Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I can't believe it is

already the last day of

the month.

 

This year has flown by

so quickly!

 

Soul: You are feeling the

effects of the Celestial

Speedup which we have

spoken of several times

before.

 

This is the final decade

of the reign of fear

on this planet, a most

exciting time to be

alive, wouldn't you

say?

 

me: It is...

 

It very much is...

 

However, there are times

I feel more than a bit

josseled about by how

quickly things can change

and how surprising, and

at times shocking, things

can be.

 

But do I question what is?

 

Not anymore.

 

Surprised at times but never

doubting...

 

All is unfolding in Divine

Order and I am not here

to change or fix the world.

 

I am here to be a lighthouse

for all that is.

 

That's the long and short

of it.

 

So what are you sharing

about today?

 

Soul: I want to offer a

statement that reflects

truth succinctly and

reveals the only thing

which truly matters...

not only in this world,

but through all space

and time.

 

Only LOVE is

remembered.

 

When this life is over

and you leave this world

behind, it will not be your

accomplishments you

remember.

 

It will not be what you

left undone.

 

Nor will it be your body

and the life which you

believed was yours,

or the loved ones you left

behind that darken your

awareness.

 

Only the LOVE which you

shared with your world

will be remembered.

 

I would like you to remem-

ber this as you go about

your day today.

 

You place so much value

and importance upon

things which do not

really matter, for they

have no eternal signifi-

cance.

 

Use this thought to redirect

the focus of your attention

onto that of consciously

sharing the LOVE that you

are with all your world,

for this is the living sub-

strate of everything

which is.

 

me: Thank you for that

reminder.

 

The ego loves complexity

and feels most secure when

we are chasing our tails!

 

Soul: To keep the heart

and mind steadfastly

attending to the only thing

that truly matters in this

world is the real GIFT

of the season and your

raison detre' as the

French would say.

​​

***

​

Prayer for the Day

 

May the epitaph read:

 

She lived as LOVE while

she was here, constantly

sharing the light which is.

 

Sharing peace with every

heart, love in all the moments

of her days.

 

Boundless joy and trust

were her only treasures.

 

She did not fear life.

She did not fear death.

​

How could these be 

considered real

when one is immortal?

​

The only thing worthy

of empowerment

is God.

​

The only thing

which is real, is God.

 

Amen

​​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: I would like to

share the most powerful

of all prayers and it is

actually one that was

uttered by you more

than two and a half

decades ago.

 

The words themselves

are  entirely unimportant.

What matters is the

sincerity with which

the prayer is offered.

 

In your case, the prayer

was uttered so deeply,

so earnestly, and with

such honesty and self

awareness.

 

The reason the universe

waits to hear this prayer

is because it is the first 

sign hallmarking a true

desire to be free and

the willingness to be

shown where freedom

is found, even when

that differs from your

own agenda for your life

and the lives of those

you love most.

 

In other words, one

becomes truly teach-

able for the first time

in their lives.

 

There is nothing as difficult

to relinquish than that of  

the ego's (and particularly,

the spiritual ego's) will

that thinks it has the power

to choose because it

knows best and it wants

things its way.

 

Before this, your desire

for freedom gets lost in

many different things

that have little to do with

freedom.

 

It hallmarks the decision

to walk through the door

which is marked truth.

 

Here is the prayer....

 

I no longer fear the truth

but give it welcome.

 

Amen

 

Do you remember it?

 

me: Of course I do.

 

I even wrote it down and

put the date on it when

it rose from my throat.

 

And I did that because

I knew, instinctively,

that is was an important

prayer.

 

It was an entirely organic

prayer which felt like

someone else had actually

uttered it besides me.

 

Yet at the same time, I

knew it represented

the most earnest longing

and complete readiness

of my heart.

 

Soul: Yes. It is a prayer

which, when truly uttered,

captures the attention

of the entire cosmos.

 

All creation pauses.

 

And everything in all

creation is grateful

for you and rejoices.

 

Three things are musts

for truth to enter in;

immaculate, unchangeable

and forever free:

 

(1)

 

You must consciously allow

truth to fill the entirety

of your vibrational field.

 

This means that there is

no room for delusion,

illusion or error.

 

This is not because you

are expected to be

perfect as the ego defines

perfection, although you

already are perfect

as you are according to

my definition of perfection.

​

We are the literal self

extension of the one

who reached endlessly

into time and space to

bring itself from the state

of emptiness into form.

​

Being made from it,

how could you be com-

posed of anything other

than star stuff?

 

In the beginning, this

is a stop gap measure

so you can no longer

delude and loose

yourself in the endless

quagmire of self-

deception you taught

yourself in this world.

 

But the major reason

is to broadcast your

light into this world

on high beams.

 

(2)

 

Distraction must no longer

hold any sway over you

whatsoever.

 

It must be clearly seen

that you are the only one

who ever empowered

the things which you

allow to distract you

in the first place.

​

You are not a victim, you

are a very willing volunteer.

 

(3)

 

You must authentically

and genuinely fall in love

with yourself, realizing that

you are and have always

been your one and only

soulmate.

 

I realize that the ego

loathes and despises

all musts, but until

you are entirely ready

to accept these three

things, you are not

ready for the truth.

 

You are not ready to

be free.

 

For it is only with

the total embodiment

of all three of these

that you recognize

that Truth is yours

and always has been.

 

Reflect sincerely and

honestly on these things

today.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

​

How ready am I to

stop playing games

with myself?

 

Empower this question

within my heart of

hearts today, that I

might be honest with

myself about what

is true for me.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Let's keep it uber

simple today.

 

I would like to pose one

question for all who stop

by here to begin their

day.

 

Here goes:

 

If I no longer allow anything

of this body, anything of

this mind or anything of this

world to distract me

from the living presence

of the Divine within me,

why in the h-e-double

toothpicks would I allow

anyone or anything else

to do so?

 

Huh?

 

Freedom isn't really free,

now is it, if it costs

anything whatsoever.

 

Always there, always free,

always mine.

 

Soul: Unshakeable peace

is the unwavering

experience of the ONE

who sees thusly.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

​

Can't touch this.

 

(Besides, there isn't anything

other than this, now is

there?)

 

Thank you for cutting the

tether that kept me

attached to the idea

of an illusion

outside.

 

The real illusion was that

there even was an outside

that was possible, when

​there is no outside!

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Clearly, you have

something you wish to share

today as do I, so you go

first.

 

me: Thank you for that.

 

Yesterday was a beautiful

day and I was aware of two

distinct experiences.

 

There is a difference between

a do nothing day in which

you are adrift, lost in space or

distraction, flitting your way

through life like a bumble

bee from one flower to

the next....

 

...and that of a do nothing day

in which you consciously

lose yourself entirely in rapt

devotion and communion

with you, dear soul.

​

Here, it is clearly recognized

through the feelings of

the heart that we are ONE

and the same.

​

I know this because I know

you and I know myself.

​

I cannot tell where you begin

and I end and vice versa.

 

I clearly experienced that

the largest of all distractions

was identification as me,

myself and I.

 

I keep coming back to the

Zen koan that says, "If a tree

falls in the forest, does it make

a sound?"

 

No me, no problem.

 

If there is no me, there is no

forest to make a sound either.

 

And then a question arose,

seemingly from out of right

field.

 

If you knew beyond all shadow

of doubt that there was a space

and a place of love within your

own heart, a love which asks

nothing yet gives all in every

single instant, why on earth

would you allow anything of

this body, anything or this

mind, or anything of this world

to ever distract you again

regardless how noble or

compelling you thought it

was?

​

That is all this mind, body

and world is actually....

​

A runaway team of Trojan

horses. In other words,

an endless horde of countless

distractions and reactions

in which one is invited

to lose themselves utterly..

 

That question actually

stopped me dead

in my tracks.

 

That's all I wanted to share.

 

Soul: That is lovely.

 

And it was and is the whole

point of our sharing from

yesterday.

 

Today, in this nation, is

celebrated as a day of

Thanksgiving, family

and the recognition of

bounty and blessing.

 

And the one message

which I wished to share

with you was that gratitude

is not something you can

cultivate or manufacture.

 

Composing lists of things

for which you feel grateful 

is an example of this belief.

 

Gratitude, if you have ever

truly experienced it, is an

energy which arises organically

from within one's heart of

heart's.

 

It is a delicate and fragile

tenderness which arises

when one recognizes

the tenuous and fleeting

nature of one's existence in

the realm of form and that of

all form and phenomena.

 

So do not take for granted

that your tomorrow is

going to be a given.

 

Nor that the faces you

encounter  round your

tables on this day will

ever be seen by you again

while you or they are yet

embodied.

 

For life, and the GIver of life

who is LIFE ITSELF, is the

only thing truly worthy of our

constant appreciation and

devotion.

 

Happy Thanksgiving one

and all.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

​

Gratitude and profound

appreciation for

the One Life which

is living us all.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Sometimes you just

need to give yourself a

break, something you are

not very good at giving

yourself.

​

To do nothing incites

your FOMO into states

of riot!

 

The best way to spend

the day is to just stop...

breathe slowly and

lovingly, catching the

thread of peace... resting

fully in the pregnant

pause which exists

between everything.

 

This is how one lives

the mystery moment

by moment...

 

Give yourself a day off

today....two days in a

row for that matter...

and humbly reflect on

nothing... You are here

to take rest in the peace

which fills your heart

and blesses your days...

 

Can you imagine loving

yourself so much that this

is the gift you actually

give yourself, not just

today, but every day,

that of permission to

do nothing but be?

 

These moments we share

are beautiful.

 

I love them.

 

But why are you always

pushing, striving to move

forward?

​

Never mistake more

for either depth

or quality.

​

They are not the same,

beloved.

 

You can well afford to

stop and smell the roses

with me today.

 

You see, it is never "I" who

pushes you so, it is you

who are constantly

pushing yourself.

 

More than a bit of a slave

driver, are you not?

 

How quickly you

forget you need do

nothing...that you can

do nothing other than

get in your own way.

 

This has been said often

enough.

 

But I sincerely ask you,

have you ever stopped 

everything entirely?

 

Not just all the activity 

of life and living, but

mind, body and emotions

resting completely iin the

stillpoint of equipoise?

​

What you feed with

your attention only grows

in your awareness.

 

What you call your reality...

 

What you call your life...

 

...has absolutely nothing

to do with who you really

are.

 

Why is this never the part 

of you that you allow

yourself to enter into

joyfully?

 

Allowing IT to welcome

you home where you

dissolve fully and

remember eveything

you only believe you

forgot?

 

Why keep pushing?

 

And who is the one who

pushes so?

 

And why?

 

Could it simply be

thought of as a delay

tactic?

 

You are not really

a person, my dear.

 

You never have been

and you never will be.

 

You are the infinite

experiencing your being

within the domain of

a human form.

​

That human vessel is

no different than the

automobile you drive.

a vehicle of experience.

 

To lose sight of this by

becoming obsessed with

the experiences unfolding

and mistaking yourself

for a an entity you refer

to as me, the one who

is experiencing this is to

miss the target entirely.

 

You need not strive for

anything.

 

If it is meant for you, it

cannot miss you.

 

And if it is not, there is

nothing you can do

to make what happens

go your way.

 

In other words, what you

seek is not something

which you can ever

attain regardless how

hard you try.

 

It is something which you

allow yourself to receive.

 

For that you need stillness,

space, do nothing days,

quietude and time within

where you turn the world

off for awhile...

 

This is not meditating,

for meditating is simply

another doing.

 

Is meditation infinite,

eternal or immortal?

 

No doing is an expression

of the Infinite. It is yet

another means of

distraction.

 

Just another experience...

 

How can an action

initiated by the dream 

self lead you to the

Immortal?

 

Is this not trying to

bring truth to 

the illusion of you

whilst continuing to

hang onto the false?

 

This is yet another

experience which you

will either approve of

or disapprove of, based

on judgments which

you alone make, a

not so clever means

to judge yourself

as well as the ex-

perinece.

 

But resting inwardly

and silently... combined

with your permission

and blessing, will reveal

that you need do nothing

to be you.

 

Lay down your attempts

to understand or achieve

more before you are

worthy and ready to be

ready.

 

Haven't you been being

you all along?

 

Beloved, the only thing

on which you wait is

your own permission

to be you now and know

that is always enough.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

​

Today is defintely a

"yes" day.

 

Today I give myself

permission to be all

that I am right now.

 

No distactions.

 

No games.

 

No delay tactics.

 

I give welcome to all

that I am.

 

How simple and sweet

is that?

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Good morning...

 

Don't you LOVE these

times we share, communing

with one another?

 

me: I do. I really really do,

and as time goes on, I love

these times even more

because I love myself more

and I know that you are the

true and infinite part of me.

 

What would you like to share

today?

 

Soul: Let's talk about your

biology.

 

So many of your friends are

experiencing health chal-

lenges, you have experienced

and are experiencing health

challenges and you read,

hear or experience things

each day such as, Donald

Trump engaging in another

midnight rant on "X" about

who knows what this time...

 

I have already offered you

many suggestions on how to

relate to the body and what

it has to show you each

and every day about

yourself.

 

The body is always speaking

to you. It does this through

sensations and symptoms

as well as experiences.

 

Every single bodily experience

is an invitation to hit your

pause button and ask,"What is

it that you are trying to share

with me?"

 

Your body is always listening

to you.

 

It cannot and does not act

independent of your mind

and feelings.

 

When you are upset, when

you have skin in the game,

when unhappiness and un-

satisfactoriness are on the

horizon of your mind, do not

be the least surprised when

your body wants to remind

you what you have been

and are still up to.

This is happening because

you are unconscious.

 

This is happening because 

you are not aligned with 

your heart.

 

Yes. It is true that you have

a particular destiny to

experience in this life and

that is the script which you

wrote for yourself before

time began.

 

There will be certain

experiences, both

bodily and otherwise,

that are part of this 

destiny, a destiny

which cannot be

changed and that

includes both when

and how you will

actually die,leaving

this world entirely

behind.

 

But how you experience

what you think of as you

and your life is up to you.

​

And this is a decision

which you make each

moment.

 

Please listen closely to

these words and take

them to heart:

 

You are the one who is

creating your biological

state.

 

You are doing this each

moment when you deny

what is true for you, and

when you believe that

you need something from

others, when you defend

yourself, when you try to

explain or justify anything.

 

The vast majority of your

so-called physical experi-

ences will cease and desist

when you start taking

responsibility and account-

ability for feeding the body

with a steady diet of high

octane hormones and

neurotransmitters

born of the need to make

everything in your life both

dramatic and complex.

 

In other words, making

mountains out of

mole hills, frenetically

playing the game of

Chicken Little and

Russian Roulette with

your life.

 

Even in those rare

instances when they do

not seem to be working

out, it no matters to you

because you know that

whatever is happening is

restoring balance and

harmony both within

and without and it

always turns out okay

no matter what.

 

After all, this is just an

experience...

​

It is just happening.

 

It has a beginning.

 

It has a middle.

 

And it has an end.

 

It's just an experience.

 

This is the contextual

framework to hang every

experience within.

 

Not only are all experiences

impermanent, you are no

longer the one who is sitting

in the driver's seat trying

to exercise control over

things you have no control

over.

 

You are not giving up

control.

 

You are giving up the illusion

that you ever had any in the

first place.

 

You are perfectly content to

sit in the back seat and go

along for the ride as a

passenger.

 

And by the way, this is not

happening to you.

 

Because you, my dear,

are always Infinite.

 

Does it appear to be

happening?

 

Yes.

 

But is it eternal?

 

No.

​

Is it happening to the Infinite

and Eternal being who is

the only YOU there is?

​

No.

​

So is it actually happening

to you?

​

Or it it happening to the

fictional character you

created in order to survive?

​

Did that character ever

actually exist anywhere

besides your imagination

or the imaginations of

other fictional characters

that populate your world?

 

You will be surprised to see

what is yours to experience

when you are no longer

aligned with the fictional

character you created in

order to survive.

 

me: I get it.

 

What I have been calling me

and my life has nothing to do

with Me at all.

 

It's just an experience.

 

And the whole point of every

experience is to bring harmony

and balance back to myself

and this world.

 

Soul: Even in what you

would judge to be the most

challenging situations

and circumstances, what

is happening serves one

purpose: To bring harmony

and balance back to your

awareness.

 

How is this accomplished?

 

This experience is urging

you to return your attention

back to your heart, back to

the love that you are, back

to the presence of the

Divine within you.

 

The experience is highlighting

those areas within you that

are screaming loudly for

your loving kindness and

attention.

 

It is remarkable that LOVE

was willing to paint it on a

billboard when necessary

so that you could no longer

pretend that you could not

see what you were doing

to yourself.

 

LOVE goes to every length 

because that is just how big

and all-inclusive LOVE is.

 

You are being called to such

an extraordinary life of

utter transparency, grandeur

and magnitude that nothing

has the capacity to cling to

you, let alone rattle your

proverbial cage.

 

Every day ask yourself,

how can I expand my love

for myself even more?

 

If you can master this,

then you will know something

of what it means to live a life

by your own agency.

 

me: Wow. I need to stop

here because my mind

and my heart have been

going off like fireworks

on the fourth of July!

 

Thank you.

 

I know you do not expect

gratitude from me, but how

can I not feel an over-

whelming sense of gratitude

for all of this when it's so

much more than any human

heart can hold and more

than this particular human

being could ever imagine

was possible?

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

​

Thank you.

 

I now know what it means

to live soul-fully and

there is never enough

thanks that I could

express for all of that.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: I would like for us to

chat today about something

which is so deeply engrained

in the human psyche.

 

As long as you feel beholding

to anyone for anything,

you are a victim.

 

You have lost yourself

in victim consciousness.

 

Remember how your human

father told you many times

each day, "Never be beholdin'

to anyone?"

 

Although that advise initially

appears to be sound, in truth,

it is a very dualistic perspective

of life that fans the flames of

separation, differences and

destroys trust.

 

It represents a misunderstanding

of the true nature of giving,

having and receiving.

 

Giving....

 

Do you realize that you have

not given a thing if you expect

to get anything in return?

​

Giving is not an exchange,

it iis not a case of quid pro

quo, nor is it meant to be

an act of collaboration.

 

A gift is given with an open

hand that then forgets

that it has been given.

 

What they do with that gift

and how they actually feel

about it or you is one of

your concern once it has

left your hand.

 

Giving does not mean you

have lost something while

the other person has gained.

 

It means that heaven's justice

has been served because both

receive and are blessed in

the exchange.

 

Having....

 

Now this one is extremely

counter-intuitive to most

human beings.

 

Your world conditions

and brainwashes you into

believing that the only way

to truly have something

is to hoard it all for yourself

and protect it from the

ever present potential of

loss from the greedy white-

knuckled fist of others

who are waiting in the

sidelines... You know, the

ones who are always out for

themselves and would take

advantage of you in a

heartbeat if you gave them

half a chance to do so.

 

Contrary to what you have

been trained to believe

is true, the only way to

ensure that you have

something is to give it

away.

 

You cannot actually lose

anything that is real.

 

No one can.

 

I want you to really reflect

on the things you chase

in this world, the things

you work so one-pointedly

on and with such persistence

and devotion in order to

acquire.

 

Can you take any of these

things with you when you

leave this world behind?

 

Has there ever been a

single human being who

has managed to escape

the inevitability of the

death of the body when

you leave this world

behind?

 

How much of what they

amassed over the course

of their lifetime were

they able to bring with

them?

 

Beloved, you did not

come here to get

anything.

 

How can you, the very

one who hung the stars

in the heavens, actually

get or acquire anything?

 

You came here to give...

 

Pelkyong, what do you

feel you came here

to give?

 

me: My heart, my love,

my light, my peace....

which is a round about

way of describing

my presence.

 

I am here to remind

the world of what has

always been within

the tabernacle of every

heart...beyond the clamor

of the world's expectations

and chaos.

 

Not through my words,

but through how I live

the life which is mine to

live.

 

Soul: You have succinctly

described what is your

lane, your wheel house.

​

When you forget that,

you suffer....but only

100% of the time.

 

And why is there

suffering?

 

Suffering is the body's

way of reminding you

that you have strayed

into the the weeds

and to return to your

heart where there is

real peace.

 

Receiving...

 

If you would just accept

that you need not be con-

cerned about anything

because you already have

and are everything, you

would find that the universe

has always and will always

provide for you in ways

beyond any plan you could

come up with on a human

level.

 

When you know that you

are loved, that you were

created by love, for love

and love is all there is,

what is there not to trust?

 

How could you entertain

for even a nanosecond

that you will not be lovingly

provided for as will everyone

and everything else that is

manifest?

 

me: All I can say is that the

fruit of all these dialogues

has been a relaxing into life,

a trusting in the unfolding

of what is, and a realization

that I am not the doer of

anything, YOU ARE.

 

Soul: I love the fact that

you have made a decision

to cease fear and worry

in favor of love and trust.

 

Life is only as difficult or

challenging as you want

make it on yourself.

​

Did you notice that?

​

The difficulties which

you encounter in life

are your chosen means

of punishing yourself

through the meanings

and interpretations of

what is that you provide,

combined with the de-

cision to frighten

yourself.

 

Why not let go and trust?

 

Does anyone have any

compelling evidence,

any real and substantial 

data points that suggest

you should not?

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

​

I was thinking about

when I was five and

an adult friend of my

father's scolded me

for being such a 

worry wart.

 

May all the world

lay their worries

aside today and just

allow themselves to

be happy.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I can tell that there

is something important

that you would like to

share today, and there is

also something I would

like to share as well.

 

Shall we draw straws?

 

Soul: Not at all necessary.

By all means, you go

first.

 

me: Fine then.

 

I just wanted to provide

an addendum to yester-

day's reflections.

 

The net result of me taking

all of my power back

has been the death of

believing I need a teacher

or a guru, scripture, book

or a religion, a special

friend, a family that wants

me or anything else for

that matter.

 

I loved the way Geshela

explained karma.

 

He said to imagine yourself,

your life and your world

being this giant house with

an infinite number of rooms,

doors, cupboards, closets,

floors, balconies and patios.

 

Every action, whether it is

a thought, word or deed,

has a throwing action

which tosses us into a dif-

ferent room or locale

of that house.

 

Here there will be new

experiences, outcomes

and opportunities.

 

And my big ahha from

taking my power back

was the end of searching,

seeking, gurus, teachers,

teachings, paths, practices

and religions.

 

How could I need or get

something from any

source outside myself

when I already am and

have everything?

 

This is HUGE for me be-

cause I always felt I needed

all those things and have

traveled to or lived on

every continent, slept on

the ground, had no clean

food or water, no medical

care, etc., in order to 

surround myself by people

who I felt had achieved

something I had not and

could direct me in how

to achieve that same

goal.

 

I put this body through

many hardships to try to

attain something which

I had never lost, nor could

I ever lose because

I suffered from the cruelest

of all states: perpetual

FOMO.

 

And the end of all that

frenetic searching and

seeking is an over-

whelming and ex-

hilarating discovery

of a FREEDOM which

had always been there,

simply overlooked

because others had

convinced me I needed

to be different.

 

This was a terribly 

heavy weight to carry

through life and

an impossible burden

to bear.

 

Now I recognize that

the only thing that

I can truly do is live

my life to the max

every single day

because this is the

means through which

I let my light shine.

 

And letting my light shine

for all the world to see is

the only reason I am here.

 

This is all I really wanted

to say.

 

Soul: Well that is beautiful.

 

Beautiful and effortless.

 

You have begun to grasp

how much time, energy

and resources it takes to

chase an illusion and keep

that house of cards intact.

 

More importantly, you

have realized that it does

not work, no matter how

hard you try to make it so.

 

It is supremely effortless

to actually be you and

do you, beloved.

 

So switching gears

a bit here, I wanted to share

about breath awareness

with you.

 

For at least the past 50 years,

your teachers and guru's

emphasized the importance

of breath awareness.

 

Breath awareness keeps you

anchored in the present

moment.

 

And Baba used to tell you

that breath awareness is

Self awareness, breath

mastery is self mastery

and breath consciousness

is God Consciousness.

 

To date, no one on this

planet has ever touched

on the most important

reason why breath

awareness is not only

powerful but vital.

 

Would you like to know

what that is?

 

me: Yes.

 

Soul: The answer is so

simple and so obvious

that when you hear it,

you will be shocked that

it had not already occured

to you.

 

The purpose of breath

awareness is to redirect

the focus of your attention

from that of the mind

and your preoccupation

with what is happening

in your life or the world,

or what others are doing

and to bring your awareness

back to your own inner

experience of life, namely

that of your heart and

the love that you are.

 

me: Oh, my God...

 

You are so right!

 

So simple, yet so amazing!

 

So obvious!

 

Yet it never ever occurred

to me.

 

Wow... For someone who

likes to think of themselves

as being smart, this has

totally escaped me.

 

Soul: Well, now you have

a very important reason

to slow your life down

even more and watch your

breath.

 

As you know, the average

human being breathes

over 25,000 breaths

in a 24 hour period.

 

I have shared many times

during the course of our

conscious relationship

with one another that

every breath taken with

awareness is taken with

me.

 

And every breath that

escapes your awareness

is taken engrossed in

ego, or the persona.

 

Breath awareness is the

bridge which connects

matter and spirit where

they are recognized as

one.

 

Breath awareness is

the key to your heart,

and it awakens the

capacity to bring heaven

to earth.

 

Breath awareness is

the means by which you

consciously share your

light with this world.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

This is the life...the very

life of life...and it is

all mine.

 

Rejoice!

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: You guessed it.

 

I want to speak with you.

 

I feel a burning desire

to share.

 

Soul: The floor is always

yours. Have I ever let you

down, disappointed you,

refused to listen?

 

Am I not your biggest

and most loyal fan?

 

me: No, you haven't

ever let me down or steered

me wrong, and yes, I love

how you are such a cheer-

leader for me, especially

in moments of doubt.

 

I am fully supported by

you, which means that I

am fully supported by

myself.

 

Yesterday, I asked someone

who I trust how these TFTD's

are going from them and

they shared that ever since

I opened up with my world

when I shared my grief

over the death of Pam, and

she specifically said when

I started writing from my

heart, that she and her life

partner have really looked

forward to the TFTD each

day and they have meant

a lot to them.

 

But you know, it was in

2000 when I woke up

in the middle of the night

and shot out of bed like

a bottle rocket because

I thought someone had

broken into the house

and shot me in the heart

and I could literally feel

liquid pouring out of the

center of my chest, which

I thought was blood.

 

But when I turned the

ceiling light on, I saw

nothing.

 

It did not hurt at all

at that time.

 

Yet that fluid continued

pouring out of the center

of my chest for hours.

 

And since then, I have

felt my heart burning,

like it was literally on fire!

 

This has not been a plea-

sant burning to experience,

btw. 

​

But you have always taught

me to be greateful.

​

Often, we cannot see the

blessing in what is happening

in our life experience until

we are further down the road

and have a more enlightened

perspective on things.

 

I felt an instant connection

with the images of Jesus,

Mother Mary and the saints.

 

Especially those with holy

cards which contain images

of the heart on fire as well as

those which show a dagger

plunged into the physical

heart.

 

I thought that all those

artists knew something

firsthand that the vast

majority of human beings

do not.

 

When the heart is pierced,

you remain hopelessly

its servant.

 

Your life, from that moment

onward, will be a heart

centered life and the heart

will forever be in control of

what you think of as your life.

 

My point in all this sharing

is but to say that I have

felt that I have always been

sharing from my heart.

 

Apparently others have not

experienced me that way.

 

But what I will share that

has been noticeably and

increasingly different each

day is what has happened

since the piercing of the veil.

 

Truly, it is the gift that keeps

on giving.

 

I no longer experience any

connection to this world.

 

I am certainly experiencing

it, but more from a perspective

which is above it.

​

From here, neutral is all

one can be.

 

It's there. And I am here.

 

But nothing has any power

over me.

 

I already have myself, I am

complete. What could any-

one or anything add to or

take away from that?

 

Since that moment, I no

longer feel the heart

burning.

 

In fact, I cannot say I feel

the heart at all...not even

enough to be able to

locate it.

 

At times it feels as though I

am in front of the body or

above it and at other times

I am entirely non local.

 

Yet I am there...witnessing

everything from a perspective

of eternal equipoise and calm.

 

Joyful, happy, fairly exploding

with love.

 

Causeless happiness.

 

Directed toward nothing

in particular, yet pouring

itself out, surrounding

and embracing all things

without qualification.

 

Everything is so dear and

so precious to me.

 

Heart stopping and heart

achingly precious...

 

I am the candle that does

not flicker in the wind.

 

Not part time, ALL THE

TIME.

 

There is a felt experiencing

of the body which is changing

in every moment now.

 

The body is no longer being

informed and influenced by

what happens to me or others.

​

Spirit is its one and only 

informant.

 

When there are no more people,

places and things which hook

you, you are no longer a victim

and that means the body is

now under the full time direction

of Infinite intelligence.

 

I am in command and control

of my life.

​

This translates into the knowing

that no one and no thing gets

to influence or determine

my inner experience of life

but me.

 

I feel such power coursing

through me.

 

Sometimes it is difficult

to fall asleep because I feel

like I sprouted an electrical

cord and someone plugged

me into the nearest outlet.

 

The world can go to hell

in a handbasket and Donald

Trump can tell a reporter

to "Hush, piggy," and I am

neither appalled or afraid.

 

So this is what Tranquil

Abiding feels like...

 

And for this I give thanks

and offer my gratitude

in every single moment.

 

If this is what sharing from

the heart means when I

no longer have a heart,

so be it.

 

Every time I think that life

cannot get any lovelier or

sweeter, it gets amped up

again.

 

Infinity is infinite, after

all...

 

But I absolutely love and

adore my life and there

aren't enough ways to

say thank you for that.

 

I LOVE LOVE LOVE

being me.

 

Soul: You are who you

came here to be

and your life is a living

demonstration of that.

 

Well done!

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Nothing's gonna change

my world...

 

Why?

 

Because I took ALL of

my power back!

 

Can I get an "AMEN?"

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: You have most

certainly been living

these dialogues we have

each day.

 

Would you like to share

what you gained from

yesterday's conversation?

 

me: Sure.

 

I think the very first thing

I would like to say has to

do with the definition of

intimacy.

 

It was in the 1980's that

therapists started saying

that intimacy means "into

me you see."

 

It speaks of a life lived

in openness, honesty

and willingness.

 

That being said, If I can

share from the heart with

all the transparency and

honesty I have within me

for all the world to see,

then so can everyone

else.

 

For me, it all boils down

to motivation.

 

Do I still want to hide, or

am I done with hiding and

defenses?

 

Do I see that it is in our

transparency and willingness

to be vulnerable all the time

that we encounter our

true power?

 

So yesterday...

 

There were four big things,

big for me anyway, that I

received from our sharing

yesterday.

 

First of all, life is always

okay. What si happening is

okay.

 

I have received more phone

calls, texts and emails from

people telling me that their

life is not okay.

 

That what is happening

should not be.

 

If life feels like it is not okay

in any way it is because I am

the one who is not in harmony

with it. I am the one who is

out of sync.

 

Secondly, people have absolutely

no notion of what it means

to be truly alive.

 

The one who is truly alive is the

one who is ready to receive

this moment and all that it holds

unconditionally.

 

Third, only when you are totally

in sync with life, with the present

moment, do you have access

to your world from an Infinite

Resource.

 

This is a vantage point unlike

anything this wold could offer

you. For only here do you have

the capacity to exercise true

self sovereignty and autonomy.

 

And lastly, flitting around the

present moment or door #1

isn't wrong.

 

It's just our chosen mode of

separating ourselves from

life and choosing suffering

instead of life.

 

To tie a bow around all of

this is to say that everything

that happens to us, every-

thing we experience has

but one purpose.

 

In spiritual vernacular, that

is to move us closer to God.

 

In human vernacular, it is to

move us deeper and deeper into

our heart's where we encounter

the love that we are and share

that with our world.

 

Soul: You are really getting

the hang of this.

 

Enough said and shared

straight from the heart.

 

A mantra is given you this

day:

 

Can I accept this?

 

Acceptance of everything,

exactly as it is, is the key

which unlock door #1.

 

Whether inner or outer, this

is your one response to all

of the life which is yours

to experience and live.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

I bow before the isness

which each moment

presents me with today.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: It did not go unnoticed

that yesterday was much

busier than usual, yet you

were joyful, insightful,

happy and light hearted.

 

You had many epiphanies.

 

Would you care to share what

you observed?

 

me: Happy to do so...

 

But honestly, so much was

clear to me yesterday

that there aren't enough

words in the universe to

share what was realized

and integrated.

 

This being said, I will try

to take a stab at it.

 

I think the main thing

that I got was that 100%

of the world is meant to

be a distraction, candy

being dangled in front

of our faces...

 

Will I look?

 

Will I allow myself to

get swept up in plans,

schedules, worries

and conerns?

 

Will I start laying out and

defining what my life will

be for today?

 

Will I immerse myself in

the events of this day

and get so lost in living

the dream that I forget

what matters?

 

Will I pause long enough

for the narrator between

the ears to kick into high

gear and start naming

and describing what is

happening?

 

Then will I let the personal

self start forming out of the

dust of the day so it can be

aware of world and start

giving it my two cents

on everything?

 

Judging, offering advise,

filling the space with

should's and shouldn'ts,

out to's and must's?

 

Is this where and how

I look for my "I"

or truth?

 

From here, will I further

divide the  world into

right and wrong, good

and bad, like and dis-

like, etc..?

 

Or will there be a sense

of gliding my way through

all of life, not pausing

long enough to allow

any of those things to

land or transpire?

 

So how was my day?

 

Nothing landed.

 

Nothing stuck.

 

Remaining entirely

focused on the here and

now, the breath, doing

the next most peaceful

thing and total unquali-

fied raw acceptance.

 

I saw that the world, and

that most certainly includes

friends, family, puppy

dogs and presidents,

are here for one reason:

 

To keep us hooked into

the belief that the dream

is real through the creation

and re-creation of ourselves

and our dream in every

moment.

 

Do we have the willingness

to see where we still have

attachments, distractions

and skin in the game,

regardless how positive,

how loving or important

we tell ourselves this is,

knowing in our heart

of heart's that none

of it is true?

 

Right here and right now

there is always a living

portal or doorway avail-

able to me that I am

invited to walk through.

 

Will I choose door #1, the

portal, or will I choose

door #2, my dream self

and its dream life of

endless distractions

and getting hooked?

 

From here, I clearly saw

the things I use so I can

flit around door #1,

like a moth circling the

porch light on a summer

night, telling myself

a good yarn about being

genuine in my openness

and desire to embody

truth, but yet lie to

myself because I really

love getting caught up

in my dramas and dis-

tractions, and because

most of them are what

I believe to be loving,

necessary and important.

 

And why?

 

So that I can keep telling

myself, "This is the life.....

This is my life...and I am

doing it, I am helping,

I am doing exactly what

I came here to do, I am

in the world but not of it."

 

When truth be told, we

are all always behind

door #1 and we cannot

be anywhere else except

in our minds.

 

Every last one of us...

 

No one can escape the

truth that is always true.

 

They can deny it, they

can be unaware of it

through of distraction,

but they cannot escape

being it all the time...

 

I want to preface all of this

by saying I am trying to

share about things which

are beyond language and

do not readily translate 

into anything intelligible

or audible.

 

Direct experience is the

only thing that validates

something's truthfulness

in our lives.

 

You cannot escape the

truth because you are

the truth, beloved,

every last one of us

is That.

 

How do I feel?

 

This the revelatory ques-

tion which we must learn

to ask ourselves.

 

Every moment.

 

You cannot understand

it, for it is beyond the mind.

And the mind is the mode

of distraction most

chose for themselves.

​

Trying to figure it all 

out...

 

We have to consciously

choose to allow the portal

or doorway to lock onto

us like a tractor beam

and pull us through

that door into Infinity

where we have always

been, even when we used

both our hands to cover

our eyes in order to

pretend that we knew not.

​

These are the make believe

games which children play..

 

What are the things that I

use to distract myself

from feeling that pull

in all the instances of

my life?

 

This is the question that

we must be willing to

honestly ask ourselves

and be bold in our

willingness to see what

we are doing.

 

For it is abundantly clear

and undeniably obvious

in every moment if

we wish to see clearly.

 

Do I consciously live

from inside door #1?

 

Am I living from the part

of me that never changes?

 

Am I abiding in True

North, on the vertical

axis?

 

Or am I lost on the hori-

zontal axis, lost in the

belief that there is a

horizontal axis in the

first place, the living of

my particular dream

character and the so

called life it has built?

 

In the very instant

you encounter anyone

whether it is the hush

of True North you feel

in their presence, or

the the pull of trying

to create the happy

dream.

​

And the biggest of all

dreams?

​

That of spiritual teacher

and spiritual aspirant.

​

100% cockamamy bullshit.

 

From the very beginning

we have placed great

importance on asking

ourselves the question,

"Is peace in my awareness?"

 

Because it is the pull of

peace and radical acceptance

that distinguishes the

difference between door #1

and door #2.

 

So bringing this all home

to myself once again, I

would say that the occasions

which I allow to perplex me

are when I want to do

the right thing and I have

mixed feelings on just what

that is...

 

This is what can keep me

flitting around door #1

ad nauseum, rather than

walking right on through

it and lovingly abiding

tranquilly while living

my life from there.

 

Thus, today is a day to

remain keenly aware

of the pull of door #1

and realize that every-

thing but this is a dis-

traction.

 

Which has my name on it?

 

Is it door #1 or door #2?

 

How do we recognize

one who truly lives

from door #1?

 

Why the mark of heaven

is upon them and they

walk in gentleness

and peace with every

step.

 

They are both human and

transcendent at the same

time.

 

Soul: You have offered

so much here today.

 

Life is never too busy,

nor is anything more

important than to keep

company with me.

 

This is the dotting of

every "i" and the

crossing of every "t."

 

This is the end of all

distractions and the

living of the life abun-

dant where "we" be-

comes "Me" con-

sciously.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Cross the Ocean or

drown in it?

 

I am the only one

who decides.

 

It all unfolds from

the company that

I keep.

 

Beloved Soul that

I am, keep peace

with me, as I keep

peace as thee living

me.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I have something big

on my mind again today.

 

Would you mind if I jump

right on it and share

first?

 

Soul: Of course not.

 

me: You know the number

of folks who have entered

my life, only to leave.

 

Sometimes this has cut deeply.

 

Sometimes I was grateful

they left.

 

And sometimes I accepted it

without difficulty.

 

After all, the soul's journey

is the soul's journey.

 

But one recent departure

has really stuck with me

for the past six weeks or

so and I do not wish to glide

over it and miss the oppor-

tunity to understand some-

thing a bit deeper than

I did before.

 

And let me preface this by

saying that I know this person

will come back into my life

the next time they think

they have need me.

 

How do I know this?

 

They have done it three

times before.

 

It is predictable egoic

behavior.

 

But I am done.

 

I see my decision as

an act of self-love.

 

He was grateful to learn

that he has never changed,

nor could he ever.

 

That's the end of seeking,

searching, suffering,

trying to change yourself

and failing at it miserably.

 

Loyalty to the truth which

is always true has added

much peace into his life

and that of his family.

 

But I saw that he was

avoiding feeling his feelings

and that was causing him

to act out in ways that

obviously created chaos,

confusion and suffering for

himself and for his

family and friends.

 

He picked the path of

ignoring what I said and

letting everyone else

suffer from the fallout

while they valiently

picked up the pieces.

 

When I approached him

on this, he did what he has

done every other time.

 

Run away.

 

Angry.

 

Belligerent.

 

And then he ghosted me

and stopped listening to

anything I had to share and

instructed the people in his

life to do likewise at the cost

of him ghosting them too.

 

This he will not see and he

rather venomously ended things

with no explanation.

 

Gone.

 

A phantom.

 

I told myself that I was being

unconditionally loving to

him by never giving up

on him.

 

But what I did not see until

now is that In the process

of being loving toward him,

always receiving him with

the arms of love, that I was

not being loving with

myself.

 

I had given up on me.

 

No more.

 

I recognize that we each have

developed different coping

mechanisms to deal with

disharmony, friction and

inner dissonance.

 

Seeing this made me want

to look deeper at what

this partiicular personal

self does this morning.

 

What is her M.O.?

 

How does she handle things

when something feels

disruptive?

 

I'm a turtle. I stay in my

shell until things are peaceful

again.

 

I am not saying that I

am wrong.

 

But this is not a conscious

way to live, always retreating

to your cave when life is in-

viting you to look at some-

thing you are dead set against

seeing.

 

As I see it, you are not

complete when your periods

of consciousness are inter-

mingled with frank

unconsciousness.

 

Does this mean that what

you are doing is wrong?

 

Heavens no!

 

But it does mean that you

are not consistent and that can

only mean that you still suffer

and you still bring suffering

to those for whom you care.

 

It was clear that I needed

to be willing to look at two

things:

 

(1) Am I doing this because

I do not feel the resonance

of truth because I am awake?

 

(2) Or am I doing it because

old survival patterns have

taken the wheel? Is this

unconscious ego behavior

from old programming

and conditioning?

 

This is not about changing,

nor is it about being wrong.

 

It is about bringing conscious-

ness to every area of uncon-

sciousness.

 

When we establish any pattern,

be it running away, leading with

our dukes up or going

radar silent, once you establish

that pattern, YOU NEVER

STOP. 

​

It is always your very first

go-to, like a thoroughbred

out of the box at the

Kentucky derby.

 

Man oh man, is this an

unconscious negative

feedback loop.

 

You cannot see what you

do not want to see

and you cannot help someone

who has made a decision

to not see to suddenly want

to do so.

 

Hence, my most recent

disruption with my friend.

 

But damnit. We are having

this human experience

for a reason.

 

And I see that we cannot

compartmentalize our

life experience.

 

If we are to bring the light

of consciousness to all

of our experience, then

we have to be present to

every aspect of the human

experience and bring

that light to whatever

happens to be here

right NOW.

 

It's a seemless fluidity

and continuity.

 

In other words, not

a ripple.

​

No compartmental-

ization anywhere!

 

How is the world to open

their heart's if someone

is not actively demonstrating

an open heart that is present

and responding with love

to everything?

 

I have been mud wrestling

with this issue for 25+ years

now.

 

So has the spiritual market-

place. On this it remains

entirely divided.

​

Two camps.

 

Could you add to the

conversation?

 

Soul: It is clear how

sincerely you have sought

to understand and bring

wisdom and love to

your life and circumstances.

 

And you have tried with

great earnestness to 

assist others through

this morass.

 

That being said, you

are correct.

 

For while you have not,

nor could you ever, change

what you are, you are see-

ing that there is a fine line

between willful avoidance

and using spiritual vernacular

to justify what amounts

to white-washed fear, arro-

gance, separation, com-

partmentization and the

practice of polarity, division

and then calling it enlightened

action.

 

This is painting lipstick

on the pig.

 

A pig is a pig is a pig.

 

What can be said beyond

what I have said to you so

many times before?

 

There is one answer to

every question and that is

love.

 

Is this loving?

 

Ask yourself.

 

Well, is it?

 

If it is not, you can be sure

that you are the one who

is not seeing clearly and

you are not done until

you have allowed your

beautiful heart to inform

all of your responses.

 

This is not difficult.

 

Know that when it feels

as if it is hard, it is because

you are making it that way

and this need not be.

 

Return to the breath!

 

Return to the heart!

 

Whenever anything feels

stressful or difficult, it is

because you are the one

who is making it so be-

cause nothing ever is

if felt and experienced

from the heart.

 

Pause. Breathe. Reflect.

Ask.

 

Again...Is this loving?

 

No matter how you answer

it, you will know your next

loving course of actiion.

​

Clear?

 

me: This is very clear. Thank

you for the reminder.

 

Soul: I think this is quite

enough for today...

 

Lighten up!

 

Keep it simple.

 

Notice the difference

between spinning,

avoiding and receiving.

 

Peace and calm are the

byproducts of presence.

 

The pseudo-peace and

pseudo-calm of the

spiritual ego is defiance,

avoidance and denial.

 

Learn to recognize the

difference.

 

Are they wrong?

 

No.

 

But do they miscreate

which then places a burden

on everyone?

 

Yes.

 

No one and no thing

has the capacity

to pull the wool over

your eyes but your

own mind.

 

That is why you were

given the faculty of

discernment, a byproduct

of wisdom, as opposed

to the ego's M.O. of

judgment.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Pease, blessed peace,

rule this day and

this heart forevermore.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: I can see that you are

champing at the bit  as you

refer to it, because you

want to share.

 

Go ahead. Clearly, you have

something on your mind.

 

me: The most profound

thing...

 

I woke up this morning

and I felt absolutely no fear!

 

Such an amazing lightness

of being. No feeling other

than happiness. Nothing

on the radar. No fluctuations

on the Richter scale of mind,

emotions or body.

 

Just a happy happy day ahead

of me filled with wonder and

endless possibility.

 

I even tried to compose a

mental list of all the things

that still frighten me.

 

And one by one, as I reviewed

each of them, and you know

what?  I could find no fear...

 

I couldn't even muster a fear

when I sincerely tried to do so.

 

Surely I could find something

in there to get worked up about.

 

But nope. Nada. Zip. Zilch.

Nothing there.

 

How amazing is this?

 

The thing that was very clear

to me, and actually many

many things are clear to me,

but the biggy which looms

loud and proud, you know

what that is?

 

It is the fact that I have to

allow myself to be

frightened in order to be

afraid of anything.

 

And I happen to love myself

and my life so much, that

I real eyes that I have

absolutely nothing to be

afraid of.

 

It was completely clear to me

that nothing has the capacity

to frighten me other than

my own mind!

 

And the mind can no longer

do this unless I give it my

blessing and consent to

do so.

 

I have so much joy, it is hard

for me to not feel like I am in

one of those bouncy things

they have for kids to play in

at birthday parties.

 

And from this place I see that

I have never given myself

permission to be blissfully

happy, I have never allowed

life to be good, let alone great.

 

I have never opened my heart

so wide and undefended that

life could rush right on in

and be gracious and kind

to me, and to provide for me

and to bless me more than

I think this heart could

possibly hold.

 

It is so strange, and magnificent

and surprisingly grand!

 

Thank you!

 

Soul: What an amazing thing

it is to no longer be your one

and only enemy, wouldn't

you say?

 

me: It is... It truly is...

 

Soul: And can you also see that

all of this is the fruit of loving

yourself?

 

For only love is big enough to

end the illusory need for

defenses in the first place.

 

Contraction, walls and other

defenses, as well as any other

protective mechanism the

personal self comes up with

are impossible for anyone who

loves themselves.

 

me: I get it.

 

And I truly see that I am the one

who did it all to myself all along.

 

As a good friend of mine is so

fond of repeating, "I am the one

who made this prison cell and

I am the one who is living in it."

​

But no one is ever stuck.

​

We are always invited to begin

to love ourselves...

 

When you think about it, we are

the cell, the prinsoner and the

guard all in one.

 

Oh, the crazy crazy things we

do to ourselves because of

self-hatred!

 

Only owniing up to that and

beginning the journey of

self-love can turn that friget

around and transform it

into a sail boat which only

heads in the direction of

our hearts!

 

How could anyone who loved

themselves actually seek to

practice cruelty and self harm?

 

That is a byproduct of un-

consciousness and self-

hatred to be sure.

 

We are hard-wired to hate

ourselves because of our

programming and conditioning

and to never feel like what

we are or what we do is

ever enough.

​

It's exhausting playing this

game of musical chairs!

 

Soul: You are starting to

experience what it feels like

to live in in a state of

the miraculous all of the

time.

 

And the precious little girl

who prayed with all her

heart to be free is now

beginning to comprehend

and embody the vastness

of what that longing

actually means.

 

Congratulations...

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

I am happy.

 

I am resplendent.

 

I am complete.

 

What more could one

hope for than this?

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: What are we going

to talk about today?

 

Soul: How about we com-

mune a bit about what

it means to bring the state

of presence to yourself

and your world?

 

me: That actually sounds

lovely.

 

Soul: In the course of sharing

the TFTD for the past two

days, while you struggled

finding words to wrap around

a direct experience which is

beyond language, you were

actually describing what it

feels like to bring the state

of presence to yourself

and all of life.

 

It is a profound thing

to meet oneself in

the state of presence;

which is the conscious

manifestation of the living

presence of God.

 

Increasingly, this is

the state in which you

consistently abide,

and this is what you

bring to all of your

world.

 

What have you been

noticing about your

experience?

 

me: Well... I think the thing

which has struck me most

deeply is that it feels like

my heart holds the entire

world so lovingly and gently

and that the world is tiny

in comparison to the

incredible vastness of

my being.

 

Secondly, I feel an urge

to leave people alone.

 

It is this presence, which is

so palpable, that seems to be

impossible to ignore.

 

I realize that this is my true

demonstration.

 

This is what reminds every-

one and everything which

is manifest of the truth which

lies within them, a truth

which is a shared experience

embodied by all of us.

 

There is also a sense that I

am their creator and they

are all my creation.

 

How can you explain what

it feels like to be both gentle

and fierce at the same time?

 

To love my creation as a

mother does her precious

child, so very dear that

no word could possibly

explain?

 

And yet, a willingness to

scorch the earth in a heart

beat when it is the right

thing to do...

 

The profoundly tangible felt

emotional signature of this

experience is that of an

immovable love, joy and

peace.

 

I am really starting to get 

the feeling more and more

that I am this...

 

I am you in this world

and the all that is.

 

This is me. Both form

and formless.

 

I can drill down into, so to speak,

and share as the human being

when it serves a purpose to

do so.

 

But mostly, I am unaware

of the body or the person

in a personal or separate

sort of way.

 

Body, self and world 

abide within me.

 

In spite of this shift, there

is still enough of a sense

of "I" that can drill down

into the body, or any body 

for that matter, and I can

share what is happening

there too if it is important

to do so.

 

But it no longer feels like

I am inside of the body.

​

The body and world are

actually inside of me.

 

These are the basic things

of which I am aware.

 

However, I could probably

go on ad infinitum.

 

Soul: This is really quite

beautiful, and this is the

meaning of the statement

which says that cause

and effect are one.

 

As you make contact with

your innermost being, you

begin to tap into presence,

and the presence within you

grows in the sense of what

you are now ready and able

to bring to the table of life

with consistency and without

limit.

 

Have you ever noticed

this spongy, palpable

energy around you that

draws everything around

it inside of itself, like

images of a black hole

with which you are quite

familiar?

 

me: Exactly!

 

I know exactly what you

are referring to!

 

Soul: Never worry about

these things and encourage

others not to when they

show concern.

 

You are not the real doer.

 

I am the one the is bringing

about this unfolding.

 

And it is my power, my grace

and my might which is

calling this entire world

home at this time in human

history...

 

There is nothing you, as

the human being, can actually

do to either speed this process

up, slow it down or cause it

to stop. 

 

Nor can you or anyone else

be left behind.

 

This is all happening because

of an ancient agreement

and you are always unfolding

in Divine Order.

 

So you have only two in-

structions from now on.

 

(1) Relax more..

 

(2) Yet remain present, alert

and open.

 

In other words, be a quiet

and ever present 

invitation.

 

It sounds impossible that

these two states co-exist,

but they both can and do.

 

But every instant is an

invitation to die, and every

instant is an invitation

to be reborn.

 

Remember riding a horse

as a child?

 

There is a most amazing place

where you are holding the reigns,

while sitting tall in the saddle,

and the reigns are neither too

tight or too loose.

 

Here, both horse and rider

are one, and recognize

that oneness.

 

This is the birthplace of the

miraculous.

 

Here is your truth, the

truth that is always true.

 

For it is here you live and

move and have your being.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

How can I ask you to

live me when you already

and always have and are?

 

Aaahhh.... the endless

wonder of this gift.

 

Thank you.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I would like to introduce

the subject that I would like

for us to talk about today.

 

Perhaps it could best be

thought of as Part 2 to

yesterday's sharing.

 

Soul: Go right ahead.

 

It is all unfolding according

to plan anyway, is it not?

 

I think you are actually

starting to get that now...

 

me: I know this guy who is a

Jungian therapist/author/teacher

named Matt Licatta.

 

I have read his work from time

to time through the years,

especially in the early days of

the pandemic. He is a great

source to listen to.

 

He sent an email out yesterday

to a list of heart centered souls

that actually blew my mind

and heart wide open in such

a beautiful way.

 

I think the ideas that he proposed

(along with mine reflections)

will be quite helpful to anyone

who is trying to live their lives

this way.

 

He pierced this heart in such

a remarkable way, and that is

worthy of sharing.

 

If to teach is to demonstrate,

then this is my attempt to

demonstrate in a relatable

way how to make yester-

day's message actionable.

 

He proposed that since there is

so much war, so much division

and polarization going on in

our world right now, that per-

haps we should consider no

 longer referring to triggers 

as triggers.

 

How about thinking of these

difficult and challenging

emotions and experiences

as touches instead?

 

Like, instead of feeling triggered,

we could realize that we were

being touched by feelings that

have been left unfelt and

unintegrated for a very long

time?

 

How can you actually allow

this to gently unfold within

your being if you are going

at a task with a vengeance?

 

Is this not a time to hit the

pause button and ask oneself,

"Am I on the horizontal axis

or am I connecting deeply

with the vertical, my own

True North?"

 

"If I am using this experience

to connect with people, places

or things, and the feelings 

I am experiencing are all

connected to them, am I not

missing the point of this

opportunity that I am being

shown? Have I not been given

this to experience in a deeply

personal way?"

​

I feel many have not yet faced,

let alone embraced, the fact

that the only one on this planet

is themselves.

​

There is nothing separate and

distinct.

​

All of this is so that I might

love and support myself

even more.

 

How do you share what it feels

like to be still and one with

your own being?

 

Feeling all of life pour itself

into you, merging and mixing

with you entirely?

 

I like this idea. It reminds me so

of Rumi's poem, The Guest House.

 

I am going to share it now because

it is a beautiful reminder and life

example.

 

The Guest House

 

This being human is a guest house.

Every morning a new arrival

 

A joy, a depression, a meanness,

some momentary awareness comes

as an unexpected visitor.

 

Welcome and entertain them all!

Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,

who violently sweep your house

empty of its furniture,

still, treat each quest honorably

He may be clearing you out

for some new delight.

 

The dark thought, the shame,

the malice, meet them at the door

laughing, and invite them in.

 

Be grateful for whatever comes

because each has been sent

as a guide from beyond.

 

Copyright 1997 by Coleman Barks

From The Illuminated Rumi

 

It is such a remarkable thing to no

longer move from the here and now,

to be here, to really and truly be here,

with an open and loving heart,

ready to receive every experience

while being so loving and gentle,

kind and tender with oneself.

 

As Matt says, "no longer enemies

to be managed, but visitors to be

tended..."

 

Here is my vow to myself :

 

I will no longer seek to silence

any part of myself.

 

This just wants to be seen and held

with kindness and respect.

 

"To be touched. Stirred. Summoned.

Activated.Not as pathology, but as

portal."

Matt Licatta

 

This is a call to come HOME.

 

Wow. Just wow.

 

The only question that any of us

need ask ourselves is, "Can I love

myself this much?"

 

And my question for you, dear

Soul, is this:

 

Is there anything else which

has been left unsaid?

 

Soul: This is defintely a TFTD

for the ages..

 

Nicely shared. Straight from

​the heart.

 

Let's leave it at that for today.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

I absolutely love feeling

the experience of deeply

sitting with and being

with me.

 

Grounded, known to

myself, held, watched,

tending, touching...

​

Never judged, criticized,

or spoken to harshly.

 

The only thing greater

than becoming me is

actually being me.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: I am so happy with how

things are unfolding for you.

 

Are you happy?

 

me: I am.

 

Soul: You are beginning to

receive messages from the

other planes of consciousness

effortlessly with greater

frequency now, as well as

learning how to translate

the language of frequency

into words.

 

I want you to work with this

daily and I encourage you

to bring up any questions

you have along the way.

 

Be sure to share any message

which seems pertinent

to your heart to share.

 

Otherwise, we will wait until

you have a bit of experience

under your belt and feel

more confident before going

deeper.

 

Are you in agreement with

this plan?

 

me: It sounds perfect. I was

concerned about moving

any faster than what is hap-

pening right now because 

that would give me no time

to work with this until I feel

entirely comfortable with

the process.

 

So thank you. What will we

be talking about today?

 

Soul: Do you remember

when Geshela ordained

you that he told you that

for the remainder of your

life you would comfort

the disturbed and disturb

the comfortable?

 

me: Of course I remember

it. I am the one who has been

living it 24/7/365.

 

But that was and is nothing

new for me. It has been

happening all of my life.

 

And it continues to be intensely

the case during this decade,

and on a much more accelerated

platform.

 

I have never upset so many

people without doing a thing!

 

That being said, I have also

been truly upsetting a lot more

people of late because I have

become increasingly more bold

and vocal about the expression

of things that seem obvious

to me and which are the last

thing that people want to hear.

​

Or, simply walking away....

 

C' est la vie, as the French

would say...

 

Soul: I happen to love it. It

is why you came here.

 

You are not angry.

 

You are not mean.

 

And you are not being

arrogant.

 

But people love to tell

themselves stories in order

to justify what they are

doing.

 

Have you ever noticed how 

the deck is always stacked

in their ego's favor?

 

me: Unfortunately, I do.

 

Soul: I clearly see that you

would rather be true to

what the heart knows is true

than worry about political

correctness or hurting

feelings.

 

No more mincing of words

or compromising yourself

to gain acceptance and

improve approval ratings.

 

There will come a time in the

near future when everyone

will live this way and it will

not take a 2 x 4 to get their

attention.

​

Nor will anyone have to

engage in deep ego

massage in order to make

a point.

 

me: Thank God.

 

Soul: Thank yourself and

you're welcome.

 

I just want you to be keenly

aware that this is what the

world will be experiencing for

what remains of this decade.

 

As part of the Celestial Speedup,

this is a time of cleansing on

a global level.

 

Every part of you, every part

of the human race, every life

experience and every situation

must now be completely

returned to ONENESS

through integration.

 

Humanity must learn to lean

into and embrace their dis-

appointments, the things they

do not like about themselves,

what they do not like about

others and this world, as well

as the things they engage in

in order to not sit with and

feel what they would like to

pretend is not happening,

rather than become one

with completely.

 

me: You know, I had this

conversation again with

someone who uses cleaning

and purging their home

when going through some-

thing that is profoundly

painful and disturbing

for them.

 

Their argument with me

was that they were not

avoiding anything, that

they were very much feeling

everything as they purged.

 

But they still don't get it.

 

Embodiment and actualization,

which they claim to want with

all their heart and have been 

chasing all their life, is not

a byproduct of doing, it is

a byproduct of being.

 

And there is no such thing

as doing and being

simultaneously..

 

One is an extroverting of

the senses while the other

is deeply introverting them.

 

It is not a matter of feeling

a lot about me having _________

experience and how it will

affect those I care for.

 

And yes, I know that is none

of my business.

 

It is their soul's journey, not

mine.

 

The journey has always

been about me being willing

to sit in the experience

of being me and supporting

myself through ________

experience, whatever that

happens to be.

 

There is a universe of dif-

ference between purging

and feeling and experiencing

and crying and remembering

as you go along at mach 12

with your hair on fire, and that

of actually sitting still and

mindfully allowing your ex-

perience to wash over and

through you, with the intention

of actually feeling all of it

merge with you until it becomes

fully integrated and you feel

you are unquestionably

complete with it.

​

Soul: Human beings have

been running away from

themselves since there

were human beings.

 

Me: I just don't get it.

 

I know this person.

 

I KNOW them...

 

I have been holding them

so closely and lovingly

in my heart for many years

now.

 

And I know they would move

heaven and earth to be there

for anyone on this planet,

regardless of what they said

or did.

 

Why are they always so

bloody quick to

abandon themselves?

 

This is heart wrenching to

observe. And there is 

absolutely no talking to them

so from now on, I'm gonna

put a zipper on these lips

no matter how hard it is

for me to do so.

​

I done. My lane. I am gonna

be a fly on the wall that

simply loves and supports

myself as I hurt watching 

those I care about sabotage

themselves.

 

After all, as you have taught

me, everyone is always doing

the only thing they can...for

they are always experiencing

their lives according to the

soul's journey for them.

 

This is an example of me being

willing to embrace another's

stubbornness and willful

need to do it their way and be

right about it.

​

Back to my old mantra of,

"Can I embrace that?"

 

Thank you that I no longer

feel the need to defend and

protect; to lead with my dukes

up all the time...

 

It is so freaking exhausting...

 

I readily admit that it used

to be my M.O. but no

longer...

 

I just don't seem to have

the oomph or the gumption

to play games anymore

that waste time and accom-

nothing with everlasting

value.

 

Being right and knowing

best comes at such a hefty

price and, at least for me,

it never works.

 

This way...yielding to what

is, brings peace.

 

I absolutely love how I just

sort of ease my way into all

of me and life....

 

The good, the bad and the

ugly because it is all good...

 

There is such a gentleness

and a kindness that was

formerly absent in my

approach to myself.

 

I wouldn't want it any other

way.

 

I guess it is all about learning

what it means to truly love

and embrace my experience

of being me.

 

Hair, guts, feathers and all

as Margaret used to say

(Pam's mother).

 

Soul: This is the part that

humans, particularly spiritual

humans do not like.

 

Purification is necessary.

 

It is not that something is

wrong and must be

disposed of, changed or

done away with.

 

It is to say, that all feelings

must be felt and embraced

(as well as all experiences)

so that they may return to

the ONE without a second,

and recognized for what they

are: dream stuff.

 

You cannot ignore the 

parts of your experience 

that you do not like and

tell yourself they are an 

illusion anyway so just

overlook it, because this

is you actively practicing

separation and duality,

as well as you being

spiritually arrogant.

 

Every wave returns to the

Ocean which is it's Source.

 

The wave cannot survive

indefinitely believing that

it is separate and alone.

 

Your mind is so powerful.

 

This cannot be emphasized

too much.

 

If you could see the sum

total of your miscreations,

which are a result of your

dalliances in madness,

you would strive to bring

more loving kindness to

your awareness in the

recognition that you are

always creating.

 

You would be far more

careful and loving about

what you are doing to

yourself and your world.

 

You are so powerful!

 

It is time to own and recog-

nize that.

 

Enter your day today with

the awareness of what a

powerful being you actually

are.

 

me: I will.

 

And I will hang it all in

a contextual frame

which reminds me to

recognize what is

happening in our world

right now so that I can

extend more compassion

to both myself and my

world.

 

For I understand now that

me genuinely being myself

is my contribution to the

world.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Eyes open.

 

Heart tenderized, full

and running over.

 

Arms as wide as the world.

 

As Mis Piggy would say,

"All this is for little ole moi?"

 

I receive everything

in the sacred fire of

this heart of LOVE.

 

Thank you for the gift

that keeps on giving.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: I would like to get the

ball rolling today because

I feel deeply that the events

of yesterday were pivotal

in the storyline of this

particular human being

and her life stream.

 

Soul: By all means.

 

me: Well... I think I should

begin with the beginning.

 

There were several experiences

I would like to talk about. But I

will begin with this one.

 

It had to do with that thing

you called the "piercing the veil."

 

I was lying on my bed and

doing the exercise as pre-

scribed and all of a sudden,

I was aware of this thing

that was sort of round in

shape.

 

It was a membrane or 

bladder of some kind.

 

The actual size of it was

unknown to me.

 

Nor could I actually tell

where it was located.

 

It was simply there.

 

Right in front of me.

 

I did not actually see it.

 

I felt it. And in that felt

sense, there was a kind of

seeing that was more of

an experiencing.

 

The membrane was thick,

kind of rubbery, yet pliable.

 

I could tell it was filled with

liquid of some kind.

 

A needle-like object was

trying to pierce it and

after several stabs or

pokes with no success, I

decided to help it along

by applying pressure as

well.

 

The pressure I applied

was more of a powerful

direct of my will.

​

In other words, it was not

physical at all.

 

Nonetheless, it worked.

 

I felt the membrane pop

and I think I actually heard

the pop as well.

 

Flooding out of it came this

oily, thick, slightly amber

yet clear fluid.

 

That was it.

 

And then I suddenly knew

(and I knew that I knew that

I knew) that there were

4 ways to receive messages.

 

But first, I knew that I must

clearly acknowledge that

the veil has been pierced,

which I did.

 

The four ways are:

 

(1) Seeing

(2) Hearing

(3) Knowing

(4) Feeling.

 

There was also an intuitive

kind of knowing that one

cannot become attached to

how the message is received

or that will stop the process.

 

I knew that many have ex-

perienced this piercing of

the veil, yet because they

could not acknowledge

what had happened and

they were very attached to

how they received what 

they received, when they

would receive it and what

the message would actually

be, the messages stopped.

 

Perhaps over the course of

their entire lifetime they

received a half dozen messages

or less, but it was pretty much

a gift that did not reach fruition.

 

So when I was running an

errand, I heard a message

that sounded like it was

coming from the right side

of the back seat.

 

It was a simple enough mes-

sage. However, when I gave

it to the person for whom it

was intended, she was

thoroughly pissed off at me

and has ghosted me ever

since.

 

And I didn't just call her up

and launch it at her like

a grenade from out of left

field.

 

She actually called me...

and like always, there was

the perfect moment to say

what needed to be shared.

 

This is a person who has

been a big part of my life

almost as long as Pam has

been.

 

But I have felt my life moving

further and further away from

her for some time now.

 

It is clear to me that she has

chosen the path of the dream

for this lifetime and has become

more involved with her family

of origin who are quite cultish,

rather than the path which 

gains you neither friends, pop-

ularity or success as the world

defines it.

 

It is always difficult for me

to exp[erience when

I observe this happening.

 

But I receive comfort when

I remind myself of one of

the first messages that you

ever gave me.

 

You are not responsible for

the message.

 

You are not responsible for

who receives the message.

 

And you are not responsible

for how the message is received.

 

But you are responsible for

delivering it.

 

It has never stopped being

a big big lesson for me.

 

I feel it must be like what

parents feel for their children.

 

It is such a tough thing when

you want more for someone

you love so much than they

want for themselves.

 

Christy reminded me of this

during our chat this morning

which was quite helpful.

 

Yet your message has always

been that we are always on

the soul's journey, that we

cannot mess it up and that

no one is ever lost. It is simply

a matter of not being their

time...

 

Nonetheless, it still is sad

for me and a very painful thing

to watch because you know

how much suffering they

will inevitably experience

as a byproduct of their

decision.

 

Finally, I got to the part

where I was moving through

space at the speed of light

and suddenly I stopped

and it felt like there was

no more me.

 

The shackles of trying to

be a me were rapidly dis-

integrating.

 

Such a brief nanosecond of

an instant...

 

I cannot tell you a thing

about it beyond this point

because there was no more

reporter to experience any-

thing, nor was there one

who could come back

and tell you all about it.

 

(Like you don't already know

all of this because you planned

the day in its entirety for me.)

 

But what I can say about it

is that when I found myself

sitting in my living room

again, there was such an

unqualified sense of peace

and contentment, a certain

satisfaction around the

changes in my relationship

with Pam that I had not felt

in some time.

​

Again, not what I had asked

for, yet so much better and

more fulfilling...

 

All was and is forever 

complete...

 

I am grateful.

 

I suppose this is another

example of what my dad

referred to as diarrhea of

the mouth and constipation

of the brain.

 

Yet all I can say is, I am

not the same.

 

I am not the same.

 

....and thank heaven for

that.

 

Soul: Well...that is quite

a lot that you have shared.

 

Shall we leave it at this

for today?

 

me: I think so. I am still

kind of whirling in a state

of overwhelm and feel

kind of queasy from it all.

 

Soul: Take rest and just

relax. There is nothing to do

and there never has been.

 

You came here to collect

experiences and that is what

you have been doing for 72

years.

 

But know this...

 

The grandest of adventures

has now begun....

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

There is a sense of wonder,

a freefalling.... a gratitude

and excitement filling

my awareness.

 

A delicate newness, yet

ancient and familiar.

 

Thank you seems woefully

inadequate but there

you have it.

 

Thank you for this life.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Yesterday was a pensive

day for me. I felt completely

wrung out, like I had opened

myself to a place of such

utter transparency that I felt

hung over as a result of it.

 

I suppose it is a rare ability,

the willingness to reveal

oneself so nakedly.

 

My dad used to call it,

diarrhea of the mouth

and constipation of the

brain.

 

He felt that I did not use the

common sense God gave me

to keep my pie hole shut

and be normal, like other

people.

 

Soul: It is a beautiful beautiful

thing to no longer live your

life secretly. To be genuine,

transparent and authentic

through and through.

 

And your willingness to share

so openly and honestly

demonstrates to others that

they can do it too, that it is

indeed safe to live a completely

heart centered life, realizing

that vulnerability is your super

power.

 

So thank you.

 

me: It really is nothing special.

I do not know any other way

to be. In fact, it would kill me

to try to keep myself all bottled

up and restrained; like I was

being held captive in a straight

jacket within.

 

Soul: That is what makes you

so unique to this world.

 

It will not always be a rare

trait, but it is for now.

 

This is the new way of

being human

that you came to usher in.

 

People are terrified of authen-

ticity. You are not. Genuine

to the core, like it or not,

that you are...

 

So did you give your relation-

ship with Pam some more

thought yesterday?

 

me: I did.

 

In fact, I thought of

little else. I even dreamed

about her.

 

Soul: So let us begin to open

that door today. Shall we?

 

The psychic you spoke with

shared with you truthfully.

 

That being said, there is

absolutely no reason you

cannot learn to commune

with Pam in a way which you

experience as completely

fulfilling since that is what

you miss most about your

relationship with her.

 

Shall we continue?

 

me: You bet!

 

Soul: Because Pam learned

to go so deeply within the

domain of the Oversoul or

God, which is Infinity, you

have to meet her there in

order to share with her in

the most intimate manner

for which you long so

fervently.

 

Remember this from our

sharing?

 

You cannot bring truth

to illusions or truth is lost.

You must learn to bring

the illusion of yourself to

where she now abides

unceasingly.

 

There you will commune

in union with her in the

Eternal Now which was

and forever is before the

beginning...

 

You need to understand,

however, that to do so will

come at a cost.

​

It is not a cost in the usual

sense. For as it has been

said many times before,

never has no much been

given for so little.

 

That being said, it will be

very difficult to join with her

there and keep returning

to this densely material

plane.

 

It is a back and forth that

few have ever managed

to navigate successfully.

 

So take a few minutes to

think about it.

 

Do you really want to begin

this, for there will be no

going back...

 

If your answer is yes, then

we will begin today.

 

As it is with all things, the

decision is entirely yours

to make and it is one you

make without any

interference.

__________________

 

me: I'm back and I am definitely

in this with you all the way

and excited, regardless the

outcome.

 

Soul: Great.

 

There are three things I want

to cover today...

 

The first is the importance

of beginning with a prayer.

 

This I will leave to you to

compose, recognize that

it is needful that your

prayer contains two very

specific elements to it.

 

First, You must state in

very clear terms what it is

that you want to experience.

 

This is true for any prayer.

 

Your prayer should also

acknowledge that your words

become your experience.

 

Acknowledge that this is

what will be accomplished

this day and has, in truth,

already happened.

 

Secondly, I ask you to practice

being very still three times

today.

 

Most human beings act as

though they have ants in

their pants when asked to be

still.

 

All of a sudden, they are com-

posing grocery and to-do

lists, thinking about what to

prepare for dinner, realize

urgently that they need to

call a friend or colleague,

or simply grab a book, turn

on the TV or whatever else

happens to be their latest

distraction de jour.

 

I am requesting that you

sit down and remain there

for 30 minutes.

 

Do not tell me that you

cannot.

 

You were born for this.

 

Next, begin by watching your

breath, feeling yourself

drifting downward, ever deeper

until you arrive at a very still

and empty place.

 

Nothing is here but utter

silence.

 

And the silence?

 

Why, it is deafening!

 

Rest here for awhile.

 

Feel yourself letting go

so completely that it feels

as though there is nothing

here but awareness itself.

 

Pristine. Immaculate. Stainless.

Utterly and completely undefiled

by sensory input of any kind.

 

Give what you are the opportunity

to find you without interference

of any kind...

 

Feel the presence of something

begin to lock onto you like

a tractor beam...

 

Next, feel yourself moving now

at the speed of light through

space.

 

Try not to resist this.

 

How deeply can you surrender

to your experience?

 

You are the only one who is

challenging yourself.

 

This is not a competition and

there is no score card based on

how well or how poorly

your perform.

​

Every effort is a success.

 

It is time to loosen your grip

upon yourself and your life

and allow the cosmos to take

you to your real HOME.

 

Thirdly, whatever happens

is perfect. Acknowledge the

fact that you have made contact,

you have pierced the veil.

 

How fortunate you are!

 

You are asked to try this process

and recognize that however

it unfolds is the way it is meant

to unfold.

 

There is no right way and there

is no wrong way to accomplish

this.

 

And it is impossible not to

receive as you have asked,

beloved.

 

Be brave! Have faith! Trust

yourself!

 

And be thankful. This is a very

important and sacred time

in your journey without

distance to a goal which you

never left.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

With heartfelt tenderness

and all the sincerity at

my command, I humbly

ask to commune this

day with Pam.

 

Thank you for this

most amazing gift.

 

And so it is, Amen.

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Would you mind terribly if

I picked a subject for today?

 

There is something that has

been pressing on me for over

a year now.

 

Although it will take more

than one day to cover this

subject, I would love to begin

by introducing the essence

of what is weighing so deeply

on my heart today and every

other day for a long time

now.

 

Soul: I think that's great.

It is a lovely idea to let you

choose, as you are most

familiar with the day-today

things which give you pause

or leave you doubting

yourself.

 

If it concerns you, you know

that it is a matter of concern

for others as well.

 

me: Okay then.

 

You know, on January 1, 2026

it will be the 26th anniversary

of us setting aside time each

day to write a TFTD and a

prayer.

 

For me, it has been such a

blessing. And what I have

gained from this adventure

in consciousness has been

and continues to be so

powerful.

 

First of all, there has never

been a moment that I did not

know that the messages were

first and foremost for me.

 

That being said, so many have

contacted me through the years

to say how grateful they are

for them, how they have become

a part of their quiet time each

day, while many have shared

the miracles and shifts which 

they have experienced through

the reading and integrating of

what they pointed to.

 

But for me, it was a vital passage

for legions of reasons.

 

Primarily because it taught me

to discipline myself, to commit

to something daily regardless

of how I happened to feel at the

time, to trust you and to learn

how to plant my ass somewhere

and actually sit there, to wait

in the pause, to allow the

communication to come to me.

 

A bond of intimacy formed

between us that is the most

important connection I have

ever or will ever experience.

 

And no matter what I had going

on in my life, whether I was

in the hospital, wanted a day

off or was on vacation, rain or

shine, I have shown up.

 

Thus, it has been a unparalleled

course in self mastery through

mind training.

 

It has meant the world to me.

 

To know that I was capable

of making a lifetime commitment

to this unfolding love affair

with you.

 

Boy, did I doubt myself in the

beginning. I doubted whether

I could make a daily commit-

ment on this level, I doubted

whether or not I could learn

to hear, I doubted if I had

what it take to go the distance.

 

And I realize that the only

obstacle that I had to over-

come was that of myself.

 

I can actually honestly say

that I trust myself now

more than I ever have.

 

And through this process, you

have shown me that there is

no limit to what we can achieve

in this life other than the

limitations which we place

upon ourselves.

 

All of this is to say that I feel

so much grief and sadness over

the loss of Pam (my BFF of

almost 30 years).

 

What an amazing thing, to talk

with someone or see them every

single day for just under three

decades and then have them

leave this mortal plane.

 

Don't get me wrong.

 

I am sincerely grateful that

she is free of her body.

 

After 24 years of suffering from

Lyme/Parkinson's disease and

seeing her steadfast decline over

those many years, I am grateful

that her pain, struggle and in-

ability to do anything indepen-

dently is finally over.

 

But I miss my friend! I miss her

so much!

 

She was my greatest teacher.

 

I never once heard her complain

about anything.

 

She had a sense of humor that

was so sardonic and a mind

that was quicker than that of

everyone on this planet other

than her son, Aaron.

 

I had never experienced a rela-

tionship like what I found with

her before and I know I never

will again.

 

I feel such immense gratitude

for having been the benefactor

of such an opportunity and I

know I have you to thank for it.

 

I know that it was you who

brought us together.

 

Few ever have the good fortune

to meet someone with whom

they share their heart, their soul,

the things they cherish, their

struggles, the things they doubt

about themselves, the entire

scope of the human journey,

which includes the discovery

of God within and the holding

space for each other through

all of that.

 

In all those years we never had

words about anything.

 

It surely was the journey through

the vast and compelling regios

of the heart...

 

I was talking to another friend

last might and I realized that

through my friendship with

Pam, my ever deepening

relationship with you and

the writing of this dialogue

deserves a new title nor;

that of Becoming Me...

 

Because that is exactly what it

has been... A journey into

the deepest mystery, that of

becoming one with myself.

 

So the thing I struggle most with

is the fact that I do not feel the

richness of my relationship

with Pam now that she is

no longer embodied.

 

About three months after her

death (April 24, 2024), I had

an appointment with a well

known and published psychic.

 

Her waiting list is so long that

the appointment was actually

purchased and paid for more

than a year before Pam actually

died.

 

And I suppose that you could say

that it was sort of a bucket list kind

of thing for me to do...

 

I had never been to a psychic before

and I did not even have a clue

what to asknwhen I made the

appointment.

 

You know, the whole bucket list

thiing....?

 

I had actually forgotten all about

it and was taking a nap when she

called me.

 

So she called and woke me up.

 

And what did I do? I asked her

about Pam.

 

I have always had the good for-

tune of being able to continue

my relationship with both parents

in their present lives even though

they are both long deceased from

the lifetime in which they knew

me as their child.

 

Neither of them know that who

I am was their daughter.

 

They are aware of me when

I visit them.

 

That's for sure.

 

One thinks of me as a guardian

angel who has visited him daily

since their earliest memory,

while the other mistakes me for

Mother Mary, as she always smells

roses when I visit her via the astral

plane.

 

But I cannot really connect with

Pam this way and I wonder why.

 

It is a source of disappointment

and sorrow for me.

 

When I spoke with the psychic,

she said that this was because Pam

and I had achieved a rare state

of union with one another while

she was still living and because

of this, she lives inside of me.

 

In other words, my thoughts are

her thoughts...

 

My feelings are her feelings...

 

And we experience my life in

union with one another.

 

Now it is true that I talk to her

all the time in my mind.

 

Sitting at a traffic light and

waiting for it to turn, standing

in the checkout line at WFM,

you name it.

 

I send her love bombs and tell

her how very much I miss her.

 

I share my whole experience of

being human with her...

 

She is the last thought I have

before I go to sleep, and the first

thought I experience when

I awaken.

 

But I would love toactually hear her,

as I know she cannot help but

hear me because I am yammering

at her all the time.

 

My question is, can we talk about

this?

 

Can we explore it together?

 

Can you give me some direction

on how to deepen my bond

with her now that she is no

longer embodied?

 

Soul: This is a great topic.

 

Everyone has experienced the

loss of someone whom they loved

and miss dearly.

 

Grief is a unique kind of pain

because loss and gratitude are

so uniquely entwined within it.

 

This is actually a good place for

us to stop for today.

 

Reflect in a more sustained way

today on your relationship with

Pam and share what you

experience.

 

In addition, think of any other

questions you would like to ask

related to your ongoing relation-

ship with her.

 

For that relationship does indeed

continue, as LOVE never ends.

 

Know this...

 

You are never alone and she is

never not with you.

 

And this is not a pretty platitude

wrapped in sentiment that I am

offering you.

 

Tomorrow we will discuss the steps

involved in being able to clearly

commune with her in a way in

which you can readily feel her

presence and hear her.

 

It is quite simple, yet it will take

patience, trust and time for

you to cultivate the necessary

skills.

 

This is not because it is in any

way difficult.

 

Rather, it is because you have so

little trust in yourself and you 

struggle finding the patience

necessary to pierce this veil.

 

Did not our communion take

time for us to master?

 

And so, like all things, it will take

you some time.

 

But remember what Philippians

4:13 says?

 

me: You gotta give me a minute

to go look it up.

 

"I can do all things through Christ

whi strengthens me."

 

Soul: Who is the Christ?

 

me: You are, I am. It is the part

of us that is R-E-A-L.

 

Soul: This is where our power

lies. It is the power of God made

manifest.

 

Place your faith here and

you will be flying with Pam in

the between life and death

in no time.

 

me: Wow... There really is no

limit to what we discuss

and explore together, you

and I...

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Blessed be the everlasting

gift of sat chit ananda.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Today I would like to try

something a bit different?

 

Are you game?

 

me: You don't have to ask me

twice!

 

Soul: Great.

 

Close your eyes and begin to

feel yourself floating deeper

and deeper within.

 

Bring your attention to your

breath. Don't try to modify

it in any way. Simply observe

the rise and fall of each

breath cycle.

 

Lightly follow each inhalation

and each exhalation...

 

Slowly, you come to a place

where you feel yourself lightly

making contact with solid

ground again.

 

Before you is a very ornate

table. You notice that the

detail work is nothing short

of astounding as you admire

the craftsmanship.

 

Each scroll and carving speaks

of something timeless and

ancient.

 

You notice that on this table

there is a scroll, a bottle of ink

and a feathered pen.

 

You walk toward the desk so

that you can examine the scroll

and you find that it is actually

a contract.

 

A contract which has been

signed by us. 

 

It details everything you have

experienced in this life, both

inner and outer.

 

Every milestone, every heart

break, when you lost your first

tooth, why, it even has your

first word written on it with

both date, time and what you

said.

 

You begin to sense, deeper than

you ever have, how planned

your life has actually been.

 

You real eyes that you have

never been alone and and every

single moment of what you

think of as your life has mattered...

...and mattered deeply.

 

After reading the contract which

contains every detail of your life

up until this very moment,

your intuitively know that you

are to read beyond NOW.

 

After all, you wants to

spoil a surprise?

 

Rather....you make a point to

carefully read what has been

written in this section which

refers to right now...

 

It says....

 

Having realized that you are

powerless over absolutely

everything and you are done

with hating yourself, this

contract is rendered null and

void.

 

You ask yourself...

 

What lies ahead?

 

Does it matter anymore?

 

Could anything matter to you

besides the opportunity to

challenge yourself in order to

see how can you love yourself

and your life in each instant

even more?

 

You notice that there is a place

where you are to sign.

 

You pick up the pen, and without

a second thought, gratefully and

lovingly, you sign your name

on the line provided.

​

And in that instant you real eyes

that we are signing this amended

contract together, for we are one

and have always been one.

 

As you set the pen back on the

table next to the bottle of ink,

you hear the following words

being sung by choirs of angels

in your honor:

 

Welcome home, beloved child,

welcome home.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Thank you that I am finally

capable of living from

my heart.

​

My relationship with myself

has been restored in my

awareness.

​

Never actually lost, yet never

available to me when I did

not love myself.

​

Because of this, LOVE fills

all the moments of my days.

​

Thank you for the GIFT.

​

Help me make the most

of the magnificent treasure

I've been given.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: I want to share something

very near and dear to my heart

with you today..

 

me: I am ready...

 

I find our communing

each day to be highly

transformative.

 

It has not changed who I am.

 

Nor has it stopped any of the

crappola that has been

happening here at

the duplex or in my life

from happening.

 

What it has done is helped me

wear my life like a loose garment

and be so loving and supportive

of myself in the process of what is.

 

There is definitely a different way

in which I talk to myself as well

as be with me.

 

Soul: I am deLIGHTed our

sharing has had this effect.

 

I know that your relationship

with your family of origin has

been a source of constant

consternation and suffering

for you and that if has left

you broken hearted,

confused and disappointed

much of your life...

 

You wanted so deeply for them

to love you, and to want to

actively and consistently

have you in their lives, when

the truth of the matter was

that they would rather you

leave them alone to live

their lives without your

presence in it.

 

They did not then, nor do

they now respect the journey

you have chosen and they

would rather not have you

in their lives.

​

Before, these words could not

have been expressed to you

directly.

​

You would have taken them

as unnecessarily harsh and

strident.

​

But you know that all statements

are neutral and have no meaning

other than the meaning you

have given them.

​

Thus, you are capable of hearing

a thing without creating suffering

for yourself as a result.

 

It is a beautiful thing to have

accepted this at long last.

 

You feel peace around the

statement of this now, whereas

for so long you wept bitterly

and suffered so....

 

You tried to change your

relationship with your family

every way that you knew

how.

 

But finally, you accepted the

fact that you were 100% powerless

when it came to being able to

not only not be able to change this,

but that you are completely unable

to change anything that happens

in this life.

​

Destiny is destiny after all--- a

contract written by and signed

by none other than you.

 

What is, is what is supposed

to be. A difficult thing for any

human being to face and

embrace.

 

Your family had more difficulty

relating to you as a human

being than you ever did

with them, my dear..

 

So you made the most difficult

decision any human being

can make in any lifetime:

 

To end all contact with any

member of your family of

origin for the remainder of

this life at the beginning of

the pandemic.

 

Although difficult and gut

wrenching to make at that time,

each of you are all doing so much

better because of this severed

contact.

 

me: You know, it's crazy.

 

You are raised to honor that

connection, to foster it and

them above all else, to protect

it and to be there for each

other no matter what.

 

I tried.

 

I sincerely tried.

 

But I found that I was actually

holding myself back spiritually

by trying to be there for them.

 

And I was left shocked and hurt

each time they disappointed

me by taking advantage of me

and then ghosting me once

again.

 

Soul: Can you realize that they

were and are on the soul's

journey and this was precisely

what needed to unfold in all of

your lives?

 

me: I think I finally have.

 

With your love and guidance,

I can and do accept this.

 

And my human experience has

been all the better because of it.

 

Instead of always being focused

on them, my attention is on myself

and my own life now.

 

I know that fulfilling my purpose

is the best way for me to be of

service to them and my world.

 

Soul: I know that you longed for

a loving relationship with each

of them.

 

But that was not your destiny

in this life.

 

And remember, destiny is

something we work out

together before your

incarnation based on how

to best help you fulfill certain

wisdom goals you have set

for yourself.

 

Please understand that on

the only level that counts,

you have always had this

with each of them.

 

However, none of them was

committed enough to try to

have this with you while em-

bodied in this lifetime.

​

How could they when they

do not love and respect

themselves?

 

But would you like to know

what the most beautiful thing

of all is?

 

As you have used this decade to

free yourself of all of your old

programming and conditioning,

you have become lighter

and lighter.

 

And this is a double entendre...

 

For you have felt a great density

leave you as ancient shackles

have been laid aside because

they no longer fit who or how

you wish to feel or live your

life.

 

And...you have seen more light

around yourself and your world

than you ever have before be-

cause you are experiencing

freedom in so many new

and beautiful ways...

 

But the most amazing thing

of all is that as you have watched

yourself and your world grow

lighter and lighter, your lineage

has become lighter too.

 

Each member of your family of

origin has been finding their own

way as well.

 

Your lineage has become lighter

and brighter as you have released

conditioning and old programming.

​

Generational things have found

their finality.

 

And know this...

 

The human experience is a deeply

personal journey, made by you

and for you.

 

But make no mistake about it,

although your only responsibility

in this life is to fully embody me

and the love that you forever are,

every insight your gain, every

epiphany you realize, and every

moment of clarity you experience,

actually helps everything that is

take a giant step in the direction

of fully embodying the LIGHT

which is...

 

me: I am grateful we had this

discussion.

 

It feels like the final closure

around the whole family thing....

 

Being human has been

and continues to be the most

amazing opportunity.

 

I no longer feel like I am stuck

in a Greek tragedy, but am

pumped about the life which

is mine to experience and live.

 

So thank you.

 

Soul: It is a lovely dance of light...

 

You are very fond of using the

example of the water ballet in the

Olympics..

 

It is beautiful to experience

the dance we create together

as ONE in our journey of love

and light.

 

And I know that your willingness

to step away from your family

and focus solely on growing in

love for yourself will give many

the courage to begin to step

away from the things which do

not serve them as have you.

​

It is all a matter of how you wish

to live.

 

Live a life you adore, beloved, one

which is born of self respect

and love and I promise you that

happiness will follow you every

step of the way.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Thank you for the courage

to no longer doubt and

question myself as I once

did.

 

I love the life we have planned

for ourselves.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: You know, there are only

two ways to live your life:

 

(1) You can either hate what

you are.

(2) Or you can love what you are.

 

Every single thing that you

think, say or do reflects

the decision you have made.

 

And each will create the ex-

perience of either hell or

heaven on earth as a result

of that decision...

 

But make no mistake about it,

your experience of life will

invariably be a reflection of the

decision which only you can

make.

 

This planet is plagued by

a state of mass hypnosis

born of their programming

and  conditioning into a

belief system which eats 

away at them like an ear

worm, ever reminding

them of their brokenness

and imperfection and that

of the world's.

 

It's like an itch you cannot

scratch, though many times

more  frightening and painful

to experience, especially 

on a daily basis.

 

The two mottos of every human

being?

 

(1) Having less but wanting more

while being willing to go to any

lengths to try to get it.

(2) Seek but do not find.

 

me: That makes for. a whole lot

of chasing our tailsl and being

terribly unhappy and unsatisfied...

 

Soul: This will always be the case

so long as the average human

being is perfectly comfortable

playing the role of what you

refer to as a sheeple.

 

But beloved, you were born a

self-sovereign and autonomous

human being and designed to

live your loves that way...

 

When did you decide to stop

thinking and feeling for yourself,

choosing rather, the life of a drone

which is stuck in autopilot?

 

me: You know... I do not feel I

ever experienced any difficulty

being and living as the truth of

who I am.

 

I have some of the most ex-

quisitely loving memeories of

myself when my sister, Mary,

was born and before we knew

that she was sick.

 

Other memories....

 

Standing next to an unhappy

adult and simply putting a 

hand on their shoulder as 

they shared and watching them

become calm and peaceful...

where they could see the 

next steps to take.

 

What I had trouble with was

being a human being and

loving my humanity as it is,

especially when it is so unlike

what others seem to want

for themselves.

 

I loathed my haumnity and

I treated this body with

anything but kindness

and respect.

 

I got stuck in a negative

and painful feedback loop

of trying to fit in, to want 

what the majority believes

will make them happy and

be like them when that was

highly unnatural to me.

 

I did not want any of the things

the average human being wants, 

yet I drove myself nuts trying

to make myself not only want

what other people seem to want,

but to actively try to attain it.

 

Let me explain how it all felt...

 

Several times in this life I have

got both feet caught in the same

pant leg while trying to get

dressed in a hurry.

 

I would bob and careen around

the room like I was on a pogo

stick about to tip over and fall.

 

That was what the human

experience was like for me for

most of my life.

 

But little by little, because of

my deepening relationship with

you, which i know means my

growing relationship with myself,

I have accepted who I am and

how I am and learned to trea-

sure all the many facets of being

me.

 

I think it is a very difficult lesson

for every human being to place

more value on what they feel for

themselves that what others do.

 

But one day, for whatever reason,

and I know that had everything

to do with you, I decided that I was

going to start being accountable

and responsible for my own

self-hatred.

 

There is nothing, absolutely

nothing, that is more important

to me than my loving myself

no matter how I show up and

no matter what anyone else

thinks, says about or to me,

or what they happen to do

to me.   

 

I no longer take their actions

personally. 

 

This applies to the things that

I formerly did not like or ap-

preciate about myself and

especially the things I would be

embarrassed by or felt guilt

or shame for.

 

And this has made all

the difference.

 

I decided that being who I am

and how I am was never going

to be an issue for me ever again.

 

Now I am not saying that it isn't

an issue to others, that happens

on a daily basis. But I always feel

the same thing about that when

it happens:

 

That's their issue, not mine.

 

And I refuse to give it any further

thought.

 

Me being fully and authentically

myself is genuinely the most

sacred thing on this earth to me.

 

Soul: That is definitely music to my

ears.

 

Because here is the deal...

 

100% of human life can be summed

up in these two statements:

 

A humanity which is informed by

self-hatred is destined to destroy

themselves, each other and this

planet.

 

A humanity which is informed by

self-love is destined to not only

evolve into all that they can

possibly be, they will experience

a global ascension during the

course of their lifetime.

 

It is time for each of you to

unplug from every place within

you where self-hatred has

taken up residence within you..

 

And there is a great deal of

urgency to this request.

 

Why?

 

Because in the height of

your insanity, you have sought

your own annihilation, the

annhilation of others, and the

dvery destruction of your planet.

 

Let's turn that boat around,

shall me?

 

me: Yes!

 

Wow! I love our sharing!

 

Soul: Do you know what the

greatest thing about being

a human being actually is?

 

me: I'd like to take a stab it it...

 

The greatest thing about being

a human being is experiencing

and embodying the LOVE that

II am and being able to liviw

my life, fully and completely,

as that unlimited potential.

 

As I put words around that

experience, I feel so full and

expansive and am overflowing

with effulgent joy....

 

How can I not feel immense

gratitude for all of this?

 

Soul: May this be the direct

realization of every living being,

​for indeed, it is your birthright,

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Only Love.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Ready for a simple way

to build on yesterday's

contemplative reflection and

prayer?

 

me: Of course.

 

If Infinity is without edges or depth,

and Infinity is what we are, who

wouldn't want to challenge them-

selves by seeing how deeply they

can take this realization during

the course of their human life?

 

Soul: All I ask is that you

memorize one simple

sentence.

 

Next, repeat it silently

before every response or

reaction.

 

It does not matter whether

we are talking about how you

relate to your own self, that

of another or to any particular

situation or life experience.

 

Then allow your response

to flow from that the depths

of this awareness.

 

me: And the sentence is?

 

Soul:

 

I fully express the LOVE

that I am with myself.

​

I fully express the LOVE that

I am with this/these person/

people.

 

I fully express the LOVE that

I am with my world.

 

This is how you lead by ex-

ample.

 

You are actually ushering

either yourself or your world

into the remembrance of

the LOVE that you/they

forever are.

 

me: I love it.

 

Every day I am struck by

just how simple the truth

actually is.

 

Soul: Relax into this space

until this way of being no

longer requires you to create

a pause and remember

anything.

​

You are the complete and

total embodiment of this

truth.

 

It has become as natural

and effortless to you

as breathing.

​

You know of no other way of

being; genuine, authentic

and a treasure to all.

 

You exude a love and a presence

which is undeniable by anyone;

regardless of how out of touch

with their heart's they may seem.

 

May your day reflect the

dazzling brilliance and beauty

which I witness in you in

every single instant of the

living now.

​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

 

Guide my unfolding as I

evolve into nothing

short of absolutely every-

thing I can possibly be

in this life.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: Would you like to share

the reflections of prayer that

you were using like a mantra

this morning?

 

It really was quite beautiful

and it reflected a state of

clear seeing.

 

me: I would love to share it

 

Close your eyes and bring your

awareness to your breath...

 

Do not try to control the breath,

simply observe it with quietness

and calm...

 

Observe the inhalation and

each exhalation.

 

Feel yourself sinking deeper

and deeper and deeper still...

 

...as if you are repelling down

the side of a mountain.

 

Notice tiny little infinity signs

composed of golden light

beginning to appear in each

and every cell of the body...

​

The human body contains over

200 trillion cells....

 

If you cannot actually see them,

sense that they are there....

​

This will not matter...

​

Why?

​

Every thought creates a 

universe...

​

Your mind is the projector

of your experience.

​

Projection makes perception...

 

In the silence and the stillness

that you find within, calmly

and quietly, peacefully and

lovingly repeat the following

within the tabernacle of your

heart...

 

This body....

 

This mind...

 

These thoughts...

 

These feelings...

 

These sensations...

 

This experience...

 

This life situation...

 

Each is just another avenue

through which I get to share

the love I forever am.

 

Amen

​

Now you have prepared your-

self to begin your day...

​

***

 

Soul: What could ever be shared

that could add to or top that?

 

me: Absolutely nothing.

 

Soul: Tomorrow then?

 

me: It's a date.

 

Soul: May these loving thoughts

walk in the space before you

today, ever informing your

way of being as you navigate

your world.

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

me: Before you even get a

chance to ask me, I would

love to tell you about my

day yesterday and what I

noticed.

 

Soul: Great!

 

me: It was amazing...

 

I really saw how much judge-

ment plays a part of nearly

every single human experience.

 

And it doesn't seem to matter

one iota whether the experience

is inner or outer, mine or some-

one else's... Its a plague among

human beings and a destroyer

of peace and happiness.

 

The mind is so quick to be

critical and unkind.

 

But more than this, I began

to see how being in survival

states of consciousness attracts

experiences that you have to

try to survive, or others have to

try to survive, beliefs in lack,

loss and scarcity.

 

It was truly eye opening.

 

And it prompted a deeper

state of presence so that I

could see what I was up to

while it was actually hap-

pening.

 

Soul: I hope you continue

noticing this. It is vital to

your survival as a species.

 

It is not to make anything

you do or anyone else does

wrong.

 

It is a simple reminder of how

you create your own misery

and suffering.

 

No one actually enjoys suffering.

 

They may believe they deserve

it, but that is.a faulty piece

of old programming taught

to them by people who be-

lieved they deserved to be

punished too.

 

Yet you are always the only

one that is doing it to yourself.

 

me: I get it. By rejecting myself,

my experience, others or their

behaviors and experiences, I

create the illusion of separation,

paranoia, anger and loss.

 

It's like we have all been program-

med to see wrong and believe

that we need to change in order

to deserve anything good.

 

Soul: Are you ready to go

further with this today?

 

me: Let's go for it.

 

Soul: Since the beginning of

the year, you have lost over

50 pounds.

 

And you have been telling me

about your struggle with body

dysmorphia.

 

You feel gargantuan when

in truth, your body is smaller

than it has been in many

years.

 

Today I would like to talk

to you about something

every human being on

this planet suffers from:

 

human dysmorphia

 

You each suffer so pro-

foundly, rejecting so much

of your human experience,

as if you have an allergy

to being human.

 

And I would like you to look

at how much this has been

a part of your programming

and conditioning your

entire life.

 

Family, education, religion,

media, both social and

otherwise, advertising,

politics, you name it.

 

It screeches at you from

everywhere.

 

But can you not see that

this is the source of all

addiction, suicide, violence,

hatred, aggression, fear

and anger?

 

Where the gift of being

human should be a source

of celebration, it has turned

into an experience you dread

more often that not, a life

which is rife with struggle,

hardship, discord and chaos.

 

This has led to a dog-eat-dog

world.

 

Now many of your friends

will try to tell you that

they do not hate themselves.

 

But this is a lie they tell

themselves because they

want to believe they are

better than that.

 

But here is the naked truth:

 

If you use the faculty

of judgement at all, it is

because you are still

holding onto the seeds

of self-hatred within you.

 

I can assure you that if

you truly and deeply loved

all of yourself, as you are,

you would love, accept

and embrace everyone

exactly as they are too,

having no desire to try

to change anyone or

anything.

 

me: I had a very powerful

experience yesterday that

I would like to talk about

for the sake of honesty and

for anyone who happens to

read this every day.

 

I noticed a spontaneous

thought and genuine feeling

of love and tenderness

arise and jump to respond

instantly from within.

 

It did not feel at all like me,

yet in another way, if felt

more genuine and authentic

to me than anything I have

ever felt before.

 

Soul: Why don't you share

what happened. This is

very important.

 

me: Someone started acting

out in Walmart, throwing a fit,

upset, taking it out on the

checker who looked like a deer

caught in headlights.

 

I felt something leap out of me

toward this unhappy customer

and I could actullay feel how

deeply he deserved to be

treated with love, acceptance,

understanding,respect, kindness,

and non- judgement.

 

And I noticed how everyone was

rallying around the check out

woman and saying the guy

was a jerk, an asshole and other

such unpleasantries.

 

And I know the former me

would have been right there

with them, adding my two

cents to the character

assassination and name

calling that was going on

not so long ago.

 

And something inside of me

said, I would genuinely and

happily fight for anyone's right

to be treated lovingly regardless

of what they believed, how they

behaved or what they did.

 

Pro life, pro choice, pro-

anything... Democrat,

Republican, anti-

anything...

 

It just didn't matter

to me anymore.

 

And not because I am so un-

plugged from life that I am

clueless about the state of

things.

 

But because I wholeheartedly

felt none of this mattered and

the only thing that does matter

is my right to be and express

all that I am in every moment,

which is love.

 

I felt absolutely no more charge

around anything whatsoever.

 

I even tried to think of a few things

that used to get my goat to see if

they still did.

 

Nope. No charge.

 

No opinions, no preferences, all

are truly equally loving, deserving

of kindness and respect, even if

they think they feel none of those

sentiments toward me.

 

I know that when we do not love

ourselves, we have a huge tendency

to be critical, blame and judge

others.

 

And what could possibly be

the antidote for anywhere

love seems to be lacking

but more love!

 

That is an amazing shift.

 

No pony in any race, no skin in

any game.

 

Talk about a game changer!

 

Soul: This is what it means

to be the light of the world.

 

You do not have to say

a thing.

 

Your very presence is the

answer to every heart's cry...

 

me: So while almost everyone

I know is worried about our

world right now, I feel more

hope for our future and more

peace and happiness than

I ever have.

 

We truly are wonderful.

 

And I know what you are

going to suggest.

 

Let's live from who we are

today, rather than from

who we are not, because

this being human thing

is the best!

​

Recognize the threads of

old programming trying

to take you down a path

of suffering and survival

and actively dismiss it for

what it is.

 

Soul: Amen to that.

 

Today we celebrate the

magnificence of the

human experience.

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

​

Joy. Peace. Happiness.

Love and respect.

 

May these prevail on earth.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: A lot of your brothers

and sisters are getting all

bogged down by what is

happening in your world

right now.

 

Can we address that today?

 

me: Of course. I've got my

listening ears on.

 

Soul: Can you repeat silently

after me each of the following

statements?

 

Being me is not an issue.

 

Donald Trump being Donald

Trump is not an issue.

 

Millions of folks losing their

SNAP benefits is not an issue.

 

The world being as it is is not

an issue.

 

All the stuff going wrong with

my home is not an issue.

 

Being unemployed is not an

issue.

 

My boss being like he /she is

is not an issue.

 

My life being as it is is not an

issue.

 

My children being as they are

is not an issue.

 

My partner being as he or she

is is not an issue.

 

I would like you to incorporate

this idea into all your experiences

today.

 

Whatever the experience, whether

it meets your approval or not, this

is your one response to everything,

 

We will keep the message limited

to this for today because you and

your fellow human beings have

become most famous for making

mountains out of mole hills.

​

You love being right far more than

you love yourself.

 

Today, you learn to give your poor

amygdala and adrenals a break.

 

You know and I know that you know

that you are not here to fix yourself,

the dream or anyone else

for that matter.

 

Let me ask you three questions.

 

You can ponder them today

all that you like.

 

If you could make yourself and

your dream perfect, to your

estimation, would that not mean

that your creation of both yourself

and your world was your own

doing?

 

Are you not always on the soul's

perfect journey?

 

Where does trust enter into your

experience of what is?

​​

***

 

Prayer for the Day

​

May I find my refuge in

True North today, ever

abiding as the immovable

and unchangeable in the

ever changing sea of life.

 

Amen

​

***

Thought for the Day

​

The uncommon dialogue

continues...

 

Soul: How do you feel

the day went for you

yesterday?

 

me: I felt like I was on

mind altering drugs the

whole day.

 

I was really out of it all

day long.

 

Thank you for asking,

but you know perfectly

well how my day went,

so why do you ask me?

 

Soul: Did it ever occur to

you that I might enjoy

hearing you share your

heart with me as you

give voice to your

experience?

 

It also forces you to

consciously acknow-

ledge your day which

was a gift.

 

You so rarely allow the

contents of your experi-

ence to even register

with you.

 

me: I will be more

cognizant of that in the

future.

 

Like I shared, it was a

strange day. I felt mild

nausea, dizziness and

I saw a lot more light

than I usually do.

 

There was light pouring

out of everything.

 

I didn't trust the body

because it felt like I was

hydroplaning all day.

 

Soul: What do you mean

by that?

 

me: It felt like I was

floating an inch or two

above the ground rather

than making solid contact

with it.

 

It was like trying to stay

vertical on a surfboard while

trying to ride the waves

of life.

 

Soul: Why didn't you ask

for help?

 

me: It just didn't occur to

me.

 

Soul: I know that you grew

up hearing the message,

"God helps those who help

themselves."

 

But the truth is, "God helps

those who ask for help."

 

If you want to act like you

are a Lone Ranger, however,

I will be supportive of that

too.

 

You have opened your eyes

and your heart so much

in the last 30 or so days.

 

You are loving yourself

so tenderly, especially the

parts of you for which

you used to feel so much

guilt and shame, and you

usually cringed every 

time it returned to con-

scious awareness.

 

It can take the body

a minute to catch up with

all of that expansion.

 

Light is returning, in your

awareness, to parts of you

that have been estranged

for so long.

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And that estrangement is

something you have done

to yourself.

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No one else did it to you.

 

I am not saying that you

are changing your energy,

for energy is energy.

 

This is what the more famous

voices in the spiritual

marketplace have taught.

 

You are simply opening up

to what has always been

there with more softness

than you ever have; in other

words, without resistance.

 

Because of this, you are

experiencing the body

rapidly letting go of old

things it no longer needs.

 

This is because you are

no longer living your life

from the bottom three

chakras, all of which is

survival based living...

occurring from the

outside in.

 

That was and is a very

primitive fear-based

experience.

 

You have entered into

the domain of the sacred

heart.

 

This is a period of un-

paralleled expansion

which is happening

under conditions of

both high pressure and

terminal velocity.

 

You will feel better

tomorrow.

 

Hang in there.

 

And remember to be

grateful.

 

Many who have meditated

for decades and have been

quite earnest about their

practices have not had the

opportunity to experience

what you are witnessing

unfold within you.

 

You might consider re-

framing your narrative

a bit.

 

The experience would go

smoother for you if

you did.

 

It is the same experience,

however you are meeting

it with trust and an open

heart, rather than trying

to push it away or think

something is wrong.

 

Nor are you wallowing in

self-pity or trying to

control what is hap-

pening to either your-

self or others.

 

You now undersand that

life will always give

you instant feedback by

mirroring back to you

what you are doing to

yourself.

 

This is not so much a case

of asking yourself, "How am

I being this way toward

myself?"

 

For that is the ole meaning-

making-machine of the

personal self or ego using

endless distractions in an

effort to get you bogged

down or even lost in the

details.

​

Why do the details of dream

content matter when none

of it really happened in

the first place?

 

That is all about you living

your life in perpetual survival

mode, which will always

bring you more and more

survival based experiences.

 

You see?

 

Like attracts like.

 

Wouldn't you rather be so

kind, gracious and loving

with yourself, that the

universe cannot help but

open its storehouse to you,

showering you with so many

blessings that your cup is

constantly running over?

 

When there are no more

edges nor depth to your

loving of yourself, there

will be no more edges

or depth to your receiving.

 

And that receiving includes

everything that has always

been yours and meant

for you.

 

Never forget that.

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Prayer for the Day

​

 

This little heart of mine,

I'm gonna let it shine.

 

Let it shine.

 

Let it shine.

 

All the time.

 

Amen

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