something happen in the lives
of those we love, in the world or
even our own lives is to know peace.
And I cannot help but feel that this is
the final illusion we are each going to
have to face eventually.
In my experience, there is no greater
freedom we can know in a human
life than that of relinquishing the need
to make a difference anywhere.
As Saturday's TFTD expressed,
freedom is that state which arises
within our awareness when we
surrender our attachment to our
efforts and the fruits of our efforts.
That is Bhagavad Gita 101.
As yesterday unfolded, I realized that
I was still holding onto an attachment
in the form of hoping someone would
get it.
But as of today, it no longer matters
to me if anyone gets it.
I have been branded a heretic most
of my life...
Why stop now?
The only measuring stick I happen to
use is in the form of a question.
"Is peace in my awareness?"
And the answer is "yes."
I am peaceful and happy and
my life is filled with light.
I am not here to fix anyone or
anything, least of all myself.
If I really love you, the best help
that I can offer you is by being
an embodiment of a way of life
which actually works, not just
some of the time, but all of the
time.
I grow weary of hearing people
say, "Do this, do that," as they
advise others on how to be free
when they are neither happy or
free themselves.
People may never hear me during
the course of my lifetime.
Perhaps someone will.
Perhaps they will not.
My family certainly won’t.
But the truth is, I have no other
responsibility in this life other
than to be myself and live as
authentically aligned with
whatever it means to be me
in any given moment.
I live happy and guilt-free because I
absolve myself of any and all ficticious
responsibilities I once felt which told
me that "I need to make an impact
in the lives of others or the world."
I am not even here to impact my
life, only to live true to my own
beating heart.
I am here to be me, no more
and no less.
As my dad used to say:
Expectations are a mother f_ _ ker.
I am happy and free because I no longer
care what anyone thinks of me, nor
am I seeking anyone else's approval.
Remember the quote from Ralph Waldo
Emerson?
"Do not go where the path may lead,
go instead where there is no path
and leave a trail."
I have my own seal of approval.
And I have God's.
What more could anyone else's
approval add to my life?
And if I do not have it, can it or
does it take anything away from
me?
Absolutely not.
Perhaps this is the ultimate meaning
of being in the world but not of it.
Another axiom from my dad:
Opinions are like hemorrhoids.
They are only important to the
a _ _ hole that has one.
It's my lane, my little hula hoop,
my side of the road, my inner
world.
Soul: There is so much light in the
simplicity and self honesty of what
you are sharing today.
You cannot hear these words without
feeling the freedom of the one who is
offering them.
me: Thank you.
But that begs the question, then
why do I do this every day?
I have said countless times over the
years that I do this for myself.
ACIM says we teach what we most
need to learn.
I think I have always been pretty
clear about that.
And aside from that, I do it for two
primary reasons.
It has established an invincible
discipline within me and the strongest
of bonds between us; one that has
been forged in fire.
All it cost me was all I had mistakenly
confused for myself.
Some things fell away quite easily, while
others involved kicking, screaming
and weeping for days on end.
Not because I lost something of value,
but because I was so very attached.
Secondly, It keeps me focused, all of the
time, on the only thing that truly
matters.
I am not entirely certain that I would not be
like all of the other spiritual seekers I know
who are out there chasing spiritual
experiences that they know are going to be
temporary at best, but they still hope
that the experiences they have will last
forever and they will live happily ever
after.
I feel myself standing in light with
my eyes open and my heart big
enough to hold the world.
I do what I do because of how it
makes me feel and I happen to
LOVE it!
Soul: There truly is no other reason to
participate in anything, nor to do
something in any situation you
encounter unless that something
enhances your ability to embody
yourself with deeper clarity.
me: I am a beautiful miracle and so
are each of you.
Won’t you join us?
***
Prayer For The Day
There is nothing to say.
The only thing left is to
simply be…
Amen
***
03/19/2026
Thought for the Day
The uncommon dialogue
continues...
me: You know, I feel the strongest
urgency to share something
today that I have tried to express
on countless other occasions
but the point never seems to
land for anyone other than me.
We are all already enlightened.
Always have been and always
will be.
And that's as true as anything
you will ever hear.
But that is not where the
problem lies.
The questions is, do you feel
it so clearly that it is now
your truth, you own it 24/7,
in your direct experience?
No one can ever be anything
other than enlightened
and the only reason we believe
we are not is because we bit
the poison apple that the world
sells us which tells us that who
we are is not good enough.
And because we have all identified
with the created self, which is
nothing more than 50% inherited
genetic material and 50%
maladaptive habits, patterns and
behaviors born of our struggle to
cope in the only way we knew
how when we were young, which
became who we believe we are,
we have devoted our human
experience to chasing the carrot
the world dangles in the
misguided belief that we can
change who we are, and when
we are successful, we will finally
be consistently happy, fulfilled
and successful.
And so I realized after a whole
lot of reflecting on the experiences
I have had where the Divine
intervened in my life repeatedly
in a very direct way that was
undeniable, that the only reason
I did not feel free was because
I had never given myself permission
to be free now.
That ancient core wound of
unworthiness kept whispering
that I wasn't ready yet because
I had not been able to change
me.
I could not be happy now!
And ecstatic?
You're nuts!
I could never be truly peaceful
now because the peace I felt
was sporadic, seemingly random
and therefore, could not be
depended on.
How could that ever be called,
"enlightened?"
But here's the thing...
The only identity that I came
into this life with was the soul
and the soul is the only part of
me that will survive this human
experience after I take my last
breath.
Does the soul ever need fixing,
changing or healing?
No, but the ego does, or
so we believe...
The body does.
The mind does.
And the emotions do as well.
But here is the thing about
our personal personhood.
No matter how much you
work on it, it is never going to
become the soul.
And no matter how much
you work on it, it is not going
to change and it does not
need to because it is not you.
Why do you have to waste time
trying to change something
that is not you, that is entirely
phantasmagoric in nature, as
ephemeral and fleeting as a
passing cloud?
That's the hysterically funny thing
about liberation.
We are never not free, we just have
to give ourselves permission to be
free and identify with the soul rather
than the ego, mind. body, emotions
or world.
You know, you will never be able
to make the inauthentic
authentic, no matter how hard
you try.
You will never be able to make
the impermanent permanent,
no matter how hard you try.
But if you identify with the
created self, if you try to change it,
you will suffer, but only 100%
of the time.
This is why I see this whole
human thing for what it is.
I am the soul, experiencing
a human life.
That is all. But if I allow myself
to get lost in the personal identity,
I experience suffering.
But does the soul suffer?
Can it suffer?
Heavens no!
But when I identify as soul and
observe the experience of a
human life as it is unfolding,
there is peace.
The soul never changes.
It is the immovable which abides
changelessly in all the
moving parts, just like the eye
of a tornado.
The soul is my infinite and immortal
Self, the alpha and the omega.
What would happen today if
I allowed myself to be free now?
What would happen today if I allowed
myself to be happy, fulfilled and whole?
What if I accepted that my worth
is established by God, not the
blabbermouth between my two
ears who never has my best
interests in mind?
Distraction and self-recrimination
are the name of its game!
Could I hold the human experience
and the world at arm's length
in recognition that nothing that is
impermanent has anything to offer
me that does not entail heart ache
turmoil and suffering?
As I said, I have tried to share this
message countless times before.
When my youngest brother was
2 years old, he had a car seat
with a little steering wheel and
horn and when we could take
him anywhere, he would turn
that wheel, beep on the horn,
and he would move his little
foot believing that he was
using the break or gas peddle
and he would shout at the drivers
he thought were in his way.
It cracked us all up.
But are we any different?
We have taken the role play
so seriously that we have
mistaken ourselves for the
character we are playing.
But we are the Soul from
everlasting to everlasting,
unchanged, unchanging,
unchangeable.
Who ever said you had to
understand or change
anything?
Beloved, there are no
prerequisites to freedom.
***
Prayer For The Day
I think I was probably born a lot
like Brother Lawrence of the
Resurrection.
Just let me stay in the kitchen,
mind my own business,
and peel potatoes all day.
Happiness and freedom
are only distant to us if we
believe that they are.
Me?
I love the no flurry approach
to life and living which says,
"I need do nothing."
I am already That.
How can I be more free than
I already am?
Amen
***
03/18/2026
Thought for the Day
The dialogue continues...
me: I have been thinking
quite a lot since we shared
yesterday about how the
message our world shares
with us from the moment
we are born is, "You need
to change yourself and
we are here to help you
do it!"
This most certainly is what
we learned from our parents
and those closest to us.
When we did not conform
or meet their expectations,
we were ignored or punished,
and when we did as they
wanted us to, we were
praised or rewarded.
This education in operant
learning continues in our
educational system, our
religious training if we
received any and continues
to do so to this very day,
in our work places,
advertising, it is modeled
on television, it's on our
billboards, our social media
feed and pumped to us via
internet algorithms.
Is it any wonder we are
unhappy with ourselves and
our lives when the only
message we ever hear is
that we are not good enough?
Then we become parents
and what do we do?
We lay the same guilt trip
on our children and history
repeats itself.
It's a hideous message which
says "you can change yourself,"
because the meaning of life
is "to become a better version
of yourself, the best that you
can possibly be."
I have shared this before, but
the one thing my mother
consistently repeated every single
day of my life while she was alive
was, "Good, better, best. Never
let it rest until your good gets
better and your better gets best."
If you do this, if you buy that,
if you go here, if you take this
workshop, if you attend this
retreat, if you pray every day,
if you try to be a good person,
you will be happy, and you
will achieve the desired goal,
you will change, and you will be
be rewarded with a life in
which you will feel fulfilled,
content and comfortable all the
time. Then everyone will
appreciate and adore you.
What a cosmic load of you-know-
what.
The message?
We need to change.
We need support in fixing
or changing ourselves.
And the world is here to help
me do it.
We need more, better and
different so that we can be
more, better and different.
And that is the carrot we have all
been chasing all of our lives.
But what if we realized that
we did not need to change
anything?
What if we realized we are
okay the way we are, and what
if we decided to receive our
lives as frequencies to be
experienced and that we could
hold those frequencies as they
are without feeling the need
to do anything about them?
This does not need fixing, it
needs feeling and experiencing.
What is, is my destiny playing
itself out.
I could choose to trust, rather
than try to play God, believing
falsely that I can change it
and make it better.
What if we saw that trying to
change is the root of spiritual
bypassing and that it is the
single action on our part which
keeps us on the hamster wheel
and the Matrix thriving?
And from here, seeing clearly
that the acceptance of every-
thing, as it is, is the key to
transcendence?
There is such a sense of freedom
in just being me, realizing that
being me is always good enough
no matter what.
How about today, we just look
around and notice how everyone
and everything in the world
is trying to change us and how
all the world falls for it, hook-lin-
and-sinker?
And what if the word no be-
came our new favorite word
and we used it every single time
someone or something tried to
coerce us into biting the hook
of trying to change something
about ourselves once again?
Tweeking what does not need
tweeking.
Upgrading the already perfect.
The world preys upon our fomo.
It brainwashes us into searching
for a perfection that was never lost
in the first place!
Will somebody please tell me
why I need support to be
what I already am?
When the truth is, "I don't."
This is what I have been pondering,
and as I have done so, I have
been feeling what my humanity
feels like when it is stripped of all
the propaganda and the hype.
Feeling how I used to feel and
how I used to live my life when
I was trying to change myself
all the time falling away...
Trying this peaceful, loving,
happy with myself version
of me on for size...
Feeling all of that former buying
into the message of the Matrix
collapsing... as I need do nothing
becomes my new theme song.
Resting here.
Growing deep roots here in the
soil of 'I am always already HOME.'
What if, just for today, we chose
to find our true sense of belonging
with the soul?
Let others go bananas and
get their knickers in a twist.
I can just lean back and rest
in I Am...
What if, just for today, we
decided, "I will not give my
power away."
Because when I do accept
myself as I am and life the
way that it is, I notice that
I feel peaceful and strong
in the midst of everything.
And when I do not, I suffer
and I search for meaning in
the meaningless.
Soul: I think it is a great idea
to look at how the world tries
to brainwash you into believing
you need to change and seeing
clearly that this is how you give
your power away.
Today is a fine day to remember
that "no" is a complete sentence
and it does not need to be
explained, justified or defended.
Nor do you need to convince
anyone that it is the right thing
for you to do.
Who but you knows you need
do nothing?
No is often the very best thing
to say and walking away is a
statement of realized perfection.
No. I will not play the game.
No. I'm done participating.
No. I will not bite the hook.
me: I have my own flow,
my own cadence and rhythm
and it's perfect for me.
How could I need help doing
me when doing me and being
me is the one thing I have
always done perfectly?
***
Prayer For The Day
The soul is not an instrument
of change.
The mind is, or at least it tries
to be.
Today I will trust myself and
walk to the beat of my own
drummer.
My heart shouts, "No," when-
ever and wherever the message
comes that I need to change
anything.
I may be in the world, but
I most certainly am not of it.
Amen
***
03/17/2026
Thought for the Day
The dialogue continues...
me: Do you remember from
Saturday’s TFTD that I said that
spiritual experiences were
not the end-all beat-all?
That most had no affect on
my life beyond the duration of
the experience itself?
Well…over the course of 72 years
of a human life, there were
seven which have been pivotal
because they never left my
awareness and they determined
the entire trajectory of my life
from that moment forward.
They left me unmistakably altered.
Not just in my own experience of
myself, but to those who were
closest to me as well.
These experiences changed how
I experienced myself and my life
from that moment forward.
I cannot tell you precisely when
the particular experience happened
which I wish to share today because
days and dates tend to be rather
meaningless to me for the most
part.
But I can tell you the year, for that
was 2008.
Like many extraordinary experiences
which have happened in my life,
I was awakened at precisely 4:14 AM.
I felt a presence that was overwhelming.
It seemed to be postioned at the foot of
my bed, and it created a palpable field
of energy which encapsulated me
and the bed entirely.
I did not feel afraid.
The energy was the most powerful
energy I had ever remembered
experiencing, yet it felt entirely
benevolent, warm and welcoming.
I heard words being palpably pressed
into my mind and by thus, becoming
a part of me. They were spoken
slowly with an intensity that was
appreciable.
I felt I was cared for deeply by this
presence and so I laid in wait
for what it wished to share with me.
In the next moments, that presence
made itself known as God.
The Supreme Being, the Almighty,
the being I had chased and feared
my entire life.
For God either did not exist, or he
summarily rejected me, finding me
entirely unworthy of the slightest
approval or acknowlegment.
The Voice said to me, “I love you.”
My mind replied back, “But you
can’t. Not yet. I have to make peace
with my family first. I have not
succeeded until I accomplish that.”
The Voice replied, “But my dear, you
are blameless.”
Then a Tsunami wave of love rushed
upward from the foot of my bed
and I was engulfed entirely and devoured,
until I found myself washed upon the shores
of a love which could never be doubted
or explained.
Yet still I resisted.
I talked about every reason, one by one,
for which I knew I was unworthy.
The Voice spoke again after each and
every excuse the mind offered.
“But my dear, you are blameless.”
Wave after wave of this love rushed
up from the foot of the bed as I was
engulfed and swept away, each
and every time that God spoke
these words to me.
My resistance and excuses meant
nothing to it.
And time?
Well, it had all the time in the
world and because it knew that
LOVE always wins.
I had no defense against love.
I felt delirious as I was washed again
and again upon the shores of a love
which accepted every single thing
about me, exactly as I am.
On and on, this seemed to go on for
hours until the mind exhausted itself
and met its end.
I was shattered like Humpty Dumpty.
And nothing could or ever would
be able to put me back together
again.
And for that, I was grateful.
I was no more. Yet I was still the
very I, whom I recognized as myself.
The mind could no longer come up with
an excuse to prove my unworthiness
and unreadiness to give myself in
return to this love, without reservation.
Thus surrender took its time.
But eventually, so utterly transparent
with no where else to run, no excuse
which could be manufactured, I
surrendered myself entirely to this
presence which loved me so utterly,
without condition or demand.
And then, for what seemed like more
hours of time, I was swept into the very
being of God.
Loved entirely as I am and for who I am.
Unarguably and incontestably known,
adored and seen precious, held in the
highest regard, exactly as I am.
No requirements, no expectations, no
judgments, other than “Would you please
give yourself permission to be loved?”
I felt lifetimes of self-hatred and self-
loathing fall away as I was faced being
met, fully and completely, by a being
who was beyond description, and
unlike any meanings offered in books,
any message given from any pulpit,
any moral code, doctrine or definition.
And I knew that I knew that I knew
that we are all loved, as we are,
nothing whatsoever required.
The world was then and is now
a bull sh_t manufacturing machine
designed to make us hate ourselves
and always feel unworthy, that we
will never ever measure up.
But nothing needed to change.
In fact, nothing could be changed.
I was perfect, and so are you, beloved.
We are entirely cherished by a LOVE
which I gave myself to freely, totally and
without condition.
Prior to this experience, I had been told
I was loved, but I had never felt it.
I wasn’t even sure I knew what love is,
although I had spent a lifetime chasing
it because I had never felt it as a child,
a teenager or as an adult, and I wanted
to know what love is.
I did not know what it felt like to be
seen, wanted, valued or to know
beyond all shadow of doubt that
I mattered.
That in this vast and endless universe,
this tiny spec of dust on this tiny
blue marble mattered.
That the universe would never be
complete without me.
You see, I was neither held, or
touched as a child in ways that
felt safe, caring or kind.
But from this moment forward,
I would never again doubt
what love is.
I had been touched by something
so deep, so utterly profound and
life-changing, that I knew something
that could neither be denied, doubted
or taken away.
We are unmistakably precious and
adored.
No reasons required.
And I am so grateful for the education
which my family of origin gave me
and for every difficult gut-wrenching,
terrifying and horrific experience that
I have ever had.
Because they all served to deliver me
to a place where I was deeply,
completely and utterly ensconced
in my heart.
These experiences had made me
who I am today.
With profound gratitude and humbleness
of heart, I bow before the very isness
of life.
Soul: Resisting is what keeps you
on on the hamster wheel of life
where despair, anger and fear are
unrelenting and inescapable
bedfellows.
But true and unequivocal accept
is what liberates you.
You have been most fortunate to have
experienced the entire gamut of
what it means to be human, all within
the span of a single human life.
Sure. You did your fair share of railing
against what is, like Don Quixote
tilting at windmills.
But did it do any good?
Did it change anything?
Did it make you feel any better?
Of course not.
The human experience is not something
you need to fix or cure!
It is something you have to experience
and accept.
And the profound blessing of crisis
and calamity is that you have no choice
but to experience being all-too-human
and helpless, where the only choice
you have is whether or not you are going
to continue to resist and try to change
what is to the bitter end, or will you
meet what you are experiencing with
loving kindness and compassion
while comforting and supporting
yourself in the midst of it all.
For you are soul, the very heart of
my heart, experiencing what it means
to be human in a life entirely by
our design.
***
Prayer For The Day
Today I am just going to experience
life on life’s terms.
And I am going to love and support
myself while doing so.
I am going to feel your presence
in my heart and my heart in yours.
Because you are the Beloved of
my heart and you are always with
me and you have told me it is okay
for me to be the human being
I am as I am.
Amen
***
03/16/2026
Thought for the Day
The dialogue continues...
me: In the second chapter of
the Bhagavad Gita is says
that the two greatest impediments
to the path of a spiritual
seeker are:
(1) Attachment to the effort.
(2) Attachment to the fruits of
that effort.
It takes a very long time for most
of us to get that we are the doers
of nothing.
What if you were to see that your
thoughts are not your thoughts,
your feelings are not your feelings,
and the body you call mine is
not really yours?
What if you were to see that the
Soul is the real Doer?
Further, that your only identity
is that of Soul?
Try this on for size…
Imagine that you are a marionette
puppet and it is the Soul who is
pulling the strings…
The thoughts that arise are not
your own. They are thoughts that
you, as Soul, designed for you to
experience.
The feelings you both have and
experience are not yours either.
They are feelings that you, as Soul,
architected specifically for you to
feel.
The body that you wear in this particular
lifetime was also designed by Soul.
It is your vehicle. It’s size, shape, relative
health, race, creed and nationality
were never up to you as the individual.
Nor was the family in which you
incarnated into, the personal
identity that it was destiny that you
become.
Every experience was carefully
and lovingly chosen by the Soul.
You came with a mission that was
mighty. Your experiences would
assist those who lived through
similar things in numbers beyond
which the split identity could
comprehend.
Remember you are the puppet
and the Soul is the puppet master
who is pulling the strings.
The experiences you have and the
way in which you experience them
was designed by Soul.
You do not have the ability to change
or impact them in any way whatsoever.
It was never your job to do so
in the first place.
Your work has been simply to
experience what it is your destiny
to experience as only you can,
without being attached to what
that experience actually is or the
outcome(s) of any part of it.
This will be the third time I have
shared this version of the Serenity
Prayer:
God grant me the serenity to accept
the things I cannot change. (Which
is recognizing that I do not have
the power to change anything.)
Courage to change the things I can.
(Which is absolutely nothing.)
And the wisdom to know the
difference. (That there is no difference
since I have no power to change
anything at all, ever.)
When my niece was very young, she
was totally into Barbie.
She had the doll, the wardrobe, the car,
the dream house, the RV, and the
whole kitten kaboodle.
As she played, she got so totally into
the experience that she became Barbie,
in her mind.
She could suspend her experience
of reality to such a degree that she
got entirely lost in the play; forgetting
that she was the one orchestrating
the entire experience from beginning
to end.
That is the depth to which she took the
role of being Barbie seriously.
We are no different.
I have a question for you:
Do you think the Soul ever mistakes
Itself for being you; the human being
that wears your particular body,
mind and emotions, who lives where
you live, works where you work, that
answers to your name, has your
particular history, family and loved
ones, your conditioning and
programming, beliefs, biases,
preferences and judgments?
Soul: Before time began, while you
were abiding in the Infinite Nothingness
of boundless potential, you dreamed
of the life you are living now.
Your work has never been to take
either credit or blame for any part
of it.
You work has been to simply live and
experience the very life which you
have thought of as yours, exactly as it
has unfolded from your very first
breath until you take the final one.
Your mission and purpose has
been to see how deeply and
unconditionally you can love and
support yourself while living the
very life which is yours to live.
This is what has the capacity to
change the world. For your frequency
casts a light so bright and expansive
that it quite literally touches
everything that is.
So yesterday, when you were being
entirely attentive to your experience
in this moment, who do you think
it was who could be so tender, kind
and gentle with yourself?
Were you the one who identified with
the experience and reacted to it?
Or were you abiding as the true
I, while being loving, kind and gentle
with the human being as it was
experiencing the raw and dynamic
nature of destiny as it was unfolding?
So that is your practice for today.
Can I live as Soul, while experiencing
a human life and be ever present,
loving and supportive of the
experience and experiencer?
Don’t try to understand or figure
it all about. Just live it and love
it and remember that you are
not alone.
Peace is a choice.
And so is LOVE.
***
Prayer For The Day
I feel appalled, shanghaied and
hoodwinked by the fact that we
human beings have been so
brainwashed when it comes
to knowing how to be happy
and the meaning and purpose
for a human life in the first place.
Let me challenge myself
today.
Just how unconditionally
loving and unwaveringly kind
can I be with myself?
I am having this human experience
In order to see what kind of friend
and companion I can be toward
me.
And when I am a shit to myself,
as I know I will invariably be,
can I be loving and supportive
with that one too?
For I recognize that this is not
a competition nor a race, it’s
just a series of experiences
through which I get to lovingly
share with the world without
even having to open my mouth!
Amen
***
03/15/2026
Thought for the Day
The dialogue continues...
First of all, I hope you had
fun yesterday, challenging
yourself by seeing how
consistent you could be in
watching your breath and
remaining anchored in this
moment.
This was a practice geared to
however life was showing up
for you.
How did you do?
Were you able to see how often
you live for the next moment
rather than this one?
Did you become aware of
how often you are in a hurry,
always moving in the direction
of next?
Are you ready for a twist to
yesterday's practice?
Then let us begin.
The nature of your relationship
with God is deeply exposed
in the nature of your relationship
with yourself.
Make no mistake about it,
they are one and the same.
That statement is more than a bit
startling to hear at first, and then
the recognition of its truthfulness
hits home.
"Well....of course it is."
Yesterday we worked more with our
experience of others and the world,
whereas today, we will focus with as
much consistently as we can on
our unique experience of life.
In other words, the personal....
Do your real eyes that no one
on this entire planet experiences
themselves and their lives
quite like you do?
This is not about trying to change
either yourself or your experience.
Nor is it an assignment in trying
to be more 'spiritual,' a better
version of you than the one
you are being.
This is about loving the one you
are with, in humble recognition
that that one is always you, my
dear.
You have been involved in the
most intimate of relationships
with the same person your
entire life, and that person is
none other than you!
There is no relationship that
you have ever had or ever will
have that can hold a candle to
the relationship you have with
yourself.
Has this been a loving relationship,
a kind relationship, one that
is entirely without conditions,
demands or expectations of any
kind?
I do not want to hear about some
idealized version of you which
you and I both know is bologna.
You can be quite the con artist,
especially when it comes to
honesty with yourself.
Remember, no one can bullshit
you unless you have already
done so with yourself.
So Part I is still about watching
the breath, with the added
dimension of using the moment
to be deeply aware of how you
are being with you.
At this stage of the game, I do
not want you to try to censor or
edit yourself, but to be ruthlessly
loving in your effort to see with
honesty what you are up to and
challenge yourself.
How loving can I be with that
one?
Is that the person you can love
wholeheartedly with neither
condition nor demand?
How loving and supportive can you
be with yourself today, no matter
what that happens to look like?
And Part II of the exercise will
be most revealing if you are
brave enough to be deeply
honest with yourself.
In your down time, explore what
the nature of your relationship
with yourself has been over
the course of you life.
Has it been loving?
Has it been gentle?
Are you patient with yourself?
Or do you tend to be very hard
on yourself?
How do you talk to yourself?
Are you harsh and strident,
critical and mean?
Do you hold high expectations
for yourself?
How do you then treat yourself
when you fail to live up to your
own expectations?
Are you a friend who is un-
conditonaly supportive, en-
couraging and kind?
Are your a cheerleader, a
heckler or bully?
Or do you simply try to
ignore yourself through a
myriad of distractions
as you try to pretend that
it does not matter anyway?
Out of sight does not mean
out of mind.
For out of sight is entirely
blind!
Whatever your answers
are to these questions,
it invariably reveals two
things:
(1) How you were treated
when you were young.
(2) How you relate to the idea
of an Infinite Intelligence.
For if you wish to know the
soul or God, you have to
begin with the relationship
you are having with yourself.
This is a big one for today.
May the force be with you.
For indeed it always is.
***
Prayer For The Day
I thought I had a good and
growing relationship with
the Divine but my relationship
with myself has shown me that
I am not all that loving, open
or kind.
I do not listen to me.
Today is a brand new day.
And I would learn to love
and respect the one whom
I have always been with
through every single
experience that I have
ever had.
And of course this refers to
none other than me, myself
and I.
Support me as I begin to fall
in love with than one.
That one is the one who has been
patiently waiting for me to show
up.
Let me be that one.
Amen
***
03/14/2026
Thought for the Day
The dialogue continues...
me: I have been profoundly
blessed to have had so many
wonderful spiritual experiences
over the course of my lifetime.
But you know what?
Few have offered more than
what the actual experiences
themselves revealed in the
in the space of time in which
they unfolded, regardless
how beatific they happened
to be at the time.
And like all things in time,
they faded into the background
of memory where they affected
nothing.
Spiritual seekers chase after
this sort of experience as if
these were to be prized and
coveted above all else.
They are not.
Is it not true that the one thing
you would love to hear above all
else is a simple and therefore
easily doable step-by-step
practice by which you could live
your life meaningfully with genuine
purpose?
So let us begin here.
For what we offer you today
is a way of life which will
build upon itself in every single
instant you apply it to how
you go about life and living.
With time, and that depends
entirely upon two things,
you will notice that each day
you are more peaceful and
more relaxed, happier even,
than you ever remember
being before.
What are these two things?
The first is breath awareness.
This is something we talk
about frequently.
Breath awareness helps you
accomplish countless things.
But we will focus upon the
three primary things you
will begin noticing as soon
as you commit yourself to
making breath awareness
a priority in your life.
(a.) It helps you slow your roll.
(b.) It trains the nervous system
to relax and unwind, and by
thus, allows you to enter into
all your experiences with more
calm than you formerly would
have.
(c.) Breath awarenesss forces
you to be present. You cannot
watch the breath without being
here now.
So what is our second practice
for today?
People spend their entire lives
living in the 'next moment'
or a 'past moment' rather than
deeply in tune with 'this moment.'
How deeply can you live in this
moment?
That is the $64,000.00 question
for the day.
Because the truth is that this is
a simple enough practice
that can even be taught to children
and lived by anyone 24/7/365.
Can you imagine the decades of
pain and suffering one could
avoid if they were taught this
practice earlier in life rather than
later?
And you know what?
If you never tried to do anything
but this for the rest of your life,
no doubt the changes you would
feel within your world would be
legion.
And if liberation is in the cards
for you for this lifetime, this
practice will, no doubt, land you
there fair and square.
So let's simplify it.
Step One
Can you anchor your awareness
on the breath today with
genuine commitment and
consistency?
Step Two
How deeply can you be here
in this moment, instead of
chasing after or perseverating
on another one?
Soul: This is a lovely way in
which to live your life.
Both simple and easy, as well
as a great way to challenge
yourself.
At day's end, reflect on what
you noticed today as you
engaged with this practice
as a way of life.
Of what were you aware?
Was anything different?
There is no adult who is currently
alive on this planet who would
not verbalize wholeheartedly
that this decade was anything
short of deeply challenging,
perhaps even the most difficult
decade that they have ever
encountered.
It truly is the decade of shock
and awe.
You see it all around you.
You can feel it in the air.
There is a palpable sense of
urgency and intensity, the likes
of which have never been
encountered before.
Rest assured that this is unfolding
organically according to plan.
As political unrest, wars, crime,
death, by both natural and self-
inflicted means, as well as
natural disasters escalate and
intensify, and prices rise as
incomes fall, you get to bear
witness on a daily basis to their
ill effects on the faces of all whom
you encounter.
Your nervous system was never
designed to sustain life under
states of constant stress and
tension.
In truth, it cannot.
People are in a hurry, distracted,
irritable, and the intensity
factor is off the Richter scale,
not just some of the time,
but all of the time!
But you can walk this world
differently.
Without uttering a single word,
your vibrational field will quietly
influence everything in existence
as you consciously choose to
embrace a kinder, more peaceful
and harmonious way of life.
Each of you are 100% accountable
for the energy which you bring to
the banquet table of life.
What will you choose to be your
GIFT today?
***
The Voice Within
Dear Pelkyong:
Be willing to ask yourself
the following question with
honesty today:
By staying in my lane, watching
my breath, and consciously
living in this moment rather
than chasing the next, what
have I actually missed out on?
This is all.
I look forward to hearing from
you.
God.
***
Dear God:
I will be more than happy to share
my discoveries because I am
done playing the world's game
of "running with sharp objects."
Life in this world these days is
most defintely a Kobayashi Maru.
Thank you for offering a better way,
a simpler way and a gentler way
that actually works.
pelkyong
***
03/13/2026
Thought for the Day
The dialogue continues...
(Part V. Conclusion)
me: Let's begin with a question
today.
Are you a top-down or a bottom-up
sort of person?
Now let's add a quote into the mix:
"You do not meditate to escape
your humanity.
You mediate to fall back in love
with it..."
Jeff Foster
So let's get back to the question with
which we began today.
Are you a top-down or a bottom-up
sort of person?
Today we complete our five part series
which has been that of unpacking
my experiences of the last two weeks.
We begin with the question I asked
because it represents one of the primary
ideas which ACIM tries to bring to
the forefront of our awareness:
You cannot bring the truth to the
illusion of you, for when you
try, truth is lost to you because it
is received through the distorted
lens of the egoic mind, which
ever seeks to reduce the Infinite
to the finite, the forever true
to what is illusory because it is
ephemeral rather than Eternal.
But when you bring the illusion of you
to the truth, the truth that is always
true is revealed to your waiting
heart. Here the illusion of a separate
and distinct self merges back with
the Infinite, like the wave which
returns to the Ocean.
Another way of saying this is:
I see what I am not from what I am,
but I cannot see what I am from
what I am not.
These statements illustratrate
the difference between a
top-down person and a
bottom-up person.
Do you see what each are pointing
to?
Better yet, can you feel it?
So the final piece to the puzzle
of this highly revealing time in
my life is simply this:
The soul has always loved me and
has never expected anything from
me in return.
LOVE without demand....
LOVE has always been with you
because LOVE is who and what
you are, beloved.
One of the deepest realizations
I have ever received from the
life of the man whose name was
Jesus is that he was constantly
challenging himself by asking
himself the following question
through each & every experience
he ever encountered:
Is there anything that could ever
happen to me or anything I could
ever experience, that could deter
me from returning only love?
So the ultimate realization I have
experienced thus far has to do with
the idea of top-down versus
bottom-up.
For it is our Divinity (top-down)
which allows us to love our humanity
without asking anything from us
in return.
In the end, perhaps the purpose
of a human life is that of simply
being able to live as the fully
integrated three-in-One (bottom-up)
who is ONE in three (Top-down).
Maybe the ultimate mission of a
human life is none other than this:
I do not have to do a damn thing
with my victim consciousness.
What if I do not have to do a thing
with the fact that my humanity feels
entirely unworthy, that it feels as
though it does not even deserve
to exist?
What if I never wasted another
moment trying to forgive anything
because I realized that there was
nothing to forgive?
That experiences are just
experiences, neither positive or
negative?
Perhaps it is simply a matter of
asking ourselves, can I love even this,
expecting absolutely nothing in
return.
How transparently can I live this
life as an expression of that kind
of love in whatever time I have
left upon this earth?
Can I love everything, judging
nothing, expecting nothing in
return?
Can I see that it is my Divinity that
loves my humanity with neither
condition nor demand?
And can I then become so consistent
in my loving of all my humanity that
nothing ever deters me ever again
from returning only love?
What if I were to remove all of the
focus I have placed upon others and
the world, choosing, rather, to focus
upon loving myself completely
without reservation?
And if I could master this thing
called, loving myself, how would
I then feel toward my world?
Would I not see myself in everything
that is?
Can I love the mind I have, not the
mind I wish I had?
And if my mind remains so entirely
oppositional and judgmental
about everything, can I love that
mind too, without demand or
expectation?
Can I love my emotions and my
feelings, as they are, with neither
condition nor expectation?
Can I love this body, the size it is,
the shape it is, the hair the color
that it is, my receding hairline,
the eyes the way they see or
cannot see, the ears the way
that they hear or cannot hear,
the sagging chin, the dangling
arms, the stomach that protrudes,
the aches, the pains, the short
term memory loss and forgetfulness?
Can I be with all of me and accept
me as I am, without conditions or
expectations of any kind whatsoever?
For I cannot help feeling that this
is taking a human life to its
highest potential.
Soul: If there was one thing I
could wish for all humanity, it
would be that you each stop
being so hard on yourselves.
Pick! Pick! Pick!
You were meant to experience
this thing called, being human,
for as long as it lasts.
The thing that is so difficult for
each of you to grasp is that you
are never ever going to be any
different than you are right now.
I made you exactly as you are
to experience a human life
as only you can.
That is the experience I was
aiming for!
And never ever content was a
part of the design!
Can you love that?
This is who you came here
to love, beloved.
Not a better version of you
or a different one other than
the you that you already are.
Yes, beloved. This one!
me: The amazing thing I feel upon
hearing those words is a long and
pleasant sigh of relief...
I feel the tension in the body leave
as the nervous system begins to
unwind.
All the balls I had in the air, fall to
the ground because nothing matters
anymore than simply being here
NOW....
Soul: Your only work is that of
loving and supporting yourself
through all of it, ever trusting that
if it is happening, it was supposed
to happen in the precise manner
in which it is happening.
Can I be love now?
Can I embrace that?
And how about through this?
Can I love without condition,
demand or expectation?
This is what it means to be an
example life.
And it is the only message which
is capable of touching every heart,
ever remembering that no heart is
more valuable than that of your
own.
***
A LOVE LETTER
Dear Pelkyong:
I chose the human life that
you think of as yours because
I wanted to experience it
as only you can.
Nothing more and nothing less.
I have always been there,
loving and supporting you
through each and every
thing that has ever happened.
Did you notice this?
Could you feel my presence?
The answer was 'no' more
often than not.
Did that matter?
No, it did not.
If you think that I cared whether
or not you knew that I was there
and was grateful for my presence,
you have another thing coming.
For how could love be love if it
expected anything from you
in return?
That is, and ever yet shall be,
my Infinite and Eternal
demonstration to you, beloved.
I expect nothing from you.
Never have and never will.
So let me leave you with a
question today...
Could anything have ever
seemed too difficult for you,
had you felt my presence
with you, holding you, uplifting
and sustaining you, asking
for nothing in return?
For in the end, what is the
difference between the words
soul, God, holy spirit, the Divine,
Infinite Intelligence, LOVE,
Light or Presence?
Remember your analogy,
Finger pointing to the moon.
Don't examine the finger,
and by thus, make another
religion out of it, which is
but a futile attempt to
reduce the Infinite to the
finite with rules, musts,
shoulds, guilt, shame
and unworthiness
Look to where the finger is
pointing, for it is ever pointing
to that which cannot be
spoken, the eternal and
forever changeless.
And that, my dear, is what
we forever are.
God
***
03/12/2026
Thought for the Day
The dialogue continues...
(Part IV.)
me: Long have I shared that
there were three experiences
which have firmly established
my trajectory as a human
being for what remains of
this lifetime.
Yesterday I spoke of the first.
The second was revealed by
my NDE in 2013 when I was
thrust into a direct experience
of the Void which was actually
terrifying to me at the time.
[If you are interested in reading
that TFTD you can search the
archives for January 24, 2026.]
I am entirely uncertain about
the actual date of the third
experience, but I know it
transpired after 9/11 because
that was when I first
encountered "A Course In
Miracles."
It is this experience I wish to
share openly about today.
The details are not what is
important, for that experience
was the preliminary to a
realization which continues
to unfold to this very day.
Suffice it to say that I had laid
down to take a nap and had
an encounter with a being from
the astral plane in which I was
being physically restrained.
I was terrified and unable to
move, nor could I speak,
for that is not how things
work on that plane of
consciousness.
So it was the mind which began
screaming for help.
And suddenly, help arrived.
Invisible, but tangible
nonetheless.
The entity disappeared, and
I was instructed to turn
immediately to a specific
passage from ACIM which
I then did.
It reads as follows:
⁴The Oneness of the Creator and
the creation is your wholeness,
your sanity and your limitless power.
⁵This limitless power is God’s gift
to you, because it is what you are.
⁶If you dissociate your mind from it
you are perceiving the most powerful
force in the universe as if it were
weak, because you do not believe
you are part of it.
It was in reading this passage that
I realized that LOVE is not about
weakness, it is about authentic
power.
That was a real game changer for
me at the time.
Time passed, and slowly I began
to see myself as a part of this
power, and that awareness
deepened.
When I forgot, I would quickly
remember.
For there is nothing like feeling
overwhelmed and alone to
get you back on track again with
what is forever true.
But the biggest realization regarding
this passage came only last night.
So what shifted for me?
I realized that I have spent the
better part of my adult life
allowing this power to flow
through me unconditionally
to the world.
But what I had never done
was allow myself to be a
conscious recipient of this
grace too.
I had always felt that power,
ever acknowledging the power
that was flowing through me
to others, but had I ever
paused a single instant to
allow myself to feel this
power in humble recognition
that I, too, was a recipient
of that grace?
And if I am being honest,
I would have to say, "no."
Hang in there with me,
because there is a subtlety
I am pointing to that is
difficult to explain.
For I have found that it is one
thing to feel the greatest power
in the universe because it is
the only power in the universe
flowing through you, and that
of receiving its presence in
recognition of "This is for me.
This is none other than my Self."
I still hung onto the two core
wounds that I have been sharing
about over the past two weeks.
As a reminder, they are:
(1) Unworthiness.
(2) Never accepted by my
family, who wanted
nothing to do with me,
believing me to be the
cause of their pain and
suffering. In other words,
being wished, shamed
and ignored out of
existence itself.
What a role they each agreed
to play in my life!
Only LOVE would orchestrate
such a performance!
I did not know this trauma
was still there, lurking in the silent
depths of the subconscious
mind.
But let life throw you a few
hand grenades and you will
see what you denied because
it was the truth.
No one can escape, pretend,
ignore or wish away their
deepest secrets indefinitely.
You will yet see and face what
you have pretended was
not there, what was not real,
and therefore has no impact
on you or your chosen others.
It will rear its head and force
you to acknowledge its
presence.
Not because you are somehow
wrong, but because it hides
your total freedom from your
awareness until it is fully
acknowledged, seen and held.
Yes. It has no impact on the
soul. But it is impacting the
human being's ability to
access it's full identity as
soul!
All my life I looked to others
for validation, believing that
if they would see and accept
me, I would finally know a
degree of freedom and peace
which had escaped me.
And because it never worked,
and it always ended in epic
failure, it rendered me
entirely incapable of being
the first true receiver of
that GIFT.
This then begs the question,
why are we not receivers of
this grace?
What is it that causes us to
withhold grace from ourselves,
seeking validation and acceptance
from outside?
And the answer is a relatively
simple one.
As long as we hold onto a single
shred of guilt or shame, we are
destined to search outside of
ourselves for approval, love and
belonging.
This is an inevitability.
When the truth is that the
only person we truly
need it from is ourselves.
On the deepest of levels, we
are the ones who hold the crime
of not good enough against
ourselves.
This was the final gift I received
from the passage I shared
from the Course today.
For it is guilt and shame which
makes us feel we are not a part
of the power which is the Source
of all. It is our deepest rendering
of Infinity into the finite.
Could the human being even
actually exist without it?
That is another question which
begs further consideration.
After all, that power is Infinite
and changeless.
How many times do you have
to hear, "I am as God created
me," before you let yourself
off the hook?
The ability to embody the
three-in-One who is the One-
in-three requires allowing
ourselves to embrace our
perfection and completion,
where it is recognized and
realized that it has always
been.
The floodgates of Heaven
opened themselves to me
and I gave myself permission
to receive all that I have
long shared with others,
but never consciously shared
with myself.
This is some powerful,
powerful grace!
It felt as though I was
standing beneath a torrential
waterfall where I was entirely
saturated and filled to over-
flowing with liquid light!
Every instant since last night
I have been consciously
opening up more and more
to that power in the realization
that it is forever and forever
mine and always has been.
Not something new, simply
what has always been, yet
not received consciously
as mine.
Soul: Dear sweet child, the
greatest of blessings enters
your life when you allow
yourself to be the recipient of
that which you have always
shared.
Allow this experience to be
a soothing balm that washes
away everything; from story,
to meanings and interpretations,
to stored memories and trauma.
For no light you have ever
shared with your world can
either share or express what
the light you have given
yourself permission to receive
will share with your world now.
What every heart on this planet
cries for is to know its own
worth and by thus, dropping
its walls and releasing its burden,
knowing itself in its transparency
as love incarnate.
Your world may or may not see
you as I see and know you,
and that does not matter.
The question is, do you know
you?
For that which was born free
can be nothing but free, and
it is yet the destiny of every-
thing in existence to receive
that gift and live lovingly as
the light of the world.
***
Prayers For The Day
Dear Pelkyong:
I really appreciate how
hard you tried.
But can we be done with,
once-and-for-all, your
silly game of "Let's
pretend?"
God
***
Dear God:
That is so funny.
I keep seeing the image
of a little Texas dust devil.
Sometimes I crack myself
up.
Good thing you're the
One with all the patience.
pelkyong
***
03/11/2026
Thought for the Day
The dialogue continues...
(Part III)
me: Those who have been reading
these thoughts for some time
know that I received the most
amazing GIFT, a miracle limitless
in its power to help me remember
truth and see clearly when I visited
my sister, Katie, in Indiana for
Christmas in 2010.
Long story short, I had gotten up
at my usual time of 4:00 AM and
was sitting at her kitchen table
having my morning quiet time.
All of a sudden I smelled cigarette
smoke.
I opened my eyes and as I looked
up, I noticed that my sister, Katie,
was sitting at the opposite end of
the table smoking a cigarette.
She was staring at me intently.
I watched one hand go back and
forth to her mouth as she took
long deep drags off of cigarette.
While the other hand was also
moving back and forth as she
swigged down a cup of coffee.
The amazing thing was that all of
a sudden, I became aware of the
most beautiful golden light that
was emanating from her and
surrounding her.
It was huge!
Blinding!
Beautiful!
This golden light was entirely
unaffected by anything she was
saying or doing.
I could hardly pay attention to
anything other than this light,
for it had an unmistakable
magnetism about it, drawing
me to Itself.
It was that day that everything
I had ever believed was true
flew out the window.
I knew beyond all shadow of
doubt that nothing about our
human experience has any
effect on the truth of who we
are whatsoever.
A lifetime of religious and spiritual
training flew out the window.
And that was also the day that
I knew that I would never again
put more stock into what someone
else said was true, or listen to
them regarding how to discover
or embody truth, for it was my
own beating heart which had
both seen and knew.
The heart would be the singular
guide for me moving forward.
On that fateful day I knew that
I was done with gurus, religions,
books, practices and every manner
of seeking.
If there was a practice, it would
only be that of listening, pausing,
relaxing, slowing down, watching
my breath, and allowing or
participating in those things
which enhanced the ability to
listen ever more deeply.
And breath awareness is at
the very top of that list!
Not trying to control it, or to
breathe one way or another,
but observing it one pointedly
while going about the business
of living life.
That was also the day, as I look
back on it, that I began to
trust myself and in most cases,
overlook or ignore the peanut
gallery and the naysayers.
What could they ever know
that my heart did not?
Why look for something
which we cannot ever lose,
or seek to change, alter or
diminish, in any way, what
is forever true and utterly
changeless?
Later that same day, I took
my sister and her three girls
to the movie of their choice,
which just happened to be
the movie, Secretariat.
They sat together fairly close
to the middle near the front,
while I picked a seat in the
very top row.
As I look down upon the people
in the theater, I witnessed the
same golden light surrounding
each and every person in the
theater that day.
Why, it was even streaming
from the screen itself!
On that day I knew that rich
man, poor man, beggar man,
thief, we all have this same
infinite and beautiful light
streaming from us; a light
which seemingly illuminates
the universe in its entirety.
My point in sharing all of this
again, is to remind myself
and anchor myself in what
I know is true.
I knew I had been blessed.
I had been given a gift.
I would not take this for granted.
And yet I have at times, and
most certainly I have done so
during the course of the past
two weeks when again I
experienced suffering because
of it.
Sometimes what triggers us
is just that powerful!
Cut yourself some slack, life
had you by the short hairs and
you were busy humaning!
More about the gift...
With practice, I learned that
there was a certain way in which
I could hold my eyes, which
worked like a dimmer switch.
I could filter out how clearly
this golden light was visible
at any given time.
I began to bear witness to its
infinite and changeless reality
around every tree, each leaf,
flower, bird or bee.
Nothing was or ever could be
exempt.
It was even on the streets,
sweeping upward along the
sidewalks on each side.
It emanated from the steering
wheel, the dashboard, my lap,
it streamed from my hands
and fingers, distracting me
when I would gesture or try
to speak.
I truly got freaked out when I
saw it around a boombox
what wasn't even plugged in!
In time, I learned to turn it
off when it was helpful to do so
because I found it too difficult
to do certain things such as drive
or handle sharp knives.
I discovered that it is never more
vital to take our stand as the Void,
to stand as the love, light and
presence that all of us are, than
when we are busy humaning, and
especially when humaning is
challenging or overwhelming
beyond what one believes they
are capable of handling without
losing sight of what matters.
The purpose of life is to live it.
But beyond this?
Perhaps it is simply to live
consciously as this ever
three and always ONE.
Life can be a miserable and
uncertain experience when
we leave any part of what we
are out of the equation!
As I have been saying all week,
I encountered this again
for the past two weeks as I
experienced a most challenging,
difficult and traumatic series of
human events.
We cannot afford to victimize
ourselves by participating
in someone else's victim
consciousness!
Spirituality is not about
wanting someone else to get
it with all your heart.
It is about allowing the folks
in our lives to play the very
roles which they came to play
so that we could wake up
from the Matrix!
The only one I am responsible
for is me.
And the only means with
which I have to help my world
is by staying put in my lane,
with the golden light turned on!
LOVE is not about fixing others
or ourselves.
And it most certainly is not
about wanting to be seen for
goodness sake!
That is a rabbit hole you
most certainly do not
want to go down!
LOVE is about being with others
and being with ourselves
the way that we are
without finding fault.
It's about being at peace with
ourselves and our world.
It is about wearing our lives
like a loose garment.
What's not to adore when you
remember to trust?
The only FREEDOM there is
in the entire Cosmos is
remembered when we remain
the consistent and loving
presence that we forever are.
Soul: Trying to make a difference
in someone else's life never works.
That's not why you are here,
beloved.
If you participate in another's
drama, then you are both lost.
How does that facilitate the
disappearance of the universe?
For as you often say, when the
game is over, all the pieces
go back into the box from
which they came.
You turn out the lights, and
leave the room.
The End.
What you go through at the
level of your humanity does not
nor could it ever affect your
Divinity.
So why the experiment in form
in the first place?
Because we could and we can.
Do you need a reason beyond
that?
Is there any answer you could
be given that would suffice?
Never ever forget that no
one can ever be anything
other than the LIGHT.
When you remember this,
you stop trying and you start
playing.
Love the life you are living.
Your life was meant to be a
celebration, not a burden
to be endured or transformed.
There is nothing to figure out,
but there is much to be loved
and recognized for what it is.
Simple but not easy to let go
and let God.
***
Prayer For The Day
Dear Pelkyong:
I am you and you are me.
I am not the one who is
confused, dear.
You are.
God.
***
Dear God:
As of today, I will not use
my human experience
as a reason to disqualify
myself, or anyone else
for that matter, from
being the truth now.
pelkyong
***
03/10/2026
Thought for the Day
The uncommon dialogue
continues...
Part II (cont. from yesterday)
me: I would like to begin today
with the first statement you
shared with me on Sunday,
the 8th.
You said the following:
"No experience is ever personal
until you introduce the idea
of 'yourself' into it."
It was earth shaking and paradigm
shifting for me at the time.
I understood, or so I thought,
what you were pointing to when
you spoke those words to me.
Similar words expressing the
same sentiment had tumbled
from my mouth on many
occasions in the past.
Little did I know that there was
a big juicy epiphany which was
finding its way to me.
I was about to be delivered
a direct experience which
would change how I see
everything for the rest of
this life.
For decades I have been
highlighting the difference
between an intellectual
understanding of something
and that of a direct experience.
Only then does an idea move
from the realm of truism
delivered by someone else's
so-called experience to that of
your own, to that of a direct
experience which is now yours.
Owned by no one, but an alchemical
experience nonetheless which
transmutes base metal into pure
gold.
I had an example of this offered
me today when someone used my
own words against me.
The following words were shared
from my mouth to her mind years
ago.
I had shared them with hundreds
at one time or another through
the years:
No mind, no problem.
For where does our sense of "I"
come from other than the chatterbox
which lives between our ears?
By extension, the trickle down
spreads to emotions, body and
world.
Here we encounter the judge,
jury and executioner.
And although the words I have
long used point to the same thing
as the words which you spoke
to me on Sunday, my friend
did not really understand them
any more than had I.
Clever mental axiom vs. direct
experience, remember?
There is nothing like circum-
stances unfolding in a deeply
personal way which breaks
your heart as your life beats
you into submission to set
your heart straight---and
suddenly you get something
in a way which sets you free.
One is an example of recalling
words while the other is
about living them.
The epiphany came through the
softest of words, spoken by
my friend, Chantal.
Her message to me would be
delivered on the wings of
peace and I would embrace
freedom once again, a freedom
which was unavailable while
I suffered from the need to be
'right.'
She had spent a week in Hawaii
and had just made it back home
after problems she and Ranga
(her husband) encountered
on their flight Sunday evening.
So we caught up with one another
in the afternoon yesterday.
As I shared the events of my week,
she listened lovingly and held
space for me.
How grateful I felt!
As I unpacked the box labeled
"family,' yet another time, she
listened carefully and lovingly,
while remaining silent.
When I was done sharing the
exquisitely painful nature
of my experience, she offered
the following words to me:
"What if there was another way
of seeing all this?"
She went on to explain that perhaps
my siblings were simply doing
the best they could, trying to get
vital information to me in the only
way they knew how and became
concerned when they could not
reach me.
Perhaps they had felt nothing
other than the desire to be
helpful and had offered concern
in the only way they were
capable of doing so.
Suddenly I saw and felt innocence
where I had interpreted their
actions as both unneccesary and
unkind.
In other words, I had judged their
actions as one more opportunity
to act like they care when I knew
full well that they did not.
After all, it had been several
years since any of them had
reached out to me.
Death was the only thing
which could inspire any of
them to try to connect.
First Katie, and now Brad.
But through Chantal's sweet
words and loving heart, I saw
that I had most definitely taken
the incident in its entirety
personally.
Quite a yarn I was telling
myself!
Talk about fireworks going off.
In an instant of Clear Seeing,
the sting and sorrow
disappeared just like that!
And I remembered a verse
from the Old Testament which
says:
"No weapon formed against you
shall prosper."
Isaiah 54:17 a.
And I realized that the only one
who had really lobbed grenades
at me was myself.
With Chantal's message to me,
I took the "me" out of the
equation and then it was simply
a series of neutral events.
a, Brad died.
b. Siblings each tried to get a hold
of me to make sure I knew.
c. When they could not reach me,
they became concerned and wanted
the police to do a senior welfare check
on me to make sure that I was okay.
To say that the last week has been
challenging is a masterpiece of
understatement.
But each of us is capable of
remembering in every situation
we will ever encounter in this
life that we always have the option
to keep things amazingly simple
if we remember to not introduce
the idea of 'ourselves' into it.
In other words, nothing is ever
personal for anyone under any
circumstances until we make
it so.
We each are far too obsessed with
ourselves and the meanings which
we give to our own experience
to give a damn about whether or
not we are seeing clearly or through
a glass darkly.
And again, a message that gets
repeated here in one form or
another every single week is that
we are the only cause of our
suffering.
And please do not interpret
the words which are spoken
here today to mean that we
ever have to participate again
in anything which feels neither
loving or safe to us.
That is why you have these
things which are attached to
the bottom of our torsos which
we call "legs."
We also have two buttons on
our computers which
may be pushed at our discretion
which say "delete" and "spam,"
as well as the ability to block
any call of our choosing.
Circumstances may force such
encounters from time to time,
but the level of our involvement
should always be a decision
which is born of our love and
care for ourselves.
No one can see clearly in any
situation which does not feel
safe and is fear-based because
it is born of the perception of
need rather than trust.
Since last week, so many memories,
which have been long avoided or
repressed, have been roaring to
the surface of my consciousness
because of the events of the last
two weeks.
Talk about re-opening Pandora's
box!
I was planning on sharing much
more than this today but the
universe has other plans.
An exercise has come to mind
for us to work with today.
I will share it now and leave it
at that.
In every experience or interaction
you encounter today, be alert to
any sign of reactivity and repeat
the following words silently to
yourself.
I am upset because I introduced
myself into this situation.
I did so because I listened to the
meaning making machine between
my ears and believed what it said
rather than listening to the truth of
my heart.
Then...
(1) Take a step back.
(2) Bring your awareness back
to your breath.
(3) Feel the breath as it enters
and exits the heart.
(4) Remember the truth of love,
for nothing else matters.
Soul: Here are a series of
statements which you can
add to your exercise today
if you find them helpful.
They may be used simultaneously.
I do not choose to dance with
you today.
This is your dance, not mine.
I'm sitting this one out.
I have nothing to add and
nothing to prove.
I am That, I am.
The point to remember is that
it is your truth which empowers
you to remain in your lane, on
your side of the street, and in
your own hula hoop.
And just what is that?
Your heart, beloved.
You are Infinite Emptiness.
You are love light and presence.
And you are the precious being
living this human experience.
***
Prayer For The Day
Dear Pelkyong:
You have nothing to prove to
anyone, which includes me
and yourself.
God.
***
Dear God:
Thanks for that.
pelkyong
***
03/09/2026
Thought for the Day
The uncommon dialogue
continues...
Soul: Perhaps you would be
willing to share openly about
what your experience of being
human has been like for you
as you have given yourself
to the embodied path of peace
throughout all of your humanity.
me: I am willing to do so, regardless
how raw it still feels, how vulnerable
and transparent it will require me
to be in order to do so.
Long have I felt that if my human
experience could help one living
being find peace with their past,
peace with who they are, what
they have done, what has been
done to them, then my human
life would have fulfilled its purpose.
This, however, is not a one and
done type of experience to share.
But I am willing to try to do so by
opening that door to the deepest
part of myself, and then attempt
to give voice to all that has never
been spoken.
For it is you who have born witness
to the hours on my knees, the
weeping, the tears, my life
ripped asunder, the bringing of
every form of inner struggle,
pain and darkness to the light.
It has by no means been the
hunky dory path to liberation,
but it has been and is the path
to complete and irrevocable
freedom.
It has driven people away by
the droves, rather than bringing
others close.
What was the most prominent
thing I discovered along the way?
People do not really want the
truth.
They say they do.
They believe that they do.
But to turn and face everything,
bringing all to the light?
Everything for which we have
been using lifetime after
lifetime to avoid at all costs?
It is easy to bring truth to
the illusion of you, so you
can keep playing the game.
But who dares to bring the
illusion of you and all that
entails to the truth?
Well, that is an entirely
different cup of tea.
But like ACIM says, "Never
was so much given for so little."
First, it is no secret to anyone
who actually knows me or
any of my siblings that we
were born into a deeply
dysfunctional family; a family
rife with addictions, violence,
rage, fear, pain and suffering.
When Buddhists speak of taking
rebirth in the six realms, I think
my family of origin are good
examples of hungry ghosts,
animal and hell realm
incarnations.
I have never thought of the six
realms of possible incarnation
as anything other than states
of consciousness which we may
embody in any given lifetime.
Thus, I would categorize my
birth as representing the
lowest portion of the
incarnation totem pole.
It was a hard life for all of us.
None of us came through that
experience unscathed.
There was nothing respectful
or kind, peaceful or genuinely
loving about it.
In fact, I do not remember
any of us ever being told
we were loved other than
our sister, Mary.
Despite this, I am certain that
our parents tried their best.
They were educated, yet
highly dysfunctional people,
each of whom had been raised
by equally dysfunctional people.
They believed that education was
their ticket out of hell.
Little did they know....
In that sense, I suspect that
the Old Testament is correct
when it says:
"The sins of the fathers are
visited upon the children."
This is repeated in both
Exodus 20:5 and 34:7.
I feel that this is meant in two
ways.
First, what we have not made
peace with we are doomed
to repeat.
And secondly, the offspring
are destined to become
like the ones who parented
them unless someone waxes
bold, breaks the cycle, and
cultivates the courage to
find another way.
A way which seeks wholeness
through the discovery and
embodiment of truth, rather
than yet another path which
leads to naught but further
sorrow and destruction.
During the course of my child-
hood, we each experienced
the fruits of chaos and dysfunction
in each of our lives.
Some of us have tried to find
a better way, while others were
content to become chips off
the old block.
And we have tried all manner
of things among us; from
Freudian psychotherapy,
atheism & fundamental Christianity,
to alcoholism and other forms
of addiction, pornography, be-
coming apex sexual predators,
and that of choosing a life of
crime.
You name it and I know that
someone in my family has
drank that kool aid too, only to
disappear down yet another
rabbit hole.
Gone for a time until that too
fails, and then its off to the races
to whatever is next on the list
of things to try in a futile attempt
to escape the pain entailed in
the experience of being our-
selves.
Different on the level of form,
but identical on the level of
content.
This is how the search begins
for each of us, not often so
drastic but the same none-
theless.
There is nothing like epic
failure to bring us to our knees.
We then become our own pet
self-improvement projects, ever
committed to trying to fix what
feels broken or damaged inside
of us and through our efforts,
become better versions of
ourselves.
I am no different than anyone
else. This was my search
for the better part of 3 decades.
During that time, I visited
every continent, sat with
countless teachers and attended
endless retreats, geographical
cures galore, ever the seeker
but never the finder.
I was committed to trying to
become something more,
better or different than who
I was and by thus, heal the
anguish and the pain that
never resolved, no matter
how hard I tried to make it
go away.
And every single time that I
have felt that I have come
to the bottom of the barrel of
what I refer to as the 'past,'
something again transpires
in my lived experience which
gives me one more opportunity
to take a trip down memory
lane and examine what is crying
to be held, pleading for even
more love and acceptance.
This happened again for me
over the past 2 weeks.
The first experience was with
that of having been a voluntary
participant in the kitty scam.
The second was with the death
of my younger brother and
having to re-engage with my
family of origin.
While the third was the result
of the fall out between myself
and one who is very close to
my heart. He advised that he
could no longer help me as
he had been doing, that it was
no longer sustainable, treating
me like someone who was a
burden to him, triggering former
fear based survival issues.
He has horns which perfectly
match the holes in my head,
while I know that my horns
match his.
Our relationship was, is and
every yet shall be a work in
progress.
But knowing this does not make
it hurt any less.
You see, we each have a core
wound that is the most
foundational aspect of our
human identity.
Long have I seen what I thought
this was in myself: the core
wound of unworthiness.
But the experience of the past
two weeks has exposed a wound
much deeper than that.
Do you know what a tap root is?
It is the structural foundation
from which the plant grows,
as well as all subsequent roots.
In other words, it is the primary
root which emerges from the seed
and acts as the anchor for all
that is to come.
I suspect that in this analogy,
the parental units represent
the seed.
So what was this core issue or
tap root that both time and
experience revealed to me?
Never ever having been seen or
wanted for who, what or how
you are.
People blaming you as the
cause for their every affliction.
It is not simply a perceived threat
to one's survival, it is the very
idea of others wishing you out
of existence. Because should you
no longer exist, that would hallmark
the end of their troubles.
Tough stuff to look at and feel
in its murky depths.
It’s more like surfing a Tsunami.
Yet there are no words with which
to express my gratitude for these
experiences.
For had these 3 events not transpired
within the course of the same week,
I would never have seen what I had
been searching to uncover and
bring to the light.
For as I have long said, you cannot
accept what you cannot see.
And I needed to see this core
wound which was still very much
there, lurking in darkness so that
I could begin the process of loving,
forgiving, embracing and swaddling
it in kindness, ever holding the most
tender and loving space for
myself.
Not trying to get rid of it, fix it or
heal it.
Just seeing it and holding it, allowing
LOVE to perform her miracles, as
she never fails to do, when we become
willing to walk through the valley of
the shadow of death and face our
own dark night.
In the willingness to do so, the sting
of this process has already left me
in its entirety.
And my vision has reached beyond
every boundary and depth I thought
humanly possible as a result.
Human beings spend their entire
lives running away from themselves,
denying, repressing, numbing and
distracting themselves from any-
thing that might hurt or frighten
them.
I cannot help but feel, born of my
own direct and deeply personal
experience, that the most noble
of acts is that of turning and facing
ourselves; facing our hurts, our regrets,
our disappointments, our guilt
and shame and loving ourselves
as we are in our totality.
To see beauty and possibility where
no one else had ever cared enough
to look.
This is the meaning of life stuff that
I have come to embrace based
upon my own direct experience.
And I am done with letting someone
else tell me I am wrong, that I am
flawed, FUBAR, and how I need to be
in order to know peace.
It is the tabernacle of my own heart
which is my unassailable Queendom
yesterday, today and forever.
I am the rock upon which I have
built my church, synagogue, temple
and mosque.
I am the three in One who is the
one in three.
The VOID, the love, light and presence,
and the all too human, human being
that I am.
I love her to pieces; hair, guts,
feathers and all.
Here is what I know…
You will never be able to accept
your humanity as it is until you
have dared to look upon all of
yourself and accepted every
single bit of who you are.
And if you still struggle to accept
and embrace all of yourself,
can you at least embrace the part
of you who still struggles to love
and accept all of you?
I embrace my complexity.
I embrace the simplicity of
accepting every single particle
of myself.
And I do not believe that anyone
can be truly happy in this world
until they have dared to see
and embrace with kindness,
tenderness and compassion
every single part of themselves.
Our inner darkness must be
returned to the very light
which begat it.
Part II of the dialogue continues
tomorrow....
***
Prayer For The Day
With genuine humbleness of heart
I bow before all that I am
and say, thank you, Lord.
Amen
***
03/08/2026
Thought for the Day
The uncommon dialogue
continues...
me: I have been reflecting
this weekend on how the
sum total of the human
part of us is expressed
through chakras 1-3.
This is the part of us which
is obsessed with:
*resistance
*survival
*and the futile attempt to
create and maintain the
illusion of safety and security
for itself and for those with
whom it shares DNA, familial
bonds, history or other
attachments.
Thus, attachment can be born
of either care or judgment.
We have all spent our lifetime
chasing these things.
And the obsession with working
on ourselves is actually the
mode and means through which
we keep this pseudo identity
real in our mind's, and therefore
firmly in place.
Notice how it carries its cross
daily, born of ancient wounds
it won't turn loose of, which it
could, provided it wanted
peace more than it wanted
to be 'right.'
For the mind sees itself as
broken, and blames this
perception of brokenness
onto others.
Doggedly it pursues its mission:
to become something more,
better or different than it is.
And yet, acceptance is the key to
everything.
Using the vernacular of Buddhist
monk, Thich Nhat Hanh,
acceptance, which is really just
another word for surrender,
is the way in which we return
to our Original Face, it restores
us to who we were before our
world sank its teeth into us.
Surrender is thus not defeat,
it is to triumph over oneself;
one's opinions, judgments,
and grievances, in favor of
self-mastery.
For one who has gained
mastery over his or her self
is incapable of seeing 'wrong'
anywhere.
We are not talking about getting
rid of or trying to change anything.
It is a part of us, but we no longer
identify with it.
And when we no longer identify
with it, it ceases to bother us.
That which we work to change,
not only cannot and does not
free us, it cements the feelings
of ineptitude in place, sentencing
one to a perpetual loop of feeling
that one is not good enough
and never will be, no matter how
hard one tries.
This only serves to add to
our suffering.
But the more we can accept
and embrace all that we are,
all that we have been, the
things we have done and the
things done to us, the more
we find peace and integrate
each and every experience
which left its mark upon our
heart's and the residual of
guilt, which we have worn
like a shroud, thus ending
the tyranny of our suffering
once and for all.
Soul: No experience is ever
personal until you introduce
the idea of 'yourself' into it.
And speaking of chakras, it is
your 3rd center which is the
entry point to the Kingdom of
Heaven-which resides in the
4th chakra or heart center.
This is the demarcation
between Heaven and hell.
So it is chakras 1-3 which
keep you in a perpetual
state of Groundhog Day:
resist, defend, survive, protect.
Hell is thus a state of mind,
not a geographical location.
It is the mind's interpretation
of itself and its world, born of
the first 3 centers.
While living from the 4th
center, the Kingdom of
Heaven, is what one
experiences when they
love and accept all of their
humanity, finding no fault
with any part of it.
To accept means to make
peace with.
This does require one to
surrender, to give up one's
previous interpretation or
judgment, in favor of the
reality of love, which frees
one of every sense of wrong
doing.
It happened. I accept it.
It is time to forgive, let go,
and be at peace.
It happened because it was
supposed to happen.
I am who I am today because
of every single experience
I have ever had.
The most powerful experience
that you will ever have while
embodied is to be able to
accept yourself in its entirety
exactly as you are without
judgment.
This is the return of innocence.
And one who has remembered
their innocence cannot help
but see that self same innocence
in everyone and everything.
Let's try another mirror exercise
today.
At least 3 times today, go to your
mirror and look deeply into
your eyes.
Slow the breath while doing so.
Each time you do, allow the
mind to show you something
for which you still feel upset,
hurt, angry or guilty.
Next, look even more deeply
into your eyes and repeat the
following words:
I love you.
I forgive you.
I accept you fully as you are.
You may not ever be enough for
anyone else on this planet, but
you will always be enough for God
and therefore, for me.
me: I would like to add a little
practice for all the non-mirror
time we experience.
Whatever arises, after your initial
reaction, soften and accept it.
This is the practice of meditation
in the thick of it.
For you will always be the only
key to your release.
***
Prayer For The Day
Oh my darling, darling child.
Won't you lay your head upon
my lap and rest here for awhile?
God.
***
03/07/2026
Thought for the Day
The uncommon dialogue
continues...
me: A very clear thought occurred
to me today, and I knew it was
more true than any thought I have
ever had.
Wars will end when we stop fighting
with ourselves.
And the only way to show others that
there is another way is by choosing to
be the actual embodiment of the
other way.
I knew something else today as I
searched my heart to its depths
and stood my ground, walking
into the feelings I was experiencing;
a cascade of emotion that felt
more like white water rafting
than it did a leisurely stroll through
the park.
Heart wrenching feelings...
Gut wrenching feelings...
Explosive feelings!
The level of feeling passing
through this body field was
nuclear!
The scale of brutality which human
beings inflict upon themselves
and each other has reached a
fevered pitch.
But you want to know something?
The amazing thing is that no one
has ever died from a feeling.
And when you have the courage
to turn into what is arising with
an open heart and lovingly
support yourself, the feeling(s)
start integrating immediately
if you remain willing to stay
the course.
Thus it is our avoidance which
keeps the experience locked
in place.
No one has ever been able to
run far enough or fast enough
to avoid themselves.
Wherever you go, there you
are.
And I knew that I knew that I
knew, that I had to be the
evidence of the other way.
Suffering is not natural.
We were not born to suffer
and there is absolutely nothing
noble about it, in spite of
what several religions teach!
We each see the violence in our
world mounting on a daily basis.
We both see and feel the living
proof of what not facing,
embracing and supporting
ourselves and our experience
has done to the world in which
we live.
How can the world ever know
of fairness, when we are neither
kind, respectful or fair with
ourselves and each other?
So I have determined that the
only way to be safe in the world
is by having the courage to
genuinely and authentically
exemplify and be the Trinity
of who I truly am, to be a living
demonstration of what walking
the talk looks like.
Haven't we all suffered from
a lifetime of PTSD which has been
born of our avoidance, blame and
acting out meeting that same
avoidance, blame and acting out
in the idea of the "other"?
A couple of months ago I referred
to human beings as unruly third
graders acting out on the play-
ground at recess.
Isn't this a fairly accurate
description?
It's time for us to take back our
world, and we do so by remaining
with our own experience, loving
and supporting ourselves as we do.
Soul: You are one of thousands
who have incarnated at this
particular time in human history
with the specific mission to
usher in a new world through
the reinvention of what it means
to be human.
And this is done strictly by your
example.
You were reflecting today on the
old adage which says:
Give a man a fish and he eats for
a meal.
Teach him to fish and he eats for
a lifetime.
Your continued willingness to pick
yourself up and begin again, to
embody this as a way of life, is the
fulfillment of the mission of:
Teach him to fish and he eats for
a lifetime.
Remember our plan to keep it
simple on the weekend?
Let's begin with the commitment
to turn in the wind of your experience,
to love and support yourself as you
navigate what the waters of life
hold for you today.
And remember, stick to your side
of the street!
You are far too quick to look outside,
to see wrong in your world, when
your work is never any further than
your own mind and heart.
Consider yourself the protagonist,
while everyone and everything else
you encounter are characters in
the movie of your life, each of whom
are facilitating the deconstruction
of the more neurotic and trauma
based aspects of the created self
by being willing to feel what you
have avoided feeling until it is
completed.
Is that not a living demonstration
of love?
Each and every person, place or
thing was willing to come to earth
in order to play the part that you
needed them to play so that you
could face and embrace what you
were unable to see about yourself
had they not willingly played the
part which each of them played.
You might just want to remember
that when you look down your nose
at the current POTUS.
Each experience is integrated fully
when you have the courage to
stay the course and experience it.
The time of blame and projection
is nearing its completion.
People are tired of giving their power
away.
They want to feel empowered in
themselves and their heart's cry
for a way of life that is sustainable.
It is your demonstration that is the
proof that they seek.
Proof which demonstrates that
this truly is a way of life which
actually works.
***
Prayer For The Day
I feel entirely supported by
great beings everywhere; past,
present and future.
I am deeply humbled in the
knowledge that my life
represents the fulfillment
of all for which they hoped
and labored...that of a
loving and peaceful world.
And until the idea of wrong
has been entirely purged
from my mental continuum,
forgiveness does have
it's role.
I am the one who choses not
to see the Divine everywhere.
I forgive myself.
I forgive my world.
May we each feel the clean white
slate and Cosmic reset that
we are being given today.
And may I ever be a living
demonstration of this message
throughout my humanity until
my very last breath, fulfilling
the purpose of my precious
human life.
Amen
***
03/06/2026
Thought for the Day
The uncommon dialogue
continues...
me: After turning the computer
on today, I discovered that I
had received an email message
from Jeff Foster, whom I love
and respect.
If you are new to his name,
he is recognized in the world
as a well known author and
nondual teacher.
I refer to him as a teacher, even
though I know he, like I, do not
consider ourselves anything
other than humans humaning,
and the last thing we, or anyone
else for that matter needs is
another label.
A label is a dangerously
slippery slope.
Because you either have to
work hard to maintain it, to
remain relevant and popular
in the spiritual marketplace
and by thus lose your way,
or be even more committed
in order to relinquish it.
And by committed, I am talking
about the big "S" word,
surrender, for you are the doer
of nothing in this world.
Either way, it's a death sentence.
Anyone who has experienced
the ultimate truth realizes that
they do this for themselves.
It is about a heart so full that
you have to give it expression
or else combust.
Thus, it is for no one else.
You are your own guide, so
consider your own heart
sacrosanct.
Listen to what it shares with you,
for there is no greater source in
the entire universe than that of
your own human heart.
If you do not feel the resonance
of something, toss it in the
circular file and be done with
it.
But if you feel your heart stir
when you either read or hear it,
embrace it.
And most certainly if something
frightens, disturbs or otherwise
angers you, you might just want
to accept the invitation to look
carefully at what it is sharing
because it struck a nerve.
Aren't your tired of running away
and blasting undeserving bystanders
with your ire?
Back to the email...
The message began with the
following quote from his most
recent book:
If you cannot sit with your own
fear, you will project it and act it
out on the people you love.
If you cannot feel your own grief,
you will harden to it.
If you cannot meet your own anger,
you will lash out or hide in fear.
So you see, meditation is not
ultimately about calm. It is about
deep responsibility.
To yourself and to the world...
Jeff Foster
I absolutely love that!
So I guess that the overarching
theme for the week has shifted
to that of loving and supporting
yourself as you remain present
to your inner experience of life.
That sounds like I am changing
subjects when it is the bedrock
feeling tonality of everything
that is shared here.
There is no other message.
For this is the meaning of life stuff
that we all ache to know when we
admit to ourselves that we feel lost,
afraid and alone, white washed
sepulchres with empty bones.
This message is thus not about
where I am supposed to be.
Nor is it about how I am supposed
to be.
And It is not about following some
prescription which is based on
someone else's experience.
It is about how I choose to be
and live my life.
It is about being a responsible
human adult.
Here is another gem from Jeff Foster:
What I discovered slowly and sometimes
painfully, was that my nervous system
did not need "enlightenment." It needed
kindness.
Soul: Moving forward, each and every
moment of what remains in your serial
adventure of life, will be about
increasing your capacity to be lovingly
present to all of your inner experience
and to yourself.
Take the time to discover who you are
and be your own best friend.
The more you are anchored there,
the more authentic your life, for
this is about self-sovereignty and
personal agency.
You were not born to be a slave
to your inner experience of life,
nor to regurgitate it onto those
for whom you are supposed to
love and care.
me: You know, one of the most
helpful ideas that I have ever
encountered came from the book
Mans Search For Meaning, by
Viktor Frankl.
After his time in the concentration
camps and witnessing the deaths of
his family and countless others,
he came to understand that
suffering was like helium.
Fill any balloon with helium and it
will take on the shape of the balloon
it has filled.
Likewise, no one can compare their
suffering to that of another, or
someone else's suffering to their own.
Suffering always takes on the shape
of the container of the experiencer
of that suffering.
Thus all suffering is equal for each
and every one of us.
Soul: Being fully human is the state
of transcendence!
And you cannot consider yourself
to be fully human unless you have
loved and accepted every single
part of yourself, without exception.
Here is a good question to ask
yourself:
Is there anything I have ever done,
or anything I have ever experienced,
that I have not made peace with,
accepted, forgiven and relinquished
in its entirety?
In other words, am I still disturbed
by this?
Acceptance does not mean you
have to remain in relationship with
the person, place or thing.
As the old saying goes, "People
are in your life for a reason, a season
or a lifetime."
Each of you knows the difference
between, avoidance, running away
and that of completion.
Acceptance means that when you
recall the experience or life thrusts
you into the position of having to
encounter the experience or those
involved once again, you can maintain
your equanimity, you no longer contract,
shut down, act out or run away.
You will never be any more aware
of the presence of God than you
are to your own innermost being.
Look into a mirror often today.
For the One you see gazing back
at you is the living presence of God
in human form.
Treat them as such.
***
Prayer for the Day
The three that are ONE,
the ONE that is three.
Live Thou as me!
May I ever be aware that
I am that, I am.
Amen
***
03/05/2026
Thought for the Day
The uncommon dialogue
continues...
I thought I would begin
by telling a story that has
meant a lot to me for a
very long time. I know
that it's been at least
20 years since I first
heard her share it at
a Vipassana retreat.
Author and Buddhist teacher,
Sharon Salzberg, was who
shared it.
I know I don't have the
details perfect, but you
will catch the resonance,
or feeling tone of what
both she and I are sharing.
Memory fades as you age
and although I searched
the internet in an attempt
to find it, I could not.
So bear with this old
woman and her memory.
She spoke of a therapist
conference she had attended
and the key note speaker,
a psychologist and Buddhist,
had been recently diagnosed
with early onset Alzheimers.
The gentleman got up to
speak.
He looked out at the audience
and there were around 200
therapists in attendance, all
of whom were staring back
at him spellbound.
Suddenly, his mind was blank.
He did not know where he
was, all he knew for certain
in that moment was that he
was standing at a lectern
and there was a sea of faces
in front of him, all of whom
were staring with rapt attention.
Why was he here?
What was he supposed to be
talking about?
Knowing of nothing else that
he could do, he fell back onto
the simplest and most often
repeated training from his
many years as a practicing
Buddhist.
Be still.
Anchor awareness on
the breath.
Long and slow and deep.
Tune in. Immerse yourself
in what is unfolding in your
inner world.
What do you notice?
Be patient, loving and kind
to yourself.
And so he bowed his head
and put his hands into prayer
position as he grew more
and more still.
He then started speaking
outloud, naming each
experience one by one.
Fear...
Overwhelm...
Embarrassment...
Self-conscious...
Shame...
Humiliation...
Anger....
Disappointment...
Failure...
Nausea....
Run now!
Kindness...
Tenderness...
As he repeated the final feeling
of which he was aware, he
felt memory return once again.
He apologized to his audience.
But when he looked up, he
saw that there was not a single
dry eye in the house after he
had carefully scanned all the
audience.
He had just delivered the most
powerful teaching he could have
ever shared, simply by being
willing to share his lived,
moment-by-moment experience!
I would like to share one of
my favorite quotes from
Sharon which says:
"You can search throughout
the entire universe for someone
who is more deserving of
your love and affection than
you are yourself, and that person
is not to be found anywhere.
You, yourself, as much as any-
body in the entire universe,
deserve your love and affection."
Sharon Salzberg
And after decades of time sitting
on the cushion, I can honestly
share that either I no longer
meditate, or every moment is
meditation.
It depends entirely upon the
one who is asking.
If you believe that what
meditation is, is calming
the mind, focusing on a
fixed point such as the
tip of the nose and returning
to point when you become
distracted, scanning the body
with light, reciting a mantra
or other such practices, well
then, I have not meditated
a single time this decade.
All of which entails a basic
search for a more transcendent
state of consciousness, rather
than a humble embracing
of the human being I am as
I am, finding myself entirely
worthy of my most attentive
and loving care.
I actually gave my cushion
and former altar away.
Were I to have an altar
now it would simply have
a mirror on it.
Nothing else.
Or perhaps I might include
a few photos.
Pictures of those who
have played a pivotal role
in my life over the course
of this lifetime.
So if your experience is
that meditation means
coming back to the isness
of your own direct experience,
seeing how long you can
remain there, steadfast,
relaxed, soft and open to
every experience of your
inner world, while ever
aware of your breath,
tending to yourself with
kindness, love and com-
passion, then every waking
moment of my life is a
moment of meditation
for me.
And quite frequently I watch
myself doing so in my sleep!
It is the first thing I notice
when I awaken each morning,
and it is the last thing that I
remember as I am falling to
sleep.
I do not measure my days
by anything other than
the question:
How well have I loved
myself today?
It is a living practice to be
grounded in my direct
experience of my inner
world, ever tending to me.
It took time, but I have
become the beloved for
whom I spent a lifetime
searching.
I am the guru, the teacher,
the friend.
I am the lover of God,
and the company
I keep?
None other than the
tabernacle of my
own beautiful heart.
Although I am more than
a bit sheepish to admit
this publically, I am
my own shero!
I find myself kind of
amazing and my favorite
person to hang out with.
Wherever I am is holy
ground!
I do not need anyone to
approve of me, accept me
or tell me I am welcome
in their lives because I
have my own blessing
and seal of approval.
I am complete.
And I can honestly say,
who but myself deserves
more of my respect, kindness,
generosity, love and
tenderness than I?
Who understands the
fullness of what I have
experienced over the
course of this lifetime?
Who but me wishes to
scoop that precious
being up into my arms
and love her with my
entire being?
Who could possibly
comprehend how brave
and noble I see that she
is, how gentle and kind
her experiences have
made her, how precious
and perfect I see her,
entirely worthy of the
most extraordinary love
and compassion?
Sharing my heart with
each of you today and
every day.
Remember to love the
one your with today,
in recognition that the
only one you are always
with is you!
pelkyong
***
Prayer for the Day
Blessed be that I am
me and that I am a
one-of-a-kind.
Perhaps mama was right
when she said that God
broke the mold after he
made me.
President of my own
fan club, I'm my #1
fan!
I'm hopelessly in love with
the ONE living me!
Amen
***
03/04/2026
Thought for the Day
The uncommon dialogue
continues...
me: I thought I would give you
all an update on my kitty saga.
Violet was supposed to have
arrived at 7:00 PM last night.
Alas, no kitty showed up and
I went to bed at 11:00 PM
which was uncharacteristically
late for me.
I am not 100% certain, but at
least 80% certain that, with the
help of my friend Jacquie, little
Miss Violet was a scam.
Now I have been through
the entire gamut of human
emotions during the course
of this experience, and when
you add to that the shock
of experiencing the death
of my younger brother,
there has been a lot that has
unfolded, both within and
without, over the course of
the last two weeks!
Now some people would tell
you that I was a sucker, a
chump, a fool too naive to
not be taken advantage of.
And I have had 4 gurus during
the course of this lifetime, only
one of which remains alive
(Who I no longer consider him
my guru, btw...I am my own
guru and so are you), each
of which spent their entire lives
trying to transcend the
human experience, denying
their humanity, whilst
hanging onto the illusion
that this somehow made them
superior to the rest of us poor
suckers here on planet psycho,
but how is that not incredibly
dualistic and a crock of shit?
And I recognize that the spiritual
majority on this planet would
tell you that this was so that I would
come to loath my human experience
a bit more so that I could chase
the experience of transcendence,
and were I to make it my greatest
achievement as well, would somehow
make me immune from the human
experience altogether, or as ACIM
would state,awaken me to the
"happy dream."
While the bulk of humanity spends
their entire lives trying to change
and control themselves, others, and
life because they believe they know
better than God.
How is that not also dualistic and
a big steaming pile of you-know-
what?
My guru in the nineties, who has
been dead since 2002, said that
while in the prolonged state of
deep meditation, he had traced
the universe from its inception to
its ending and then back again
26 times and could not find the
first time it occurred because it was
a loop that kept endlessly
repeating itself.
This made a whole helluva lot of
sense to me.
Yet he still taught that the path
was about the total transcendence
of the human experience.
He never ever seemed to really
be here at all.
And he loved being seen as other
worldly and have people bow down
and worship him.
This was supposed to be the
meaning and purpose of life.
But again I call bullshit.
When is anyone ever going
to learn to trust themselves?
Here is what I have discovered
and how I look upon the whole
Violet situation thus far:
Did I make a painful mistake?
No. I did experience pain,
however.
What happened was what was
meant to happen and how
I experienced it was how I was
supposed to experience it.
Was I a naive moron who got
fleeced?
No. As I said before, I had an
experience.
Being a spiritual being who
is having a human experience
does not render me immune
from experiencing everything
that it is my destiny to experience.
I have absolutely no control
over anything whatsoever.
So while I am human, I also
experience myself as love or
light, and beyond that, I
experience myself as the
Infinite Void which I encountered
in my NDE.
That which is the formless and
Infinite Source of everything.
Can you grasp Brahma, Vishnu
and Shiva revealing themselves
in all of this?
Formlessness taking form
and being sustained as form,
and then all of it going through
the process of falling away
and returning to the infinite
Formlessness which begat it all?
Can you see how this cycle is
repeating itself?
God/Void ------> Love/light ------>
form.
Then form discovers itself
as ------> love/light--------->
which then discovers itself
as the Infiniteness Formlessness
which created it all.
And then the Infinite Formlessness
experiences Itself again as the
light/love, which then experiences
itself as the human being.
Back and forth.
Endlessly repeating cycles.
So the purpose of my having
awakened spiritually was not to
free me of my humanity, because
it is through the willingness, day
after day, to have this human
experience, as it is, that actually
frees me of the belief that I am
the human being that is typing
these words whilst trying to
become what I really am.
Now I recognize that I am
all three, the Holy Trinity.
The three that are ONE but
also three.
So I embrace this experience
of Violet and the experience
of the death of my brother
and the experience of this
body and all that having this
very human experience has
been providing me with
since I took my very first
breath and that I will continue
experiencing until I take my
final one and exit stage left.
Is it perfect as it is?
Yes.
My life is perfect for me.
It would not be perfect for
anyone else on this planet,
but it sure as shit has been
and is the perfect life for me.
And each experience I have,
frees me of my identification
with the human experience
a little bit more.
[In the world but not of it.]
If you are very still and very
honest with yourself, can you
not see as well that every
experience that you have
ever had has also freed you
more than you felt before?
Perhaps it took a little bit
of time to get there, but
eventually you did, did
you not?
I refuse to make myself wrong
for anything.
And I am not a fuck up or
a damn fool which is what
my father called me my
entire life, so much so that
I told my kindergarten teacher
this was what to call me
when she asked me my name.
And I refuse to make you
wrong for anything either.
All I can see is a plan that
is unfolding and it is not me
that is making it all happen.
There is a Infinite Intelligence
at work here who is the Supreme
Doer of Everything.
Let's just leave it nameless,
okay?
Cuz I am just leaning back
and letting cruise control
whiz me on down the highway'
while I am just a passenger
along for the ride.
***
Prayer for the Day
Prayer from the Upanishads:
Reduce me to nothing (ashes),
that I may be raised to
Infinity.
Amen
***
03/03/2026
Thought for the Day
The uncommon dialogue
continues...
me: I know... I know...
I realize that everyone is
probably sick and tired
of me talking about all
the epiphanies and
realizations that have
unfolded in my awareness
since my brother's death
and my brief peripheral
reconnection with my
family of origin.
Unless of course....
...perhaps not?
Maybe I have this all
wrong.
After all, who doesn't
have family issues of
one kind or another?
I am sure that the answer
to that question is,
"Precious few."
Nonetheless, please bear
with me...
Today is the last day that
I am going to talk about it
because I had my final
and most important
epiphany yesterday, or
at least I think that is
what I experienced...
It was like the Big Bang
went off in my head.
First there was an
explosion, then a vision,
followed by a lightning
strike across the horizon
of my inner world which
pierced the very center
of my being, in response
to your final statement
to me yesterday.
In it you said the following:
So be of good cheer today,
for you have overcome
yourself.
And in doing so, you have
overcome your history and
your world.
And I saw an image of that
ride at the State Fair where
everyone puts their backs
against the wall of this
hollow circular barrel
and it spins super fast and
then the bottom drops
out and the centripetal
force plasters you against
the wall so you do not
fall. No one does.
And you cannot move a
muscle either, until the
ride is over.
You remain glued in place
until the ride stops and
the bottom again raises
to meet your feet.
You leave dizzy as hell
and your balance is a
bit wompy for quite
a while afterward.
Some actually threw up.
As I recall, it was called
the Gravitron.
In this vision which had
filled my inner world,
the bottom represented
myself, as I experienced me,
and the overcoming of
myself was the experience
of the bottom dropping out.
And then when the bottom
returned, it represented
a new way of being in the
world.
Relaxed...
Loving people instead of
trying to fix them or change
them...
Loving myself...no longer
trying to change me...
No longer trying to survive
my human experience...
Rather, living as Soul whilst
experiencing being human.
That was the flash of white
hot lightning which struck
the very core of my being.
Suddenly I knew that the
mistake that all human
beings make, that I had
made, was that of believing
that the voice between our
ears, the thinker, represents
who we are.
But all that voice really is,
is an assemblage of
brainwashing and con-
ditioning, crazy pro-
gramming, storyline,
one's interpretation of
their history, their biases,
opinions, judgments,
preferences, retained
suffering, grievances and
the will to survive.
It is not a real person, it is
merely bits and pieces of
faulty code which is stored
in the hard drives of our
mainframe which we then
mistake for "me, myself
and I."
Faulty programming...
A bunch of 1's and 0's,
the software of the
created self, which is
manufactured by the
mind, that we then
mistake for who we are,
we mistake for an identity
which is real.
It became clear to me
that believing this voice
is what keeps us on the
horizontal axis of this
world, ever striving to
change ourselves, each
other and our world.
And because this information
is stored in a very primitive
part of the mind, it is obsessed
with what others are doing
or what is happening in
the world, wanting it or
them to change so that it
can feel happy or safe.
It, therefore, is the very
barycenter of its universe,
and everyone and everything
else, the celestial bodies
which are held in place
within its gravitational field.
But when we realize that this
is not who or what we are,
that we are the Soul, the
bottom then drops out
of the Gravitron and
we align with the vertical
axis of truth/light/God/Soul,
whatever you wish to call it.
However, it is none of those
words. A word or name is
a limitation that we place
on that which cannot be
spoken. It is the mind's
attempt to reduce Infinity
into the finite.
When you get this, it truly
is overcoming yourself.
At this point, a question
arises.
Am I trying to survive
the experience of being
me by trying to change
myself or others, or am
I simply and humbly
loving myself for the
human being that I am,
and loving others by
giving them the freedom
to be who and how they
are?
So really, if we are truly
focused on staying on
our side of the street,
we do not have time to
fixate on what other
people are doing or
not doing.
And if we really and truly
love ourselves, we become
unwilling to associate
with people, places or
things which are not
respectful, kind or loving.
The question, "Does this
support my awareness
of peace?" becomes the
pivot point upon which
our lives now turn.
And we see that it is our
own obsession with
listening to the voice
between our ears, giving
it our undivided attention
and mistaking what it is
telling us for the truth,
that keeps us on the
hamster wheel of never-
ending chaos, misery
and suffering in the first
place.
This always reminds me
of mother monkeys at
the zoo who are constantly
grooming their babies.
Enough already!
Pick! Pick! Pick!
Acceptance truly is a very
fine thing after all.
Soul: You are each living
under so much strain in
this decade and the human
brain and nervous system
were never designed to live
under such unrelenting states
of stress and overwhelm.
I am by no means trying to
tell you that anything that
is happening in your life
or this world is is a mistake.
We planned everything to
be precisely as it is after a
great deal of reflection.
How else will everyone see
their blind spots unless life
paints each of you into a
corner and you are then
forced to look upon what
you have denied, because
it was the truth?
Remember when we said that
human beings are never
ready for truth until their
pain becomes greater than
their fear?
me: Of course I remember
that. It reminds me of the
line from ACIM which says,
"tolerance for pain is not
without limits."
Soul: But this is the secret to
every experience you will
ever encounter.
Remain on your side of the
street, focused upon your
experience.
One has to be very brave
to stay the course.
Can you remain focused
upon your experience
without feeling the need
to blame others for it or
wishing it to be different
than it is?
And can you be tender and
gentle with yourself, offering
yourself unconditional love
while doing so?
Remember, you are
doing this for yourself,
for no one else.
As you told your niece
Megan yesterday, you
have to save the only one
you can save, yourself.
For it is your willingness
to simply be you that is
all the world has ever
needed.
This is what it means to be
the light of the world.
Nothing more, but certainly
not less.
***
Prayer for the Day
Help me cease and desist my
scratching of this endless itch
which drives me to try to fix
others or myself and accept
everyone, including myself,
exactly as we are.
Life ain't half bad when
I remember this.
In fact, it's kind of trippy!
Amen
***
03/02/2026
Thought for the Day
The uncommon dialogue
continues...
me: I wish to share again today.
It feels as though I have lived
a thousand lifetimes in the last
24 hours.
And I did spend hours yesterday
feeling a cascade of emotions
that ranged from sadness, to
anger and frustration.
And you know what that trip
down memory lane revealed?
Most of the feelings that I was
experiencing had far more
to do with my experience of
my parents and remaining
siblings than it had anything
to do with Brad.
I have enjoyed communing
with him in the in-between
state, the bardo of becoming,
as we were processing both
of our lives together.
That was a real gift, a treasure
I will hold onto for the remainder
of my life.
This mini life review revealed
many things to me.
I feel an overwhelming
desire to share some of those
realizations now that I am
beyond the initial shock of
Brad having passed away.
It has been mind-blowing,
heart crushing, and yet
expansive. And as unsettling
as it may sound, it has
ripped the scaffolding
right out from beneath my
feet. A scaffolding which had
needed to go for a very
long time I might add. And
the net/net?
I am experiencing the
exhilarating freedom of
having no self, a freedom
which can only reveal itself
with the surrender of
the identity of the created
self, who you thought that
you had to become in order
to survive.
And the first thing I realized?
YOU CANNOT SURRENDER
WHAT YOU CANNOT SEE.
NO ONE CAN.
Although I have both felt
and observed huge chunks
of who I thought I was fall
away over the course of
the last 50 years, what has
fallen away in the past 24
hours has felt like an utter
loss of identification with
what I had thought of as
myself, the self which had
remained.
And you know what?
I wouldn't trade all the sorrow
and heartbreak of yesterday
for all the tea in China.
What human beings have yet
to realize is that the place
where we are stuck is the
part that we cannot see,
and in order to see it, life
has to deliver a series of
events which make us
willing to see.
Or, as Twelve Steppers are
so fond of saying, having life
beat us into a state of
resonableness.
Otherwise we are as blind
as a one-legged man in
an ass kicking contest.
It is also the precise place
of our release.
The prison cell becomes the
place and space of where the
jailbreak occurs when we
open our eyes and see!
Although it was evident how
much my life had changed,
even though I am still the
same me that I have always
been, there was yet more
to see and experience.
I had only just begun.
I have realized more in the
past twenty four hours
than the previous six years
of this incredible decade.
And although I had come to
a place of deep acceptance
where my family was concerned,
I realized today that there were
still subtle, yet strong, under-
pinnings where I continued to
suffer because not one of them
could see me, and I still wanted
them to change. There were still
places where I felt dejected and
rejected, a failure who was entirely
incapable of changing or be-
friending any of them, any more
than I could change myself.
Today I got it.
None of them needed to change
any more than I did.
And with the radical acceptance
of each of them, as they are, not
as I wished they were, I felt
a huge vascular umbilical cord
that had kept me tethered to each
of them for 72 years burn in a flash
of light which was so bright, I
was temporarily struck blind!
I felt so at peace with each of them,
the way they are, as I surrendered
the wish that they be any different
than they are.
Such a lightness of heart and
unfiltered joy filled me to
overflowing.
So how do we know the difference
between who we are here to help
from those whom we cannot?
Well you see, the trick is in
recognizing that you cannot
do anything.
You cannot change anything.
You are not the real Doer.
If it is their destiny to see, you
will feel their ripeness,
readiness and yearning
to see and be free.
Only then does your
presence mean anything
to them.
Did you notice that?
It is your presence that is the
real doer, the presence of
God within you.
You cannot have an impact in
anyone's life who does not
want this just as much for
themselves.
Time for another of daddy's
choice sayings:
You can lead a horse to water,
but you cannot make him
drink.
And more than this, I was
the one with the problem
because I wanted them to
see me.
That was a high stakes poker
game I was never going to
win.
I wanted them to want
what I have discovered for
the sake of all of us when that
is clearly not their destiny.
If it was meant to happen,
it would have.
The fact that it had not was
proof that it was never meant
to be.
Their destiny both was and
is the very life which they are
living now, the life they have
lived since the day they were
born, in the precise manner
in which they are living it.
And it is perfectly okay, in fact,
it is what has always been meant
to be, recognizing that their
destiny does not include me
in anything more than a
peripheral way.
It never has and it never will.
The question is, can I embrace
that?
Can I love and respect everyone's
unfolding, no matter what it is,
including my own?
No one is capable of changing
themselves, or anyone else
for that matter.
It is what it is and what it will
always be in this particular
lifetime.
We are who we are, nothing
more and nothing less.
Not me, not you, nor the world
is capable of changing who
they intrinsically are.
And the truth is, nobody needs
to change!
No one has ever needed to.
When viewed through the lens
of your humanity, you cannot
help but feel that the world
is experiencing a crash course
in death and dying this decade.
But when viewed through the
aperture of the heart, you
recognize the innate perfection
in how life is unfolding.
You cannot help but trust and
marvel at it all!
We are all being who we came
here to be and how we came
here to be.
And my final realization?
I represent a future consciousness
in our present day world, not a
future world, our present world.
And although I had never shared
this memory with anyone other
than my sister, Mary, my favorite
memory of all times from my
childhood was that of lifting her
out of her crib, gathering both
of our teddy bears, a stack of
books and a flashlight so that
I could read to her.
She looked at each picture with
such wrapt attention as I pretended
that I knew how to read.
She was less than one year old
and I was a little over three.
I remember feeling so much love
and adoration for her as I told
her, "I am your big sister. And I
will always protect you from
the monsters and keep you
safe because I love you so
much!"
That was the moment when i
stopped being the real me.
It was when I gave up my agency
and autonomy and became
the actor who tried to survive.
Because in the very next breath,
Daddy came in and put Mary back
into her crib as he yanked me up
by the arm and screamed at
me, "Maybe you don't need
any sleep but the rest of us
do! Leave your sister alone!"
Like I said, future consciousness...
So of course I am going to
encounter resistance, judgment,
fear, rage, and a whole lot of sass!
The best message in all of this?
Keep the pie hole shut. It is your
life and your frequency which
is the message you came to
deliver.
So hands off the human scene,
boys and girls.
There is no problem.
You were never meant to be a
backseat driver.
You are the witness that is
observing the unfolding of
the greatest show on earth!
These are the thoughts that
this heart wished to share
here today.
Soul: It is vital that you remember
to have compassion for yourself
and your siblings.
You cannot blame them for
never seeing you when they were
never capable of doing so.
That was your issue, not theirs.
They were not created to
see or feel who you are.
Notice the not-so-subtle
arrogance in that expectation?
You did not come here to change
them. You came here to love them,
and to love them exactly as they
are.
But like Kenny Rogers said in
the song The Gambler, which
you very much loved, "You got
to know when to hold 'em. Know
when to fold 'em. Know when to
walk away, know when to run."
You have now understood
and are complete with each
of them.
And as you indicated yesterday,
your completion does not
require anything at all from them.
Give them the freedom to be
who they are and to believe
what they believe.
Is this not the very thing that
you want for yourself?
Leave the past in the rear view
mirror. It is not the lens through
which you are to experience
life unless you refuse to let go
of it.
Got that?
me: I certainly do.
Soul: It is certainly wonderful
to see you giddy with happiness.
Joy is contagious!
You are on the perfect timeline
for the perfect destiny for you,
and so is everyone else on
this planet.
It cannot be any other way.
No one can usurp the power
of God.
So be of good cheer today,
for you have overcome yourself.
And in doing so, you have
overcome your history and
your world.
***
Prayer for the Day
I feel so frickin' happy my
cheeks hurt today.
Once again, thank you
for my life.
It has been the perfect life
for me.
Amen
***
03/01/2026
Thought for the Day
The uncommon dialogue
continues...
me: Dear Soul Family:
I found out yesterday that
my brother, Brad, died.
His wife found him dead
slumped over in a chair.
The cause of death was a
massive heart attack.
Although he was 10 years
younger than me, his health
had not been good for a very
long time and he lived with
chronic pain for the past 20+
years, which required in-patient
hospitalization countless times.
As far as I am concerned,
I am happy for him. His
day-to-day struggles are
over.
And he had a beautiful family.
His wife, sons and grandchildren
can attest to that.
Brad was a decent human
being. Peaceful, calm and
loving, no matter what, in
spite of the deep scars
that he carried from the
childhood we endured;
a shared experience one
would think would bond
us together in support of
one another, but instead,
made us behave like
caged feral animals.
What I am trying to say is
that he worked very hard
not to allow his childhood
to define who he would be
as a husband, father,
grandfather, neighbor,
friend, co-worker or even
stranger.
He thought of himself as
a good Christian, in the
truest sense of the word.
Not like one of those
right wing nut jobs who
believe that proselytizing
and brow beatings are
the best means by which
to convert all the heathens
and heretics in this world.
Haven't we all seen enough
violence in the name of
a God who does not exist?
I am not saying there is no
God, I am saying thank god
that that god is enirely
imaginal.
Brad was a gentle giant who
dared to live what he believed,
to let his life do the talking.
I felt a quiet loving strength
in him that kept putting one
foot in front of the other
no matter what.
Who could ever find fault
in a shining life example
such as this?
When life sucks and quality
is no longer there, why
fight for more days, only to
remain here in a body that
no longer allows you to live
comfortably, one which had
long since outlived its
usefulness as a sustainable
and functioning vehicle?
And no matter how much you
feel you have resolved the
past in your own life, no matter
how many respectful words
you can use to cognitively
reframe your experience with
your family of origin, life makes
certain that life events unfold
in such a way that you are
forced to take another trip
down memory lane when
the soul says it is time for
you to do so again.
I had to look once again at
the life choices and decisions
I had made, weigh them
carefully, and listen to what
my heart was telling me
was the next most peaceful
thing to do.
I have considered it a right
of passage to have made
the decision to terminate
entirely all contact with my
family of origin early in the
pandemic.
Then sibling #1 died, my
sister Katie, the youngest
of all three girls, and this
had been no surprise.
After all, as my father used
to say about her, she rode
life hard and put it away wet.
So I was called to open
Pandora's box briefly
when she passed away
3 years ago in support of
her three daughters.
So many people feel tied to
their families and do not have
the courage to end relationships
which are toxic, unloving, and
neither supportive or healthy,
in favor of loving oneself.
It is a proud moment of
victory when you are no
longer willing to place
yourself in a sweatbox of
dysfunction, subjecting
yourself to endless cruelty,
where one is always placing
themselves directly in the
line of fire.
How many times do you have
to play the victim card before
you realize that you are no longer
a victim, you are a volunteer?
And not only a volunteer, but
one who does not love themselves
or they would never put them-
selves into such a position in
the first place!
No one says you have to keep
tolerating the intolerable in
the name of honoring certain
relationships which you are
told are sacred, to people
who are cruel, abusive and
unkind.
People who will fight you over
the most mundane things at
any time, but will never stand up
for you or challenge the in-
appropriate and out of line
in your name?
I know that a lot of this is cultural,
and parts of it are generational
but mostly I feel that it is religious
brainwashing which keeps us
trying to pound the square peg
into the round hole, seeking
love and approval from people
who do not have the capacity
to love you in return because
they do not love themselves.
And why?
All in the name of honoring
father and mother and being
there through thick and
thin for siblings, come hell or
high water, when they have
never been there for you
a single time in your entire
life?
I call bullshit.
I worked hard to make peace
in my heart with my family.
And I discovered that this did not
require them to want peace
with me.
For a very long time, I truly
believed that there could be
no peace until they wanted it
as badly as I did.
But as our father also was fond
of saying, you cannot make
a silk purse out of a sow's ear.
And one blessed day, in June
of 2020, after a series of email
exchanges with my sister, Mary,
I decided that the most loving,
kind and supportive thing that
I could do for myself was to
block all forms of communication
with my siblings and accept
that it was no one's responsibility
to love me other than my own.
As I said, I made exceptions
for Katie's three daughters,
knowing that they would miss
having a mother figure in
their lives.
But with time, this became
too painful to continue when
they lied, stole, broke promises
and were found with no more
integrity than that of their mother,
my little sister.
It is so sad that it takes some
of us so long to grow up, while
some of us never begin.
While this decade has been one
of unending chaos, mayhem,
uncertainty, political unrest,
the highest suicide rate in
recorded history with more
people going postal, wars,
the crumbling of our democracy
and its moral center, as well
as the massive repercussions
from climate change and global
warming, I have managed to
flourish in an unparalleled degree
when compared to every other
decade I have experienced in
my lifetime.
I am happy and joyous, and
by golly, I am free!
Yes, I have lost a best friend
of almost 30 years, I have
experienced the death
of her little dog of 17 years
who became mine until
her passing in May of 2025.
I have experienced the closing
of the doors of my 501c3
which had been my heart and
my life for the past 25 years.
And I have experienced many
health challenges which included
a stroke,a third degree heart
block, receiving a pacemaker
which was necessary to keep
my heart beating and cancer.
In spite of all of this, I enjoy
the most dynamic and
fulfilling life that I could
ever dream of or imagine.
I am happy and peaceful
every single day, and I know
the loving companionship
of my Soul!
So I write this thought today
in honor of my brother,
Brad.
Little brother, I wish you
happy trails and smooth
seas as you embark on the
next chapter in the journey
of soul.
I love you with all of my heart.
Feel free to pay me a visit
from time-to-time, whenever
you feel an itch to do so.
My heart and my home are
always yours.
your big sis,
pelkyong
Soul: These are the loving
words from one who has
a heart as big as the world
and the wisdom to match
it.
May you all experience
peace today, pressed down
and running over.
Let's keep it on pause
today, shall we?
***
Prayer for the Day
Be at peace, beloved
brother.
You got me, when no
else ever took the
time to even look,
let alone listen.
I'll be joining you soon
enough.
Keep my seat warm for
me, will you?
xoxo
***